Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Out of time ❯ Lovers confessions ( Chapter 2 )

 

 

 

Out of Time 2

 

I do not own Saiyuki.

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Sanzo looks up at Kougaiji and reaches out to touch the markings on the side of his face. The prince captures his hand and brings it to his lips, running his tongue between his fingers.

 

Sanzo smiles at him and moans softly under his breath, “Kou, you should go now. The others probably think you are doing unspeakable things to me.”

 

“I am doing unspeakable things to you.” He puts Sanzo's middle finger in his mouth and sucks on it slowly and watches as his eyes roll to the back of his head with the sensations.

 

The monk pulls his finger out of his mouth and replaces it with his tongue. The two vie for dominance, with both winning in the end. Kougaiji slides his hands down his back and massages his hips lovingly. “I want you Sanzo; I think I have always wanted you.” He grinds his growing erection into the blonde haired man as he sucks at his Adam's apple.

 

“You make me crazy with desire for you. All I think about is you. Let me make love to you again and then I will go, I promise.”

 

Sanzo runs his fingers through his hair and kisses him as he whispers against his lips. “How can I refuse when you ask in such a cute voice?”

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Hakkai stands outside Sanzo's room and before he can knock, he hears what sounds like someone in pain. He puts his ear to the door and hears whispering and then a loud moan. He puts his hand to his mouth as he backs away in shock. `Could Gojyo be correct about Sanzo and Kougaiji? Is something really going on between the two of them? From the sounds on the other side of the door they are indeed lovers.' He backs away and turns to go and tell Gojyo what he has discovered.

 

He walks down the corridor, knocks on Gojyo's door, and goes in. He walks over to his bed calling his name softly. However, Gojyo is fast asleep so he decides not to disturb him. He feels his forehead because there are beads of sweat and he might have a fever. He is about to pull the blanket over him when he hears him mumble in his sleep and calls out a name.

 

Hakkai looks at him in surprise and stands still, listening to see if he will continue. Gojyo turns and throws the blanket off him as he sits up in bed and calls out for Sanzo. He looks around the room wildly with unseeing eyes, still lost in his dream. He looks past Hakkai and seems to be staring at the bedroom door.

 

“Wait don't leave, please Sanzo! Don't…not with him! He wants to hurt you, don't go…” he falls back on the bed gasping for breath, settles down after awhile, and falls back in a deep sleep.

 

Hakkai stares at him with his mouth open and in total shock! Gojyo is worried about the monk being with the prince so much he is having nightmares about it?! This is a new development for sure. This night has unleashed some strange truths. He looks back down at Gojyo but he seems to have settled for the night. He takes one of the towels, runs cold water on it, and places it on his forehead after wiping his face.

 

Maybe he should talk to Sanzo and find out what is going on with him and the ikkou prince. This has nothing but disaster written all over it. How could Sanzo allow himself to get so deeply involved with the prince that they have a sexual relationship? Their foolishness can only end in pain for the both of them.

 

Sanzo is jeopardizing the mission with his actions because it will affect all of them in the end. He looks down at Gojyo and thinks about the outburst. He sounded as if he were in pain himself. Could he want the monk too?

 

He cocks his head to the side and remembers when they were in the woods and Gojyo mention the fact something was going on but he pooed, pooed, him. Now he knows, he is the one that was in the wrong. Gojyo is just showing concern for the monk and here he is trying to make a big deal out of nothing.

 

Hakkai is trying to remember when all of this started with the monk and the prince. It couldn't have been going on long because they are not out of each other's eyesight for any length of time. He shakes his head because no matter how hard he tries to think about it, he just doesn't know.

 

“But you knew didn't you Gojyo? You are so in tuned with the monk that you notice every little quirk with him. The slightest thing out of the ordinary for Sanzo and you question it.”

 

He walks over to the door, opens it, and stops as he is about to walk out. He looks down the hall, sees Kougaiji lean into the doorway with his hands on either side, and dips his head before he pulls back with a satisfied smile on his face. He turns in Hakkai's direction and stops at the look on his face.

