Spirited Away Fan Fiction ❯ Haku's Secret ❯ Chapter Three ( Chapter 3 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

Summary: For ten years all Chihiro has really wanted was to see Haku again. What will happen when he suddenly shows up? What is Haku keeping from her and why won’t he tell her why it’s been ten years?


Disclaimer: I do not own spirited away.



Chihiro sighed enjoying the feeling of Haku’s lips against hers. Slowly, without noticing, they moved closer together until their bodies were only separated by their clothing. Chihiro’s arms were around Haku’s neck, her fingers hidden in his glorious black hair

Haku’s hands rested on the curve of Chihiro's hips lightly, keeping her close to him. Breathing heavily he pulled back slightly, Chihiro looked up at him lovingly and rested her head against his chest. Bending slightly Haku grabbed Chihiro’s legs and lifted her totally into his arms, and carried her to the lounge where he sat placing her on his lap.

By this point dinner was forgotten by both as they happily cuddled. Haku sighed completely content in that moment; this was how he wanted things to be always. “Haku?” Chihiro’s voice was quiet but he could hear the emotion in it. “Are you ok?” she asked when he didn’t answer her.

“Everything’s wonderful Chihiro.” He said smiling down at her. “I was just thinking how happy I am.” He finished as he placed a light kiss on her forehead. “So am I Haku.” She said as she leant into him. They stayed in each other’s arm for a few hours before going to bed. Their goodnight kiss did anything but make them want to sleep, but with a great amount of will power they both headed off, Chihiro to her bed and Haku to the lounge.

The next day Chihiro had work and left after Haku’s constant insistence that he would be fine home alone. “Ok. I’ll be back late. Make yourself at home, do whatever you want, ok Haku?” Haku smiled at her showing his obvious amusement, she was so caught up worrying about him that she didn’t realise that she was treating him like a child.

“Chihiro, I’ll be fine. Now go before your late.” He said chuckling as he bent his head to kiss her goodbye. Realising how stupid she was being Chihiro blushed, and left. Shutting the door behind her Haku shook his head and laughed to himself.

Walking over to Chihiro’s book collection Haku picked out one that sounded interesting and was nice and thick. Three or four other books caught his attention, their coverings seemed to be made out of plastic, and on each of them was a different year. Picking up the most recent one Haku began flipping through it; there were newspaper clippings and photos throughout the book. Remembering that Chihiro had told him about her scrapbook collection, he figured this was what she had been talking about.

Some of the photos looked recent to him, these caught his attention, her smile was so sad in these. He slowly ran his finger over her image; once again he felt guilt at not being there for her. This feeling was only increased when he came across a newspaper clipping. Two dead, one in critical condition, the title said. Reading the article he realised that the accident that had killed Chihiro’s parents had almost killed her as well. But he had seen on sigh of scars on her. He wondered on that for awhile before closing the scrapbook.

After putting the scrapbook back he made himself some kare raisu for lunch, sat at the table. Eating his lunch his thoughts kept going to why Chihiro had never mentioned anything about the accident. I can’t really judge her, he thought, I still haven’t told her everything. Finishing lunch he began to clean up. An image of Chihiro covered in blood flashed in his mind, then faded. Haku shook his head hoping that it was just that one image, not another illusion.

Unfortunately for him that was exactly what it was. The illusion seemed to be back with vengeance after having not occurred in nearly a week. Under the emotional stress the illusion caused him Haku collapsed, the illusion began to fade the last thing he saw was Chihiro covered in blood a tear rolling down her cheek as she said his name.

The front door opened hours later, and Chihiro walked in, as soon as she was in the door she could tell that something was wrong. Walking into the kitchen Chihiro sees Haku and stops dead. “Oh God, Haku?” she whispered as she knelt next to him. Checking his vitals she lets out a sigh of relief when she noticed his even breathing and felt his strong pulse. Carefully she moves Haku’s head to her lap, and gently brushes his hair away from his face.

