Trigun Fan Fiction ❯ The black rose of gunsmoke ❯ The unbearable feelings ( Chapter 4 )
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By: Haruka-chan 
Anime/Manga: Trigun Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Angst / Romance / Horror / Hentai | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 10.06.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 4.2K | Visits: 578 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: Trigun Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Angst / Romance / Horror / Hentai | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 10.06.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 4.2K | Visits: 578 | Status: Work In Progress
The Black Rose of Gunsmoke
By: Haruka-chan
AN: Hello! *Yes I am embarrassed by my 'sweet' side more like retarded* Well anyway I am a new fan of Trigun, so I don't know ALL the information about it, but I'm on the quest of uncovering everything I can! AaAahah *See what I mean?* This Fic is going to different from most of the Vash returns with Knives and Meryl being bitch about it, and Wolfwood is alive *She had to do it for her cheery friend Milly* In this story everything is going to be quite the opposite. This fic is going to be confusing, boring at times, and weird so read on your own discretion. I won't explain what it's about, I'll let you find out on your own. Ok let sing the Hamtaro song lalalalala *Excuse me while I go and slap my sweet Cough(retarded)Cough self*
*....*- Means that it's character thoughts.
*~....~*- Character is thinking about what someone said in the past.
"...."- Means characters are talking.
****.....****- Means dreams of the character.
~~~***...***~~~- Means letters and notes from characters
The unbearable feelings...Chapter 4
Two people who look so alike....but so different...in their thought and views...yet so much alike...in there wants and needs...confusing isn't it?
Last Time...
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"He's nothing they say he is..." she whispered. "Meryl what has gotten in to you..." asked Claire. "Meryl" said a deep voice. "Oh morning chief" said Claire facing the tall handsome man with brown hair and deep green eyes. [AN: I know in the anime the chief looks nothing close to being cute, but I feel for Meryl so I will make him handsome, but not as much as Vash] "Morning Parker" said the chief. Meryl looked out the window. Claire nodded and left closing the door behind her. "Meryl?" he asked again, but she didn't move. "Are you feeling all right?" asked the chief placing his hand on her shoulder. "Please, tell me what's bothering you" he said softly. "I can't..." she said. "Why not?" he asked confused. "Because I can't. You have to give me room to breath Jonathan" she whispered. "Why do I get the feeling that you're not happy?" he asked. *Because I'm not you idiot!* thought Meryl. "I'm fine just a little stressed out" she said. "Meryl...I will 'wait' as long as you need" he said. Meryl thought her tears would explode right there and then when those words came from his lips. "Jonathan I'm fine...and I don't want to make you wait forever" she said. He chuckled and wrapped his arms around her shoulder and placed a kiss on her cheek. Meryl was glad that the window didn't show her reflection, because that would have given away all the pain that was evident there. "I don't care, I will if I have to" he said. Meryl nodded. "I think we should go back to work" she said as she pushed away from him. "Meryl do you mind explaining to me why you keep pushing me away?" he asked. "Jonathan please just don't push me, you know I'm not comfortable..." she said. "Not comfortable enough to kiss me?" he asked. "I'm sorry!" yelled Meryl. Jonathan's features softened. "Meryl I want to be there for you" he said placing a hand on her cheek.
Meryl turned away from his hand. "Then be there and don't push yourself on me" said Meryl. "I don't want to be selfish Jonathan but I can't have you in my space...I'm not ready to share that space with 'you' yet" she said looking down at the ground. *The truth is there is only one person I can share my life with, but he's not here...no I'm not going to cry* she thought. "Meryl" he said. "Jonathan it's best if we just leave it at that I really need some time to finish the latest report" said Meryl. Jonathan sighed and walked towards the door. "Well, have lunch then" he said walking out. Meryl let her tears out when she heard the door close. "I can't live without him" she whispered. "I can't live this false life" she whispered. Vash stood outside the large building. I'm here* he thought.
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Vash stood out side the Bernardelli Insurance company, looking up at the large building with half excitement and half doubt. *Maybe this was a mistake* he thought, but his body just walked forward towards the door. He walked inside the women that worked their looked his way some throwing him smiles others, blushing. He chuckled and made his way to the counter that read 'INFORMATION' in big bold letters. "Hello I'm looking for Meryl Stryfe" he said. The man behind the desk looked as if he could careless about who he was looking for but pulled the small microphone towards his mouth. "10th floor, west side, section A room 16 office 23" he said. Vash looked at him for a while before nodding and walking towards the elevator. "Damn she can't work on a floor where it's easy to find?" he asked. After 5 minutes of cheesy elevator music and getting lost on the North and every other direction but the West, he made to the West side section A. He looked around the slightly bust people as they greeted one another and looked pissed, or happy or just neutral hard that their work. *I can see their personalities is perfect for the job* he though as he entered and looked around for a while.
