Vision Of Escaflowne Fan Fiction ❯ Two souls ... two destinies ❯ We all ... have our fears ( Chapter 5 )

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Farge, Kokato and the others that will appear along this story.

The vision of Escaflowne: Two souls ... two destinies

Chapter 5: We all ... have our fears.

Fanélia's Palace:

"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?" - Christina asked still not recovered from
the explosion.

"Is it so difficult to see that we are UNDER ATTACK!" - Merle yelled
while running to the corridor.

"Merle wait ... what do you think you're doing!" - Marta run after
her.

"Hei you two! WAIT FOR ME!" - Hitomi was next.

"I don't know about you three, but I'm not going to stay here and
watch! Wait for me TOO!" - Farge went after the three girls that had
left the room.

Mirana, Celena and Christina exchanged admiring looks and than run
after the others.

~*~*~

At the end of the corridor, close to the training-room, they found
Van, Allen and Dryden.

"I'll get Sherazade!" - Allen left the palace, towards the Crusade.

"And I'll get Escaflowne!" - when Van started running, another
explosion could be felt. And as the floor was made of wood: all of
them (including the girls) were thrown into the air, and when they
reached the floor they rolled over, cause another explosion occurred.
Merle, Christina, Farge, Celena and Mirana were giving some screams
that could be heard miles away. While Marta and Hitomi didn't make a
sound. At least till ...

~*~*~

"I told you not to make any damage!" - Zardus screamed from his black
and grey Guymelef.

"Sorry sir! I swear it was not on purpose!" - said a male voice from
one of the blue Guymelefs.

"Be more careful next time! We came to conquer the city and not to
destroy it, is that clear?"

"Yes sir!"

"Good!" - they continued fighting, only destroying the Guymelefs
research of power, the Drag-enagistô.

~*~*~

"VAN! GET OUT OF THERE RIGHT NOW OR I'LL CUT YOUR HEAD OFF, OR BETTER,
I'LL CUT ANOTHER THING OFF, UNLESS YOU GET YOURSELF FROM UP THERE
RIGHT NOW!" - Marta yelled. With the explosions, Van was on the top of
Marta and she wasn't liking it, not a little bit. Her face was red
with so much anger.

"Do you think I made that on purpose?"

"Now that you ask ... YES I DO!"

"For god's sake! I have more important things o think about right
now!" - he went to wake up Escaflowne. Marta watched him, still in
panic. Van hadn't realised that, he had brought up her greatest fear,
and because of that she couldn't move a muscle.

"What? Are you going to stay in here? I'll go and help them fighting!"
- Farge showed her weapons, some blade-hoops, and went out, for
battling.

Marta finally recovered and went to the training-room, and was
fallowed by Christina. Hitomi had her sword with her, so she fallowed
Farge. Merle, Celena and Mirana stood with Dryden.

~*~*~

Training-room:

"Fuck ..." - Marta managed to say when she realised there were no more
weapons, at least not intact, on the room. Christina entered and saw
some bows and arrows.

"I don't know about you, but I can deal with this thing! See you!"
Christina picked up some arrows and a bow and went out.

"Fortunately I've got a good aim!" - she also picked a bow and some
arrows, going outside, to the battlefield.

~*~*~

Outside:

Marta found Escaflowne fighting, alone with, near twenty Guymelefs.
Fanélia's Guymelefs and Sherazade had already been beaten. Better
saying, their energy was annulled.

"If I were you, Van Fanel ... I would quit right now! You can't beat
us all!" - a male voice came from the Guymelefs in front of
Escaflowne.

"That's what you think!" - said Van, not to confident.

"Your choice! GET HIM!" - the man yelled to his soldiers.

Then, almost all the Guymelefs attacked Van. Van counterattacked with
the same strength as after Ispano repaired Escaflowne, but now, he had
the control of that power and of his anger. He fought for Fanélia.

He cut off the first's arm, and took his sword, using it to defeat two
more. He turned to face three others, and cut them into two pieces,
not killing any soldier. One other attacked him from back, but Van
defended with Escaflowne's sword and with the other beated two more
Guymelefs. He defeated all of them with the same easiness. When he
finished, he saw that only four Guymelefs were still up. One was from
the leader, other was a regular Guymelef and the other two must be
from women cause they had female shape.

He looked down, at his friends who were fighting with the soldiers
that hadn't guymelefs, and saw admiration and fear stacked on his
friends faces.

"God! Van is not human!" - Christina managed to say.

