Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Please, Give Me Another Chance ❯ Explanations Gone Wrong ( Chapter 13 )

Please Give Me Another Chance

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : I just blew way too much money buying stuff over the internet. The Weiss guys weren't among those things though! Please don't sue me because I am once again broke *argh*

Paring : Aya/Ken

Warnings : OCC, Angst, Yaoi.

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts or the strange little voice Ken hears in his head namely Fate.

Chapter 13. Explanations Gone Wrong

Ken spent the rest of the day and night sitting on the floor only shifting once in a while when his body complained too much. He had done something wrong and he would have to fix it, but how? The look in Aya's eyes just wouldn't leave him alone. Maybe the redhead had thought that it was just some desperate act of gratitude? Well that he could fix.

One good thing had come out of his actions though. Ken closed his eyes. There were no doubts that he wasn't straight anymore. He was pretty sure that straight guys didn't enjoy… doing that, hell he knew for a fact that straight guys didn't do that period!

His thoughts drifted back to the real problem. During all his tries on the same two weeks he had learnt a few things about Aya. The silent man wasn't as confident as he appeared, he tended to pull away when he got insecure or frightened and he would go to great lengths not to hurt those he cared about. Aya was a complicated person, much more so than Ken had ever realized before.

Behind that cold mask was a whole other man, a man Ken had fallen in love with even though he hadn't really understood it at first. The question was, could he reach the man behind the assassin, would that man even let him in? He didn't know but he would have to try.

When the grey morning light started sneaking into the room Ken finally stumbled to his feet. His limbs ached from sitting curled up for so long but he ignored it. Silently he left his room and headed to Aya's door. It was too early for anyone to be up so instead of knocking he just slunk into the redhead's room.

A still form, partially hidden by the shadows, slept on the bed and Ken's heart called out to it. He remembered the times when he and Aya had curled up on the sofa downstairs, how he had fallen asleep with those slender arms wrapped around him. Moving, almost on automatic, Ken approached the bed and slid in next to the redhead.

His mind felt so hazy and confused but Aya turned out to be a bigger comfort than the brunette had hoped. With a sigh he reached out and pulled Ken's body against his.

"Ken," the redhead murmured and buried his face in soft chocolate hair, seeming completely contented with having him there. The brunette squeezed his eyes shut to stop tears from falling.

This was what he wanted, the only thing he wanted. Carefully he shifted slightly and pressed himself even closer, wrapping his arms around Aya's waist. He didn't plan on falling asleep but the blanket of safety and peace that covered his body and mind lured him away from being awake without him noticing.

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When Ken woke up he was alone and in his own bed. Confused he rubbed the sleep from his eyes and frowned. He was certain that he had fallen asleep in Aya's bed so how the hell had he ended up in his own room? A glance at the time told him that he had been sleep for a long time, it was well past noon and no one had bothered waking him up.

Ken stretched and got up, changed his clothes and trotted down the stairs. The kitchen was empty, which wasn't a surprise really. Omi was at school, Yoji was probably still asleep and Aya… well Aya should be in the shop. Sighing heavily the brunette headed there.

The place was pretty empty and the pale redhead was busy helping an older woman pick out some flowers. For the briefest of moments amethyst eyes look at him, showing nothing, before they turned back to their task.

"Fuck," Ken grumbled to himself. Aya was clearly still pissed off and it would be hours before he would get the chance to explain himself. Waiting was not the brunette's thing but this time he would have to endure it. Pushing Aya was never a good thing to do and Ken feared that if he tried the complicated redhead would shove him away, refusing to ever listen to him again.

When Yoji showed up, 20 minutes before closing time, Ken's nerves were on edge. If he didn't get to talk to the redhead soon he was going to snap, he had just barely kept himself from repeating the previous days freak out.

"Ken-kun you're killing that rose," a perky voice suddenly said and the brunette almost jumped out of his skin.

"Gomen," he mumbled and dropped the maltreated flower.

"You okay?" Omi cocked his head to the left and watched his friend with concerned eyes. Ken shrugged and picked up another rose, carefully stripping away its thorns. "Yoji-kun and I are gonna close the shop so why don't you head out?" The brunette raised his head and looked around. Aya was gone.

"Fuck! Where did he go?" Omi frowned and glanced over his shoulder.

"He who?"

"Aya," Ken muttered and cursed again when a thorn dug into his hand.

"He went up to his room ten minutes ago." The brunette just nodded and left his friend staring at his disappearing back. He wasn't about to let Aya get away that easily. They needed to talk, badly. Without knocking, again, he burst into the redhead's room and stopped dead in his tracks. In the middle of the room stood Aya, buck naked with a towel in his hand.

"Ken?" he asked with a small scowl on his face as he tried to cover up his nudity.

"Sorry I didn't… You're… I just… It… Sorry," Ken stuttered while his eyes took in the glorious sight. Aya was a beautiful man with clothes on, without them he was simply breathtaking.

"Do you mind?!" the redhead snapped with anger and nodded towards the door. Ken blinked a few times before he turned around and pushed the door shut. "Damnit Ken!" He swirled around at the harsh words and stared in confusion, not quite sure what he had done wrong now. "Get out!"

"No, we need to talk." Aya's eyes turned cold and dark and he wrapped the towel around his waist.

"There's nothing to talk about!" Ken sighed. This wasn't going to be easy and it sure as hell wasn't going to help that the object of his affections was standing there in nothing but a skimpy towel.