"Can I help you?" asked a woman with blonde hair. Vash turned and smile. "Yeah I was looking for room 16 office 23" he said. "You mean Meryl's office?" she asked. "Yeah" he said. "Are you a client?" asked the woman. "I guess I am" he said. "Wait you can't be a client she didn't have a client since she took on the job to follow around Vash the stamped" she said. "Lately she's been acting strange" said the woman. Vash waited patiently for her to finish and tell him the way. "Oh right, just follow me" she said. Vash nodded and followed after her. They went to some or more like hundreds of turns before the woman stopped. "Claire, have you heard about Bryan?" asked another woman from her desk. Vash wanted to slap his forehead and yell 'can you just show me to Meryl's office!' but of course he couldn't do that. "Excuse me" Vash started. "Oh right, Meryl's' office-" Claire was cut short when she heard a gasp. Claire turned to see Meryl standing with wide eyes mouth open, clutching the folder in her hands. As her lips formed the word "Vash..."
Vash took in the full image of Meryl. At first he couldn't believe his eyes, was his woman standing in front of really the same Meryl that left him 2 years ago. "Meryl" he said. Claire watched the two before two and two added in her head. "Whoa! Your Vash the stamped?" she asked backing away. "Vash..." said Meryl once again as if to check this wasn't a dream. "Meryl...how have you been?" he asked walking forward. Meryl found herself trembling as he neared her. Vash stepped in to her office and Meryl turned and looked after him. "This is a nice office" he said. "Vash is that really you?" she asked in a whispered. "Yeah it's the same old me" he said. Meryl closed the door behind her and stood there for a second to see if she was sane. "You look taller" he said. "I feel the same" she said. "I like your hair" he said looking at her now a little long hair that was in a small lose curls. [AN: People she needed a damn change] "Thanks" she said. Vash walked towards her and placed a hand on her cheek. Meryl's eyes watered. "Your real right?" she asked also putting a hand to his cheek. "As real as it gets" he whispered. Meryl nodded and threw her arms around him drawing him close. Vash sighed as if finally he was aloud to let his breath go free and taken in much needed air.
Claire stood shocked, she was just talking to Vash the Stamped, the 60 billion$$ man. Her eye seemed confused as she stared at the closed door. The look on Meryl's face was...so surprised and skeptical. Claire took it as a bad thing and launched herself for the chief's office. Meryl finally after minutes of eternity but still not enough of holding Vash pulled away and a small smile appeared on her face. "What have you been up to?" she asked. "Nothing much, but missing you" he said. Meryl wiped her tears away. "You look so beautiful" he said pulling on a curl. Meryl let out a small chuckle. "You broom head" she said. Vash got his stupid grin and started to walk around the office. "How come this office is nicer then your other offices when you were traveling with me?" he asked. "Well, you idiot, for one we were TRAVELING and I had other things to do then decorate my office" she said going behind the desk and sitting down once more. Vash sat on one of the chair in front of her desk. "How is Milly, Wolfwood, and your brother?" She asked. "Milly and Wolfwood are fine, and Knives is, well he's under treatment" said Vash. "I feel bad for him, but I can understand where he was coming from" she said. "Huh?" asked Vash. Meryl looked towards the window. "People are afraid of the unknown, afraid of people that are different, because they have no other explanation for them, so chose to hate it, some try to see the good, and others just don't care. Most of the time the hate is great for they are full of fear" said Meryl.
Vash chuckled "For a minuet how smart you are" he said. Meryl smile. "It's nice to see you again...even though you look the same" she whispered. Vash looked down as an awkward silence worked it's way in to the room. Meryl stared at the man before him, he had grown so much more handsome, but that could be the time she didn't seem him. The sad part was he didn't look like she aged a bit. While she herself became 25 years old he stayed a 27 year old man for the past 100 years. Funny how she fast time went for her, but when she wasn't with him time slowed down for her. When she was with him, it was as if time was running a marathon, not giving her the forever she needed. "Why?" she asked finally. "Why what?" she asked. "Why did you come?" she asked. *Smart Meryl your so smart! Your pushing the man you love away from you!* she thought. Vash knew that she wanted to know, but he also had doubts about if she didn't want him there. "I wanted see how you were doing considering I had nothing to do" he said. "Oh" was all that came out of Meryl. Another silence fell in the room that seem so still yet it was vibrating. The small knock on the door snapped each back to reality. "Come in" said Meryl. The chief stepped in looking worried. "Jon-chief?" asked Meryl catching herself. Vash looked back to see the man who wanted to take Meryl from him...forever.
