Spirited Away Fan Fiction ❯ Haku's Secret ❯ Chapter Two ( Chapter 2 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

Summary: For ten years all Chihiro has really wanted was to see Haku again. What will happen when he suddenly shows up? What is Haku keeping from and why won’t he tell her why it’s been ten years?


Disclaimer: I do not own spirited away.



Chihiro and Haku had spent the whole day talking, mostly about Chihiro, Everytime that she tried to talk about how he’d been he’d change the subject back to her or to the others that she had met in the spirit realm.

Now Haku was asleep on the lounge and Chihiro in her bed, though for her sleep would not come. She kept trying to figure out why Haku wouldn’t want her to know what he’d been doing for the past ten years and why he hadn’t come sooner.

“Chihiro…mmm…no.” Haku’s voice drifted to her as he started to talk in his sleep. Slowly she walked out to the lounge and looked down at him. His hair was sticking to his forehead with sweat, his head moving restlessly on one of the pillow she had given him earlier, the other lay on the floor having been thrown off by his movements.

“No.” His voice was getting louder and it now held panic. He’s having a nightmare Chihiro realised, reaching over to lightly shake Haku awake. “Wake up, Haku.” She said softly.

“NO CHIHIRO!” He screamed bolting upright, causing Chihiro to fall backwards startled by the sudden move and loud cry. Panting Haku glanced around the room quickly. It was a dream he realised thankfully. “Haku?” Chihiro’s concerned voice made him look around again. He spotted her on the floor looking up at him, quickly getting out from under the covers he knelt beside her.

“I’m sorry.” He said his voice shaking slightly. Helping Chihiro to her knees he pulled her into his arm and buried his face into the curve of her neck, taking comfort in her scent and warmth.

“There’s nothing to be sorry for. You were just having a nightmare.” Chihiro whispered as she spoke her hands ran soothingly over his back. Little by little he began to relax. She was right it had just been a nightmare, he had nothing to worry about she was safe. Haku shuddered as he thought of the dream again. Letting go of Chihiro he stood up. Helping her to her feet he apologised yet again as he moved to sit back on the lounge.

“Do you want to talk about it?” She asked as she sat next to him. He just sighed and shook his head, not looking at her instead choosing to stare at the blue grey carpet beneath his feet. He knew talking about it wouldn’t help and he felt embarrassed enough that he had been so scared by something as childish as a nightmare, even if it was extremely realistic.

“Thankyou Chihiro. You should go back to sleep you’ll be tired in the morning, and you said that you have work tomorrow.” Chihiro just smiled and shook her head. “It’s ok Haku, I don’t have to work tomorrow, I called them after dinner and told them that I was sick.” Haku frowned at her. “You shouldn’t have done that, you’re not sick.” He said sternly making Chihiro feel like a little kid being scolded for lying. When she started to laugh he gave her a puzzled look.

“What’s so funny? You could lose your job.” Chihiro shrugged still laughing, it wasn’t that she didn’t care it was just that she knew that her boss wouldn’t fire her for having a sicky. “Haku if I lose my job I’ll just get another one. I don’t really have to work, it’s not like I need the money.” Chihiro laughed and rested her head on his shoulder sighing happily. Haku lightly rested his head on hers, he could get use to this, she made him feel at peace, which was something he’d wanted for a long time now.

Chihiro sighed again and Haku felt her relax more against him, realising she was asleep he moved her so that her head was resting on his chest and carefully picked her up. Walking into her room, he carried her over to the bed, as he placed her on the bed she stirred and looked up at him giving him a sleepy smile. “I’m sorry I fell asleep on you.” She mumbled sleepily. “You’ll still be here in the morning Haku? I don’t want to lose you again…”

Haku watched her sleep for a while, then walked back to the lounge. Laying back he thought about Chihiro and how different was now to when he’d first met her. A smile formed on his lips as to when as he began to think more about her. When he had first met her he had thought she was beautiful, that hadn’t changed but he found her more desirable now, though that did come with being older. It wasn’t just her looks that made special to him, she was smart, caring and had a great sense of humour.