“Chihiro…I…I’m sorry.” Haku mumbled as he woke, fifteen minutes later. Chihiro smiled down at him and gently stroked his cheek. “You’re ok, right?” he said again sitting up to look her over. “It wasn’t real.” He whispered as he started to shake. “She’s safe.” Again whispering to himself. Chihiro was curious about the words but decided to let it go for now, right now she was more worried about the shaking that seemed to have taken hold of him. She didn’t like seeing Haku like this.

“Haku, everything is fine.” She said as she gave his hand a reassuring squeeze. “You should lay down, I’ll make you some nice tea.” Haku looked at her as she let go of his hand to stand up. “Come on, you can stay in my room.” Chihiro felt her face warm as she blushed. Accepting the hand she was offering, Haku and Chihiro made their way to Chihiro’s room.

Chihiro moved the back the covers for him, using her free hand; Haku didn’t seem to want to let go of her hand. Feeling a light tug on er hand she turned to face Haku. His expression held concern; he gently cupped her cheek with his free hand.

“You’re alright Chihiro, aren’t you?” Chihiro gave him a questioning look to which he just shook his head. “I’m sorry to worry you Chihiro, I just…” Haku visibly shuddered. “It was so real.” He said moving closer to her, as he moved closer to her his hand dropped to her waist and rested his head on her shoulder. “I’m sorry.” He said again.

Chihiro was now pulled right up to Haku’s body, with his arms around her waist and his forehead on her shoulder. Chihiro felt useless, what could she say? She didn’t really know what was wrong or why he was apologising.

“Ha…” Haku’s lips were against hers before she could even get a full word out. His kiss was gentle, loving and something else, it almost felt like gratitude. The kiss didn’t last long; Haku pulled away and rested his head in the curve of his neck. Chihiro stroked his hair, loving the feel of the soft hair under her hands. God how she loved him, these thoughts were not a shock to her. She had known for a long time know that she loved Haku, she just didn’t know if he loved her, how she hoped he did.

“Haku.” She said her hand stilling in his hair. “If you lay down I can go get you some tea, if you like?” lifting his head Haku looked at her, trying for a smile all he managed was a slight twitch of the lip. Chihiro felt another prang of uselessness as she realised just how badly this was hurting him. She wished she knew so she could comfort him.

“I don’t want any tea thankyou Chihiro.” Haku paused for awhile lowering his head slightly. Chihiro noticed his cheeks colour with a light blush, he was blushing? Chihiro wondered about him blushing as she turned to leave the room. “Chihiro could you stay with me?” Haku’s voice was low. Turning Chihiro looked at him, he was still standing where they had kissed. It’s like we’re taking turns blushing Chihiro thought feeling her face grow warm again.

“Umm, sure Haku.” She said looking at the ground. “I’ll just get myself a drink of water and I’ll be back.” Walking out of the room she heard Haku sigh as he moved to the bed. After having a glass of water she headed back to the room, where Haku was waiting for her.

“You don’t mind do you Chihiro?” Haku was watching her closely. “It’s…” Haku quickly cut her off. “I just want you to stay here nothing else, I promise.” He said worried, afraid that she would get the wrong idea and hate him. Chihiro smiled at him and moved to the other side of her bed, and lay down on top of the covers. “It’s fine Haku. Just rest for now.” She said as she turned on to her side to look at him. Haku was still watching her closely.

“Chihiro you are so beautiful.” Haku said reaching out and gently pulling her to him. He lightly brushed his lips against her forehead before leaning back against the pillow.

“They’re not nightmares.” Chihiro heard him say, his voice just barely above an audible whisper. Chihiro rested her head on his shoulder and waited for him to continue, letting him take his own time. “They’re so much worse. A dream you can wake up from, but with these you cant, most of the time I’m awake when they happen.” He sighed “no matter what I do I can’t stop them, not for long anyway. Chihiro, these illusions or whatever you want to call them always have you in them.” The arm around her tightened protectively.

So this was what was bothering Haku, keeping her voice calm Chihiro asked. “Haku. What did you see that scared you so much?”


A/N: Yes chapter three is done, yay!!! *dances around the room.* Ok breath calm down, sorry I’m a bit hyper at the moment…you can’t blame me, in the time it took me to type this up I have had 1L of cordial and about four coffees.