"Meryl" he said. Vash felt different emotion at the way he called her name. "Is there something you wanted to tell me?" she asked. "There is a little mix up I'm sure, but is that Vash the Stamped?" he asked. "Yes, sir it is Vash the Stamped" she said. The chief looked at the way her eyes softened. Vash turned and threw the chief his stupid grin and waved. Meryl chuckled with a small smile. The chief seemed so disturbed by this act that he just stared dumbly. "Jonathan everything is all right" said Meryl. Vash's smile disappeared slowly when he heard her address him by his first name. Chief nodded and walked out. "I think I should go" said Vash standing up to leave. "Where are you staying?" she asked. Vash laughed nervously "Well I didn't think of that I came straight here" he said. "You can stay at my place, there is plenty of room there" she said looking at the ground. Vash chuckled "Are sure there is enough room for me?" he asked. "There always be room for you...no matter what" she said. Vash turned and pulled Meryl in to another hug. "I wanted to see if your all right" he said. "I am" she said. *NO YOUR NOT!* they both thought. "I'll show you to my place" she said. "Don't you have to work?" he asked. Meryl shook her head on his chest. "No, I finish everything I need to" she whispered. Vash nodded and let her go so she could grab her bag and other things.
Meryl and Vash stepped out of her office as everyone eyed him. "Meryl where are you going?" asked Claire. "I'm taking the rest of the day off" said Meryl. "You...You are?" she asked surprised. Meryl smiled and walked out with Vash. "I think the world has finally gone insane, Meryl Stryfe just left work before the rest of us, and were alive after Vash the Stamped has stepped in to this building" said Bryan as he passed the wide eyed women. Chief looked out the window and watched as Meryl and the Humanoid Typhoon walked out smiling at each other. "I don't know why they looked so surprised" said Meryl as he and Vash walked in to the small crowd. "Hey how about we get some doughnuts" said Vash pointing at the bakery. "Sure" said Meryl. They walked in to the small bakery with some small French style tables. "What will you like?" asked a waiter. "A cup of tea and dozen doughnut" said Meryl. The waiter nodded and walked off. "This is a cute place" said Vash looking around. "Yeah, I come here sometimes. great place to think" she said. Vash looked towards Meryl where she sat with a soft smile. "You didn't have to leave you know" he said. "I know, but I was tired of the same room" she said. Those words to Vash was like saying 'I'm your take me' for Meryl never picks anything over her job. The waiter came back shortly with a cup of tea and a tray full of doughnuts. Meryl's eyes sparkled at the way Vash stuffed his mouth. Yeah it would have been a turn off if hey were back in the old times, but when you don't see the man you love for 2 damn years you accept any part of him.
Vash watched as Meryl sat there smiling at him. She lips moved toward the cup of tea in her hands. He couldn't take his eyes from her face, she looked so beautiful with the steam surrounding her face, her lips that glisten with the moisture of the liquid. He had to smile, she seem happy, and he didn't know if it was because of him or just that she was feeling that way today. They sat no words expressed each enjoying the others company. "These doughnuts are good, do you want some?" he asked. "No, I'm fine" she said. She wanted to laugh, it seemed 'I'm Fine' has become part of her everyday vocabulary, and phrase. Vash smiled and nodded. They spent most of the morning just in the bakery watching each other to their hearts content, and still it wasn't enough. Around noon they thought they should take a walk. Meryl showed him some of the places she spent her time, which consisted of a book store, a small restaurant, and a boutique. "I want you to see the park" she said pulling him by his hand. Vash smiled and held her hand. They walked hand in hand in to the small part of the city that managed to grow up some geo plant. It was beautiful, the green trees that surrounded the small area as if they were keeping a secret that the rest of the world wasn't supposed to know. The suns light shining like large jewels under the lush green leaves.