He had learnt so much when they had talked, about her friends, school life. Her family, he had felt guilty when she had told him about and their passing and the trouble she’d gone threw just afterwards, he hadn’t been here to comfort her when she had needed it, like he should have been. He wanted to know everything, one thing that he really wanted to know was if she had found someone to love, and was that person still in the picture? He had been dying to ask her that, especially after she had said ‘its not everyday I wake up with a strange man in my room’, when he’d first arrived. But he didn’t want to sound jealous by asking her about her love life. God knew he was, even at the mere thought, but if it made her happy and she was being treated right then that was all that mattered. Haku dozed off thinking about Chihiro, a faint smile caressed his lips as he slept.


Haku was awake and had neatly folded the blankets he had slept on when Chihiro walked out in the morning. She smiled at him sweetly causing his breath to catch slightly.

“Do you want breakfast Haku?” Her voice was soft and filled with happiness matching her mood. Haku smiled back at her and shook his head, he was never really one to eat breakfast. Chihiro made herself some toast and a coffee. Haku watched her as she ate. Once she had finished breakfast she put her dishes in the dishwasher, and went and had a shower.

The day progressed much like the day before. Chihiro explained all the technology in her hours to him, not sure if he would know any of it. Haku was still reluctant to talk about the last ten years of his life. Quickly getting sick of talking about herself Chihiro fell silent.

“Chihiro?” Haku was looking at her. What have I done? He thought when she just looked at him silently. “I’m sorry.” He said not even knowing the problem, only knowing that he had caused it.


“No Haku I should be the one saying sorry. I’m acting like a child just because you wont tell me something I wanted to know.” Haku looked at her surprised not understanding at first, slowly though meaning sunk in and was he was hit full force by guilt. But he couldn’t tell her, he knew his reasons for not telling her, and he knew they were selfish. She’ll hate me he thought, I finally got her back in my life and if she finds out I’ll lose her again.

Haku felt bad keeping things from her but it was the only way he could keep her in his life, and he was beginning to hate himself for his selfishness. Chihiro watched the emotions play across his face. Guilt. Hatred. Fear. Deciding that him torturing himself was no help she tried to change the subject. When Haku didn’t respond she began to get worried. It wasn’t until she cupped his cheek and forced him to look at her that his attention was brought to where he was.

“I’m sorry.” He said again as he got up and started walking towards the bathroom. Chihiro grabbed his hand stopping him, her slender fingers entwined with his as she looked at him.

“Haku what's wrong?” She asked trying to make eye contact, but his eyes were lowered locked on their joined hands. It fascinated him and he didn’t understand why. “Chihiro I…I want to tell you, I really do. But I…” Haku’s words were cut off as Chihiro placed her finger against his lips.

“It’s ok Haku. It’s upto you if you want to tell me, I mean I want to know but I’m not going to force you to tell me if you don’t want to. “ Smiling she took a breath and continued. “I’m just glad that we are together again.” Haku gave her a loving smile. “So am I.” He said pulling her closer. Slowly Haku began to lean forward, Chihiro could feel his breath fan her face as his free hand cupped her cheek, and she closed her eyes. The phones’ sudden ringing startled them both, causing them to jump away from one another blushing furiously.

“Hello” Chihiro answered instantly hating whoever was on the other line. “Hello my name is Takani and I work for your local council. We are calling people to see how you think we could improve your local area, are you free at the moment to answer some questions?” Chihiro politely told him that now was bad timing and quickly hung up before he could start talking again. With a sigh she turned around to see Haku standing close behind her.

Leaning in again his lips lightly touching her in a gentle kiss. Chihiro’s eyes fluttered closed as she leant into him. “Chihiro.” Haku whispered as he broke the kiss looking down at her happily, he had dreamed of this. Sighing contently Chihiro rested her head against Haku’s shoulder as he wrapped his arms around her and rested his head on hers. After a few moments of being in each others arms the couple separated.

“Umm…so what do you want for dinner Haku?” Chihiro asked as she looked threw her fridge for an easy meal. “I really don’t mind, it’s up to you.” He said thinking about the meal they’d had the night before. Chihiro had continuously apologised for not being a good cook. He had really liked the meal, but she had seemed to believe that she was no good at cooking, among other things.

“Chihiro, last night why did you keep apologising about the meal? It was delicious.” Chihiro blushed at his complement. “Thankyou.” She said as she wrapped her arms around him.

“But the question remains what do you want?” She asked smiling sweetly up at him. “How about…you.” With that he pulled her to him and lightly pressed his lips to hers.


A/N: Haha, chapter two is done!!!