Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Out of time ❯ Chapter 7

 

 

 

 

 

Out of Time 7

 

 

Sanzo looks over his shoulder at Gojyo and then turns back to the door. He pulls it open and Hakkai smiles at him, “Oh, so you're here. I was wondering if you had made it back in one piece.” He looks over his shoulder at Gojyo and back at the monk, “I'm sorry…did I interrupt something?” He looks down at the sheet Sanzo has hastily wrapped around him with a smirk. He shakes his head and turns to leave, “Sorry…I'll see the two of you in the morning and I hope you know what you're doing.”

 

Sanzo grunts, looks at Gojyo over his shoulder and back at Hakkai, “I know what I'm doing, Hakkai. As I told you before, what I do is none of your business. I haven't changed my mind on that.” He closes the door as the chi-healer, clears the threshold.

 

He leans his forehead against the door and hits it a couple of times before turning towards the room. Gojyo chuckles and tells him, “Don't worry about him. Come back to bed. I'm not done with you yet.”

 

Sanzo looks at him and walks over to the bed. He sits on the opposite one and looks at Gojyo. “I think we're done for the night, Gojyo. I'm going to take a shower, I feel sticky all over.” He gets up heading for the shower and Gojyo yells out, “Want some company? I could wash your back.”

 

The monk waves his hand as he walks to the bathroom closing the door firmly behind him. Gojyo calls out, “You're no fun, you know that!” He gets up from the bed and slides his pants over his hips, lights a cigarette and walks over to the window.

 

He looks down at the bench Sanzo was sitting on earlier and remembers seeing him and the prince talking after he left them. Kougaiji didn't seem to happy after he left the monk and that made him confident to make a move on Sanzo and let the monk know how he feels. Holding Sanzo in his arms and making love to him was the highlight of his life. The only down side to it is, he knows the monk is using him to exorcize the prince from his heart. Gojyo has no illusions about his relationship with the monk but in time, he feels Sanzo will come around to caring as much for him.

 

He opens the window and is about to flick his cigarette out when he sees a shadow by the trees. “What the fuck…what the hell is he still doing here?” He looks over at the bathroom door and back out the window. “Damn, I need to get rid of him and fast!” He looks around for his shirt and grabs it pulling it over his head. He walks over to the bathroom door and peeks his head in, “Sanzo, I'm going to run next door. I'll be right back, so save me some hot water.” The monk grunts and pretty much ignores him. He closes the door and heads for the courtyard.

xoxoxoxox

 

Sanzo hears the door close and turns the water off. Gojyo is right he needs to leave some hot water for him. He must be as sticky as he is. He steps out of the shower and dries off as he thinks about the hanyou. Tonight was wonderful and he has to hand it to Gojyo. His bragging about his conquests has to be true. If he makes women feel the way he feels right now then he is one hell of a lover.

 

He sighs as he rubs his body and stops. The rough texture of the towel brings goose bumps to his sensitive flesh. He wipes the mirror off, looks at his slim body, and sees the marks that Gojyo left. He smiles because the hanyou didn't leave any marks that could not be covered by clothes. `Very thoughtful, Gojyo.' He chuckles under his breath and goes back into the bedroom.

 

He pulls on his pants and sits on the side of the bed drying his hair. As he looks at the door, he thinks about the prince and wonders if he is thinking about him. He pulls the towel from his head and throws it onto the other bed. He stands and pulls one of his cigarettes from his pack. He hates the situation he has gotten himself in but there is nothing to be done about it.

 

He sits back on the bed and closes his eyes, thinking about Kougaiji, and the way he touches him so tenderly and holds him so gently. This is something that two lifetimes of living will never make him forget. His heart feels as if it is being pierced as he puts his hand to his chest. He turns his head to the side and groans. `Why…why did it have to end like this? Why did it have to be this way? I never told you but I do love you Kou, I love you so much, I can never be with you. I know this is for the best but why does it have to hurt this much.'

 

He tilts his head back as a lone tear falls down the side of his face. Had he known that was the last time he would spend with Kou, maybe he would have been kinder. All this is too little to late. Kougaiji is out of his life for good and there is no turning back. He's not some weak willed person that can't hold his head up and tough it out. Gojyo is probably right. He was his first so that's why he's having mixed feelings right now. Gojyo will help him forget. Yeah, Gojyo will be more than willing to help him forget about Kougaiji.

xoxoxoxo

 

The Sanzo party is on the road once again, with Sanzo sitting in the front seat with Hakkai. Goku and Gojyo are in the back complaining as usual. Gojyo looks over at the monk, wondering if he is thinking about the prince again. They haven't seen anyone from his party in weeks and he for one is happy. Although, Sanzo tells him it's over with Kougaiji, sometimes he catches him staring off in space, as if his heart is breaking. When he asks him about it, Sanzo blows him off, tells him he is imagining things and changes the subject.

