Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Please, Give Me Another Chance ❯ From The Heart ( Chapter 14 )

Please Give Me Another Chance

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers: They are mine I tell ya! MINE!! *insane laughter* *coughs* Um okay so maybe not but please don't rain on my parade!

Paring: Aya/Ken

Warnings: OCC, Angst, Yaoi.

Notes: Stuff written in Italic are thoughts or the strange little voice Ken hears in his head namely Fate. That is if ff.net is feeling up to actually showing the darn italics! *grumbles*

Chapter 14. From The Heart

"Ken-kun!" Ken sat straight up in his bed and blinked twice. "Ken-kun! You're going to be late for your shift." The brunette shook his head and almost fell on the floor as he hurried up, missing the fact that his legs were entangled in the sheets.

"Omi!" The door opened and a blond head appeared.

"Hai?"

"I need to talk to you," Ken muttered as he ran a hand through is messy hair. "I need to talk to all of you."

"Um okay," Omi frowned, confusion and curiosity in his large eyes. "Now?"

"No, at lunch. Could you make sure Yoji is up and about?"

"Hai Ken-kun," the little blonde smiled brightly and checked the time.

"We're both late! Should I tell Aya-kun too?"

"Nah, I'll do that." Omi nodded and then headed down the stairs. Ken rubbed the sleep from his eyes and went to take a shower. He didn't have a clear grip on how he was supposed to do this but it wasn't like he could fail any worse than he already had, right? Drying himself off he pulled on some clothes and hurried down to the kitchen.

"You're late." The deep voice caused him to jump even though he had been waiting for it.

"Sorry Aya, I overslept."

"Hn."

"I need to talk to you." The redhead observed him, a flash of curiosity flickering in his impassive eyes.

"About what?"

"Not now, I need to talk to all of you, at lunch?" Aya nodded. "Well, it's time for us to face the girls." Aya scowled darkly at him and Ken chuckled.

"Oh joy," the taller man huffed with sarcasm and made a face.

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Lunchtime found Ken in a nervous state. He had already been scolded twice from messing up sales and there was a sad pile of mauled sunflowers on the floor. With a frustrated huff the brunette glared at a girl who was prattling on about something or other.

"Ne, Ken-san?" she asked.

"Nani?" She frowned at him and her bright eyes looked hurt.

"You're not even paying attention," she accused him.

"Gomen, I just have a lot to do," he muttered and pushed an arrangement to the side.

"We're closing for lunch!" a hard deep voice suddenly snapped. Ken glanced to the right and almost grinned at the disliking glare the girl was receiving from amethyst eyes. She scrambled towards the door with her pigtails bouncing. Aya kept glaring after her and then flipped the sign on the door from Open to Close. The brunette wiped his hands, took of his apron and followed his friend to the kitchen.

"So Kenken why am I up at this ungodly hour?" a very unhappy looking Yoji growled when they were all seated.

"Um…" Yoji sighed deeply and poked his rice.

"And that means?"

"Give me a moment!" Ken snapped and glared at his teammate. "This is kind or hard for me."

"Let him talk Kudou!" Aya muttered and efficiently continued to clean his bowl all while watching Ken squirm.

"I have something to tell you and I… I…" The brunette fiddled with his chopsticks and cleared his throat.

"What's wrong Ken-kun?" Large blue eyes met his with concern in them.

"Nothing's wrong I just… Well you see I'm… not… It's…" Frustrated Ken took a deep breath and plunged ahead. "I'm gay."

"Well fuck me," Yoji blurted out and blinked in surprise. Ken gave him a lopsided grin.

"I said gay, not insane." Omi chuckled and shook his head.

"I'm glad you told us," the little blonde nodded and patted his hand. Ken smiled slightly and set his brown gaze at the fourth man at the table. Aya was… staring at him with shock written all over his pale face.

"A… Aya?" Ken swallowed thickly. Please don't let him freak out! he begged inside. Aya seemed to shake himself out of his stupor and for the briefest of moments the brunette could have sworn his callous friend smiled.

"Aa?"

"Are you… okay with that?" Ken asked timidly.

"Hai." Thank God, the brunette sighed inside. Five seconds later Yoji was bombarding him with nosy questions about his sex life and the conversation pretty much went downhill from there.

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When Ken had finished his shift in the shop and spent about an hour freaking out in his room he forced himself towards the redhead's door. During his many reruns of the same two weeks Ken had learnt a lot about how Aya worked, or in some cases didn't work. Pushing him was out the question, so was 'ambushing' him with things he felt uncertain about, like being pursued by the brunette.

With that in mind it was no wonder that Ken was fretting for all he was worth when he knocked on the redhead's door. If he presented his feelings, hopes and intentions wrong the complicated man would freak without a doubt, which of course meant he'd kick Ken out and then make practice of his skills in avoiding his fellow assassin. Lost in thoughts the brunette failed to notice that the door had opened and that he was being watched by eyes that held several emotions they usually lacked. There was deep affection in them, friendship, hope and trust but also fear, uncertainty and a shadow of foreboding.

Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, Ken missed all that since he was too busy trying not to freak out yet again. Aya's face was eventually cleared and returned to its normal callous mask.

"Hidaka!" Ken jumped and just barely avoided to let out a squeak of surprise.

