Tokyo Babylon Fan Fiction / X/1999 Fan Fiction ❯ Shiver ❯ Shiver ( Chapter 1 )

Shiver
By: RM

Pairings: SieshirouXSubaru

Warnings: this is a LEMON of the YOAI persuasion…. Meaning this is a story about 2 GUYS having passionate, steaming, arousing, a whole bunch of other yummy adjectives… sex. That's right gay sex, if you don't like it get over it or get the hell out. Thank you and good night.

A/N: this has spoilers for TB and X up to like maybe book 8 not quite sure anywho this is not my first lemon but it is my first songfic… be gentle with me, cause I know I wasn't with the characters ^_^.

~ Lyrics~

Subby's POV

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~You build me up
You knock me down~

I love you… three simple words that I've heard from your mouth repeatedly. But then again it never was really you at all. Do you know how I feel, Seishirou-san? Of course not, you said yourself that you're unable to feel, but how can I believe anything you say? Everything you've ever told me was a lie.

~Provoke a smile
And make me frown~

Were any of you actions even remotely real? Is it possible that maybe just one of those smiles were true? You still haunt me, you know. With your honest face and gentle caresses. You haunt my dreams, that's why I don't sleep. So I don't have to face myself in the morning, and hate myself for loving you.

~You are the queen of runaround
You know it's true~

For nine years I searched for you. Whether it was to kill you or not I really don't know myself. Maybe I'm just as obsessed as you are. I know you watched me, avoiding my eyes. Did it amuse you? Of course it did, I always amuse you, that's all I am to you, your entertainment. Your toy. Will you ever get tired of playing games with me?

~You chew me up
And spit me out~

Every time we meet now I can't seem to concentrate. You still confuse me, leave me as flustered as you did when I was sixteen. Leave me lying broken and bruised, my heart pounding in my chest as you touch me.

~Enjoy the taste
I leave in your mouth~

Your lips cover mine with a bruising force; you tongue pushing past my lips. You rape my mouth with yours. Unrelenting and I allow it. I know each time how it will end, and feel the tears behind my eyes.

~You look at me
I look at you
Neither of us know what to do~

You release my mouth and, before I can stop myself, I whimper at the loss. You smirk at me with a predatory gleam in your eye. Gods, how I want you. Your hand slips under my shirt. Sliding along my cuts and bruises. The rough pressure put on them makes me groan in pain as much as pleasure. It makes its way down to my jeans and rubs my now hardening erection through the material. I can hear myself moaning. You slip your hand inside and grasp the hot flesh there, giving it rough strokes. I'm panting now, my weakened body straining not to pass out as my hands are groping at the ground, glass and rocks digging into my skin, but all I can think of is what your doing to me. I feel myself about to release and I close my eyes as my mind screams at me to keep them open. Suddenly your hand leaves me, my eyes snap open a second to late and you're gone. It always ends the same. I curl up into a ball and cry, not the first time, into broken bits of building and concrete, as my frustration and shame for wanting you, loving you overtakes me.

~There may not
Be another way to your heart~

The other seals found me, as usual. Took me to CLAMP campus Hospital where I recovered. Kamui's by my bed, he always stays with me when the others leave. We're two of a kind, him and me. We both love people who will never love us in return. But at least his love is pure, he knew who I was from the beginning, it's not tainted by self-hate and desire, though many of his other emotions are. I feel sorry for the kid but his affections are lost on me, I'm not worth it. Isn't that what you said? I'm nothing more than an object to you, just like everybody else. I mean nothing to you; therefore I mean nothing to myself.

~So I guess I'd better find a new way in~

I'm at your door now, after a week in the hospital, recovering from the injuries you caused. I don't know why I came here, maybe I'm just tired of waiting. Waiting for you to take me? Kill me? Posses me? Even I can't find the reason in my thinking. You made me this way, twisted my mind into nothing, filling it until only you resided there. I know if I wait another day I really will go insane. So I knock.

