Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Please, Give Me Another Chance ❯ A Slip Of The Tongue ( Chapter 12 )

Please Give Me Another Chance

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : I own diddly-dick that's all I'm gonna say 'bout it

Paring : Aya/Ken

Warnings : OCC, Angst, Yaoi, Lime.

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts or the strange little voice Ken hears in his head namely Fate.

Don't like lime, lemon, sex, stuff like that? Um than watch yarself in this chapter. *nods*

Sorry if this chapter doesn't make much sense but I'm still fighting a war with my muse so my writing isn't exactly making sense even to me. *deep sigh*

Chapter 12. A Slip Of The Tongue

Ken stared into his coffee, lost in thoughts. The morning had started like they always did and now he was just waiting for Aya to come into the kitchen and tell him that he was late. If only he knew what to do with this chance.

A part of him was so scared that this might be the last one he got and that he would mess it up just like he had all the other times. That was more frightening than anything he had ever known before. It made his thoughts messy and he was losing his grip on reality.

"You're late." Ken glanced up at the redhead and sighed deeply.

"I'm always late…" he said quietly and went back to staring into his cup.

"Are you alright?" With another sigh the brunette rose, turned his back to Aya and started walking towards the shop.

"No, I'm not alright, I don't think I'll ever be alright again." With those words he left the redhead alone in the kitchen.

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The day moved along in snail pace, so damn slow Ken started to wonder if it wasn't going to go backwards instead of forward. He felt lost, so very lost and angry at the chaos in his brain. Growling he shoved a rose into an arrangement and pushed it away in disgust.

Fuck all of this, the brunette thought bitterly. It was useless to wreck his mind over the whole Aya-situation since he knew he'd never get it right that way.

"Ken…" He raised his head and blinked a few times.

"Yeah?" Aya was looking at him with… concern in his amethyst eyes. Well that was a strange look.

"What's wrong with you?" Ken licked his lips and shook his head.

"Everything? Nothing?" he suggested softly and pinched the bridge of his nose with two unsteady fingers. "Have you ever felt like you're caught in limbo? Like you have no fucking control over your own life?" He glanced at the redhead who was staring at him with a blank expression in his beautiful eyes.

"How do you mean?" Ken clenched his jaws together as his mind reeled.

"I'm going insane Aya," the brunette finally answered and let out a harsh laugh filled with sorrow. "Everything has changed and no one sees it because it's all in my head. I'm not even really here because I've died too many fucking times! I die and then I wake up the next day and it all starts over again. No wait! That's not true. I get you killed because I'm a pathetic fuck and then I wake up and it starts all over again. I CAN'T FUCKING TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!" Everyone in the shop were staring at him now. He was really and truly losing it now.

"Ken I…" The brunette's eyes darted back and forth as if he was a caged animal, desperately looking for a way to escape.

"Don't stare at me like that," he mumbled and felt his heart thud against his ribs. "STOP STARING AT ME!" The girls stared harder and he just couldn't take it anymore. With a scream he grabbed the nearest vas and threw it against the wall. "STOP IT! Stop it! Stop it." He was sobbing now, hugging himself in a useless attempt to hide from the eyes that followed his every movement.

"Ken." Aya's voice was soft, concerned, caring. "Come on let's go upstairs." Ken flinched as the redhead placed a hand on his shoulder.

"NO! I don't want to hear it Aya! I can't do this again, please. Don't make me do this again."

"Don't make you do what Ken?" The brunette blinked away the tears that flooded his eyes.

"Love you…. Don't make me love you again when I only lose you. I can't Aya, I can't lose you again, please don't make me go through it one more time. It's killing me inside!" Scared, confused and tired Ken flung himself against the redhead and buried his face in the taller man's shirt.

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He couldn't remember when or how Aya had gotten him out of the shop and upstairs. All he knew was that he had freaked and now he was wrapped around the redhead, clinging to him for dear life. Aya didn't touch him but he didn't try to get away either, which Ken was grateful for.

All he wanted was to feel his team-mate, hear his heartbeat and smell him. It felt safe and it put his mind at ease. He was in love with Aya but he had had more 'time' than the other man so he didn't know how far he could push it.

The only thing Ken knew was that he needed to do something to show the redhead that he had faith in them, that he loved Aya. Timidly the brunette looked up and his eyes landed on the lips he knew were soft, warm and tasted so sweet. What if he stole a kiss? Just one little kiss.

"Ken?" The deep voice was hushed and sounded a little unsure. Ken didn't answer he just kept on staring. He had to taste Aya again, he couldn't go a second longer without it! Too fast for the redhead to react he pulled himself up and softly brushed his lips over Aya's.

His older team-mate froze but he didn't pull away. Ken leaned in for more and turned the gentle caress into a kiss. His eyes closed and his body pressed itself against Aya's on its own accord. This was what he wanted, what he needed in order to regain the sanity that was slipping through his fingers.

With a soft moan the brunette deepened the kiss, demanded more. Ken could feel Aya hesitating but he couldn't help himself anymore. He had moved closer during the kisses and was almost sitting on the redhead's lap with his arms tightly wrapped around his neck to keep the other man in place.

If he could he would have crawled inside Aya's skin. Another moan left his lips as he pushed his hands underneath the redhead's sweater. Hands held him back and put a few inches between them, inches that Ken couldn't stand.