"This is my favorite spot" said Meryl. There was some small birds that cheeped and flew by, they neared the fountain that had the running clear water. Vash smiled, the place felt alive, and warm. "It's a beautiful place" he said. "I know, I come here all the time" she said. "Do you come alone?" he asked. "I never bought anyone here, except you" she said. Vash pulled her close, lacing their fingers together. Meryl looked up at him and found her breath catch in her throat, as Vash smiled up at her, he looked like an angel with the sun light and leaves playing on his face. "I only want to bring you here...to share this with you" she whispered. Vash nodded and looked down at face. He leaned down to taste her, to feel her lips between his, but before they could a ball came flying towards them. Vash caught the ball with one hand looked at it. "Hey Mister can we have our ball back?" asked a small boy looking up at him wrinkling his nose. Meryl smiled and took the ball from Vash and handed to the boy. "Here you go" she said. "Hey thanks" he said and ran off to where his other friends were. Meryl looked toward the fountain and started to walk towards it. In truth she was nervous, and afraid when Vash was about to kiss, so naturally she was grateful to the small boy.
Vash followed after her with a small smile. He watched as Meryl dipped her hand in to the water and let the substance flow through her hand and then she repeated it again. "Funny how two years feel like living life all over again" said Meryl. "For me it was like living 133 year of my life again" said Vash. "The chief..." started Meryl. "I know..." said Vash. Meryl looked at where Vash stood. "How?" she asked. "Milly gave the letter you wrote to her" he said. "I should have known" whispered Meryl. "Do you love him?" asked Vash. "What kind of question is that?" she asked. "The kind of question where you tell me yes or no and explain your reason" he said. "How could you think? Did you read that letter or did Milly just read you certain parts?" she asked. "I read it...I read it all" he said. "So then how can you ask me such a stupid and painful question?" she asked. "How?" he asked. "No...Vash I don't love him" she said. "Then why can't you tell him 'no' because I can tell he loves you" said Vash. "I don't know Vash" she said. "Your thinking about it...aren't you?" asked Vash. "Can you blame me?" she asked. "No, I guess not" he said. "No matter it wouldn't last" said Meryl. "Huh?" asked Vash. "The marriage...because I wouldn't know how to control myself" she said. Vash thought she lost her mind. "Funny isn't it Vash, how I try so hard to keep myself in control, while my biggest fear is that I'll lose control" she said. "Meryl..." he started.
"Don't Vash...lets not start it again" she said standing. "Come on I'll show you to my apartment, it's through the park" she said. Vash frowned and followed. They walked the short distance in silent. Each trying and hoping that a whole on the ground would just swallow them up. They neared a small apartment building going up to about 8 floors. "I live there, because you can at least see some green when you look out the window" she said as she pushed open the door and walked inside. They got on to the elevator, another 2 minuets of cheesy music, and then they were on the 6th floor. "This is my apartment" she said as she unlocked the door and it opened to a cream colored wall of the hall way, the walls held painting and picture frames the ceiling had a small simple yet elegant lighting system. Vash stepped in and Meryl after him closing the door. Vash walked forward and entered a fairly large room which had walls of an ivory color with white roses as border, the room was full with beautiful creamy white sofa, a 'love' seat right next to it, and a chair across from the love seat, in the center of the whole seats was a glass table, which held a patter filled with dried flowers. [AN: potpourri is the dried flower with pretty colors and smells nice] Ivory vintage lace jacquard panels and scarf over them on the big windows that looked in to the small park they had just past. The room contained other items, But all in all it was an orderly and beautiful place just like the owner. "It's a nice place" he said. "Thanks" said Meryl hanging her cape on the hook. Vash looked around, the room was filled with picture of her and Milly, and her, and others that he didn't know.
Those pictures started to bring questions about her past and about her life. Come to think of it he didn't know who Meryl Stryfe was when it all came down to it. He knew her as the insurance girl, and that was all. Meryl watched as he looked around. She smiled. This place was so big in her eyes, just perfect for two people to share, she was here all that was missing was standing in front of her yet she was afraid to grasp it. Meryl shook her head and walked in to the kitchen. She felt silly, and she felt like she was back to the beginning, struggling to tell him that she cared. She looked around and then at the clock which read 3:30. Again time was running a marathon with her time with him. She stood frozen for a minute before she started to take some items out to make Vash dinner. Vash finally noticed that Meryl wasn't in the room with him, and heard noise coming from the what he assume was the kitchen. He walked in to the kitchen to see her busy with cutting up something and humming to herself as she did. Vash would have laughed if he wasn't in love with this woman, she was perfect in situation you threw at her. A house wife, a mother, an insurance girl, a body guard, anything. But the horrible truth was she just couldn't be Meryl.
