Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Please, Give Me Another Chance ❯ Third Time's The Charm, Right? ( Chapter 4 )

Please Give Me Another Chance

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : I own diddly-dick that's all I'm gonna say 'bout it

Paring : Aya/Ken, one-sided

Warnings : OCC, angst.

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts or the strange little voice Ken hears in his head.

Chapter 4. Third Time's The Charm, Right?

"Ken-kun!" Ken slowly opened his eyes and yawned. "Ken-kun! You're going to be late for your shift." He was again facing that day when Aya had confessed his feelings for him. The brunette sighed deeply and sat up. He was glad he was being given another chance but it was so hard, so easy to get it all wrong again. "KEN-KUN!" Omi was doing the exact same thing for the third time.
"I'm coming Omi," Ken answered quietly and rose to his feet. He so did not want to go through this again but he knew he had to. Solemly he took a shower, got dressed and trotted down to the kitchen. It would have been better if he had just been sent back to that night instead, that way he wouldn't have a whole day to worry about what he was going to say to Aya. Just like the other two times he had lived through it the redhead came into the kitchen.
"You're late," Aya stated and looked at him.
"I'll be right there," Ken sighed and finished his coffee.

He sat on his bed and nervously waited for Aya to show up. The day had been so long and his whole body was trembling. Please just let me get it right this time, Ken begged and twisted his hands. He just needed to explain the situation calmly.
"Ken?" The deep smooth voice pulled him away from his thoughts.
"Hai, Aya?" he asked softly.
"Could I talk to you for a moment?"
"Of course," he nodded and invited the redhead into his room. Just like the other two times Aya seemed to hesitate.
"Ken I…" he started just like before. Ken patiently waited for him to continue. "I don't know how to say this Ken but I… I…" The brunette swallowed but said nothing. He had to let Aya say what he wanted first. "I think I'm falling in love with you." Ken couldn't help but wince at the words he heard even though they had been said to him twice before. "I'm sorry Ken but I have to know, do I stand a chance with you?" The brunette rose ot his feet and tried to collect himself. This wasn't going to be easy but he had to do it, had to get it out right.
"Aya, you're my friend and I love you dearly but… not like that. I'm sorry. I love you as a friend and a brother but I can't…" Nice going Hidaka you baka! Ken muttered to himself. Carefully he looked up and met Aya's amethyst eyes. There was hurt there but not like the first time.
"You have nothing to be sorry about Ken," the redhead said softly. "I… I just had to ask but I know I probably shouldn't have. Are things going to get weird between us now?" There was worry in that deep smooth voice now. It looked like he had gotten it right this time at least so he smiled warmly at his friend.
"Of course not Aya. You're my friend, nothing is going to change that." To prove his point he walked up to the redhead and hugged him. Aya hesitated for a moment before he returned it.
"You sure you're okay with this?" Ken took a step back and nodded.
"I'm sure. You okay?"
"I'll be okay," Aya answered slowly, turned around and left. The brunette chewed on his bottom lip and stared after his friend. Was he really okay? Well the redhead had to be disappointed, right? He'll get over it, Ken nodded to himself. Satisfied with the way he had handled the situation he went to bed. It had gone a lot easier than he thought it would and he wasn't so sure it was a good thing but he refused to think about it. As far as Ken was concerned he had done the right thing, he had gotten it right this time.

It only took a week for Ken to realize that he probably hadn't handled it as well as he thought he had. He couldn't put his finger on exactly what it was that had changed but it sure was something. Since he had gone through those days twice before he could tell the diffrence. He and Aya suddenly never shared shifts in the shop anymore and the redhead seemed to disappear a lot as soon as the Koneko was closed for the day. When he tried to talk to him Aya tended to make up excused and walk away. Ken just didn't get it. What had he done wrong? It hurt because he really did love Aya, just not in the way the redhead wanted him to.
"Ken-kun?" The brunette turned around and looked at Omi.
"Hai."
"Have you seen Aya-kun today?" Ken shook his head. The shop was closed since it was Sunday but he hadn't seen the redhead all day. "Do you know where he is?"
"No, why do you ask?" Omi seemed to be uncomfortable as he shifted his weight back and forth.
"Ken-kun is there something going on between you and Aya-kun?" Ken frowned.
"What do you mean?" he asked and really hoped the blonde didn't know what it was that had happened.
"I just… Well… You've been avoiding him a lot lately," Omi answered slowly and blushed a little. Ken stared. Have I?
"Omi what are you talking about? I haven't been avoiding Aya," the brunette muttered.
"Yes you have. When you two are in the shop at the same time you always stay as far away from Aya-kun as you possibly can... And when you need help you never ask him, always me or Yoji-kun even though we all know that Aya-kun is much better with arrangements." Ken frowned in confusion. Was that true? He honestly hadn't noticed doing any of those things. But if he had done that it was no wonder Aya didn't want to talk to him. He had promised the redhead that things weren't going to change between them but obviously he hadn't kept that promise. The brunette sighed deeply. What the hell was wrong with him? Why couldn't he just handle the situation? He had to fix this before the mission or else he would have to face the consequenses again and he felt sick to his stomach just thinking about it. Ever since that first time Aya had died because of him Ken suffered from nightmares and they were horrible. He couldn't stand them because they weren't just dreams, they were memories.
"I… have to go Omi," the brunette mumbled and fled.