 

`I have to find a way to break through his defences. When we sleep together, I can tell he is into it but lately I don't know. I've tried everything I know to make him feel love but it doesn't seem to be working. Sanzo, what more can I do, please tell me.'

 

He leans forward and strokes the monk's shoulders. “You seem upset about something, is anything wrong?”

 

Sanzo drops his head forward and sighs, “Nah, I'm fine. This endless sun is burning me up.” He turns to Hakkai, “See if you can find a place to rest. I need to get out of this sun for awhile.”

 

Hakkai nods and looks for a place to pull over. Sometimes they forget Sanzo is the only one that is human among them. Although he does look as if he is being sunburned, he seems pale and listless underneath. He spots a grove of trees and pulls over.

xoxoxoxo

 

Goku is at the stream filling one of the bottles when Hakkai walks up behind him with his bottle and Gojyo's canteen. He squats besides the boy and sighs. Goku looks over at him and asks, “Is something wrong Hakkai?”

 

Hakkai looks down at the water and answers, “You've been with Sanzo the longest, so tell me, does he seems strange to you? I mean he isn't acting like his usual self is he?”

 

Goku stands as he puts the top on the bottle. “Now that you mention it, he is acting a little funny. I think he has a lot of shit on his mind. We have been moving rather slowly lately. What with the demons jumping out at us all the time. You know, with Gojyo getting hurt we had to spend some time for him to heal. But I guess it's alright because they seem to get along better now, right?”

 

Hakkai chuckles, “I guess you're right. He's seems okay when he's with Gojyo but when he thinks no one is looking, his eyes look sad. He looks as if he is going through a crisis right now and he's steeped in despair because of it. Sanzo is forcing himself to maintain his aloofness but he is doing a poor job of it.” He grabs up the two bottles and says with a smile, “Come on we need to get back to the others. I'm sure they must think we have gotten lost.”

xoxoxoxo

 

Sanzo sits under a tree smoking with his head thrown back and eyes closed. Gojyo is sitting with his back to the tree next to the monk. He clears his throat, “Sanzo, is everything okay with you? You seem a bit melancholy.”

 

Sanzo chuckles, “Melancholy” that must be a new word for someone like you to use.”

 

“Someone like me? Well if you must know, I'm not as dumb as I am pretty. Just tell me what's on your mind, okay?”

 

The monk sighs as he flicks his cigarette away. “Are you sure you want to know? I don't think you'll like it, so why don't I just keep it to myself.”

 

Gojyo looks at him and smirks “Are you thinking about him again? That's the only thing I can think of I wouldn't like.”

 

“That's why you shouldn't ask. It has nothing to do with you so I don't want you to think otherwise. It's just that sometimes he comes to mind. I know we could have never been together and it was foolish of us to think what we were doing didn't hurt anyone. I know better now, I should have just left it with that one time and moved on. I'm just weak.”

 

Gojyo crawls in front of him and takes both his hands. “Sanzo, you are by far the strongest person I know. I understand how you could have thought you were falling for him but he knew exactly what he was doing. You were innocent in this, so don't call yourself weak. If you want to be weak then be weak for me, okay?”

 

Sanzo looks up at him and groans, “You can't do better than that? I don't want to be weak for anyone, baka.”

 

He stands and looks down at Gojyo, “I'll be back later; I need to get my head together. Tell the others I won't be gone long.” He turns and Gojyo gets up to stop him, “I'll go with you, okay? I don't want you to run into anything or anyone.”

 

Sanzo looks at him with a puzzled look on his face. “What and who will I run into in these woods? You stay here I won't be long.”

 

“You never know when the prince may pop up.” Gojyo stubs out his cigarette, as he gets ready to follow the monk. Sanzo looks at him with a smirk, “I have told him I didn't want to see him again and so far he has respected my wishes. So don't get bent out of shape. I don't need a damn bodyguard! So quit acting as if I can't take care of myself. You're letting your imagination get the best of you.”

 

Gojyo glares at him, “It wasn't my imagination when he showed up after you told him to stay away.”

 

The monk sighs, “I know but I did tell him to stop coming around because we couldn't see each other, so there is nothing to worry about, Gojyo.”

