Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ The Silver Rose ❯ Realization ( Chapter 7 )

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Chapter Seven: Realization

The teacher drawled on an on about the Art of War and the Chinese strategies on warfare but all Usagi could think about was a certain dark haired man that had a heart of stone. Her Mamoru, a name she had been trying to forget for a month. She hadn't seen him since she gave her virginity to him like some cheap harlot. She was true to her word though, for she hasn't set foot in his establishment since. She had even moved out of her cousins' apartment, telling them that she wanted to live on campus for the first semester. Really she just didn't want to be reminded of him, of the club, of none of it. Her cousins still didn't know how far she had went with Mamoru but they did know that she didn't want to see him again, they excepted the excuse she gave them, that she disliked him because he had come on to her, vulgarly. It had taken a lot of convincing to prevent Rei from going down to the club and pounding on him. Her and Mina had talked her out of it though, and Usagi still didn't think that Minako completely bought her story. So Usagi had moved on campus when school started, hopefully leaving behind the Silver Rose, and Mamoru forever. She kept in contact with her cousins and frequently went to visit them or they her, but they never mentioned the night of the party or the club and for that she was grateful.

"Mrs. Tsukino, what do you think"? The teacher asked impatiently.

Usagi sat in her desk still caught up in her thoughts, so caught up that she did not hear the teacher call her name.

Ami, her roommate, kicked the back of her chair, finally bringing her from her reverie.

"Mrs. Tsukino"? The teacher asked again this time becoming irritated from the girl's obvious lack of attention.

"Yes, Haruna-sensei". Usagi said embarrassed. She cast a grateful look behind her to Ami. She was lucky her friend sat behind her that day.

"Would you like to join the class"? Mrs. Haruna asked a smirk hiding her irritation.

"Sorry, Haruna-sensei" She said trying to sink down in her chair. Soon the class dismissed.

"Usagi, girl you really need to start paying more attention. I thought Haruna-sensei was going to throw a gasket". Makoto said as her, Usagi, and Ami exited the classroom.

"Yeah, Usa, she must have called your name three times." Ami said giggling.

Makoto, Usagi, and Ami had become fast friends. Both Ami and Usagi was freshmen, Makoto was a sophomore. While Ami and Usagi roomed together in the freshmen dorms, Makoto lived with her husband, Neph, and their two-year old daughter, Yume, in an apartment near campus.

Ami's fiancé, Zack, lived in the male dorms across campus.

Usagi couldn't help but envy what her two new friends had with their loves. Zack was a sweety and loved Ami very much. Neph graduated last year and opened a restaurant named after his wife and daughter, Sincerity's Dream, was one of the most prestigious new restaurants in Tokyo.

"There she goes again, Ami, off in lala land". Makoto said pointing at Usagi. She had just asked Usagi a question but her friend seemed distracted.

"Sorry, Mako, what did you say"?

"There's a party over in Sander's Hall. Are you going? Ami already said that she and Zack are down". Makoto repeated.

Usagi turned to her friend, her face in forged surprised.

"You mean to tell me that Nephy is letting you out to party. Oh my"?

"Funny, rabbit. He's coming too of course. We haven't been out since Yume was one. I'm taking her over to my sister's and we are going to have a kid free night". Makoto said smiling at the thought of a free night without her daughter. She loved her daughter dearly but her and Neph really needed a minute without her to do adult stuff. She knew, however, that she would end up calling her sister throughout the night checking on her little Dream.

"I'll be the only one without a date". Usagi said whining.

"You have Neph and Ami has Zack, you guys will leave me sitting alone while you dance and have fun."

"My brother is in town, he can take you". Ami said.

Seems as though they've thought this out. Usagi thought glancing wearily at her friends. She knew their intentions were good. She had been somewhat depressed since she fled from Mamoru. Her friends, even though they didn't know her then, could sense that the melancholy girl they had gotten used to was not Usagi's true self. They only wanted her to get out and have fun, and hopefully she would come out of her slump.

"It's settled then. Usagi you have to come". Makoto said.

Usagi thought for a moment remembering what happened at the last party she went to.

