Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Forgotten Memories ❯ Conflicting Emotions ( Chapter 6 )

Title: Forgotten Memories

Author: Sardius

Category: Angst/Romance

Pairings: Ken/Aya and Yohji/Aya

Warnings: PG-13

Disclaimer: I don't own Weiss Kruez otherwise I won't be sitting here sharing with you my entertaining stories. O.o; *sweatdrops*

Author's Note: Nothing much on this chapter except Yohji feelings for Ran. Ken still has to take his part in the next chapter or so. And the ice prince will be back soon. A few more chapters to go and it'll be over! YAY! Maybe this can be my first finish fic ever!

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// Character's thoughts //

Chapter Six: Conflicting Emotions

"Yohji. We need to talk."

It had taken me everything to not just punch the asshole in the jaw and beat the shits out of him. But Ran was here and I had promise not to hurt him again.

I took in a deep breath as I tried to gather my emotions under control and unclenched my fist. I have to do this. I have to know if I still have a chance with Ran. So many unanswered question. I need to know if Yohji is for real.

I could hear his footsteps behind me as he closed the door letting the darkness settle over us. Silence had descended in the room; the only noise was the shifting of his feet and me breathing in slow steady breaths.

I turned around and met his gaze and was shocked with what I saw. His jade eyes met mine with what? Hatred? Jealousy? I could not really tell. Before I had figure out what had just happened he spoked.

"So we're not just going to keep starring at each other right?" His hands unconsciously flicked into his pocket and pulled out his cigarettes. Is he nervous? Yohji only smokes when he gets nervous or stress. He seems to hide it pretty well as he lit up his cigarette and rested his eyes upon me again.

"Well?" he mocked.

A sudden calm washed through me as I considered how to rephrase my words. It's no good if I just scream at him. I have to find out the truth.

"How long Yohji?"

He tilted his head to the side as he looked confusingly at me.

Damn him. "How long… how long have you liked Ran?"

He turned away from me and took a drag of his cigarette. "I thought you'd ask me something like this."

I figured that was a yes to my question. "Why didn't you say anything?"

It was his turn to place his angry eyes on mine. He dumped the cigarette on the floor as he subconsciously ran his finger through his hair. "Say anything? What did you expected me to say?! You guys were all over each other and you wanted me to come right out and tell Aya then that I wanted to fuck him? That I lusted after him? That I like him more than just a teammate?

I tried to control my anger as I gritted my teeth. "Well you certainly didn't give a shit about me when you started to hit on Ran. I fucking trusted you Yohji. I thought we were friends. Then the next thing I found out was you kissing my lover and trying to get into his pants."

// You betrayed me. Just like he did. //

Yohji waved his hand as if to wipe what I said away. "He's not Aya anymore Ken. That's over! Accept it. Even if he did get back his memories…he wouldn't be the same."

That is true. Even if Ran did remember he was Aya, what then? Would he still have the same feelings for me as he use to? Would he still love me?

Yohji walked to the back of the room and sat down on the stool hidden by the shadows flickering along the wall. Then his voice spoke without the edge of anger but sadness I had never heard from him before.

"You never had to stand up to his cold ass attitudes and death threats. He was always nice to you. Sweet loving Ken. Who wouldn't want him? He gave everything to you, just as he did for his imouto. But never to me. Never."

He was whispering now. Somehow I was wondering if he was talking to himself or to me. No Yohji. You don't understand. You never were there when I had to bring him back from the dead. You never were there when he needed some one…anyone to let him feel again. It was never that easy.

And you took him away. Just like that. After all the things Aya and me being through, you stole him away, not even considering about anybody else.

// I had trusted you. //

"Do you…do you love him?"

I didn't realised my hands was clutching tightly together as my nails was digging to the back of my hand. Does he? If he does should I have let them be together? Can I give up on Ran even now?

Time seem to stretched between us as Yohji looked at me in the eye and whispered the words I hated so much coming out of his mouth.

"Yes."

Yes. He had said yes.

"And Ran can choose who he wants to be with if its to end this matter." He said.

"Hn." I'm beginning to feel like I'm acting more like the old Aya. Yohji got up from his stool and began to open the door when I stop him, not letting him end this conversation so easily.

