Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Eternal Youth ❯ Relapse ( Chapter 8 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Dracopup 
Yohji's first mental break down. What does it all mean? You'lll have to read to find out
Anime/Manga: Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Angst | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 01.16.2003 | Updated On: 09.04.2003 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.7K | Visits: 523 | Status: Completed
Yohji's first mental break down. What does it all mean? You'lll have to read to find out
Anime/Manga: Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Angst | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 01.16.2003 | Updated On: 09.04.2003 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.7K | Visits: 523 | Status: Completed
"Oh? What about Yohji?"
"Would you like to come into my office." he gestured down the hall. Away from where the nurse had taken Yohji. I had promissed I'd stay close but Yohji wont know if I walk to this mans office to talk a bit. "We can talk more privately there."
I nod and let him lead me to the office. It would probably be best if we talked in private. The office door halfway down teh hall says: DR. JIM LEE, M.D. I go in and out of habbit glance about the office checking the area and trying to settle this feeling I hae that somethings about to happen. Even though I'm on alert I keep my voice calm. I have lots of practice being an emotional bastard. "What did you want to talk about?"
"Have a seat." the click of the door behind me an I know I'm now trapped in this confines of unease with a man I have just meet and is about to talk about the on ething we have in common. The want to help Yohji get better. "How much did Yohji tell you? About his past and why he comes to see us?" His questions roll off his tounge as he sits in his designer chair and pulls out a file that i can only imagin has Yohjis name on it.
I have no intesion on telling the doctor anything. I don't know hwat he knows. he'll have to gain my trust before I tell him what he wants. "Are you trying to frighten me to stay away from him? besides, I don't see the point of that question. he comes here because he wishes to an dhe doesn't come because he wishes not to."
"I want to see how far along in his treatment he is. He hasn't told anyone about his past. Not even the nurses know, not even Nurse Jen."
"He told me about his father. nothing else and not much about his father." I eye the file and gesture towards it. "Whats that?"
"This file is the last three years of therepy treatment and medical exams. The rest of his files are down stairs in holding. I was hoping he would finally tell someone about what happened to him. It would have ment he was healing." Stop looking at me like that. Your the one who started this mess. i don't have any answers for you. "Just curious, why did he tell you about his father? did he have an episode again?"
"I'm not going to go into detail, but I said I was going to cut his hair short. That started an 'episode' as you and he put it."
The doctor looks at me weirdly again, I hate those eyes of his. Their serching for somthing while at the same time hiding something else. "That's happened before. He didn't hurt himself or anyone else this time I hope? Last time he needed stitches from the slice on his arm."
"Right after I calmed him down he opened up to me. he didn't hurt anyone."
The Dr. Lee started taking notes. "That is definitely an improvement. Yohji has been hurt a lot emotionally and physically. By himself and people around him. The pills I have him on can only temporarily sooth his mind and body but it isn't permanent. He has had a lot of episodes. You probably noticed when ever he would leave the house immediately, lock himself in a room for long periods of time, and wake up screaming." Now doesn't that sound like all four of us? we're killers so of course we all have nightmares and rash moments of outbursts. "Did he tell you what happened to his father?"
"Perhaps he has done those things." I want to leave. i want to see Aya. "Yohji didn't tell me much of his father."
"I was hoping he would have. He hasn't even told us. Even under hypnosis, he never tells us what happened to his father. He goes into shock and medically it gets to dangerous to keep him under any longer." They hypnotize him. Kritiker should be told about this. Even if it does jepordize Yohjis status on the team best to find out hwat the doctor has found out about our secret life.
"Does he ever say strange things when under hypnosis?"
Dr. Lee smiled that funky eerie smile of his. "I know about him being in Weiss." He gestures with his hand like this is all nothing. Even if i know its a breach of security and he should be killed immediatly. "They know about the treatment. Kritiker lets me treat him." He looked serious again "They don't know the reason for the treatment though. So don't tell them. Yohji doesn't wish for them to know." How come I can't quite bring myself to believe him. Especially after Yohji has said kritiker doesn't know anything about this.