"Gomen, gomen, I spaced out there for a moment," he said sheepishly and rubbed his neck. "May I talk to you for a moment?" A curt nod was the only reply as the redhead stepped aside to let him in. Ken made sure Aya's bed didn't come into sight and stopped in the middle of the room, back towards the tempting piece of furniture.

"Well?" the redhead asked impatiently.

"Anou… I'm not sure how to…" Ken tried and sighed deeply. Hidaka you baka! Why did he always have to get so damn tongue-tied when Aya was around? Because I'm afraid I'll fuck it up again, that's why, he answered his own question and sighed again.

"Ken?" The brunette looked up at Aya's slightly hesitant voice.

"Hai. I'm just nervous. What I told you in the kitchen before…" Ken tried and got a slow nod for the redhead. "Well I have something else to tell you."

"Something else? Like what?" Aya asked impassively and crossed his arms.

"I… The reason I know I'm uh…" This was not going the way Ken had wanted it to. It had been easier if he could just blurt it out but he didn't dare to, too afraid that Aya would react badly. "You… I'm…" Defeated and two steps from starting to bawl like a little kid Ken sank down on a chair and hid his face in his hands.

"Ken?" His name was said softly and then a hesitant hand started to pet his shoulder. The brunette was tense, nervous and afraid so his heart bypassed the jumble in his brain and did what it felt it needed. With a shaky breath Ken wrapped his arms around Aya's narrow waist and hung on for dear life. A part of him expected the redhead to freak out but instead an unsteady hand ran through his hair. "What's wrong?"

"I just wanted to explain this without shoving my foot in my mouth but I'm such a blubbering baka," Ken mumbled, his words muffled by Aya's shirt.

"Explain what?"

"That I have… well… feelings for you and I just don't know how to tell you without scaring you off or something. You pretty damn hard to talk to you know," Ken muttered, a hint of accusation in his voice. The redhead's hand stopped moving and his body froze. Fuck! Ken thought miserably, certain he had messed it up again.

"You… You… What?" No he's not freaked, he's… shocked. Shocked Ken could handle, shocked was way better than freaked.

"Yeah, I'm like, falling in love with you," the brunette admitted softly. That wasn't entirely true since he had fallen for Aya weeks ago, but it didn't really matter at the moment. "I wanted to uh… ask you out but…"

"You want to go out with me?" Ken looked up and nodded. "I… Uh… O-okay."

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It did come in handy to know things others didn't. Their date had gone smoothly and Ken had made sure to stay clear of that damn Ishibashi-woman, or anyone else who might give Aya the impression that a future relationship between them wouldn't be a good idea. After dinner the brunette suggested a walk and a pretty relaxed Aya agreed. Even though Ken had seen it before it still tended to slightly stun him how different the emotionless redhead could be.

It was dark, the street they were walking on empty and when he reached for Aya's hand he met no resistance. But even though everything had gone perfect Ken had almost two weeks where he would have to be on the constant lookout for traps and blunders. In the past it had taken so little to mess everything up, just one tiny little mistake on his behalf and death to either Aya or him or both. Ken shuddered and felt his heart skip a couple of beats when the redhead pulled him closer, almost tucking him inside his own coat.

"Thanks," he murmured and glanced at Aya's face. A soft smile graced the redhead's thin lips and his eyes held a spark of tenderness in them.

"It's chilly," he declared and held Ken a little tighter, as if he was worried the brunette would pull away. They were almost back at the car and had it not been rather late Ken would have steered Aya for another round. Oh well all good things had to come to an end and if he was lucky and the redhead felt brave he might even get himself a kiss back at the house. The drive past by in silence, but it was a comfortable silence. Every now and then Ken caught Aya looking at him with wonder in his beautiful eyes.

When the car was parked safely in the garage neither one of the two men seemed to be in any hurry to get out. For a long time they just stared at each other, almost like they were challenging the other to make a move. Ken held back, not sure if an advance on his part would bring him something he craved or send him crashing and burning. After what felt like a lifetime Aya finally seemed confident enough to move forward. A hesitant hand reached out and pulled the brunette's face close, their breaths mingling, eyes locked and noses almost touching.

"I…" Aya whispered and his amethyst gaze flickered down to Ken's mouth. The shorter man nodded, understanding the unspoken question. Thin lips ghosted a caress across his and Ken tried to calm his thumping heart. Slowly he raised his left hand and tangled his fingers in Aya's coat. The next meeting of lips were a kiss, soft, questioning but there was hunger and need lurking beneath the surface.

A soft moan escaped the brunette as the kiss deepened slightly and his eyes fluttered close. Aya tasted just as sweet and strangely spicy as he had remembered. When they broke apart they stayed pressed together, chest to chest, nose to nose. Feeling the weight of his responsibilities Ken sighed deeply and buried his face against the redhead's neck.

Please God, let us get through this alive, he begged, contented to just sit there with Aya's scent in his nose and the warmth of his body bleeding into his own.

~TBC~

I'm sorry if it's boring and stuff by my muse is laughing at me and throwing jellybeans at me. *sniffles* Oh well here it is anyways and no matter what anyone else thinks I find this chapter sweet and uh yeah well *sighs in defeat* Ja/Atsureki