~I shiver when I hear your name
Think about you but it's not the same~

Of course you weren't surprised when I came. It would have come to the eventually anyway, I see you everywhere now, hear your name on too many peoples lips. I can't ignore myself any longer, the constant tugging on my soul to go to you. You still ask why I'm here, even though the answer is obvious. You always did get a kick out of making me blush. I give you an answer that pleases you; you just smirk and open the door wide for me to come in.

~I won't be satisfied `til I'm under your skin~

I walk past you as you close the door. I look around your apartment as I take off my shoes, so simple yet stylish; it screams "Seishirou" to me. I start pulling off my coat only to have you tug it down and trap my arms to my sides. My natural reaction is to jerk away but you wrap your arms around my waist and start nipping and sucking along my neck. I tilt my head back and rest it on your shoulder as you devour my neck.

~Immobilized by the thought of you~

I can't move, not that I'd want to, your hands roam over my skin under my shirt. I lean back against your chest, so warm. And I feel safe. Is it wrong to feel this way in your arms, or is it just my twisted mind. For a prey to feel safe in the arms of his hunter… like it wanted to be caught. Well that's a stupid thing to think, I came to you, of course I wanted to get caught. I want you, Seishirou-san. Why is that so hard to say? You pull my coat the rest of the way off, allowing my hands to move again.

~Paralyzed by the sight of you~

I bring my arms up to wrap around you neck, as you practically shred my shirt in your haste to remove it. I shiver as the cool air comes in contact with my heated body. The useless shirt is thrown down with my trenchcoat. I open my eyes that I had unknowingly closed and my attention is captured by a body length mirror in the corner, openly displaying us. I freeze as my eyes meet your one and I gasp as sharp teeth sink into the junction between my neck and shoulder. You smile, that predatory motion that's a reflection on the true emotion. You lick at the bleeding wound, moaning as you savor the near black liquid. A moan of my own follows as the pain fades into throbbing pleasure and I feel an impatient tugging ant the button of my pants.

~Hypnotized by the words you say~

Button undone, followed by my zipper, and your tugging my pants down. You rake your teeth down my spine as your hands slide along my thighs, taking my pants and boxers with them. I move my hands up my neck and lace them through my hair as I arch my back. The place your mouth connects with to my skin sends warm shivers through the rest of my body. I can only see your arms and hands on me as I step out of my pants flicking them away with my foot. I stand there my hands now moving to cross behind my head, and I moan as your hands retrace the path up my legs and your head glances around my waist with that same predatory gleam. The honey colored gaze now a deep amber with desire. You nibble on my hip, leaving a red bruise in your wake and I hear you mumble a word. Only one word… but as calm as I keep my outside expression, I can't stop the racing joy flowing through my veins. Am I really beautiful to you Seishirou-san?

~Not true but I believe `em anyway~

You slowly stand, the sleek feel of your white silk shirt and dress pants slide between us and you press you body close to mine, allowing me to feel the hardness there. Your hands move up over my sides, tickling me unexpectedly and before I can stop myself a low giggle comes out of my mouth, yes Sumeragi Subaru can giggle. I close my mouth quickly, afraid to ruin the moment. I feel breath on my neck and I turn my head slightly meeting your gaze, you with you hunters smile still in place. Ticklish, Subaru-kun, you ask. I feel the heat in my flushed face grow as I blush and nod my head once, not trusting myself to speak. A deep chuckle against my ear and your hands are moving as if they'd never stopped in the first place. I arch further into the possessing touch, the hands that were crossed behind my head move further back to run through your hair hesitantly as if asking permission to do so.

~So come to bed It's getting late~

Suddenly your hands are removed and you swiftly pick me up with one arm behind my knees and another round my waist. A falling sensation overcomes me as I'm lifted and I wrap my arms around your neck to steady myself. You look down at me with amusement before capturing my lips in a gentle kiss, sucking at my bottom lip. You release the lip before plunging your tongue into my mouth, lapping at the roof before twining in a playful dance with mine. The kiss while strangely gentle, is aggressive in its possession of me. You part our lips and I realize that we are no longer in your living room but you've carried me into your bedroom while my mind had been elsewhere.