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While Hakkai is with Gojyo,

 

Sanzo has his legs wrapped around Kougaiji's waist as they both explode with passion. He collapses on top of Sanzo as their bodies' tremble in ecstasy. He looks down at him and kisses him once again. “I can never get enough of you.” He whispers against his lips. “I think I'm in love with you Sanzo, I want you so much.”

 

“Let's not get carried away, we both know this can't last, Kou.” He strokes his lips with one finger, “You did say you were leaving, as I recall.”

 

“Yeah, yeah, I'm going. You know…I can't wait three weeks until we can be together again. When I think about how long I have to wait to hold you…I get irritated.” He kisses the tip of the monk's finger, smiling at him.

 

“Do you have any feelings for me at all, Sanzo?”

 

“Of course I do.”

 

“Then why don't you tell me how you feel about the two of us. I've already told you I'm in love with you.”

 

“If I remember correctly, you said you think.”

 

“Well, now I'm saying, I know.”

 

“Are you saying that to get a rise out of me? We are two men, Kou. How in the hell can we fall in love with each other?”

 

“I love you Sanzo. No matter what you say, you are not changing my mind. I will always love you, even if I never see you again. We being two men have nothing to do with how I feel about you. I have always loved you.”

 

Sanzo chuckles low, “Do you plan on disappearing from my life any time soon? Is that why you are declaring your love?”

 

“No, in fact, if I have my way we would go somewhere together and leave all this behind. I don't care if Gyoumaoh is never resurrected. The only one I care about is my mother coming out of that hideous spell so she can rest in peace. But if I can have you…I care nothing about the rest.” He lowers his head and kisses him on the lips.

 

Sanzo speaks to him softly, “Kou, I have a duty to fulfill and if I don't go on with this mission there will be chaos in the world as we know it. I can't allow my feelings to get in the way of completing it. You do understand…don't you?”

 

Kougaiji sighs and gets off the monk. He sits on the side of the small bed and looks up at the ceiling, “I know what you're saying is true, but…I don't know how I can get through this time without you.” He looks at Sanzo over his shoulder, “You do believe me when I tell you I love you, don't you?”

 

Sanzo sits up and puts his chin on his back and his arms around his waist. “Of course I do. But we both know this can never go anywhere don't we? When this journey is over we both go back to our lives as before.”

 

The prince snorts, “You make it sound so simple, how do you do that? If I never see you again, after this, I'll be devastated. I don't think I can ever go back to the life I had before I met you.” He puts his hand on top of Sanzo's hand, patting it gently.

 

He gets up, puts his clothes on, and turns as he watches Sanzo slip his pants over his slim hips. As he pulls the shirt over his head the prince asks, “Are you going somewhere, perhaps to check on that damn kappa? He hates me you know.”

 

“He doesn't hate you. Gojyo does not hate anybody. He is too capricious to care about anyone but himself. Besides, what do you care how he feels about you. He doesn't make a difference in your life does he?”

 

“He makes a difference because he's in your life and he gets to see you everyday and I don't. The fool had nerve to question me about you, and I didn't like it. He seems to think you belong to him. Gojyo has never tried anything with you has he?”

 

Sanzo shakes his head as he sighs at Kougaiji. “This is the reason I don't like getting involved with anyone.” He walks over to the table and lights a cigarette. He takes a pull and looks over at the prince. “Is this how you want to end our night together, talking about Gojyo?”

 

Kou tightens the belt around his waist holding his sleeveless coat together. He looks at Sanzo with a pout and turns his face away. He slides his fingerless gloves over his hands stretching them over his now shorten nails. Sanzo walks over to him because he hates it when he pouts about not having his way. Kou has a quick temper and he didn't want the others to hear if he starts yelling as before.