"One more thing Yohji."

"What?" He half turned around to face me.

"If you ever hurt Ran in any way, I will never forgive you."

We stood starring into each other for a long time; his jade eyes sparkling with anger as he rose his mocking eye brows at me.

"Same thing for you Ken."

"And last of all", I walked up to him and glare at him with so much anger festering inside me for the past few days, I punched him right in the jaw. He staggered back and gasped as he landed hard against the wall, blood trickling down his chin. "That's for being a complete asshole." I yanked the door opened and stormed out of the room. Somehow I felt better after releasing my anger on him.

// Damn Yohji for putting me through this. //

// Damn him. //

* * * * * * *

They have been inside for so long. What are they talking about?

I wandered around the flower shop as my eyes kept darting back to the green house. Ken must have seen what had happened before and yet he didn't say anything. He had wanted to talk to Yohji instead.

After walking around in circle for the twentieth time, I hastily made my way upstairs, passing the living room when something caught my eye. Briefly I sat down on the couch and starred at the blue covered album with little silver laces bounding it tightly together.

// Why would this be left out here? //

I carefully trace my fingertips along the edges, something telling me to open the book as I lift the cover to look at the first page.

There were photos. Each and every single page were photos of the others and me. There were ones with me scowling in the background, Ken playing soccer, me and Aya-chan, Yohji flirting with the schoolgirls, Omi in the flower shop….

So many of them and I wondered why I never seem to smile in any of them when one of the photo fell out of the pages.

It was a photo of Ken and me. We were sitting underneath the sakura blossoms trees as he had his arms around me and both of us were smiling, bathed in the afternoon sunlight.

I was smiling. I was happy, unlike any of the other photos.

I did not realise as my fingers gently touched Ken's face, my lips curved slightly upwards as I smiled down at the picture.

"Ken" I whispered.

When suddenly a bright light engulfs me and the world spun out of my sight.

[Flashback]

"Come on Aya! Please…we have to go there. The sakura will be blooming and it's the best season of the year."

"Ken…it's going to be crowded."

"Aaayyyaa…do it for me please."

"Hn"

* * * * * * *

"Lets take a photo."

"No."

"Ran."

"What?"

"We're taking a photo."

"Hn."

"Smile Aya. You're meant to smile for photos."

Ken pushed me onto the floor and started tickling me. I gasped, as he knew where my weak spot was and tried to stifle my laughter.

"Ke…Ken. Stop!"

I laughed as he tackled me onto the ground, the sakura petals drifting around us. Ken smiled down wickedly at me and kissed me on the lips.

"Hmmm..Ken." I shyly began to part my lips, my face slightly flush from embarrassment since we are still on public grounds.

"Hey you two sex freak! Can I just take the god damn photo without any interruptions?"

Ken blushes. "Errr….gomen neYohji. We're ready now."

[End flashback]

"Ran! RAN!"

"Wha…who?"

I opened my eyes and blinked back tears as the morning sunlight blinded my vision. I realised I must have collapsed onto the floor as Yohji looked at me in concern.

"Yoo…Yohji?"

His eyes were still showing traces of fear as he gathered me up in his arms and placed me on the couch. "Hey…you okay? I called you several times but you didn't answer me."

"I'm….I'm okay. I just…"

It was then I notice the bruise on his face. "Yohji! What happened? You're bleeding."

"Huh? Oh….er…it's nothing." He turned his face away from me and began walking away. "I think I better give the hospital a call to see if you needed a check up soon."

"Yohji…wait!" I got up and grabbed onto his arms, forcing him to face me. The left side of his cheek was sightly swollen, blood still lingered on his cut lips.

// Did…did Ken hit him? //

"Don't go away. Wait here and I'll come back with something."

"Ran…its okay."

I didn't listen to him as I made my way to the bathroom getting the first aid kit. Somehow I knew who hit him yet why do I feel so bad about it. Why do I care for him so much?

Unintentionally I raised my fingers upon my lips, brushing them softly as I recalled his warm lingering kisses and what he said to me last night before he fell asleep.