"Ken what are you doing?" Aya asked in confusion and gave him a look that bordered on scared.

"I just… Just please let me… Don't…" He couldn't answer, didn't even know what the answer was.

"I…" Aya was a man of few words but at the moment he was talking way too much!

"Shut up," Ken growled and claimed the redhead's lips again, making it impossible for Aya to say anything more.

Without breaking the demanding kiss the brunette moved and stradled his friend's legs. He was nervous but this was what he needed, what he had to get in order to hang on to what little sanity he had left.

Words would probably have been better but Ken couldn't reach them so he had to settle with showing what he felt inside instead. Before Aya knew what was going on he had lost his sweater and was being pushed down on the bed still with Ken sitting on him.

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He was moving too fast but his body was on fire and his mind useless. His mouth was devouring Aya's skin and his senses filled up with the smell that was all Aya. Trembling hands fumbled with buttons and worked desperately to remove what stood in their way.

The redhead had stopped struggling and was just staring at him in shook but Ken didn't notice. He had to concentrate if he was going to get this right since he didn't really have a clue of what he was doing at all. A tiny part of his brain that still worked informed him that they were both men so chanses were that whatever he liked Aya would like too.

So what did he like? Ken closed his eyes tightly and concentrated even harder. It would have been so much easier if he hadn't been a virgin but he would damn well work with what he knew, which wasn't much. Thank God Yoji was more than willing to brag about his experiences.

Actual sex was a bit out of Ken's league, there had to be something a little less complicated than that. His mouth moved down Aya's chest on its own accord as he tried to figure out what the hell he was going to do. When Ken's hand came into contact with something hard and the body underneath him jerked he made up his mind. It wouldn't be very good but it would have to do.

Nervous and fidgety fingers wrapped themselves around an unfamilier erection and tentatively stroke it once. That couldn't have been too bad judging by the moan that Aya choked out. Ken tried again and got the same result. Brown eyes shifted to look at what their owner was doing.

The brunette swallowed. Aya was big, bigger than him, but other than that they looked pretty much the same, only it didn't feel anything like him. In fascination Ken stared at his own hand working up and down the redhead's erection.

Even though he was quite sure that Aya was enjoying this it wasn't enough, it wouldn't prove his point well enough. The brunette took a few deep breaths before he moved himself further down.

For a moment he hesitated, not sure if he could do it but his mind chose that exact time to show him a flash of Aya's body trashing back and forth as bullets tore away at it. That did it! If this was what it took to stop the nightmares, the insanity of his life than to hell with everything!

It felt weird, tasted strange but it wasn't really unpleasent. He obviously shocked the hell out of the redhead who jerked violently and yelped in surprise. Ken ignored it and concentrated on the task before him.

What had Yoji told him about this? No teeth, don't choke and it's not very attractive to throw up. Sounded easy enough. The brunette covered his teeth with his lips and carefully eased about an inch of Aya inside his mouth.

Ken couldn't help thinking that this should disgust him, that it should be repulsive but instead he had to admit that he actually like it, sort of. Yes it was difficult, he was working on instinct and he had no idea of how good it was but in all honesty he wouldn't mind doing it again.

Aya was smooth and the hardness strangely soft to the touch. Ken lowered his head more and tensed his muscles when his gag reflex kicked in.

How the hell was he suppose to work around that? It would take practise but right then he'd have to make due with using his hand on what he couldn't fit in his mouth. With that problem solved he only had to concentrate on keeping his teeth out of the way and Aya from bucking up from the bed.

He thought it would be over faster but it took time and he still wasn't ready when the redhead's whole body suddenly convulsed under his hand. Ken hadn't really thought about what he was going to do when Aya reached climax but staying in that position turned out to not be such a good idea.

Choking, coughing and just barely containing himself from spitting wildly the brunette rode out his friend's orgasm. Aya's breathing was ragged and his amethyst eyes unfocused and dazed. Ken quickly wiped his mouth with his sweater and backed away.

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The room was quiet for a long time and Ken remained sitting between the redhead's legs on the floor. What the hell had he done?! You just blew your friend, a cheerful voice snickered inside his head and Ken winced. Yeah it wasn't like he had forgotten that part.

Only now he wasn't so sure it had been a good thing to do and he didn't know what to do or say next. Lost in his thoughts he never noticed when Aya sat up. He was snapped out of it when a leg brushed against his shoulder as the redhead rose to his feet. Brown eyes meet amethyst for a brief moment before Aya pulled on his pants and moved around Ken.

"I… I…" A glare stopped his stammering. There was something in the redhead's eyes that shouldn't be there. Sadness. Ken didn't understand that. Why did Aya look sad, almost disappointed? Had he really been that bad?

"Thank you," the redhead said, his voice frosty and empty. Ken blinked. Thank you? Without another word Aya stalked out of the room, slamming the door shut behind him.

Oh God what had he done?! But it had seemed like a good idea before so how could it have gone so wrong? Ken curled up against his bed and hugged himself, still tasting Aya in his mouth.

~TBC~

Um so yeah poor Ken is losing his marbles! Now what is he gonna do?

Aya should have stayed to find out why he did that ne? Let's hope Ken gets a chance to explain before the mission. Ja/Atsureki