Tsubasa Chronicle Fan Fiction ❯ The Devilish Big Puppy and the Vampiric Big Kitty ❯ I awoke...He awakes ( Chapter 2 )

Disclaimer:

Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles is not mine- it's owned by CLAMP and made by CLAMP. Kuro-tan and Fai-san will never be mine… Syaoran-kun and Sakura-chan were not made by me…It's a bittersweet thing…

Note:

Ah... this is not supposed to be a collection of one shots and it is not. It will follow the story line of TRC with maybe small sidetracks however; I can't consider it a series as well so I really don't know. This would appear to be a poem of some sort but I can't call it a poem either! Anyway... there would be lots of spoilers from the manga but the story starts with Tokyo Revelations. This would deal more with feelings so things would be confusing for those who does not read the manga. This would most likely be a KuroFai thing but it won't be yaoi...

 

WARNING: This fanfic is not as fluffy as the title

 

The devilish big puppy and the vampiric big kitty

 

II. “I awoke… He awakes”

 

I wanted him to live

To die was what I want

My wish was granted

Forsaken was mine

I am relieved

Troubled am I

What will he do?

How will I react?

 

…

 

[Kuro- puppy]

 

I know that this is my wish not his

I am aware that things will change,

but still…

I am aware that things will never be the same again,

then again…

At least there could be something good about this

Or maybe there won't

 

I may no longer have to bear stupid comments…

I may no longer have to bear with the endless noise…

I may never have to bear with being forced to eat sweets…

I might not be a called a dog anymore

I hopefully won't hear my name changed anymore…

Those are good are they not?

At least the idiotic mage won't irritate me much now, right?

 

Although…

 

Would he speak to me at all?

Would he even glance at me at all?

Would he forgive me at all?

Would he be distant from now on?

Would he be able to live happily at all?

Would he be able to smile truthfully one day?

Will my wish come true someday?

 

My wish…

What was my wish?

Was it for him or for me?

I wanted the idiot to live so as he will smile…

But he didn't want to live… would he smile?

For whom was my wish?

I imposed my will upon him…

It's an act I hate, so why?

Why did I made him live when he himself wished to die?

 

In that case…

 

-ah idiocy is indeed contagious…

The answer is simple…

After all it is my wish…

People can be selfish with wishes, can we not?

I wished for his life to remain…

I wished for him to remain

I wanted him to live

I wanted him to smile

I wished to see him live

I wished to see him smile

I wished for him to smile…

… to one day smile…

…smile a real smile…

I wished for the idiot to live so as he may direct a real smile at me…

A selfish wish that may or may not be granted…

What will he do?

 

“Good Morning, Kurogane”

 

I saw a glimpse of gold…

It was cold…

Then it turned to ice, afterwards he smiled…

It was that smile

Ah- so that's what he decided…

My wish is far from granted…

Will it be granted…?

As I see the smiling idiot with very cold eyes…

I realized…

… my wish is no where near granted.

But I am stubborn…

I don't regret…

At least the idiot lives

…At least…

 

…

 

[Fai- kitty]

 

Azure eyes and blond hair with its caring sad gaze…

Sharp unforgiving grey…

Dark manipulative black orbs…

I can see countless gazes passing in my mind…

… a horrible dream…

Calm gold filled with love…

…Demented golden eyes surrounded by blood…

 

`Please stop…'

 

A searching knowing gaze…

People in tears, wearing a smile, wounded, dead…

A bright innocent emerald

Determined amber…pained…

An amber eye turning azure…

Again… those loving gold…

…the sinister insane gold…

 

…blood…

…pain…

 

…a searing gaze…

It's pleading… tainted with anger; desperation…

 

I hear my voice…

The emotion…overwhelming…

“I'm sorry”

 

I remember `our' wish

 

I want to die

I want to die

I want to die

I want to die

I want to die

But before I die…

I want somebody to love me…

 

As I saw your face, your rage, your eyes…

I realized…

I can now die…

`let me die'

 

…deaths embrace…

…its suffocating yet welcoming…

…brother, I'm coming…

 

...warmth…?

What is this?

…this smell…

…this taste…

This is blood!

 

Pain…

Unbearable pain…

It hurts!

WHY?!

Even in death…?

Was my sin that unforgivable?!

Was my life that much of a mistake…?

It hurts…it hurts…why…?

 

Everything hurts…

My bones…

My chest…

My heart…

 

I can hear a voice…

Its pained…

Mine…?

No… its not.

 

As the pain subsides

I noticed…

Someone's near…

Always been near…

From the start…

I loosened my fingers…

Fingers clutching the mans arms…

 

I lift my head…

Opened my eyes

I knew from the start…

Knew that yours would greet me…

Those crimson eyes...

 

I never thought the time would come…

The time I'd hate those eyes…

They had always been hard…

Why are they so relieved now…?

 

As my eyes closed again…

I mourned…

I mourned for the death of my wish.

My wish has not been granted…

It had been taken away…

 

As my consciousness retuned I felt it…

I felt a new power stirring within me…

Put it aside, I felt someone near me…

 

As I forced my body in a sitting position, I decided…

I hate him…and so I said,

 

“Good morning, Kurogane.”

 

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