[ Hmmm…I love you Ran. ]

// Did you even know you said that Yohji? //

* * * * * * * *

Damn that Hidaka! That had really hurt. That kid sure can punch like hell. I smiled and winched slightly as I remembered my first meeting with him had ended up with something like this.

I made my way up the stairs, hoping to clean some of this blood off when I notice Ran lying on the floor in the living room. Instinct took over my conscience as I ran over to him and titled his face upwards.

"Ran."

No responds.

"Ran!"

Ran lay limp in my arms as I called him again and again. Oh God! What happened to him? Is he dead? But wait he's still breathing. Why is he not responding to me?

My heart began to beat faster as I continue to shake Ran and called out his name. Panic over took me as I tried to think of what to do. My hands were shaking in fear as I grabbed the phone next to me when suddenly Ran began to stir beside me.

"RAN!"

He slowly opened his eyes and glazed hazily at me. I grabbed him into my arms and gently lifted him and placed him on the couch. He still seems a bit dazed as I asked him if he was okay when he notices the bruise on my cheek.

"Yohji! What happened? You're bleeding!"

It's funny how he seems more concern about my injuries when he was unconscious just a few minutes ago. The look of concern in his eyes brought me back the question Ken asked me.

// Do you love him? //

// Yes //

I had said yes. Somehow during that confrontation I had said yes. And I didn't regret it one bit. I had fallen for him. God…I had fallen for him for so long I had never even realised.

"Huh? Oh it's nothing." I didn't really want to look at his eyes at the moment. So much concern there is for me…when I know he use to hate me so much. I mumbled something and started to walk towards the bathroom when Ran grabbed me from behind and told me to stay where I was.

"Ran…it's okay."

But he didn't listen to me and came back with the first-aid kit by his side. He gesture me to sit on the couch and I did as I was told. He then tilted my face upwards as he applied some ointments to my bruise and wiped off the blood using a wet towel. His hands were so gentle and soft as he placed a bandage over my cut lips.

"There. All done."

It was then we both looked into each other eyes as we sat there in the morning sunlight. It was Ran's turn first to shift his eyes onto the desk. I glanced at where he was looking at and notice the photo album. It was covered with many pictures of the four of us during our time in Weiss one photo caught my eye.

It was the photo of Aya and Ken.

Ran looked guiltily at me and shifted his eyes away as his fingers played nervously with his shirt. "Umm…sorry."

"What for?" I asked.

"Well you're hurt because of me. And I…"

I waved my hand and smirked slightly, careful of my injuries. "Hey…don't worry about it. It's nothing." But as I kept starring at the photo my smile vanished. Did he just remember him and Ken then? Why do I even bother trying to win him over when oneday he will recover his memories?

I tried to keep my voice calm as I asked him, "Did you….did you just remembered something?"

"Err…" Ran nods his head. "Yes. I…I remembered some of the things when I saw the photo….but I couldn't remember everyth….."

"Ran."

"Yohji?"

"If you were to choose between me and Ken, who will it be?"

"Nani?!"

Ran eyes widened as he looked into my eyes. "Yohji…..I…I haven't.."

Somehow I didn't want to hear it just now. I nudge him gently in the ribs and laughed, "Ha….I'm just joking. No need to get so freak out."

Then I pulled him into my arms, alighting a startle gasp from his lips.

"Yohji!"

"Don't go." I pleaded. I don't give a damn what Hidaka does as I wiped everything we had just discuss this morning and repeated it in my head that Ran is mine and I will never let him go. I tighten my arms around his waist possessively as I whispered in his ear, " Stay with me please… just for now."

Ran stopped struggling from my grip as he began to relax and snuggled up against me. I ran my fingers softly through his crimson locks, his breathing fluttering against my neck. We continue lying like this for a long time as the morning sunlight bathed upon us and I kissed him softly on the forehead.

At least I can be with him for just a little while.

// Even if it won't last forever //

TBC~~~~

Sorry for the late post. Things starts getting busy now but I will still try and write whenever I hv time or should as say when I'm in the mood *grin* Hope you like this chapter….it somehow had to be written because of the plot in future chapters so hp it wasn't disappointing. Anyway let me know what you think as always.

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