TBC
***********************************************************************< br /> AN: Ok *Yawn* I am tired as hell. I finish this chapter for all of you. I wanted to make it longer but didn't have the time or energy. I will put up another chapter hopefully tomorrow, until then please review. I love all of you who did. Sorry for my crappy spelling and grammar T_T but I can't help it. Thanks ^_~
By: Haruka-chan
AN: Hello! *Yes I am embarrassed by my 'sweet' side more like retarded* Well anyway I am a new fan of Trigun, so I don't know ALL the information about it, but I'm on the quest of uncovering everything I can! AaAahah *See what I mean?* This Fic is going to different from most of the Vash returns with Knives and Meryl being bitch about it, and Wolfwood is alive *She had to do it for her cheery friend Milly* In this story everything is going to be quite the opposite. This fic is going to be confusing, boring at times, and weird so read on your own discretion. I won't explain what it's about, I'll let you find out on your own. Ok let sing the Hamtaro song lalalalala *Excuse me while I go and slap my sweet Cough(retarded)Cough self*
*....*- Means that it's character thoughts.
*~....~*- Character is thinking about what someone said in the past.
"...."- Means characters are talking.
****.....****- Means dreams of the character.
~~~***...***~~~- Means letters and notes from characters
The unbearable feelings...Chapter 4
Two people who look so alike....but so different...in their thought and views...yet so much alike...in there wants and needs...confusing isn't it?
Last Time...
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"He's nothing they say he is..." she whispered. "Meryl what has gotten in to you..." asked Claire. "Meryl" said a deep voice. "Oh morning chief" said Claire facing the tall handsome man with brown hair and deep green eyes. [AN: I know in the anime the chief looks nothing close to being cute, but I feel for Meryl so I will make him handsome, but not as much as Vash] "Morning Parker" said the chief. Meryl looked out the window. Claire nodded and left closing the door behind her. "Meryl?" he asked again, but she didn't move. "Are you feeling all right?" asked the chief placing his hand on her shoulder. "Please, tell me what's bothering you" he said softly. "I can't..." she said. "Why not?" he asked confused. "Because I can't. You have to give me room to breath Jonathan" she whispered. "Why do I get the feeling that you're not happy?" he asked. *Because I'm not you idiot!* thought Meryl. "I'm fine just a little stressed out" she said. "Meryl...I will 'wait' as long as you need" he said. Meryl thought her tears would explode right there and then when those words came from his lips. "Jonathan I'm fine...and I don't want to make you wait forever" she said. He chuckled and wrapped his arms around her shoulder and placed a kiss on her cheek. Meryl was glad that the window didn't show her reflection, because that would have given away all the pain that was evident there. "I don't care, I will if I have to" he said. Meryl nodded. "I think we should go back to work" she said as she pushed away from him. "Meryl do you mind explaining to me why you keep pushing me away?" he asked. "Jonathan please just don't push me, you know I'm not comfortable..." she said. "Not comfortable enough to kiss me?" he asked. "I'm sorry!" yelled Meryl. Jonathan's features softened. "Meryl I want to be there for you" he said placing a hand on her cheek.
Meryl turned away from his hand. "Then be there and don't push yourself on me" said Meryl. "I don't want to be selfish Jonathan but I can't have you in my space...I'm not ready to share that space with 'you' yet" she said looking down at the ground. *The truth is there is only one person I can share my life with, but he's not here...no I'm not going to cry* she thought. "Meryl" he said. "Jonathan it's best if we just leave it at that I really need some time to finish the latest report" said Meryl. Jonathan sighed and walked towards the door. "Well, have lunch then" he said walking out. Meryl let her tears out when she heard the door close. "I can't live without him" she whispered. "I can't live this false life" she whispered. Vash stood outside the large building. I'm here* he thought.
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Vash stood out side the Bernardelli Insurance company, looking up at the large building with half excitement and half doubt. *Maybe this was a mistake* he thought, but his body just walked forward towards the door. He walked inside the women that worked their looked his way some throwing him smiles others, blushing. He chuckled and made his way to the counter that read 'INFORMATION' in big bold letters. "Hello I'm looking for Meryl Stryfe" he said. The man behind the desk looked as if he could careless about who he was looking for but pulled the small microphone towards his mouth. "10th floor, west side, section A room 16 office 23" he said. Vash looked at him for a while before nodding and walking towards the elevator. "Damn she can't work on a floor where it's easy to find?" he asked. After 5 minutes of cheesy elevator music and getting lost on the North and every other direction but the West, he made to the West side section A. He looked around the slightly bust people as they greeted one another and looked pissed, or happy or just neutral hard that their work. *I can see their personalities is perfect for the job* he though as he entered and looked around for a while.