"Is that all you wanted to talk about?"
"Yes and no. I want you to be in here for his hypnosis today. Plus if at anytime he tells you about what happened to his father. call me."
"When is this hypnosis happening?"
"After the cat scan. About half an hour. If you would like some food I will authorize you to eat in the cafeteria free of charge." how generous. Food in exchange for my lovers life secrets.
"I'm already authorized." I stand and make my asty retreat to his door.
"The hypnosis will be in here." Dr. Lee stood up and followed me out "I'm going to go and see how Yohjis tests are going. I shall see you in half an hour."
Finnaly alone. I can think through this, development, and consider if I should call Kritiker in on this or not.
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Screaming, I think I am screaming at the nurse. She had only tried to take my blood and missed the vein. It only stings a little. She is new, I can tell, and not only had tried numerous amounts of times to take my blood but was doing it with an overly large needle. She should be fired. I hurt. My head hurts. The headache starts up and I'm crying again. I don't want to cry any more. Where the hell am I? Where's papa? Walking out against all their wishes and before they could patch up my arm in my need to find Papa. he should be near. he never leaves my side unless I've done wrong. "I WONT LET YOU DO THAT AGAIN!" I yell back at the strange people in white who have hurt me. Theres red trickling down my arm making a trail behind me but I don't care. i need papa.. Papa. Where's Papa? What did I do wrong? Why am I here? Papa…
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I knew the second I heard the screaming that I had made a mistake. I broke my promise to stay near to help him and here I was going on the elevator to get soomething as petty as food. The doors happily have an automatic reopen scensor as I shove my arms aout to stop them and to go where I'm needed. Though I never expected what I saw. Blood and tears. The face it wasn't the Yohji I know.
"Leave me alone. Don't touch me." his voice seems so soft so child like. But he hasn't seen me yet. He's only talking to the nurses behind him and the doctors around him.
Nurse Jen was the one who saw me first. "Mr. Fujimiya, you have to talk to him. The other nurse messed up on the blood drawing. He's loosening a lot of blood and wont let anyone near him."
I know she's right. I know he needs me. But I'm scared. He's so different right now. "Yohji!" I didn't even know I called out until I shoved a nurse out of my way to get closer to him "Yohji stop.Please. Its ok. I'm here now."
"Ran? Where... where are you?" he turned around and around looking for me. So i moved closer. he fell to the ground when he saw me and I ran to him like I promised him I would. Grabbing him up into my arms and holding him close. Trying to sooth and comfort him.
"Yohji. You need to get that bandaged before you lose to much blood." i wave down one of teh nurses just standing around scared over "Miss can I please use some of teh gauze and tape on that tray?" It must have surprised her but I put kindness and a softness in my eyes and she got them for me with out another questioning look. My knowleged of field dressings is not up to what Omis is but I manage. I stop the bleeding and bandage the arm up staying slow and calm even though i'm scared.
" you're here. Like you said you would be." His eyes look so lost.
"Yes. I told you I would be there when you called. You need to finish your check up. Then we'll go home. Alright?"
"Yes go home after the tests."
I reward his understanding with a kiss to his forhead. Lifting him up and carrying him back to the begining of teh blood trail. "Just let the nurses finish, It'll be over fast."
"Common Yohji. I'll do it this time. I won't hurt you." Jens face actually smiles. its a creept smile but she does smile.
"You be good Yohji. For me." I set him down in the chair while Dr. Lee yelled at the nurse who had hurt Yohji so bad. I'm glad I don't have my katana. I would have destroyed the incompitant imbicile who hurt my Yohji. Though the fact Yohjis clinging to his head worries me. He looks like he's in so much pain. He can't look at the blood and he can't understand the yelling. Its just scaring him more and more. "Whatever you want after this we'll do it."
"Alright... " it sounded weak. Weak and scared. he ignored the nurse who was apologizing. Not wanting to be there anymore. I could tell. His comprehension, his concentration, he strength was all going down. Its not a good sign. I don't like it.
