Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Please, Give Me Another Chance ❯ Ken, The Clairvoyant Assassin ( Chapter 11 )

Please Give Me Another Chance

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : I own diddly-dick that's all I'm gonna say 'bout it

Paring : Aya/Ken

Warnings : OCC, Angst, Shonen-ai, Long extremely sucky chapter.

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts or the strange little voice Ken hears in his head namely Fate.

Chapter 11. Ken, The Clairvoyant Assassin

"Ken-kun!" His eyes snapped open. "Ken-kun! You're going to be late for your shift." Ken swallowed and shook his head. This couldn't be happening again! He had gotten it right the last time damnit. Okay so he had died but that didn't matter since Aya had been safe. "KEN-KUN!" Fate hadn't talked to him and if he had then Ken would have told that damn voice that he rather stay dead! The door to his room opened and Omi's head showed up. "Um Ken-kun?"

"I… I… I'll be down in a second," he stuttered and blinked.

"Are you okay? You look pale," Omi mumbled and came closer. Oh that's just because until you woke me up I was fucking dead! Ken muttered inside.

"I just… eh… I'm fine." The little blonde gave him a strange look.

"Oh okay. I have to go, I'm late for school." The brunette mumbled something and was left alone. Now he had to go through it all again. Groaning he got up, took a shower, pulled on some clothes and headed to the kitchen. The fact that Fate had given him another chance must mean that he hadn't gotten it right but… But he had tried so hard this time and it wasn't like it was his fault that Aya was unsure, was it?

He looked around and frowned slightly. Wasn't the redhead suppose to show up in the kitchen just after he got there? It took him a moment or two to understand why it was different this time. Omi had talked to him longer than usual so Aya must have already gone to the shop.

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The day dragged on forever and Ken was grumpy, snappy and he had a hard time keeping himself away from Aya. He didn't want this, he didn't want to go through it all over again. What the hell was he suppose to do?

He had tried to push Aya away, that hadn't worked. He had tried to lie to Aya, that hadn't worked. He had tried to be Aya's friend and nothing more, that hadn't worked. He had tried to avoid Aya, that hadn't worked. And he had tried to be honest and love Aya, that hadn't worked either so what the hell was he suppose to do?

Ken growled to himself and cursed Fate, who he was sure was to blame for everything. What options did he have left? None. He got lost in his thoughts as he pondered his problem. Somehow he must have been on the right track the last time, right? So, that meant that he should confess his feelings for the redhead but then what?

Aya was unsure, didn't want Ken to get hurt by them being a couple. There was nothing the brunette could do about that though. He couldn't very well make Aya not be unsure and he most certainly couldn't make the whole world less narrow minded and more tolerant. Ken huffed and banged his forehead against the desk. Life sucked! Annoyed, lost and longing after the redhead's touch he took a look around the shop.

Girls everywhere, ogling, pointing and giggling. He snorted. Was it any wonder he prefered Aya to that? Hell he'd rather date a three headed cave-troll than anyone of those screaming, annoying, clingy girls. Pouting he moved his eyes from the females to the tall redhead who was trying to glare the girls into not swarming so much around him.

See that's perfection, Ken mused to himself. Aya doesn't giggle, thank God, and he doesn't swarm, cling, bounce or scream my name in a tone that could crack windows. Not that I would mind hearing him scream my name though… The brunette blushed. Okay enough with the hentai stuff.

He shook his head and blinked a few times. I do love him and I 'want' him but how the hell am I going to keep him alive… Not to mention not getting myself killed in order to do so?

"BUY SOMETHING OR GET OUT!" Aya's hard icey voice boomed through the shop and sent the girls running. I love those five words, Ken grinned inside. He ran a hand through his brown hair and went back to his problems. Whoa hold everything! There was one thing he hadn't tried though, or actually two things.

What if Aya didn't go on the mission? That had to keep him alive, right? But the odds of convincing the redhead to stay at home were just slightly better than getting a cow to climb a tree. Second thing he hadn't tried… What if he could get Omi and Yoji to change their plans. He knew that Aya didn't have anything to do with the team-ups during that mission so that should be possible to do.

Feeling pretty damn good about himself he straightened up. Yoji should be in his room and so should Omi, be in Yoji's room that was. All he had to do was go there and beg them to change the plans.

"Um Aya?" The redhead turned around and looked at him.

"Aa?" Ken almost forgot what he was about to say as he drowned in the amethyst gaze. Oh dear Lord he is beautiful. Aya cocked his head slightly and frowned. "Ken?" The brunette shook his head and smiled.

"Gomen. I just thought that I um might run upstairs and see if Yoji's up yet."

"He is." Ken frowned. How did Aya know that? "I went up to get a sweater before and I…" The redhead's voice trailed off.

"And you heard him talking to Omi?" Ken suggested and smiled. So that was how Aya had found out about the two blondes.

"Aa."

"Does it bother you?" The redhead shook his head and got a strange look in his eyes. So if it doesn't bother you than why did you insist on keeping our relationship a secret? Ken asked in his head. "But you would prefer if they kept it to themselves?" Aya's eyes hardened but not before Ken caught a flicker of something that looked suspiciously close to longing.