That part of my life is over now. It's time to move on.

"Ok. I'll go. This brother of yours had better be cute, Ames". Usagi said giggling along with her friends.

Mamoru sat behind his large mahogany desk in a rather foul mood. It had been a month since Usako ran from him, ran out of his life. He had no idea where she was, and he had looked, Kami how he had looked for her. He still looked for her, even now. It was ironic, after all the broken hearts and empty promises he had given to women that was momentarily in his life, one of his games had driven away the one woman that he could love, that he did love. It had taken him a while to adjust to the fact that he was in love with Usako, his rabbit, but now that he had accepted this great realization, he didn't know what to do. He had planned on seducing her; he had never planned on being seduced himself.

"Hey bro". Mal said walking into his office. He was meet with an unfriendly scowl. Mal just shrugged it off. He was used to his brother's mood swings especially now.

"What do you want, Mal." Mamoru growled out his bad mood apparent.

"Just came to see how you were doing". Mal said sitting in one of the chairs in front of Mamoru's desk.

"Now you see, so leave".

"Bro, you really need to lighten up, you've been down in the dumps since.." He said letting the sentence trail off. He really didn't want to go there with Mamoru at the moment.

"You mean since the party, since that bitch ran out on me". Mamoru said his anger masking his hurt. He flinched inwardly at the word he had used for his Usako. He didn't know why he felt such anger toward the girl at the moment. He couldn't blame anyone for her leaving, no one but himself.

"Don't call her that, Mamoru. If you and Jed hadn't made that stupid plan, she would probably still be here with you. If you would have just told her how you felt from the beginning instead of trying to get in her panties, maybe she would be in your arms right now." Mal said genuine anger flashing in his gray eyes. He couldn't believe how his brother had treated Usagi. She was such a sweet girl, she didn't deserve that and if he had known what his brother and Jed had been planning he would have put a stop to it.

"What do you want from me, Mal? I'm sorry. You have no idea how sorry I am, for how I treated Usako. Don't blame Jed though, I put him up to it." Mamoru said leaning wearily back in his chair.

"So what are you going to do about it, little bro"? Mal asked eyeing Mamoru intensely.

"I don't know." He said lowering his head in his hands.

"I don't know".

Usagi sat down at her desk in her bedroom. She only had two classes today, an 8:00 and a 9:00, and she was through with both. She decided to finish up her homework and take a long nap. Ami had two more classes so she had the room to herself, which was ok with her because she needed some time alone.

She sipped on a strawberry shake for breakfast, which was beginning to make her nauseous.

She quickly ran to the bathroom spilling the contents that were in her stomach into the porcelain toilet.

She flushed when she was finished and washed the sour taste from her mouth.

She began to shake visibly. Her thoughts taking her to a place she didn't want to go.

"Oh, Kami". She said out loud her voice trembling.

'My period, I'm late for my period". She said counting the days back in her mind. She had forgot all about it with moving into the dorms, classes, and meeting new friends. She had forgot all about the fact that she was two weeks late for her menstrual cycle.

Doesn't mean anything.

People are late all the time.

I'm only two weeks late so I can't possibly be…be…

She couldn't even finish the thought. The very aspect of it scared the hell out of her. Then she remembered that Ami had a pregnancy scare last month and had bought two E.P.T tests. She had only used one, which turned out negative. Usagi quickly got the extra one.

I'm not pregnant.

I'm going to take this to be sure though, but I know it'll come up negative, just like Ames did.

She thought and opened the pack.

"Let's see, it says here, a minus means life is fair and just, and a plus means go buy a baby carriage 'cause you pregnant". She read trying to lighten the situation.

She then followed the instructions to the letter and waited for the results, which according to the box, would show in thirty seconds.

Her eyes widened as she stared at the results. A plus stared back at her.

"Shimatta". She whispered.

No, oh kami no.

Sorry so short people.

I used a few Japanese words in this fic, so here are the meanings in case you didn't already know them.

Sensei: Teacher

Yume: Dream

Makoto: Sincerity

Shimatta: Damn or Shit