Nurse jen preps his other arm but Yohji flinched again at the sight of the needle and closed his eyes holding his head with is already injured arm again. Jen very gently took teh blood she needed then applied a bandaid and smiled "See its all better now." Yohji jerked away from her kindness. Still scared like a child and she raised her hand to hit him. Thats a line drawn with me. he's not in a state to defend himself. She has not right to hit him now. before he was strong. Thats why I let her do it last time. "Yohji Stop being such a baby!"
"Hit him again and I'll break your arm." I threaten her with my definatly advanced Shi-ne glare. Scooping my blond up into strong armsto protect him from her.
Oddly she seemed to like teh threat to her beaing. A glint entered her eyes, but she backed off knowing her place and she stormed off. Turning and looking at them when she was a ways away and smiling oddly. I don't like her. I don't like it here.
"We'll skip the rest of the tests today. Bring him back tomorrow after he has relaxed and gotten today's shock out of his system." Dr. Lee trying to be comforting as he hands me new prescriptions. "I upped the dosage a bit for a while. He seems to be having some problems. Call me if you need anything ok."
"Fine." I glare at the doctor as well before carrying Yohji and the to a wheelchair. Placing him in it so I would have an easier time getting teh perscriptions. "How are you feeling Yohji?"
"My head hurts. I want to go home. Please. Take me home."
"We're going home. Are you going to tell me what's wrong?"
"My head hurts....."
"That's not what I meant. You freaked out at the nurse."
"She hurt me. More then once. I… I… I don't remember any more."
"What did they do to you?"
"She first tried a needle that was to big. Then she couldn't find the vein . Then Jen caught her and yelled at her the next one just hurt and I had to leave. Thats all I know."
"It's okay now. We're going home. Wait here, I'll get your medication." It didn't take long. They were ready fast. Suspiciously fast to me. Though I didn't ask. I just went back to Yohjis side "Ready?" I wanted to go home as well. Though I know ken and Omi would have to be told now.
He tried to stand. It was a good sign though from the way his body was shacking I knew he couldn't manage. Of course I helped him to his feet and out the door to the car. I smile trying to make light of this situation as I help him into the car "Your problem cost me $85 you know."
"I'll pay you back."
"You don't have to. You don't even have to come back tomorrow. I know what the doctor was after." And I rightly didn't like it. Yohji was fine up untill today.
"What about Dr. Lee? He was never mean to me. He always protects me. He just wants to help me get better."
"Dr. Lee and I talked while you where taking your tests. He told me that he wanted me there while you were under hypnosis to get you to talk about your father. He wants to know what happened to him. Even Kritiker wants know."
The wide eyes gave it away to me. Yohji had no idea what they had been doing to him. "Why do they want to know that? Its not important is it?"
"I don't think it is. You don't need to tell anyone anything. You've had enough today, we won't discuss it anymore."
"No more today. I just want to eat and relax. I liked talking to your sister. She was very nice."
I start the car not sure how to answer him now. he still doesn't sound the same and my gut is warning me theres a problem. "You can see her again when ever you want to."
"I would like that." Yohji smiled and relaxed a bit looking in the bag of new pills. Pulling one out that he had never seen before. "What's this one for?"
"Read the label. It should say."
"I think its a tranquilizer of forms. 'Must be taken with food.' They must think I finally went off the deep end. How am I supposed to hide all these? I feel like a drug store." the bag had at least 5 bottles in it. 9 after he had added the ones in his coat pocket. It was somthing that was going to be hard to hide which brought to my mind again that ken and Omi would have to be told.
"Do you want to tell the others? We can always lie, they won't question it if I say it's mine." I would lie for him but I hope he responds to telling them the truth. They need the truth.
"How do you think they would react if they knew I was sick?"
"Who knows you need to tell them. They'll just want to help."
"I know. I just don't want them to treat me like a baby. I have been living with this for a long time now. It will go away eventually."
"Omi will most likely baby you. I'm at your side whatever you choose. But i think we should tell them Yohji" surprising how short the drive is when your talking. My stomach churned as I park at the koneko. The two inside had no idea what was going to happen or what is happening.