~There's no more time for us to waste~

You lay me an your bed and have started to remove your own clothes as I watch. Silk shirt falling on the floor as you sit on the edge of the bed to remove your socks. You stand again, your hands moving toward your belt and I sit up. Your hands stop, hovering over the buckle, as you look at me with a questioning eyebrow raised. I reach out tentatively, glancing up at you to see the start of a smirk on your lips, before focusing back on the buckle. You turn towards me, allowing me to remove your belt and I unbutton and zip your dress slacks with shaking hands. I pull the fabric apart, revealing a `v' of tanned skin along with the top of soft cotton briefs your wearing. I run my hands under the fabric to your hips as I lean forward to taste your skin around your navel, I push the pants to your knees and bring my hands up to the black material still covering you. I lean back and watch as I pull down the fabric, revealing your hardening length, moist with desire. I look up at you with hooded eyes, hoping you'll let me taste you.

~Remember how my body tastes~

You thread your fingers through my hair and push the tip of your length against my parted lips. My tongue slips out, lapping at your slit and I moan, as I taste your flavor exploding on my tongue. You taste bitter and sweet at the same time, like blood and Sakura, like death and life; it's so much like you, such a contradiction. Seconds later I find myself pinned under you as you take my lips forcefully. Biting down on the bottom hard enough to leave bruises. You trail rough kisses down my neck and collarbone. Moving to my nipples and sucking one greedily into your mouth while your hand plays with the other. I cry out as you bit down on the sensitized flesh, once more drawing blood, lapping it up with long sweeps of your tongue. One hand moves up to my panting lips and you slip two fingers in massaging at my tongue before I suck greedily at the digits in my mouth, coating them with my saliva. You take you hand from my mouth and replace your digits with your tongue witch I suck into my mouth with as much vigor as I showed your fingers.

~You feel your heart begin to race~

Your fingers are at my entrance moving in teasing circles as I writhe beneath you. Whimpering moans permeate the air before I realize their coming from me and I cry out as a single digit penetrates me. I cling to your shoulders and my mouth is open and panting as you move it within me and a small burning sensation travels up my spine. A single finger is joined by a second and then they are stretching and are soon joined by a third and your tongue is lapping at my parted lips drinking in my moans. Ecstasy shoots through me as you fingers hit something deep within me, and I moan out your name. Your fingers leave me whimpering at their loss and you move over me till I can feel your heated flesh at my opening. You push in slowly and I cry out at the unexpected pain. Inch by inch you penetrate me and all I can feel is a slow burn radiating from where we're joined. It's not till I hear your voice make soothing noises and feel you kissing my face that I realize I'm crying. I look up at you as you slowly rock our bodies in a soft rhythm allowing me to adjust until pain is washed away by a slowly building pleasure. You smile at me a smile that is gentle but still holds a predatory gleam, one that suits your face much more than any other I've seen before. I rock back against you wrapping my legs around your waist and my arms around your neck. The pace is faster now and harder, each of your thrusts are met by one of my own and bursts of pleasure cause me to pant heavily through my moans. Your hand suddenly stroking me is the final breaking point and my vision in filled with white as my pleasure overwhelms me. When I regain my senses I notice that you've rolled over and pulled me on your chest. And I wonder,

~There may not
Be another way to your heart

So I guess I'd better find a new way in~

Am I there yet Seishirou-san? Have I finally seen the real you?

~I shiver when I hear your name

Think about you but it's not the same~

I realize that I don't really care anymore. A shiver runs down my spine and I draw closer to you warmth. This what we have right now is nice. Can I stay Seishirou-san, for a little bit longer can we be like this?

~I won't be satisfied `til I'm under your skin~

I don't want to be alone anymore.