"At least no one died!" - said Marta.

"Happily, not this time!" - Hitomi.

"What? What do you mean with `not this time'?" - Christina asked.

"Nothing!" - Hitomi said and sighed.

Marta remembered a part of Van's story where he told her about a fight
just like this, were he killed all the soldiers and their spirits
tormented him for a while. She was still getting use to the bow and
arrows, but she knew how to defend herself.

~*~*~

"Well, this Van Fanel is much better than I expected, but still ... he
can't defeat the four of us! That I'm sure!" - a male voice from the
second Guymelef. It was Sorú.

"Forget it Sorú! We will retrieve ... for now!" - Zardus said from his
Guymelef to Sorú's one.

"But brother ..." - Ureshiú replied.

"No buts! I made my decision! Go!" - the three guymelefs left, their
Guymelefs had the same technology as Zaiback but had a different
design, and their objective was other. When they were off, Zardus
stood alone with Escaflowne (the only Guymelef on the surroundings).

"Do you think you can defeat me by your own?" - said Van.

"I'm sure of it, but I'll not prove it to you right now. We'll let you
for a while ... but you can be sure we will come back." - Zardus
pressed a button on the right side of his cockpit and all the soldiers
and destroyed Guymelefs disappeared in the air. His destiny was
Zardus' underground fortress. - "Bye bye Van Fanel! See you soon!" -
with this, Zardus was gone.

Van and the others didn't understand a thing. They looked around and
saw, not a destructed city, but destroyed Guymelefs and angered men.

"This is strange, very strange! Why did they attacked and why were
they so worried about not killing anyone?" - Van said, more to
himself.

"Maybe, they'll need them in the future!" - Marta contested, when Van
opened Escaflowne's cockpit.

"What do you mean!" - Van asked concerned, while jumping close to her.

"Well you listen to the men! He wants to CONQUER the city and not
DESTROY it!" - Marta said, than she stood thinking for a while. Van
thought that was weird.

"What? Are you Ok?"

"Yeah! I was just thinking I've heard that guy's voice somewhere ...
but I can't remember where or when!"

"Well, I have to get to the palace, we need a plane, and quickly. Who
knows when are they going to attack again!" - Van ran towards the
throne room, were he and his advisors talked till later in the night.

While that, Marta and the others were helping the citizens to clean up
the whole mess, well more the Guymelefs, cause the damages to the city
were almost none.

~*~*~

Later that night:

Marta was seated on her bed, grabbing her legs. She couldn't stop
remembering the thing from this afternoon. The fear she felt. The
memories she had fought so hardly to forget had come back to ruin her
life ... " ... again!" Tears rolled down her face, she couldn't stop
them, she started to hiccup and her scar started bleeding again. She
tried to forget it, that pain was nothing compared to what she had
suffered. But she couldn't, she couldn't ignore the pain, the horrible
pain that increase on the most deep of her soul ... and heart.

She got out of the bed, she didn't even thought of putting her shoes
on, and went to knock on Van's door. It was late, he should be asleep,
but she had to talk to someone, she needed to.

Van opened the door, still a little sleepy, when he saw Marta his eyes
wined up. He could see her bleeding, and she had her eyes red of
crying so much.

"Marta? What happened?"

"Can I talk to you for a second?" - she said with some difficult, due
to the tears that still rolled down her face.

"Of course, come in!" - he wined the door and let her pass, closing it
after she was in. - "Is it the scar?" - he asked.

"Yes!" - she managed to say, showing him her dress covered with blood,
as her hands were too.

"God! You shouldn't have fought! Promise me you won't do it again!" -
he approached her.

"It was not the fight, Van!"

"Than what was it!" - when he was about to took of her dress, so he
could see her bleeding scar, she snapped his hand. - "WHAT? I have to
take it so I can heal you!"

"No!" - she looked down and he realised that it wasn't the scar what
was hurting her the most.

"Why Marta?" - she looked at his eyes, full of sadness by not knowing
what to do. - "Why are you so afraid of me?"

"I told you before it is no ..." - she was interrupted by Van.

"I know, it's not me, it's about men!" - she looked down again. - "Do
you think I would do anything to you? Do you?" - she said nothing. Her
throat was like empty. - "Well, I'll see that scar, even if it's by
using force.

"NOOOOO!" - He was about to do it, when she screamed and run out from
his room, crying.

"Marta, wait!" - Van went after her.

Marta entered her room and locked the door, and after she jumped over
to the bed, still crying.