"I should tell them. There is no possible way I can hide all these or lie to them much longer."
"You want me to be there?"
"Yes please. I am kind of afraid to tell them. I've been hiding it from everyone for so long that they may not trust me anymore after they know."
"Would you like to come into my office." he gestured down the hall. Away from where the nurse had taken Yohji. I had promissed I'd stay close but Yohji wont know if I walk to this mans office to talk a bit. "We can talk more privately there."
I nod and let him lead me to the office. It would probably be best if we talked in private. The office door halfway down teh hall says: DR. JIM LEE, M.D. I go in and out of habbit glance about the office checking the area and trying to settle this feeling I hae that somethings about to happen. Even though I'm on alert I keep my voice calm. I have lots of practice being an emotional bastard. "What did you want to talk about?"
"Have a seat." the click of the door behind me an I know I'm now trapped in this confines of unease with a man I have just meet and is about to talk about the on ething we have in common. The want to help Yohji get better. "How much did Yohji tell you? About his past and why he comes to see us?" His questions roll off his tounge as he sits in his designer chair and pulls out a file that i can only imagin has Yohjis name on it.
I have no intesion on telling the doctor anything. I don't know hwat he knows. he'll have to gain my trust before I tell him what he wants. "Are you trying to frighten me to stay away from him? besides, I don't see the point of that question. he comes here because he wishes to an dhe doesn't come because he wishes not to."
"I want to see how far along in his treatment he is. He hasn't told anyone about his past. Not even the nurses know, not even Nurse Jen."
"He told me about his father. nothing else and not much about his father." I eye the file and gesture towards it. "Whats that?"
"This file is the last three years of therepy treatment and medical exams. The rest of his files are down stairs in holding. I was hoping he would finally tell someone about what happened to him. It would have ment he was healing." Stop looking at me like that. Your the one who started this mess. i don't have any answers for you. "Just curious, why did he tell you about his father? did he have an episode again?"
"I'm not going to go into detail, but I said I was going to cut his hair short. That started an 'episode' as you and he put it."
The doctor looks at me weirdly again, I hate those eyes of his. Their serching for somthing while at the same time hiding something else. "That's happened before. He didn't hurt himself or anyone else this time I hope? Last time he needed stitches from the slice on his arm."
"Right after I calmed him down he opened up to me. he didn't hurt anyone."
The Dr. Lee started taking notes. "That is definitely an improvement. Yohji has been hurt a lot emotionally and physically. By himself and people around him. The pills I have him on can only temporarily sooth his mind and body but it isn't permanent. He has had a lot of episodes. You probably noticed when ever he would leave the house immediately, lock himself in a room for long periods of time, and wake up screaming." Now doesn't that sound like all four of us? we're killers so of course we all have nightmares and rash moments of outbursts. "Did he tell you what happened to his father?"
"Perhaps he has done those things." I want to leave. i want to see Aya. "Yohji didn't tell me much of his father."
"I was hoping he would have. He hasn't even told us. Even under hypnosis, he never tells us what happened to his father. He goes into shock and medically it gets to dangerous to keep him under any longer." They hypnotize him. Kritiker should be told about this. Even if it does jepordize Yohjis status on the team best to find out hwat the doctor has found out about our secret life.
"Does he ever say strange things when under hypnosis?"
Dr. Lee smiled that funky eerie smile of his. "I know about him being in Weiss." He gestures with his hand like this is all nothing. Even if i know its a breach of security and he should be killed immediatly. "They know about the treatment. Kritiker lets me treat him." He looked serious again "They don't know the reason for the treatment though. So don't tell them. Yohji doesn't wish for them to know." How come I can't quite bring myself to believe him. Especially after Yohji has said kritiker doesn't know anything about this.
"Is that all you wanted to talk about?"
"Yes and no. I want you to be in here for his hypnosis today. Plus if at anytime he tells you about what happened to his father. call me."
"When is this hypnosis happening?"
