Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Forgotten Memories ❯ All That Matters ( Chapter 7 )

Title: Forgotten Memories

Author: Sardius

Category: Angst/Romance

Pairings: Ken/Aya and Yohji/Aya

Warnings: PG-13

Disclaimer: I don't own Weiss Kruez otherwise I won't be sitting here sharing with you my entertaining stories. O.o; *sweatdrops*

Author's Note: I am overall shocked and surprised that so many people read the last chapter and reviewed my story. I am….what's the word…speechless. Thankyou! I really love hearing from you all and glad you are enjoying this as much as I enjoyed reading it. This part focuses a lot on all three character's feelings. I only read it through once and my head is killing me now so sorry if there is a lot of grammar mistake.

Once again thanks for the reviews. There's so many ppl to mention I just can't say it all in one sentence. Thanks guys. Dedicated to you all. Enjoy this part.~

// Character's Thoughts //

Chapter Seven: All That Matters

"The medical records state that everything is fine with Fujimiya-san. Just plenty of rest, a few more medications for the last two weeks and there shouldn't be any problems with his head injuries." Dr Hojo continued filling out his document while handling it to the nurse, explaining the medication I needed for the next two weeks.

"But the other day he had fainted. Is that normal?"

"Not to worry Kudou-san. Patients like Fujimiya-san who has amnesia will often experience slight headaches or flashback. I wouldn't be too concern about it. Beside", Dr Hojo smiled warmly at me, "He might get his memories back soon."

I smiled back at him feeling uneasy all of a sudden.

Yohji didn't say anything except just thanking the doctor and took the bag containing my medication. I gave my thanks to Dr Hojo and quickly caught up with Yohji who was walking quickly down the corridor.

"Ummm…Yohji."

No answer.

"Yohji?" I asked. I was practically running just trying to catch up with him.

"Huh? What?" He looked down at me with confused jade eyes only to notice I had been trying to get his attention for the last ten minutes.

"You've gone all quite after speaking with Dr Hojo. Is…is everything all right?"

// Are you afraid I'll get my memories back soon? //

"Yeah of course I am." He smirked and nudges me in the ribs. "Come on. Omi has to go and meet his school friends this afternoon so we better head back to the flower shop."

"But…" Before I can say anything more, Yohji grabbed me by the hand and we walked back to where he parked his car. I try to talk to him again but then he started changing the topic as he drove us back to the shop.

I was confused when he didn't get out of the car as well.

"Yohji? Aren't you coming?"

"Sorry sweet. I have some things to do. Need to head off before I'll be late right?" He smiled sweetly at me and puts his sunglasses on as he handed me my medication. "Ken will probably be in the shop so you guys can let Omi off while you handle the arrangements."

"But…where are you going? You don't usually go anywhere on Sunday afternoon." I protested. Who is he meeting? Is he trying to avoid me? Have I done something wrong? All these thoughts scattered in my mind as Yohji gently kissed me on the lips and usher me out of his car.

"See you later."

I continue standing in the street as I watched him drove off and turned around the corner. Why do I feel so upset all of a sudden? Yohji is only going out on a date….I shouldn't be upset over it.

"Ran!"

Ken came running out of the shop with his apron still on, looking slightly concerned at my confused state. "What's wrong? What did the doctor say?"

Before I could even voice out anything to him, he gently touched my hand and slowly lead me back to the shop.

// Why does this feel so different compared to when Yohji was holding my hand? //

Ken gentleness is kind and caring yet compared to Yohji it is so different. I shake my head and smiled sweetly at Ken as I erased my thoughts and went back to the flower shop.

I couldn't possibly have fallen for Yohji right?

But what is this I am feeling?

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Ran had been very quiet the past few days. Is he angry with me that I have hurt Yohji? I remembered going out of the shop trying to calm my nerves, only to find the apartments emptied when I came back.

But Ran had never notice what I saw when I came back to the lounge room.

I saw Yohji and Ran lying on the couch, their bodies snuggling together, bathing in the afternoon sunlight. Ran had his head slightly coped up under Yohji's chin, his hand curled on the blonde's chest as he wrapped possessively around the redhead's waist. They had looked so beautiful together, like they truly were a couple. For a moment there, I had wanted to grab Yohji by the throat and snatch Ran away from him. Yet part of me saw how beautiful and peaceful Ran was when he was sleeping next to the playboy. How could I possibly think I could get Ran to love me? I know that Ran is different from Aya…but isn't there a chance maybe he will at least remember us? There was so many memories of us…he couldn't just forget it all.

"So what did the doctor say? Everything okay?"

"Yeah. He says that its normal if I get flashbacks and a bit of a headache." Ran started putting on his apron and began on the flower arrangements.

"Oh…okay. Ran er…"

"Ken kun! Aya kun!" Omi suddenly burst into the shop, his big smile lighting up the whole room, "I hope you don't mind me going off a bit early to meet my friends. Some of them already started ringing me telling me to hurry up."

