Slayers Fan Fiction ❯ Musings of a Star-Crossed Mind ❯ Waking to a Lover's Embrace ( Chapter 3 )

Musings of a Star-Crossed Mind

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~Waking to a Lover's Embrace~

"So you're sure about this?"

"For the last time, yes, I'm quite sure!"

Faintly, I can hear a stoic voice, raptly silencing a smaller, more energetic [yet worried] one. I know them, both voices, but my mind is clouded with morning. All I know, is that I'm warm, in my body and soul. Something was made clear last night, something that had hounded me for a long, long time. The fog in my mind right nw won't let me think of anything though, so I just give in and let myself fall agains this thing that holds me so close. It's warm and comfortable, that's all I care about right now. I try to go back to sleep but the morning sun won't allow, so I just make myself comfortable, if that's possible, as the fog of mind clears. Slowly, I begine to realize that the thing is human, but that's just fine, because it smells nice and it offers no harm to me. My heart tells me something like I shouldn't be afraid. Why I would be, I'm not sure, but why fight it? It's just too early.

"But...what if she..."

"Have you looked at them?"

The low voice sounds scornful, but holds a compassion in it.

"Oh-OH! How cute!"

The soft voice, so cute. It's so excited but absolutely sure to keep quiet so as not to wake someone. She loves that person, I can hear it in her voice. So cute, wish that that happ-"

"Lina?"

Suddenly, I'm awake! He's sitting next to me, holding me. Is this why my heart told me not to be afraid? Well, whether it did or not, I am. I can feel myself burning red, he still has his arm aound me! What do I do???? Someone help me! Somehow, I can't bring myself to pull away or harm him, I'm just content to sit here, in his arms. It's peaceful, and I like it.

"Lina, you're red, are you sick, coming down with a fever?"

Laughing silently more to myself, I regard his worries, "No, no, I'm fine...."

BIG MISTAKE! Gazing into his eyes, so blue, filled with concern, hope, love? I'm captivated, absolutely lost.

"Cause you know... Well, I know how much you don't like it, but I can... carry... you, maybe?"

Tears well in my eyes, he's so beautiful, so kind, so much more deserving of someone greater than me. How did I all of a sudden becoem so lucky? I know now that that look in his eyes IS love, for me. It may sound arrogant, but if only...

He's getting more worried as he sees my tears, "I wouldn't mind that at all, actually, but yes, I'm quite fine."

Instead of grief, he's elated, positively happy, because I'm ok. He's always worried about my health, it's so hard to find someone that actually takes into consideration all that he has. There isn't enough air in the universe to tell all the ways he's touched me.

Suddenly, I realize I haven't returned the love I've so longed to show for him. He's offered himself to me without trepidaton, I have no rejection to worry about now. I've also discovered that this feeling, it's not weak, it's strong, it's carved me a new person, although, I won't change THAT much. But this love welling inside my heart comes out in tears as I embrace him, never daring to let go.

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"Lina! Is everything ok?"

"Yes," tears, she's crying, tears of joy? "Yes, everything is absolutely wonderful, thank you so much, you've given me a gift greater than anyone could have given."

He was throughly confused, but never-the-less, returned the embrace gratefully, at the chance to be so close to her. Faintly, he heard her mutter something into his shoulder, but it was too quiet. so he pulled her upright so she was looking at him.

Never had she felt so vulnerable, but this had to be done, now, if not sooner.

"I didn't hear you." His eyes were so full of compassion, and love, that he couldn't have known how much all her walls were coming down, the crystal blue ocean of his eyes beat so hard against them that they finally fell. Along with the wall, words failed her, however, actions didn't. Reaching up, she carressed his cheek, she fire burning eyes now calmed down to a sparkling ember.

He could read her eyes, he'd seen this only once, and only in a distant memory, but it was there, and he knew exactly what it was. The fear that had gripped him earlier had vanished, only to be replaced by joy so overwhelming he couldn't stop. Each caress of his cheek by her feather soft hands brought a shock of understanding to him, this was really happening, it was really there.

Finding no sense in words whatsoever, they simply let their tears flow as they embraced eachother, each intent on never letting the other go. Alas, all good things must come to and end, if only to let much better things enter in. He pulled her away slowly, she allowing herself to be taken by him. Staring into eachother's eyes for but a minute, crimson met blue, complete opposites, yet so much alike, they both nodded in understanding of what the other wanted and needed, some sort of mutual confermation. And thus, their lips met in a passion that could only exist between the two of them. Feelings of longing for someone such as the other to come had finally came to rest. This is what they needed, and each was more than satisfied to give the other what they needed.

"And so it is settled."

The smaller voice was in tears, "It's so beautiful."

He nodded in complete understanding. "FINALLY!"

They both shared a quiet giggle and departed.

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