"Hn." The brunette walked closer, unable to resist. He wanted to feel and taste Aya again. Sure the redhead didn't know that they felt the same but Ken did and it was pulling him towards the other man. He stopped just a step away from the tall redhead.

"Have you ever thought about it?" the brunette asked softly, teasingly.

"Th… thought about what?"

"Being with another man…" Ken tried to pull the brakes on himself but he couldn't. He just wanted to tease Aya a little. Couldn't be any harm in it, right? The redhead did have feelings for him after all. But when he looked into the violet eyes he knew he had done something wrong. Aya looked… scared. Quickly Ken pulled back and offered his friend a silly smile. "Gomen, I… um…" He was interrupted by the bell above the door. Shit!

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Still cursing his stupid actions Ken hurried up the stairs to catch Yoji and Omi before they headed for the shop. He knocked on the door knowing that they both would be in there.

"Yeah?" The door opened and an annoyed looking Yoji glared at him.

"We need to talk," Ken mumbled and pushed his way inside. "You and Omi have to help me with something." The smaller blonde was on the bed trying to be invisible under a blanket. "Um what are you doing Omi?"

"I… We… It…" the youngest assassin studdered and helplessly searched out his lover's eyes.

"Oh come off it Omi! I already know, Aya knows too and we don't care," Ken muttered and waved his hand. He had bigger problems.

"You… Aya knows?" Yoji asked harshly and sank down next to the stunned Omi.

"Can we please forget about that right now?" the brunette pleaded and twisted his hands. "I think it's great that you two are together but please this is important."

"Eh okay… What's so important?" Omi finally managed to ask and sat up. For a moment Ken had to laugh.

"You're fully dressed Omi so why were you hiding under that blanket?"

"I just um…" The brunette waved his hand again.

"Never mind. Listen the mission we have in two weeks is bothering me. I can't explain this but do you think you could pair Aya up with one of you instead of with me?" Green and blue eyes stared at him for a long time.

"What mission?"

"What do you mean what mission?!" Ken barked in frustration. "The one we have to do in two weeks! Manx told us about it…" He closed his mouth. Oh crap!

"When was Manx here? You know you could have told us that she was here," Omi complained and rose to his feet. "Did we get any folders or something?" Ken just stood there, frozen. They hadn't gotten the mission yet. Manx wouldn't show up for another week. How could he have forgotten that and how the hell was he suppose to get himself out of the mess he had just stepped in?

"Um eh… Nothing I just… Forget it," Ken stammered lamely and headed for the door. Hidaka you are such an idiot!

"Ken? You said we had a mission," Yoji muttered and stopped him. "Now when did Manx brief you and Aya about it?!" The brunette bit his lip.

"Manx hasn't… hasn't been here yet," he mumbled and damned himself for being so stupid. Now both Omi and Yoji probably thought he had gone insane.

"She hasn't been here yet? Then how do you know about the mission?" the smaller blonde asked. Thanks Omi, just the question I was dying to answer, Ken growled in his head.

"I um don't know…"

"You know that we have a mission in two weeks, that Omi and I are going to decide who goes with who and yet Manx hasn't been here, hasn't said anything about this to anyone?" Yoji asked incredulously.

"Ha…. Hai?" Green eyes narrowed and glared at him.

"What are you, clairvoyant?" Ken plastered a dumb grin on his face and desperately wanted to bang his head against something very hard.

"Something like that," he chuckled and fled.

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The following week Ken was confused. For some reason Aya had never showed up in his room that night and Yoji and Omi were staring at him constantly, especially when Manx indeed showed up to brief them about the mission. He had really put his foot in his mouth this time. There was no way he could explain to them how he knew about the mission a week before they got it.

But that was not the brunette's biggest problem by far. No what he couldn't stop thinking about was how Aya kept avoiding him. He just didn't get it. What had he done wrong this time? Surely it couldn't be the little teasing he had done in the shop? No matter how ridiculous it sounded to him it was the only explanation he could come up with.

The more Ken thought about it the more sense it made. With his teasing he had either scared Aya or made it seem like he was mocking the redhead as if he knew about his feelings, which he of course did. Either way it sucked! The reason didn't really matter though.

What did matter was the fact that he was going crazy without the redhead. He loved Aya and now he was kept from showing it. Time and time again he found himself staring at the silent man with longing pounding inside.

But then again, maybe this meant that the redhead would be safe? His feelings for Aya could wait until after the mission so he probably shouldn't be so concerned about it.

Unfocused he continued to water some of the plants not even noticing that he was getting more water on the floor than into the pots. He just had to convince his body and mind that they would get what they wanted later. Sounded easy enough but in reality it was so much harder.

"Ken-kun!" He snapped his head around and blinked. "Um I think the floor is wet enough now," Omi chuckled and pointed to the puddle of water.

"Shit! I'll clean that up," Ken growled and turned off the hose. Muttering to himself he headed for the back room to get the mop. He was just passing Yoji when a yelp startled him. In slowmotion he saw Aya slip on the water and dive head first to the floor.

"FUCK!" Quickly he ran up to his friend.

"You okay?"