 

He puts his hand out, turns Kou's face around to him, and looks in his eyes. “Make no mistake in believing what I am about to tell you. I have never been with anyone but you. I don't want to be with anyone else but you. I hate admitting this but…you are the only one I want.” He leans up bring Kou's head down giving him a soulful kiss. The prince wraps his arms around his waist and pulls him closer to him as he moans into the kiss.

 

The monk pulls back and looks in his face, “Now, don't you have someplace else to be?”

 

The prince drops his arms by his sides and turns towards the door without another word. Sanzo follows behind him and as he opens the door, he walks out, turns quickly, leans in, and kisses him one last time. He smiles at him which Sanzo returns and says goodnight. Sanzo chuckles a he closes the door and Kougaiji turns and sees Hakkai down the hall looking at him with a smug smile on his face.

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Sanzo sighs as he leans against the door. He looks around his room, goes over to his bed, and sits. He wonders if Gojyo has any idea what is going on between him and Kou. The way he left out of his room is cause for him to be suspicious. Maybe he should go and talk to the hanyou and assure him that everything is okay.

 

He gets up, walks to the door, and pulls it open. Before he walks through, he hears voices rose in anger. `Is that Hakkai and Kougaiji? He didn't see him come out of my room did he? Fuck! This is going to be hard to explain and knowing the prince he is not going to be happy with Hakkai asking him questions.'

 

Sanzo stands at the door listening to the two men. He hears Kougaiji tell Hakkai he has nothing to explain to him and he is leaving. Hakkai is standing in front of him blocking his path.

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Kougaiji stops smiling when he sees Hakkai watching him. Damn, now what! Why do I have to run into all these damn guardians? Can't the monk have a life without all this interference?!

 

He takes a deep breath and continues down the hall. The prince cuts his eyes at Hakkai daring him to stop him. However, the healer has something on his mind also.

 

Hakkai watches his face as the play of emotions run across it making his red marking stand out all the more. He folds his arms as he waits for the prince to get closer.

 

As he gets closer to Hakkai, neither one is smiling as they prepare for the confrontation that is sure to come. They look at each other like the adversaries they are. One feels rightful indignation and the other feel malice.

 

Kougaiji stops and sneers at him, “What are you doing, picking up where Gojyo left off? Get out of my way!”

 

“Make me, if you can.” Hakkai looks at him with his eyes in slits.

 

“Do you think you can take me, now? What is with your group? Do all of you think you can protect him from me? I'm not trying to hurt him if that is what you think.”

 

“You think sleeping with Sanzo is not hurting him? Do you know the conflict that can cause him? Sanzo is an innocent to the ways of the flesh, Lord Kougaiji. You have him embarking on a path that will only confuse him when it is over.” Hakkai glares at him as he tries to find his chi center but he isn't having to much luck.

 

Kougaiji looks at him in surprise, “Wh…what makes you think I'm sleeping with the monk? You have no right to jump to a conclusion like that! Seeing me come from his room means nothing, you take too much for granted, Hakkai!” Kougaiji is livid! How did he know what went on behind the closed door of Sanzo's room? Then it dawns on him, Hakkai may have heard the two of them because they did get pretty loud. Still he had to have been listening to hear anything between them.

 

Hakkai watches his face as the emotions races across. He smirks at the prince wishing he could throttle him. He knows Sanzo is not experienced in relationships with others and especially with other men. He feels the prince is taking advantage of him and this is something he is not going to allow.

 

“I went to check on Sanzo because Gojyo was worried about him and he is in no position to get out of bed. When I was about to knock I heard the two of you.” He looks at the embarrassment on Kou's face and chuckles, “Oh, don't worry. I didn't stay once I heard the moans. I left and came back here.”

 

“I suppose you couldn't wait to tell Gojyo of you findings. Did the two of you plot my demise, Hakkai? I already know how he feels about me, so I guess I can add you to the group also. I don't feel I have too explain anything to you or Gojyo since it's not about the Maten Scriptures.”

