Saiyuki Reload Fan Fiction ❯ Beneath the Mask ❯ Alone ( Chapter 1 )

Warnings: Spoilers for the series from volumes 1 to 6 of the manga. Mention of rape, suicide, incest, and homosexuality. No graphic scenes.

 

Beneath the Mask

 

Hakkai lay in bed, his dark green eyes open, staring into the blackness of night surrounding him. How ironic, he thought to himself, shifting onto his side, attempting to find a more comfortable position. There was no use however, as he was not getting to bed with that…

 

A loud thump sounded in the room next to Hakkai's, accompanied by aroused moans.

 

Hakkai sighed, Gojyo and his woman of the night were going at it again. Ever since the two disappeared into their room, loud noises had been heard from inside. It didn't take a genius to know what they were doing.

 

It had been decided that Goku and Sanzo would share a room for that night and Hakkai and Goyjo were to share the other. But Gojyo hooked up with a woman in the bar, and left Hakkai to himself in their room. Well, not completely by himself, he smiled, patting Jeep on the head. Normally he wouldn't have minded, after all being in the company of his friends was anything but peaceful, but tonight…tonight was not a good night.

 

It had been exactly three years since Kanon had passed away. Hakkai could still remember the day he had held her lifeless body in his hands, his beloved sister and forbidden lover. The pain still remained, along with his memories.

 

Hakkai closed his eyes, trying to rid his mind of that day, but all he could see was blood. It had been everywhere. All over her naked body, the clothes being torn off when they raped her; on the knife, lying by her side, with which she used to kill herself.

 

Hakkai began to tremble, his mind full of sorrow and pain. He wished the Gojyo was there with him. To comfort him…to hold him…to love him. But he knew that was impossible. Gojyo didn't care for him that way. It was obvious that Gojyo would never take a male lover. The day they met (1), Goyjo had told him that was the first and last time he would have a guy in his bed. At that time, the words had no effect on him. But as time went on, Hakkai began to fall for Gojyo, and those words had come back to haunt him.

 

Jeep noticed Hakkai's distress and nestled closer to his owner, trying to offer some comfort, though even he knew it wouldn't be enough.

 

Hakkai clasped Jeep to him, tears running down his face. Continuing to sob softly against Jeep, exhaustion set in, and Hakkai slowly drifted to sleep.

 

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Author's Notes:

 

This is my first Saiyuki fic and I hope you all enjoyed it. Please review and tell me what you thought! Ja ne! Sincerely, Spunky87.