 

Gojyo smirks, “You really think so. You think just because you tell him you're through that he is going to listen? He came back and I went out to tell him to keep the hell away from you. I thought we were going to go head to head. If I have to go up against him again I'm going to kill him and let the chips fall where they may.”

 

Sanzo is looking at him in surprise. Gojyo has failed to tell him this little titbit of information. Kougaiji had come back to talk to him and Gojyo felt he didn't need to know about it. What did he say to the prince? Did he try to hurt him or tell him about the two of them? Was he hurt more than he already was if he told him? Why did he tell him if not to cause him pain? `Kougaiji, I'm sorry you had to find out like this. I'm so sorry…'

 

He puts his hands down at his sides and tries to control his volatile temper. He takes a deep breath and asks, “Why didn't you tell me this earlier. Why tell me about this now. You would have done better to keep this to yourself.”

 

Before Gojyo can answer, Hakkai and Goku return with the water bottles. Goku walks over to Sanzo and hands one to him, “Here Sanzo, the water is good and cold. I know you must be thirsty.” Sanzo takes the bottle from him and puts it to his lips with a shaky hand. He is upset at Gojyo but he knows he shouldn't be because he did tell the prince to stay away from him. What the hanyou did was to let him know the same thing but for some reason he feels… feels what?

 

Hakkai hands one of the bottles to Gojyo. “After we eat we should pack up and leave.” He looks over at Sanzo, “If that's okay with you Sanzo.”

 

The monk wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, “Fine with me. I'm not hungry and I'm going to clear my head. I'll be back shortly, so be ready when I return.” He tosses his half empty bottle to Goku and heads off into the trees.

 

Hakkai stares after him and looks at Gojyo, “What's wrong with him? He seems upset; did you say something to him?”

 

“What makes you think I did something to him? He's just temperamental you know that. Where's the food? I want some before monkey-boy eats it all.” He grabs one of the bags from Goku's hand as he snatches it back. While the two of them argue over who gets what, Hakkai looks towards the trees hoping the monk is going to be okay.

xoxoxoxoxo

 

Sanzo makes his way through the woods and stops at a tree to light a cigarette. Running through his mind is Gojyo talking to Kou about him, without his permission. Sometimes he gets besides himself when it comes to him. Seeing Kougaiji one last time alone is something he wouldn't have mind. He hates to admit it but he misses the prince more than he should. After all, he broke it off so he shouldn't feel the way he does. He looks up at the sun through the thick forest. The pinnacle of the sun tells him it will be setting soon. He sighs once again and slides down sitting at the base of the largest tree. He throws his cigarette away and gets in the lotus position.

 

As Sanzo closes his eyes to meditate, he hears footsteps. He keeps his eyes closed as he waits. He eases his fingers around his banishing gun and stay put. The footsteps stop a few yards from him so he waits for the next move. He tilts his head and sniffs the air around him because the scent is familiar. He opens his eyes slowly and meets Kougaiji's smile.

 

“I'm surprised you're here alone, Sanzo.” He walks towards him and stops at the tree with his hands behind his back. He looks down at the monk with such an intense look that Sanzo drops his eyes downward.

 

“You can't stand to see me now? Do you really hate me, Sanzo?” Dropping down and kneeling besides him, he puts his hand out and rubs the back of his fingers down his jaw line. “I still want you Sanzo, do you know that?”

 

Sanzo looks into eyes so like his own, “How did you know I was here Kou? Have you been watching me all this time?” He slides his gun higher up his sleeve and stares in the prince's eyes. He can recognize the look in his eyes because it's the same one in his own.

 

“I'm afraid I've been following you all this time, love. I know the others would be reluctant to leave you, so I waited.” He chuckles as he presses his lips to the monk's hair. “I knew it was a matter of time until you figured out what they were doing and insist on being alone, so I waited.”

 

Sanzo bows his head and pus his hand on the side of the prince's face, “You know they could come here at any time don't you? How will I explain your presence?”

 

Kougaiji pulls the monk's hand to his lips and kisses it saying, “Take a walk with me Sanzo. There's a small trail that leads to the mouth of a cave. We can talk there and I promise not to keep you to long.” He stands and reaches down to help the monk to his feet. Sanzo looks around as he brushes grass and dirt off his robe. “I guess it won't hurt if I go for a little while, but I can't stay long, okay?”

 

Kou smiles down at him, “Of course, I understand. I won't keep you long. I just need to speak to you without being interrupted.” He holds onto Sanzo's hand as he leads him deeper into the forest.

xoxoxoxo