"Can I help you?" asked a woman with blonde hair. Vash turned and smile. "Yeah I was looking for room 16 office 23" he said. "You mean Meryl's office?" she asked. "Yeah" he said. "Are you a client?" asked the woman. "I guess I am" he said. "Wait you can't be a client she didn't have a client since she took on the job to follow around Vash the stamped" she said. "Lately she's been acting strange" said the woman. Vash waited patiently for her to finish and tell him the way. "Oh right, just follow me" she said. Vash nodded and followed after her. They went to some or more like hundreds of turns before the woman stopped. "Claire, have you heard about Bryan?" asked another woman from her desk. Vash wanted to slap his forehead and yell 'can you just show me to Meryl's office!' but of course he couldn't do that. "Excuse me" Vash started. "Oh right, Meryl's' office-" Claire was cut short when she heard a gasp. Claire turned to see Meryl standing with wide eyes mouth open, clutching the folder in her hands. As her lips formed the word "Vash..."
Vash took in the full image of Meryl. At first he couldn't believe his eyes, was his woman standing in front of really the same Meryl that left him 2 years ago. "Meryl" he said. Claire watched the two before two and two added in her head. "Whoa! Your Vash the stamped?" she asked backing away. "Vash..." said Meryl once again as if to check this wasn't a dream. "Meryl...how have you been?" he asked walking forward. Meryl found herself trembling as he neared her. Vash stepped in to her office and Meryl turned and looked after him. "This is a nice office" he said. "Vash is that really you?" she asked in a whispered. "Yeah it's the same old me" he said. Meryl closed the door behind her and stood there for a second to see if she was sane. "You look taller" he said. "I feel the same" she said. "I like your hair" he said looking at her now a little long hair that was in a small lose curls. [AN: People she needed a damn change] "Thanks" she said. Vash walked towards her and placed a hand on her cheek. Meryl's eyes watered. "Your real right?" she asked also putting a hand to his cheek. "As real as it gets" he whispered. Meryl nodded and threw her arms around him drawing him close. Vash sighed as if finally he was aloud to let his breath go free and taken in much needed air.
Claire stood shocked, she was just talking to Vash the Stamped, the 60 billion$$ man. Her eye seemed confused as she stared at the closed door. The look on Meryl's face was...so surprised and skeptical. Claire took it as a bad thing and launched herself for the chief's office. Meryl finally after minutes of eternity but still not enough of holding Vash pulled away and a small smile appeared on her face. "What have you been up to?" she asked. "Nothing much, but missing you" he said. Meryl wiped her tears away. "You look so beautiful" he said pulling on a curl. Meryl let out a small chuckle. "You broom head" she said. Vash got his stupid grin and started to walk around the office. "How come this office is nicer then your other offices when you were traveling with me?" he asked. "Well, you idiot, for one we were TRAVELING and I had other things to do then decorate my office" she said going behind the desk and sitting down once more. Vash sat on one of the chair in front of her desk. "How is Milly, Wolfwood, and your brother?" She asked. "Milly and Wolfwood are fine, and Knives is, well he's under treatment" said Vash. "I feel bad for him, but I can understand where he was coming from" she said. "Huh?" asked Vash. Meryl looked towards the window. "People are afraid of the unknown, afraid of people that are different, because they have no other explanation for them, so chose to hate it, some try to see the good, and others just don't care. Most of the time the hate is great for they are full of fear" said Meryl.
Vash chuckled "For a minuet how smart you are" he said. Meryl smile. "It's nice to see you again...even though you look the same" she whispered. Vash looked down as an awkward silence worked it's way in to the room. Meryl stared at the man before him, he had grown so much more handsome, but that could be the time she didn't seem him. The sad part was he didn't look like she aged a bit. While she herself became 25 years old he stayed a 27 year old man for the past 100 years. Funny how she fast time went for her, but when she wasn't with him time slowed down for her. When she was with him, it was as if time was running a marathon, not giving her the forever she needed. "Why?" she asked finally. "Why what?" she asked. "Why did you come?" she asked. *Smart Meryl your so smart! Your pushing the man you love away from you!* she thought. Vash knew that she wanted to know, but he also had doubts about if she didn't want him there. "I wanted see how you were doing considering I had nothing to do" he said. "Oh" was all that came out of Meryl. Another silence fell in the room that seem so still yet it was vibrating. The small knock on the door snapped each back to reality. "Come in" said Meryl. The chief stepped in looking worried. "Jon-chief?" asked Meryl catching herself. Vash looked back to see the man who wanted to take Meryl from him...forever.
