Teen Titans Fan Fiction ❯ Currently Untitled ❯ One Moment of Weakness... ( Chapter 1 )

A/N: Yes, it's true, your eyes do not deceive, and the world has not come to an end. After a hiatus of... a very long time, I have posted. I have no excuse, I simply could not bring myself to write for whatever reason. Hope you enjoy, it's pretty dark.

 

Disclaimer: Teen Titans do not belong to me, nor am I on staff at DC, Cartoon Network, or any other entity that may claim ownership of said show. On that note, if you are looking for staff writers...

 

Currently Untitled

Chapter 1

 

Raven looked up with fear at the white clad form that seemed to tower over her and winced at the sensation of something cold and hard moving inside of her. She sighed as she allowed her head to fall back to the thin pillow, thinking back over the last couple of months, to the events that led to this moment, lying on a cold steel table, and feeling so alone.

 

Raven opened her door a crack to the sound of knocking. Beastboy stood outside her door, shifting his weight from one foot to the other nervously. “What?”

“Raven? Look, I-I'm sorry.”

“For what? You're not the one who.” Raven broke off, afraid to say more, afraid that she would not be able to hide the sudden flood of emotion.
“No, I'm sorry that... he broke your heart.”

Raven closed her eyes at his words, well intentioned, though they stung. “I know it was all a lie, but he was the only person that made me feel like I wasn't... creepy. And don't try to tell me I'm not.” Raven stared at the shape shifter standing uncomfortably outside of her room. She wondered why she had said that, opening up even a little to the single most annoying member of the titans.

“Okay, fine, you're way creepy, but that doesn't mean you have to stay locked in your room. You think your alone, Raven, but you're not.” Raven was given pause by what he said. For so long, she separated herself, and now he, the immature brat, was coming to console her.

Without thinking, without considering anything for once, Raven stepped out of her room and fell against Beastboy, wrapping her arms around him in her first hug in a long time. Beastboy stiffened, surprised at her rare display of affection, but quickly returned the hug, holding her tightly.

After their brief hug, Beastboy pushed Raven back to arms length. A strange emotion seems to cross his face, “Raven, I...” Whatever he was about to say is cut off by a ball of rancid socks.

“Boo-Yah! Stankball!”

Raven turns to see the jubilant Cyborg still standing in the end of the hall way, one fist raised in victory. She picks up the ball with distaste and immediately it begins to glow black with her power.

“Now hold on, Raven, don't get...” he is in turn cut off when Raven plasters him to the wall with his sock ball.

Raven sighs as she turns back to see Beastboy climbing to his feet. “Could we finish this in private?” She asks gesturing to her room.

“Wait, you mean like in your room.”

“Yeah.”

“With no yelling at me, or throwing me out the window.”

“As long as you don't do anything stupid.”

“Cool.”

On impulse, Raven grabbed his hand. She almost dropped it immediately, this was not her, something was seriously wrong with this situation. As quickly as it comes, the feeling of wrongness is gone, as she leads Beastboy into her room.”

 

Raven hissed at sudden pain, deep inside of her. “What was that?”

The man standing at the foot of the table glanced up at her briefly then back down. “Nothing to worry about. We should be almost done here.”

Raven let her head drop back to the table, once again lost in her own thoughts.

 

Raven woke to the sound of soft snoring, and saw Beastboy lying next to her in bed. The sheets were pulled half way up his bare chest, and when she sat up suddenly, she realized that she was wearing nothing.

She held the sheet to her own chest as she looked around the room, seeing their clothes scattered about haphazardly. She tried to cast her memory back, but most of the last few hours were nothing but a blur. “What did we do?”

Beastboy, awakened by her movements now sat up and looked around. “I'd say that it looks like we...”

“Shut up.” Raven snapped.

Beastboy turned to her, concern now in his features. “What's wrong?”

“This- this should never have happened.” Raven was beginning to sound almost panicked as she spoke. “We shouldn't have done this, this was a mistake. We're just going to forget this ever happened, never mention it again. Just like it never happened.”

“Fine, if it was so horrible for you or whatever, I'll just go.” He scooped up his pants and pulled them on hard. “You'll never have to think about it again.”

“No, that's not- It wasn't horrible, it...” Raven was fighting tears now, and Beastboy saw, felt, her inner turmoil.

He sat back on the edge of the bed and gently took her hand. “What is it?”

“I wanted to wait, I wanted my first time...” Raven burst into teats, unable to continue.

Beastboy wrapped his arms around Raven, pulling her into his chest. He held her for several minutes, waiting until her tears had slowed. Finally he spoke. “Wait then, don't let one stupid mistake ruin everything.”

“But...”

“No buts, one stupid mistake shouldn't ruin everything, okay?”

“O-okay.”

“I don't know where we'll be in three or four or however many years before I'm ready to get hitched, but Raven, I love you.”

Raven sat up suddenly. “What?”

“I love you, and if we're still together when I grow up, then maybe it will be you and me forever.”

“Did-did you just propose to me?”

Beastboy shrugged. “Let's just take it a step at a time for now, and see where we end up.” Beastboy stood. “We'll take it slow, a date tonight...” he turned and glanced at her clock, “Tomorrow night, just you and me.” Beastboy stooped down and kissed Raven gently on the cheek. “Alright?”

