Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ In absence of you ❯ In absence of you ( One-Shot )

In absence of you

By: Anna Hibiki

Rating: NC-13.

Disclaimers : Weiss is not mine! It belongs to Koyasu-sama and other people with much more money than me. The song 'En ausencia de ti' (That i translated as 'In Absence of You') belongs to an italian singer called Laura Pausini.

Warnings : Shounen-ai/, angst, deathfic, poorly translated song and little OOCness for Omi. If you don't like that, then you can go to read my other WK fics "...Lies Bleeding in my arms" and "KenKen", or "Don't Cry" (KenKen is published only in mediaminer.org).

Notes : Gomen! My translation of the song is horrible, but I love it and just had to write a fic with it!

This fic can be read in my page, mediaminer.org and ff.net.

In absence of you

Like a tree, naked I'm without you

My roots will dry.

Abandoned like this,

I really need you were here.

There's nothing that doesn't bring you here

In this house in the darkness.

The snow's falling and it'll be,

sadder the winter when Christmas comes..

One step, two steps, three steps... stop a moment. I said stop! Arigatou feet. I need to stop. I forgot... I forgot to bring him flowers! I have to go back to the shop and get him some!

Okay Omitchi, shut up and take a deep breath. Better if you take two. I am calm again. Now I'm going to go to the flower shop and bring him some flowers. I'm sorry Nagi, I was so scared that I didn't even think about that...

I'm so sorry... First I let you die and now I even forget to bring you flowers...

Why do I have to be crying again? My tears won't make you live again.

Looks like I'm not the only one who came to see you...

There are red broken petals over your grave. I'm sure they're from Farfello. Even that psycho remembered... and I didn't.

I'm so sorry... Please forgive me Nagi! Forgive me!! Come back!!

Don't you see what I became? Haven't you seen me suffer enough? Don't you see I can't live without you?

That I can't breathe anymore? That I can't feel anything but your absence?

And I miss you, my love

like when I look for God in the emptiness

In absence of you

I'd like to tell you this way that,

I miss you, my love

the pain is strong and like a challenge,

in absence of you

I won't know how to live.

Now you have me here, kneeling in front of your grave. My eyes hurt from all the times I've cried for you. Is that what you wanted? I know you don't. I know... but I can't stop blaming myself.

It's so cold here... the snow won't stop.

I should have told them to stop. I should have stopped Youji-kun when he wrapped the wire around your neck.

But I didn't. I couldn't. He... he did to me what you did to him.

Why did you have to kill Ken-kun?

If you hadn't, you'd be here now, with me.

And we would have the future we had dreamed of so much.

Our days would be pure bliss, as they were before when we weren't on missions. You would come here some nights when the others didn't notice and we would make love to end up kissing and cuddle until next morning comes, or just be there, together in our innocence and love.

Because from you, your soul will stay

and your voice will sound again

I close my eyes and here,

in my arms I feel you again.

And I see the two of us again

one in the other only one heart,

in each tear you will be,

I won't forget you, never

A lot of years have passed since you died, I only know that each year is harder to come here, because I realize how alone I am, and will be.

The pain is killing me. And the guilt. I feel so guilty... And I'm not the only one blaming me.

Yes, you sure guessed it. You were so intellingent.

They also blame me. Weiss. Aya-kun doesn't care, but Youji-kun.. he hasn't talked to me since that day. And I understand him. Sometimes I'm convinced that I should kill myself to free myself and the others from this pain. I've tried so much times... but there's always someone who doesn't want me to die, that wants me to continue suffering.

Can I go with you? Don't deny me this, please. Tell me I can die and go wherever you are now.

I need you Nagi! I don't know what's out there, if there's a hell or a heaven. If there's a god or a demon. If we'll ever be together again.

I don't want to know.

I just want to go with you. Whatever happens, I don't care.

Please...

And I miss you, my love

the pain is strong and like a challenge,

I want to go with you, have you with me, because

I miss you love, each day I die a little and feel so cold,

In absence of you, I wont

want to live...

.:OWARI:.

Ne, minna! My first finished WK fic. It wasn't very good, and didn't make a lot of sense, but well, i didn't want to either.

So, what do you think? I wasn't very sure of it, but i wanted to take a break from Don't Cry and try something not Schu/Ken.

Will you be nice enough and leave me a review?

Hasta el proximo fic!