"Marta please open the door! You're bleeding too much!" - he was
giving small punches at her door. - "... Marta ..." - he crisped his
nails on the door and then left, back to his room.

~*~*~

Out, in the palace's gardens:

Hitomi was talking with a man; she was happy, very happy to have
someone to talk with at that time of night.

"I'm sorry my lady ... but I have to leave now!" - he raised himself
up and helped Hitomi up. - "It's late and you shouldn't be out here!"

"I couldn't sleep!" - she said timidly.

"And can you now?"

"Yes, I think so!"

"Well, then I guess I'm boring!" - he smiled and she blushed with
embarrassment.

"Oh, not at all ... it's just ..."

"No need to excuses. I'll leave for now! Or do you, my lady, need
someone to lead to your room?"

"No! I know the way!"

"Well, then have a good night, Lady Hitomi!" - he grabbed her hand and
kissed her (the hand). And than he leaved, to the night shadows that
embraced the gardens. Hitomi stood still for a moment and than went
back to her room, falling asleep quite after getting her head on the
pillow.

~*~*~

Marta's room:

"Again ... why can't I control myself? He just wanted to help me! ..."
- Marta laid down on the bed, grabbing her stomach, trying, in some
way, to stop the bleeding. - " ... Now, you stupid girl, you'll suffer
and die for so much bleeding! ... The hell with that, I want to die
anyway ..." - she looked at the starry sky, to Earth and to the Moon.
-"Don't I?"

After a while it stopped bleeding, so she went to sleep.

~*~*~

After an hour:

"NOOOOOO!" - Marta woke up, her dress was all soaked from blood and
from her perspiration. She had a nightmare and meanwhile she started
to sweat. - "A nightmare? ... No ... a remembering from Earth!" - she
looked at it, the shiny and beautiful planet where she had grown up.
She loved the planet but she hated all that was in it. - "Why? Why
can't I forget it?"

She jumped out from the bed, unlocked the door and went to the
bathroom. She opened the washbasin tap and, literally, throwned the
water back to her face. She was crying, again ...

She turned off the water and dropped herself to the floor, embracing
her legs and trying to contain the scream that was about to come out
from her mouth.

The scar wouldn't stop bleeding, and worst, she couldn't stop it, she
couldn't stop the worst pain of them all ... the pain of her heart and
soul.

Her memories were coming again. She had fought so hard to bury them,
and now they had come back.

The scar wasn't hurting, it never hurted, neither when she made it.
Her wounds never hurted, she never felt carnal hurt, she only felt
mental suffering. That was what was killing her, she was dying from
inside.

She could lost litres of blood, but she would never die, she knew it,
she knows it and that is why she is still alive, cause she never
managed to find a way of dying.

"Why? ... Mother, father ... why can't I go close to you again? Why
didn't I died with you both? Why?"

She falls asleep, on her bathroom's floor.

~*~*~

Next morning:

Marta wakes up and gets a shower. She chose a purple dress, so no one
could difference it from the blood that didn't want to stop. She went
out, and than noticed she wasn't alone.

"Good morning Marta!" - Van said, he was next to her door, waiting for
her to leave the room.

"Good morning Van!" - she said with her eyes on the floor.

"Nice dress!" - he grabbed her right arm, and with his left hand
pressed her scar. She yelled, with the pain, it was the first time it
hurted. - "You thought you could cheat on me?" - he pulled her into
her room and locked the door.

"What are you doing Van?" - Marta asked, a little scared.

"I'm going to check your wound, whether you like it or not!"

"No you won't!"

"You're bleeding to much. Do you want to die?"

"YES!" - Van's eyes were wined up. - "But unfortunately this is not
going to kill me!"

"What? Are you out of your mind? You've been loosing blood since
yesterday and you think that will not kill you?"

"I don't think ... I'm sure of it!"

"And how can you be so sure?"

"Van you've seen the scar, do you thing that when I made it, it
wouldn't kill me?"

"You ... you did it?" - he asked, petrified by her confession.

"Yes! It was the first time I ever tried to kill myself!" - she said
looking at the floor.

#Flashback#

When she was thirteen, one day her adopting mother went on shop. Her
adopting father was not at home and she went to the kitchen. She
looked for a knife, a big one.

She finally found one and she was about to trespass her own heart, so
the suffering could stop ... but her adopting mother entered and
grabbed her hand.

"Stop it! What are you trying to do?" - the woman said, while trying
to get the knife out of Marta's hands.