Ran smiled sweetly down at Omi and usher him out of the shop. "Sure. Have fun and be careful."

"Yeah Arigatou Aya-kun! See you later Ken-kun. Don't wait up for me."

With that his cheery voice disappeared as he exited out of the shop leaving me and Ran alone. It was still early in the afternoon; hardly anyone comes into the shop during this time as Ran started busying himself with the arrangement. I could not help but watch him from afar, his delicate pale hand touching the stem of the roses and placing them in a beautiful banquet of flowers consisting of carnations and tulips.

I smiled sadly.

He looks so much like Aya deep in concentration and biting everyone's heads off when they get too close to his personal space. It was times like this when I remembered we use to close the shop early and take a walk along the park. It had been so wonderful then. Being together. Knowing he is constantly by my side.

Ran looked up from his work and his amethyst eyes met mine in confusion. "What's wrong?"

I tried to hide my emotions by smiling at him and just shrugged my shoulders. "Nothing." Ran continued to look at me not believing I was telling the truth. "So…errr…where's Yohji?"

Ran suddenly looked away and began fidgeting with his arrangements. "He's…. he's meeting someone. I don't know when he will be back."

I didn't say anything more as I picked up the water can and started watering the flowers. After a few moments I spoke. "Ran…." I didn't want to turn around and face him. "Has Yohji talked to you about anything?"

Silence filled the room as I continue watering the flowers. "Nani? Ken…I don't know what you are trying to say."

// Oh Ran please don't make this hard for me. //

"I…." My hand shook as I try to hold back my tears. "I just wanted to know who…who you have decided to choose."

[Silence]

"Ken…you don't know what you are asking me to do."

I spun around and faced him, fighting the urge to wrap him up in my arms. "Ran! You….you just don't understand do you? I just want to know what you want. I just want to know if I still have a chance….I.." I looked away and stare at the tiles wishing this never could have happened. "I….I know I said I'm in love with Aya but…you are still him even if you are who you are at the moment. You are still the Aya I had fallen in love with. I want us to be together again Ran. I…."

So many emotions was running through my head at the moment that I felt like laughing out loud as if someone tells me this is all just a practical joke. That Aya never had the car accident, that he had never lost his memories, that Yohji is still my best friend I had trusted over the years…

// I just want you Ran. Can' t you see that? //

Ran suddenly appeared right before me, his beautiful amethyst eyes so filled with concern but not love….no there wasn't any love in his eyes. Not the ones I had seen from Aya when we were together. But he was there. Aya was still there standing in front of me. Even though he might not be exactly the same person as before, he is still him isn't he?

Ran gasped in surprised as I grabbed him close to me, my arms tightening around his waist. I buried my head under his chin as I tried to hold back the role of emotions overriding me. "Please Ran…" I whispered softly against his ear. "I need you so much more. Please don't leave me." I felt his arms slowly wrapped themselves around my shivering body, one of his hands stroking my hair. I feel so safe in his arms, like we could be like this forever.

I lifted my head and gazed at those deep pools of amethyst, losing myself in my own reflection as I gently leaned up and brushes my lips against his. He stiffens in my arms but I tighten my hold, not wanting to let go, not wanting him to leave me just now. I slowly urge him to open up his lips as I deepen the kiss further, our tongues mingling into one.

// How I need this. How I need him. //

Ran shifted and gently pushed me away a bit. I tried not to wince as my heart could feel nothing but the sadness and the longing for him. He smiled sweetly at me and loosens his hold around my waist.

"Ken…just give me some time. Please."

He then turned around and began working on his arrangement again as if nothing had happened. Somehow he seems like the Aya I had known once, always being in control and not showing his emotions to anyone. I picked up the watering can and began watering the flowers again as the afternoon slowly passes by.

// I hope you will make the right choice Ran. //

// I really do hope so. //

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I walked into the apartment as I flung my keys onto the table and pulled off my shoes. Tonight was just terrible. I remember Miya trying to speak to me and gave myself a wack on the head.

// Yohji you baka! What is the matter with you? What were you thinking? //

I mean, she was down right gorgeous, with nice hips and beautiful blue eyes. But every time I tried engaging a conversation with her, a certain redhead pops into my mind and all I can think of is to go home and take him in my arms.

I winced as I bumped myself onto the table, almost knocking the vase that Aya-chan had given to her brother. "Kuso!" I muttered. I slowly made my way along the stairs, my eyes trying to focus in the darkness. Why does it have to be so dark in here? We definitely need to get that light fixed in the hallway.

As I made my way up the stairs, I caught a glimpse of the bright moonlight from the balcony and a certain redhead gazing down towards the Tokyo streets. There wasn't a need to know who that redhead was as one person popped into my mind.

Ran.

Ran had regained some of his memories little by little during the past few weeks. Somehow I don't know if that's a good thing.

// You're scared aren't you? //

I smiled sadly. I remember the photo I saw of him and Ken together. They had been so happy together during the festival while I looked at them from afar wishing I was the one that was holding Ran instead of that soccer boy. I had always wanted this moment right? Now that I have a chance shouldn't I take it?