"After the cat scan. About half an hour. If you would like some food I will authorize you to eat in the cafeteria free of charge." how generous. Food in exchange for my lovers life secrets.
"I'm already authorized." I stand and make my asty retreat to his door.
"The hypnosis will be in here." Dr. Lee stood up and followed me out "I'm going to go and see how Yohjis tests are going. I shall see you in half an hour."
Finnaly alone. I can think through this, development, and consider if I should call Kritiker in on this or not.
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Screaming, I think I am screaming at the nurse. She had only tried to take my blood and missed the vein. It only stings a little. She is new, I can tell, and not only had tried numerous amounts of times to take my blood but was doing it with an overly large needle. She should be fired. I hurt. My head hurts. The headache starts up and I'm crying again. I don't want to cry any more. Where the hell am I? Where's papa? Walking out against all their wishes and before they could patch up my arm in my need to find Papa. he should be near. he never leaves my side unless I've done wrong. "I WONT LET YOU DO THAT AGAIN!" I yell back at the strange people in white who have hurt me. Theres red trickling down my arm making a trail behind me but I don't care. i need papa.. Papa. Where's Papa? What did I do wrong? Why am I here? Papa…
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I knew the second I heard the screaming that I had made a mistake. I broke my promise to stay near to help him and here I was going on the elevator to get soomething as petty as food. The doors happily have an automatic reopen scensor as I shove my arms aout to stop them and to go where I'm needed. Though I never expected what I saw. Blood and tears. The face it wasn't the Yohji I know.
"Leave me alone. Don't touch me." his voice seems so soft so child like. But he hasn't seen me yet. He's only talking to the nurses behind him and the doctors around him.
Nurse Jen was the one who saw me first. "Mr. Fujimiya, you have to talk to him. The other nurse messed up on the blood drawing. He's loosening a lot of blood and wont let anyone near him."
I know she's right. I know he needs me. But I'm scared. He's so different right now. "Yohji!" I didn't even know I called out until I shoved a nurse out of my way to get closer to him "Yohji stop.Please. Its ok. I'm here now."
"Ran? Where... where are you?" he turned around and around looking for me. So i moved closer. he fell to the ground when he saw me and I ran to him like I promised him I would. Grabbing him up into my arms and holding him close. Trying to sooth and comfort him.
"Yohji. You need to get that bandaged before you lose to much blood." i wave down one of teh nurses just standing around scared over "Miss can I please use some of teh gauze and tape on that tray?" It must have surprised her but I put kindness and a softness in my eyes and she got them for me with out another questioning look. My knowleged of field dressings is not up to what Omis is but I manage. I stop the bleeding and bandage the arm up staying slow and calm even though i'm scared.
" you're here. Like you said you would be." His eyes look so lost.
"Yes. I told you I would be there when you called. You need to finish your check up. Then we'll go home. Alright?"
"Yes go home after the tests."
I reward his understanding with a kiss to his forhead. Lifting him up and carrying him back to the begining of teh blood trail. "Just let the nurses finish, It'll be over fast."
"Common Yohji. I'll do it this time. I won't hurt you." Jens face actually smiles. its a creept smile but she does smile.
"You be good Yohji. For me." I set him down in the chair while Dr. Lee yelled at the nurse who had hurt Yohji so bad. I'm glad I don't have my katana. I would have destroyed the incompitant imbicile who hurt my Yohji. Though the fact Yohjis clinging to his head worries me. He looks like he's in so much pain. He can't look at the blood and he can't understand the yelling. Its just scaring him more and more. "Whatever you want after this we'll do it."
"Alright... " it sounded weak. Weak and scared. he ignored the nurse who was apologizing. Not wanting to be there anymore. I could tell. His comprehension, his concentration, he strength was all going down. Its not a good sign. I don't like it.
Nurse jen preps his other arm but Yohji flinched again at the sight of the needle and closed his eyes holding his head with is already injured arm again. Jen very gently took teh blood she needed then applied a bandaid and smiled "See its all better now." Yohji jerked away from her kindness. Still scared like a child and she raised her hand to hit him. Thats a line drawn with me. he's not in a state to defend himself. She has not right to hit him now. before he was strong. Thats why I let her do it last time. "Yohji Stop being such a baby!"