 

“You don't seem to understand what is going on here. Sanzo and I are…” Sanzo is walking down the hall towards the two and Hakkai turns his head from the prince and looks Sanzo in the eye. Kougaiji turns and looks at him too. He is walking with a strange look on his face that is hard to read.

 

As the monk gets closer he looks at Hakkai and then at Kou. “I thought you were leaving, what are you still doing here?”

 

The prince looks over at Hakkai and cocks his head, “He felt compelled to stop me and ask idiotic questions.” He looks at Sanzo with a smirk on his face and his eyes narrowed, “I'm leaving so why don't you fill him in on what he wants to know. Like you said earlier, I have some place else to be.”

 

He salutes the two men and walks around Hakkai and head for the stairs. Sanzo watches him with a slight frown on his face when he turns and winks at him, making him smile.

 

Hakkai catches the smile on Sanzo's face and looks in Kougaiji's direction and back at the monk. “I see the two of you are indeed close. Do you think it's wise for you to be involved with the prince, Sanzo? The two of you can cause problems for all of us. Have you even thought about that?”

 

Sanzo sighs as he turns from Hakkai. He can't meet his eyes right now, not when he can still feel the touch of the ikkou prince's hands and lips on his body. He leans against the wall next to Gojyo's door and slides down in a sitting position. He puts his head in his hands and groans.

 

Hakkai walks over and squats alongside him. He reaches out to touch him on the shoulder and Sanzo sighs. “What am I doing Hakkai? How could I allow things to get so out of control? Kou and I…Kou and I aren't doing anything wrong and I won't apologize, but I know what you must think of me.”

 

Hakkai takes a seat next to him, “I'm not blaming you Sanzo and I won't ask how this all started but I will say you need to end it. You are a priest and he is the prince of demons. How are the two of you going to be able to be together? Can you imagine explaining something like this to Goku, not to mention Gojyo?” Hakkai leans his head back as he slips his monocle off and closes his eyes.

 

Sanzo cuts his eyes over at him and asks, “You haven't told the others?”

 

“No, I'm still trying to digest this myself. I overheard the two of you and I came away rather quickly. I went in Gojyo's room with every intention of telling him, but he was asleep. I suppose you don't want me to mention it though, am I right?”

 

“If you can keep it to yourself, I would appreciate it. Right now I don't know what I am going to do about this.” He pulls out a cigarette and lights it. As he blows a cloud of smoke, he looks at Hakkai, “Do you think Gojyo really hates, Kougaiji? I mean, that's what he thinks but I told him, I didn't think so.”

 

Hakkai chuckles, “I think Kougaiji has good instincts.”

 

Sanzo looks at him through a haze of smoke, “Why do you say that?”

 

Hakkai turns his head towards him and studies his face, trying to see if Sanzo does not realize how Gojyo feels about the prince being so close to him. “Sanzo I can honestly say he doesn't trust the prince and he will do well to be wary of Gojyo.”

 

“You make it sound as if he does hate him and I don't think that's the case.”

 

“When I left your room and went to Gojyo he was burning up with fever. He started talking in his sleep. It seems he was having a dream about you and he was afraid for you. He thought you were about to be hurt. He was calling for you not to go with him.”

 

“Not to go with who? I don't understand. What are you talking about?”

 

Hakkai sighs, “Apparently, he thought you were about to get hurt by whomever you were with in his dream, or I should say nightmare. He bolted right up in bed looking around blindly and stared at the door as if he could see you.”

 

Sanzo puts his cigarette out, “I still don't understand why he thinks something is going to happen to me. As you can see, I'm fine. I'm better off then he is at the moment. He should save his worry for himself. He always has concerns about others. He knows I don't like that shit! No matter how many times I tell him I can take care of myself, he always tries to protect me.”

 

Hakkai shakes his head, “You still don't understand do you? This is why I don't think you should continue to see the prince. You are just too dense when it comes to others feelings!” He gets up and storms off to his room leaving Sanzo sitting on the floor wondering what his problem is.

 

He stands, brushing off his pants and takes a breath as he opens Gojyo's bedroom door.

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