"Meryl" he said. Vash felt different emotion at the way he called her name. "Is there something you wanted to tell me?" she asked. "There is a little mix up I'm sure, but is that Vash the Stamped?" he asked. "Yes, sir it is Vash the Stamped" she said. The chief looked at the way her eyes softened. Vash turned and threw the chief his stupid grin and waved. Meryl chuckled with a small smile. The chief seemed so disturbed by this act that he just stared dumbly. "Jonathan everything is all right" said Meryl. Vash's smile disappeared slowly when he heard her address him by his first name. Chief nodded and walked out. "I think I should go" said Vash standing up to leave. "Where are you staying?" she asked. Vash laughed nervously "Well I didn't think of that I came straight here" he said. "You can stay at my place, there is plenty of room there" she said looking at the ground. Vash chuckled "Are sure there is enough room for me?" he asked. "There always be room for you...no matter what" she said. Vash turned and pulled Meryl in to another hug. "I wanted to see if your all right" he said. "I am" she said. *NO YOUR NOT!* they both thought. "I'll show you to my place" she said. "Don't you have to work?" he asked. Meryl shook her head on his chest. "No, I finish everything I need to" she whispered. Vash nodded and let her go so she could grab her bag and other things.
Meryl and Vash stepped out of her office as everyone eyed him. "Meryl where are you going?" asked Claire. "I'm taking the rest of the day off" said Meryl. "You...You are?" she asked surprised. Meryl smiled and walked out with Vash. "I think the world has finally gone insane, Meryl Stryfe just left work before the rest of us, and were alive after Vash the Stamped has stepped in to this building" said Bryan as he passed the wide eyed women. Chief looked out the window and watched as Meryl and the Humanoid Typhoon walked out smiling at each other. "I don't know why they looked so surprised" said Meryl as he and Vash walked in to the small crowd. "Hey how about we get some doughnuts" said Vash pointing at the bakery. "Sure" said Meryl. They walked in to the small bakery with some small French style tables. "What will you like?" asked a waiter. "A cup of tea and dozen doughnut" said Meryl. The waiter nodded and walked off. "This is a cute place" said Vash looking around. "Yeah, I come here sometimes. great place to think" she said. Vash looked towards Meryl where she sat with a soft smile. "You didn't have to leave you know" he said. "I know, but I was tired of the same room" she said. Those words to Vash was like saying 'I'm your take me' for Meryl never picks anything over her job. The waiter came back shortly with a cup of tea and a tray full of doughnuts. Meryl's eyes sparkled at the way Vash stuffed his mouth. Yeah it would have been a turn off if hey were back in the old times, but when you don't see the man you love for 2 damn years you accept any part of him.
Vash watched as Meryl sat there smiling at him. She lips moved toward the cup of tea in her hands. He couldn't take his eyes from her face, she looked so beautiful with the steam surrounding her face, her lips that glisten with the moisture of the liquid. He had to smile, she seem happy, and he didn't know if it was because of him or just that she was feeling that way today. They sat no words expressed each enjoying the others company. "These doughnuts are good, do you want some?" he asked. "No, I'm fine" she said. She wanted to laugh, it seemed 'I'm Fine' has become part of her everyday vocabulary, and phrase. Vash smiled and nodded. They spent most of the morning just in the bakery watching each other to their hearts content, and still it wasn't enough. Around noon they thought they should take a walk. Meryl showed him some of the places she spent her time, which consisted of a book store, a small restaurant, and a boutique. "I want you to see the park" she said pulling him by his hand. Vash smiled and held her hand. They walked hand in hand in to the small part of the city that managed to grow up some geo plant. It was beautiful, the green trees that surrounded the small area as if they were keeping a secret that the rest of the world wasn't supposed to know. The suns light shining like large jewels under the lush green leaves.
"This is my favorite spot" said Meryl. There was some small birds that cheeped and flew by, they neared the fountain that had the running clear water. Vash smiled, the place felt alive, and warm. "It's a beautiful place" he said. "I know, I come here all the time" she said. "Do you come alone?" he asked. "I never bought anyone here, except you" she said. Vash pulled her close, lacing their fingers together. Meryl looked up at him and found her breath catch in her throat, as Vash smiled up at her, he looked like an angel with the sun light and leaves playing on his face. "I only want to bring you here...to share this with you" she whispered. Vash nodded and looked down at face. He leaned down to taste her, to feel her lips between his, but before they could a ball came flying towards them. Vash caught the ball with one hand looked at it. "Hey Mister can we have our ball back?" asked a small boy looking up at him wrinkling his nose. Meryl smiled and took the ball from Vash and handed to the boy. "Here you go" she said. "Hey thanks" he said and ran off to where his other friends were. Meryl looked toward the fountain and started to walk towards it. In truth she was nervous, and afraid when Vash was about to kiss, so naturally she was grateful to the small boy.