"Hit him again and I'll break your arm." I threaten her with my definatly advanced Shi-ne glare. Scooping my blond up into strong armsto protect him from her.
Oddly she seemed to like teh threat to her beaing. A glint entered her eyes, but she backed off knowing her place and she stormed off. Turning and looking at them when she was a ways away and smiling oddly. I don't like her. I don't like it here.
"We'll skip the rest of the tests today. Bring him back tomorrow after he has relaxed and gotten today's shock out of his system." Dr. Lee trying to be comforting as he hands me new prescriptions. "I upped the dosage a bit for a while. He seems to be having some problems. Call me if you need anything ok."
"Fine." I glare at the doctor as well before carrying Yohji and the to a wheelchair. Placing him in it so I would have an easier time getting teh perscriptions. "How are you feeling Yohji?"
"My head hurts. I want to go home. Please. Take me home."
"We're going home. Are you going to tell me what's wrong?"
"My head hurts....."
"That's not what I meant. You freaked out at the nurse."
"She hurt me. More then once. I… I… I don't remember any more."
"What did they do to you?"
"She first tried a needle that was to big. Then she couldn't find the vein . Then Jen caught her and yelled at her the next one just hurt and I had to leave. Thats all I know."
"It's okay now. We're going home. Wait here, I'll get your medication." It didn't take long. They were ready fast. Suspiciously fast to me. Though I didn't ask. I just went back to Yohjis side "Ready?" I wanted to go home as well. Though I know ken and Omi would have to be told now.
He tried to stand. It was a good sign though from the way his body was shacking I knew he couldn't manage. Of course I helped him to his feet and out the door to the car. I smile trying to make light of this situation as I help him into the car "Your problem cost me $85 you know."
"I'll pay you back."
"You don't have to. You don't even have to come back tomorrow. I know what the doctor was after." And I rightly didn't like it. Yohji was fine up untill today.
"What about Dr. Lee? He was never mean to me. He always protects me. He just wants to help me get better."
"Dr. Lee and I talked while you where taking your tests. He told me that he wanted me there while you were under hypnosis to get you to talk about your father. He wants to know what happened to him. Even Kritiker wants know."
The wide eyes gave it away to me. Yohji had no idea what they had been doing to him. "Why do they want to know that? Its not important is it?"
"I don't think it is. You don't need to tell anyone anything. You've had enough today, we won't discuss it anymore."
"No more today. I just want to eat and relax. I liked talking to your sister. She was very nice."
I start the car not sure how to answer him now. he still doesn't sound the same and my gut is warning me theres a problem. "You can see her again when ever you want to."
"I would like that." Yohji smiled and relaxed a bit looking in the bag of new pills. Pulling one out that he had never seen before. "What's this one for?"
"Read the label. It should say."
"I think its a tranquilizer of forms. 'Must be taken with food.' They must think I finally went off the deep end. How am I supposed to hide all these? I feel like a drug store." the bag had at least 5 bottles in it. 9 after he had added the ones in his coat pocket. It was somthing that was going to be hard to hide which brought to my mind again that ken and Omi would have to be told.
"Do you want to tell the others? We can always lie, they won't question it if I say it's mine." I would lie for him but I hope he responds to telling them the truth. They need the truth.
"How do you think they would react if they knew I was sick?"
"Who knows you need to tell them. They'll just want to help."
"I know. I just don't want them to treat me like a baby. I have been living with this for a long time now. It will go away eventually."
"Omi will most likely baby you. I'm at your side whatever you choose. But i think we should tell them Yohji" surprising how short the drive is when your talking. My stomach churned as I park at the koneko. The two inside had no idea what was going to happen or what is happening.
"I should tell them. There is no possible way I can hide all these or lie to them much longer."
"You want me to be there?"
"Yes please. I am kind of afraid to tell them. I've been hiding it from everyone for so long that they may not trust me anymore after they know."