“Beastboy, I... thank you.”

 

And now... and now this. Raven wished, not for the first time, that she had been able to find the courage to tell him when she found out about the baby. A ragged sob escaped her suddenly. Until that point she had managed to refrain from thinking of it that way, but now she could not stop the sudden horror at what she was doing. For a moment, she considered telling the doctor to stop, but no, it was already too late.

All thoughts ceased at a sudden terrible pain, burning deep within her. The doctor swore quietly, but emphatically. “What's wrong?” Raven's voice shook with pain.

“It'll be alright, just a minor complication.” He swore again and said something to a nurse that Raven could not here. The nurse ran from the room.

“What's goi...” she trailed off as the room began to spin. “What... wha...” Darkness enclosed her, cradled her, smothered her.

 

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Click-click-click-click. Raven slowly opened her eyes to the sight of a grandmotherly figure sitting near her bed... knitting. She started to sit up, but was stopped by an intense wave of pain that tore through her stomach. en tears, and managed to hold back all but a sob. The older woman looked up, then set aside her knitting. “Now, now, dear, don't try to sit up. You just got out of surgery, and I must say they did a number on you.” She walked to Raven's bedside and smiled down at her. “No why don't you let me take a look, make sure you didn't tear any stitches out.”

“Um... Who are you?”

“Oh yes, silly me. I'm Dr. Kain. I'm your doctor for as long as you're here.”

“Where is here, and why am I here?”

Dr. Kain examined Raven quickly. “It looks as though you didn't tear anything out. You are at Jump Mercy. You are here because there were some compl...” The doctor fell silent as she grimaced. “I will not lie for those people. The clinic you were at botched the abortion. They sacrifice safety in order to get as many frightened young girls such as yourself in and out as possible.”

Raven fought down her swelling panic. “How badly?”

“They lost you, twice.”

“What do you mean, lost?”

“Your heart stopped as a result of massive hemorrhaging. They tried to repair the damage done, but there was too much.”

“What did they do?”

“The only thing to do in this case. They- they had to perform a hysterectomy.”

“A hys- you mean, I can't...” Raven fell silent, fighting to control the tide of emotions swelling in her. Black tendrils of energy flickered ominously of the guard rails of her bed.”

“I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.” Dr. Kain stood and turned to the door, “I'm going to go get one of the hospital's councilors for you to...”

“No. I just want to go home.” Raven had managed to control herself to a point, though her voice still quavered.

Dr. Kain turned back to her. “You are going to be here for a week. Even when you leave, you will need another two or three weeks of bed rest. The surgeons were not gentle when they opened you up, they were in too much of a hurry to be careful.”

“I can heal myself be tonight. I'm leaving then.”

Dr. Kain seemed about to respond, but then sighed. “Just... just let me examine you before you go, alright?”

“Fine.”

“I've got rounds, I'll be back to check on you.”

 

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Raven woke from her healing trance and sat up. She was looked around the small hospital room and saw Dr. Kain dozing in a nearby chair. Deciding not to wake her, Raven quietly flew out of the bed and changed back into the street clothes that she had worn to the clinic. “I thought you were going to let me examine you, before you left.”

Raven spun at the sound of Dr. Kain's voice. She was sitting upright in the chair now, wide awake. “Um, sorry. I didn't want to bother you.”

“Come here, let me take a look.” Dr. Kain briefly examined her. “Not even a scar.” She shook her head. “I can't stop you from leaving, but...” She dug around in the pockets of her coat, and pulled out a business card. She wrote something on the back, and handed it to Raven. “That's my home number as well. If you need me, for anything, just call. Understand?”

“Alright.”

“Go, then, and be well.”

 

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Raven flew to her room's unlocked window and stepped in. It was already late, and the tower was silent, the rest of the team already asleep. Raven sat down on the edge of her bed, then puled her legs under her into the lotus position. She closed her eyes, trying to will away her raging emotions, trying to deny the tear that threatened to escape again.

A knock on her door brought her back to the present. Beastboy's voice was slightly muffled through the door, “Raven? I thought I saw you fly in.”

Raven took a deep breath, steeling herself to see him. “Yeah, come on in.” Raven stood as the door slid open. Beastboy crossed the room quickly, sweeping her up in a tight hug, giving her a short, chaste kiss. “What are you still doing up?” Raven asked, giving him a smile that she did not feel.

“Couldn't sleep. You were supposed to be back yesterday, and I was worried.”

“A little trouble getting everything sorted out.”

“You never did tell me what you had to go for.”

“Just some family business, nothing you need to worry about.”

“Alright.” He pulled away to yawn expansively. “It's late, isn't it?”

“Almost two.”

“I need to get some sleep.” He kissed her again, “I'll see you in the morning.”

“Alright, good night.”

Beastboy stepped back out into the hall and allowed the door to start closing behind him. At the last moment, stopped it and leaned back in. And Raven?”

“Yeah?”

“I love you.”

For a moment, Raven was unable to respond. Her feelings of guilt at betraying Beastboy's trust, at lying to him outright prevented her. Finally she was able to respond with what she hoped was a steady voice, “I-I love you too.”