"Get off! Let me do it! I WANT TO DIE!"

She didn't knew how, but she was stronger and she pulled the knife
back to her chest, but a wrong movement and the knife went down. She
felt the blade cutting her skin and she felt good, the nightmare was
over ... finally.

She wanted to cut herself in two pieces, but the women managed to get
the knife out of her hands, when it had past the middle of her waist.

Marta felt to the floor, unconscious. Her adopting parents got her to
the hospital, but the doctors said there was no hope. She heard it and
felt true happiness.

«I'm finally free!» - she thought.

#End of Flashback#

" ... Then it happened!"

"What happened?" - Van asked.

"The stupid force! A inside force that healed me and saved me from
death. The doctors called it a miracle ... I call it the Devil's
revenge!"

"And why? Weren't you happy to have a second chance?"

"Van, if I needed a second chance I would never give up the first one,
don't you think?" - he looked puzzled. - "I tried it several times,
but it never worked!"

"And why? Why did you want to die?" - she looked at him and said
nothing. - "Did someone rape you? Was it that?"

" ... Rape ..." - she made a stupid smile, a mix of sadness and hate.
- "That is too little to describe what I've passed by!"

Van looked at her, finally she said it but he couldn't say a word,
nothing comforting could come out from his mouth. - "I ..."

"Don't say a word! You don't need to!" - she took a seat on a chair. -
"You know something? - Van agitated his head saying no. - "I never had
a friend! That's why I never told anyone about anything." - she smiled
and looked at the floor. - "And now I'm telling it to you. I ask
myself why? Why am I telling it to a man?"

"Cause, before I being a man, I'm your friend and you can trust me!" -
he said, grabbing her chin and lifting up her face. She smiled back.

"Thanks Van!"

"Now, can I see it?"

"See what?"

"Your wound, what else! I don't want you loosing precious blood." - he
took his hand out from her chin and kneeled over her left side. -
"Take off your dress!"

"Oh no! that's out of question!"

"Come on! How am I suppose to heal you if you don't took it off? Or
would you like me to call Mirana?"

"No! You promised you wouldn't tell anyone!"

"Than took it off!" - he demanded. She sighed and started untie her
bodice. Soon she had only her bra and a long white skirt on.

Van treated her wound and bandaged her waist. He lifted himself up and
turned to the window.

"Get dress! Then we will have breakfast!"

"Thanks Van!" - he just smiled, watching his own reflex on the window.

After a while, Marta had chosen a pink dress, with purple bodice. The
worst was that it had to be tied on the back.

Van was still turned at the window.

"Van, give me a hand, will you?" - he turned back to her and she was
with her back turned to him. He immediately understood what she
wanted. He walked over to her and started tying it.

"Now you're not afraid?" - he asked smiling.

"No, cause you're not a man ... you're my friend!" - he finished and
she turned to him smiling.

He offered her his arm and they both went out from the room, arm with
arm.

~*~*~

"Marta? Van-sama? What the hell is going on?"

Merle was about to knock on Marta's bedroom door when the door was
opened. She saw Van and Marta, and immediately though ... other
things.

"It's not what it seems Merle! I just came to pick Marta to have
breakfast!" - Van quickly said.

"Well Merle, now you can have breakfast with us!" - Marta grabbed
Merle's arm and pulled them both to the dinning-room.

"Marta wait!" - Merle made her stop and both, Marta and Van, looked at
Merle. - "I came here cause Hitomi wants to talk to you, before
breakfast!"

"Hitomi? What does she want from me?"

"And how am I suppose to know! Me and Van-sama are going to have
breakfast now, and you come when you finish!" - Merle and Van started
walking without her. - "We will be waiting!"

"Weird!" - she turned and went to Hitomi's room.

~ *~*~

Hitomi's room:

`Knock, knock', someone was at the door and Hitomi went to open it.

"Marta? Good morning! Please come in!" - Hitomi grabbed Marta's arm
and pulled her into her room.

"Uou! Merle told me you wanted to see me!"

"Yes! I want to ask you something!"

"Than ask."

Sorry if this was a little one, but I wanted to stop here. I know, I
know, to much Marta/Van dialogues, but I promise this will change
soon.

Please review; I need to know what you think. I know it sucks, but it
is my first try so give me a break, better thinking ... don't give me
a break and give me your critics, I need it, every one needs critics
(good or bad ones, good are better!).

Well, thanks anyway and see you on the next chapter!

Bye, bye.

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#Ana Nunes#