"You're angry with me," the brunette stated softly and took a step forward. To his surprise Aya backed away from him with a wary look in his formely so cold eyes. For a moment his hands fluttered infront of him before they settled on holding the towel in place. "Yesteday, I didn't mean to… I… I want you." Ken kicked himself. Damn, that was not what he wanted to say.

"You… What?"

"I… I'm attrackted to you." Nice going Hidaka you raving moron! Something flickered in the redhead's eyes before they turned cold again.

"Aa and so you just decided to take what you wanted? Without asking me?"

"No I never meant to do that, I was just… You helped me and…"

"And what? You wanted to thank me by… by… doing that?!" Aya spat out and bore his amethyst gaze into Ken's. "Get out Ken!"

"But Aya I…"

"NOW!" Ken's shoulders slumped and his eyes fell away from the redhead's angry face, they landed on something much more interesting. He blinked a few times before his brain could fully understand what he was staring at. The towel didn't really hide anything so it wasn't like he could actually miss the fact that Aya, while angry, maybe even humiliated and offended, was sporting an erection.

"Aya…" Ken tried again. Before he could continue a slightly shaky hand had grabbed his shoulder and shoved him against the door.

"Get the hell out!" Aya barked, his voice so low and sounding so strange that Ken didn't dare to stay.

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Aya hadn't said a word to him in almost two weeks, not a single word. Every time he tried to approached the redhead he was pushed away. Ken sighed deeply and glanced at the silent man who was staring at nothing. Aya was scared, unsure and confused, Ken could see it in his eyes but didn't know what to do, how to explain.

"Siberian!" The brunette jumped and turned towards Yoji. "Would you listen! What planet are you on anyway?!" the tall blonde growled at him.

"Gomen, gomen."

"You're gonna head up to the fifth floor and take ot the target while Bombay and I take care of the guards." Ken wasn't listening because he had already heard this way too many times. "SIBERIAN!"

"What?" the brunette asked with frustration and looked up again.

"Don't just fucking stand there, get moving!" Ken sighed deeply and in the corner of his eye he saw Aya moving towards the stairs. He followed even though he didn't want to. And there was the corridor again. If he ever got through this fucking mission with Aya and himself still alive he was going to flatten the damn building!

Just as every other time they stopped at the same place and Ken just waited for Omi to warn them about the guards that would kill one of them or both. He had to try one last time to explain himself before that happened!

"Aya?" he asked softly and saw how the redhead's shoulders tensed even more.

"Hn."

"I'm sorry." Aya turned his head a little and gave him a hard, somewhat confused, look.

"About what?"

"I… I know I shouldn't have… done what I did but…" God, this was so hard to explain.

"But what?!" Aya snapped and faced him completely. "Please do tell me what made you do that!" Ken felt his temper heat up. Okay so he had made a mistake but Aya didn't have to be so pissy about it!

"If you just shut up long enough for me to finish you'd know! Jesus! Would it kill you to just stay put and listen?! I'm in love with you okay? That's why did it. I just wanted to… show it and I know it wasn't the most briliant way but I was scared! I always fuck it up and it was just too much and I was going insane and…"

"Siberain, Abyssinian, watch your backs I just saw several guards heading upstairs," Omi's voice whispered in their ears.

"Fuck!" Had Omi always had such bad timing? "Copy that Bombay," Ken growled with annoyance and the link became quiet again. "Listen Aya I just…" His words seemed to get stuck in his throat when he again looked up into the redhead's face. Aya's eyes were large and looked so lost.

"Don't… I can't… You? Why?" Ken swallowed and just wanted to go home. If it was one thing he hated it was when Aya started stuttering and sounding all confused and messed up. Nothing good ever came from that.

"I love you," Ken almost whispered, desperate to convince his friend that he was telling the truth. Omi wasn't the only one with shitty timing though, the herd of guards were just as bad. Brown eyes spotted them and Ken cursed underneath his breath. "The guards, we better hide." Aya nodded dumbly and took a step into the shadows. Like all the other times it only took a few minutes before the guards had disappeared around the next corner. Ken grabbed Aya's arm to keep him from stepping out too soon.

"Let go of me!"

"Shut up the guards aren't…" the brunette started and nodded in the direction of the guards just to see two of them coming back. Aya pulled himself free and back away. "Aya no! The guards!"

It felt like he had seen this a million times, but he would never get used to it. The two men standing there, both with their guns raised and aimed at the redhead's unprotected body. And then the earshattering clatter echoed through the corridor just like so many times before and Ken fell backwards against the wall screaming Aya's name.

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He never knew how much time passed between the first shot and when he was by Aya's side. Ken had dropped down beside the fallen assasin and hugged the still warm body to his as he cried. Why couldn't he get it right? Why did Aya have to react the way he always did? Why was life so unfair?

"Siberian, Abyssinian? What's going on I heard guns." Sobbing Ken responded to Omi's concerned question.

"Aya's… been shot. I couldn't save him this time either, I never can," the brunetted cried and rocked back and forth.

"Siberian? Ken? What…" Ken hugged Aya tighter and cried his heart out. If Fate gave him another chance he was going to handle this differently because he would NOT lose Aya again! If it was the last thing he ever did he was going to get this right!

~TBC~

I feel so sorry for Ken and for Aya too. Now I know some of you might thing Aya's acting weird since he was the one who usually approached Ken with his feelings but… Aya is, as far as I'm concerned, a guy who wants to be in control of things and he isn't now. First, Ken surprise him with a blow job and then with a confession of love out of nowhere as far as Aya knows. I'm pretty sure that would freak me out too *nods*

And about Aya's um 'little' problem when Ken tried to talk to him in his room. I just pictured him thinking about what Ken did to him and voila… Ja/Atsureki