Vash followed after her with a small smile. He watched as Meryl dipped her hand in to the water and let the substance flow through her hand and then she repeated it again. "Funny how two years feel like living life all over again" said Meryl. "For me it was like living 133 year of my life again" said Vash. "The chief..." started Meryl. "I know..." said Vash. Meryl looked at where Vash stood. "How?" she asked. "Milly gave the letter you wrote to her" he said. "I should have known" whispered Meryl. "Do you love him?" asked Vash. "What kind of question is that?" she asked. "The kind of question where you tell me yes or no and explain your reason" he said. "How could you think? Did you read that letter or did Milly just read you certain parts?" she asked. "I read it...I read it all" he said. "So then how can you ask me such a stupid and painful question?" she asked. "How?" he asked. "No...Vash I don't love him" she said. "Then why can't you tell him 'no' because I can tell he loves you" said Vash. "I don't know Vash" she said. "Your thinking about it...aren't you?" asked Vash. "Can you blame me?" she asked. "No, I guess not" he said. "No matter it wouldn't last" said Meryl. "Huh?" asked Vash. "The marriage...because I wouldn't know how to control myself" she said. Vash thought she lost her mind. "Funny isn't it Vash, how I try so hard to keep myself in control, while my biggest fear is that I'll lose control" she said. "Meryl..." he started.
"Don't Vash...lets not start it again" she said standing. "Come on I'll show you to my apartment, it's through the park" she said. Vash frowned and followed. They walked the short distance in silent. Each trying and hoping that a whole on the ground would just swallow them up. They neared a small apartment building going up to about 8 floors. "I live there, because you can at least see some green when you look out the window" she said as she pushed open the door and walked inside. They got on to the elevator, another 2 minuets of cheesy music, and then they were on the 6th floor. "This is my apartment" she said as she unlocked the door and it opened to a cream colored wall of the hall way, the walls held painting and picture frames the ceiling had a small simple yet elegant lighting system. Vash stepped in and Meryl after him closing the door. Vash walked forward and entered a fairly large room which had walls of an ivory color with white roses as border, the room was full with beautiful creamy white sofa, a 'love' seat right next to it, and a chair across from the love seat, in the center of the whole seats was a glass table, which held a patter filled with dried flowers. [AN: potpourri is the dried flower with pretty colors and smells nice] Ivory vintage lace jacquard panels and scarf over them on the big windows that looked in to the small park they had just past. The room contained other items, But all in all it was an orderly and beautiful place just like the owner. "It's a nice place" he said. "Thanks" said Meryl hanging her cape on the hook. Vash looked around, the room was filled with picture of her and Milly, and her, and others that he didn't know.
Those pictures started to bring questions about her past and about her life. Come to think of it he didn't know who Meryl Stryfe was when it all came down to it. He knew her as the insurance girl, and that was all. Meryl watched as he looked around. She smiled. This place was so big in her eyes, just perfect for two people to share, she was here all that was missing was standing in front of her yet she was afraid to grasp it. Meryl shook her head and walked in to the kitchen. She felt silly, and she felt like she was back to the beginning, struggling to tell him that she cared. She looked around and then at the clock which read 3:30. Again time was running a marathon with her time with him. She stood frozen for a minute before she started to take some items out to make Vash dinner. Vash finally noticed that Meryl wasn't in the room with him, and heard noise coming from the what he assume was the kitchen. He walked in to the kitchen to see her busy with cutting up something and humming to herself as she did. Vash would have laughed if he wasn't in love with this woman, she was perfect in situation you threw at her. A house wife, a mother, an insurance girl, a body guard, anything. But the horrible truth was she just couldn't be Meryl.
TBC
***********************************************************************< br /> AN: Ok *Yawn* I am tired as hell. I finish this chapter for all of you. I wanted to make it longer but didn't have the time or energy. I will put up another chapter hopefully tomorrow, until then please review. I love all of you who did. Sorry for my crappy spelling and grammar T_T but I can't help it. Thanks ^_~