"No," the redhead hissed and hugged his left wrist. Ken bit his lip.

"Let me look at that," Omi said and carefully checked Aya's hand and wrist. "Um I think it's broken Aya-kun." The redhead gave Ken a nasty glare and slowly rose from the floor.

"I'm so sorry Aya," the brunette whispered with regret. He could have kicked himself for being so God damn stupid.

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The corridor seemed empty without Aya there but Ken figured it was better this way. There was no way the redhead would die now and that made him grin widely. Sure Aya was pretty pissed at him since his wrist indeed had turned out to be broken but it was a price Ken was willing to pay.

Still grinning the brunette hid in the shadows as the guards walked by. He waiting until he was sure they were all gone and then almost skipped down the corridor to finish the job.

The two targets took some time but Ken felt so good about getting through the mission with Aya still alive that he didn't really notice. With a small wound on his shoulder he left the two dead bodies in the dark room and retracted his claws.

"The targets are destroyed," he smiled over the link and headed down stairs.

"Copy that Siberian. Balinese let's move out."

"Copy that Bombay." Ken turned left and drew in the chilly air outside. He had made it! It only took a moment before Omi and Yoji joined him.

"Any problems?" the little blonde asked when he saw the slash in Ken's jacket.

"Nah, it's only a scratch I'll be fine."

"Good then let's get home," Yoji said and yawned. The two blondes had just gotten into the car when Ken's phone rang.

"Moshimoshi," he answered and picked up his helmet.

"Manx here." The brunette frowned slightly. What did she want? "Siberian there's been an accident." Ken froze and just stared at the phone in his hand.

"Ken?" Someone took it from his hand but the brunette didn't seem to notice. "Who's this?" It was quiet for a while. "Oh dear God."

"What's going on Yotan?" Ken blinked and focused on the taller blonde when Omi spoke.

"Aya's been in an accident."

"What? Where? How?"

"He went to see his sister since he had to stay at home tonight. They don't know what happened exaclty but somehow a car ended up on the wrong side of the street and hit Aya." Ken swallowed and squeezed his eyes shut. He didn't want to hear this!

"Is he okay?" Yoji shook his head and handed the phone back.

"He… They couldn't… Aya's dead…" Omi let out a sob and threw himself into the taller blonde's arms while Ken just stared. He had thought everything would work out now, that everything was going to be fine. How the hell could this have happened?

"Ken, you okay?" Empty brown eyes met green ones.

"No Yoji I'm not okay," he answered quietly, pushed the helmet down and got on his bike. "I killed him again." Ken started the motorcycle and within seconds he was roaring down the street, tears pouring down his cheeks.

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Ken's room was dark and quiet. Brown eyes, blood shot from crying, stared into nothing as low sobs and whimpers rocked a tired body. He just didn't understand how it could have gone so wrong this time too. The accident had been awful, Ken hadn't needed to see the site to understand that.

Manx had been at the house when he had returned from driving his bike up and down the dark streets for hours. She told him what they knew. Aya had just left the hospital and had been about to cross a street when a car, going way too fast on the wrong side of the road, had hit him.

The redhead had never had a chance as he had gotten smashed between the car and a lamp post, he had already been dead when the ambulance came. Ken drew in a shaky breath and hung his head. It is not your fault. He shook his head and just ignored the familier voice. Listen to me Ken, not even I could predict that this would happen.

"And here I thought you knew everything," the brunette snorted with contempt. It is not that easy, not when things change like it did here. Aya was not suppose to be anywhere else but at that warehouse, remember?

"Then it is my fault, isn't it? I messed up again and he died!" It was an accident Ken, you know accidents do happen. That car was suppose to hit that lamp post and no one should have gotten hurt except the driver but sometimes things change.

"But I'm the one who changed things! It's my fucking fault this time too!" Ken yelled and shook his head. "You should have stayed out of it when I died!" A low chuckle ran through the brunette's head. Oh yes that would have been so much better, would it not?

"YES it would!" Ken who have you blamed every single time Aya has died so far?

"Me of course!" he answered and wiped a tear from his cheek. Yes, now think about that and answer me this question. Who do you think Aya blamed when you died? Ken swallowed. He hadn't even thought about the possibility that Aya had blamed himself for that.

I told you that you can not save Aya, you can only try to change his fate, whish you will if you can get this right. It will not be easy to do but it can be done if you are willing to fight for it.

"But I…" No! Fate interrupted the brunette harshly. No buts or maybes. You have two options right now Ken. I can either let this time-line continue or I can erase it and start a new one, it is up to you? Ken stayed quiet for a long time. Well? The brunette drew a sharp breath and swallowed.

"Please, give me another chance."

~TBC~

Okay so I hate this chapter! *mutters with annoyance* I've had half of it done for ages but I just couldn't get it to sound good. Oh well there it is anyways.

I want to explain one thing here though. The fact that Aya still died here had nothing to do with Ken but more to do with fate. As Fate said to Ken it was a simple accident. The driver wasn't suppose to kill anyone but Aya wasn't suppose to bet here either. This chapter is sorta here to show Ken that he can't run away from his 'problem'. Ja/Atsureki