I walked towards the balcony and leaned against the wall as I admired the sight in front of me. Ran was leaning against the railing, wearing a loose white t-shirt clinging to his slim pale body and black drawstring pants. His beautiful fiery locks shone like fire in the moonlight as the wind blew onto his soft crimson hair, his pale cheeks luminous creating a sense of magical aura around him.

He looks like an angel sent by the Gods.

Ran turned around and faced me as I moved to stand beside him. His eyes widened slightly in surprised but were quickly concealed as he turned his attention back to the sparkling buildings below.

I had a great urge to take out my cigarettes but I know how much Ran hates it when I smoke so I busied myself by observing the scenery of the Tokyo streets and being content with the peace the silences brings me.

After an eternity he spoke. "Where did you go today?"

His voice was so soft as if he were afraid of asking me this at all. "Just went to visit a friend. Haven't seen her for awhile and ended up hanging out in the club for awhile."

[Silence]

"Oh….. Did you have fun?"

I raised my eyebrows questioningly at him. "Well yeah. I guess so. We talked, danced, drank, the usual stuff." What's with all the questions? He sure is acting strange.

I glanced over at him and realised his hands were tightening around the railings till his knuckles were almost white. This is not good. What the hell happened while I was gone?

"Ran?" Silence. "Ran what is it?" Silence. "Ran what's wrong?"

Then I saw the sparkle of tear landing on his hand. I shifted and grabbed him by the shoulder to face me, his head hanging down avoiding me as his dark crimson locks hide his face.

"Hey hey. What's the matter?"

Ran just shook his head and continued to stare down at the floor.

His body was shivering, whether from the cold or his tears, I'm not sure. I gathered him up in my arms and stroke his hair soothingly. "Shhh…it's okay. I'm here. I won't let anything hurt you."

Ran slowly circled his arms around mine; his sobbing could now clearly be heard. I had to almost bend down to hear the words coming out of his lips.

"It's so hard Yohji. I really did try."

He buried his face even further in my chest as I tightened my arms around him, waiting for him to finish speaking. "I really did try to remember. But it's so hard. This….this feeling inside. I don't know what I want. Then you went away….left me…said you loved me….then you're gone. Don't understand…"

Ran wasn't making any sense as he his cried harder, his tears soaking up my shirt. "Thought you like me…that night in my room….then Ken needs me….but you don't want me."

// Now this is seriously wrong! //

"Nani?! Wait a second! What do you mean I don't want you?"

I pulled him away and looked into his beautiful sparkling amethyst eyes, glistering with tears. I slowly wipe the tears away using my fingers, brushing his soft crimson locks away from his face.

"I never said I never wanted you."

Ran looked guilty away and I saw the blush lighting upon his cheek. "But…but your date. You had a date today."

I chucked. "That was really a good friend of mine. We've known each other for ages since I use to be a detective and recently she came back from the America so that's why we chat up just for old time sake."

Ran didn't say anything but just continue to hide his face away from me. I felt him shivering in my arms as I linked my fingers along his and started taking him back inside the apartment.

"Come on. You're shivering. I don't want you to get sick. Ken will kill me for it." I notice Ran slightly winced when I mentioned the brunette's name. I store that in my memory thinking I will definitely question that baka tomorrow.

I tugged Ran into his room and steer him into bed. Then I sat down on the hard mattress and pulled his head onto my lap.

"Yohji…"

He looked so exhausted as he snuggled up against me, his body slowly beginning to warm up again. I pulled the comforter over his body and began to softly stoke his crimson hair.

We continued to be like this for a long time. His head resting along my lap, his eyes closed peacefully, his fingers slightly uncurled.

Just as Ran was beginning to fall asleep he mumbled, "Arigatou Yohji."

I smiled at the beautiful angel before me and bent down to kiss him on the lips.

"My pleasure koi….. Ashiteru."

Ran's lips curled, forming a small smile as I glanced to look at the moonlight outside. My hands tightened around him as I whispered to myself in the darkness.

"I will wait for your decision Ran."

// I only hope you would choose me. //

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TBC~~~~

Okay some explanations. Next chapter Ran will choose who he wants!~ Well Ran chooses but (hints) Aya still need to choose. And to let u all know I still haven't decided who's going to be with who…hv to see the mood I'm in I guess. Sorry!

Aya will be back soon so the decision needs to be made again! HA! I can't believe I hv to put myself into this situation twice. As for continuing my other stories…..sorry guys…I know I'm so slack and lazy. I just want to finish this one first. Then onto colours k.

Lastly gonna be busy too. Think everyone is at the moment. So try to post asap but assignments and projects do come first. *smiles*

And a BIG THANKYOU to you all!~~~ you are all so kind to me, wonderful ppl u are. Made me smile when life is bad you know. Well keep them coming. Love to hear from you. Cheers!~

See ye next chap (runs off to take some pills) don't you hate author's notes? ^___^