He had tried, he really had but it just wasn't happening. Aya kept his distance and continuted to disappear as soon as he didn't have to work. It was killing Ken and he knew very well that it most likely would end up killing the redhead too. He couldn't let that happen, not again. What if this was his last chance? Fate had told him that he only could get so many chances. Ken's heart was pounding like a drum, he was sweating like a race-horse and he had problems with breathing right. The sceen in front of him made him want to cry. Omi and Yoji were making the final decisions about the mission and Aya was just staring at nothing. Please let him be safe, the brunette begged and closed his eyes. It couldn't happen again! It just couldn't!
"SIBERIAN!" Ken whipped his head around and stared at Yoji. Oh no this brought back too many painfull memories. This was the exact way that first time had started. "Will you fucking listen? What planet are you on?" the lanky blonde growled with annoyance.
"Gomen.," Ken mumbled and sighed when Yoji snorted at him.
"Bombay just said that you and Abyssinian are gonna take out the targets on the fifth floor." The brunette started shaking. No! He would NOT go through this one more time.
"NO!" Three pairs of eyes stared at him.
"No?" Omi asked and widened his huge eyes.
"Balinese and I will take down the targets on the fifth floor and you and Abyssinian can handle the guards," Ken said firmly. He didn't care what he had to do to keep Aya away from that cursed floor.
"What?" Yoji asked and frowned deeply. "Why Siberian?"
"I… just don't want him to…" the brunette stammered and refused to look at Aya.
"Can't you even put your personal things aside for a mission?" The harsh question forced Ken to look up and meet amethyst eyes shining with anger and hurt for a brief moment before the blandness was back in full force.
"It's not about that Ay… Abyssinian. I just have a bad feeling about this," Ken answered lamely.
"Well I'm heading upstairs and frankly I don't give a shit if you come with me or not!" The redhead stalked towards the stair with his whole body stiff from anger.
"What the hell is going on here?" Yoji demanded to know.
"If Aya comes out of this alive I'll tell you," Ken almost sobbed and hurried after his team-mate.

The corridore, hell it wasn't a corridore to Ken, it was purgatory, his worse nightmare. His body was still trembling and the sweat trickled down his spine. He couldn't let this happen again, he had to do something, anything. With his eyes filled with tears the brunette turned to Aya.
"Please just leave before… before they get here," he whispered with pleading.
"I thought you said you were okay with this?" Aya didn't need to explain what 'this' was.
"I am, really I am it's just…"
"Just what?! First you ignore and avoide me for a week and then suddenly you chase after me constantly. Please do explain this to me Ken, it's just what?" The redhead's voice was hard and demanding.
"It's just hard for me okay? I just have a hard time accepting this," Ken mumbled and lowered his eyes to the floor. He wasn't prepared for Aya to grab him and slam him up against the wall at all.
"HARD!? This is hard for you to accept?!" the redhead spat out with his eyes burning. "You think you're the one who has a hard time accepting things? I'm the one who has to accept that I'm in love with someone who finds me disgusting! I'm the one who has to accept that I can't have you, ever! I'm the one who has accept that I'm going to have to let go of something that I never even had a chance at having! I'm the one who has to accept that there will never be an us! So don't fucking tell me that you're the one who has a hard time accepting this!" Shocked Ken stared into Aya's violet orbs. He was crying. Silent tears trailed down his alabaster cheek as his eyes shone with hurt, loss and anger. Fate was right, he was punishing the redhead for loving him and he didn't really understand why. He didn't want to do that but he couldn't help himself for some reason. Why did Aya's feelings shake him so much? Was it just the fact that they were both men or was there something more?
"Aya I…"
"Siberain, Abyssinian, watch your backs I just saw several guards heading upstairs." The brunette winced.
"Co… copy that Bombay," he croaked out and swallowed. "Please Aya I…" The redhead moved away from him and shook his head.
"Don't… don't say anything more. Just leave me alone, don't talk to me." Aya moved away from him and the corridore became quiet. It didn't take long before the guards showed up. "Let them pass," the redhead whispered and the both hid in the shadows. The armed men walked down the corridore without noticing the two assassins and soon disappeared around the corner. As soon as they were gone Aya moved.
"No don't," Ken moaned and reached out to pull the redhead back but he was too slow. The taller man stalked down the corridore and the brunette quickly turned around to stare at the two men at the other end. He didn't even have time to call out this time. The sound of rapid gunfire was deafening but Ken refused to stand by and just watch as bullet after bullet went straight through Aya. With a low scream he pushed himself away from the wall. Pain numbed him as bullets hit him in the side and then all went black. He had failed yet again.

~TBC~

Poor Ken he just can't seem to get it right ne? And this time he got Aya killed and himself hurt. Will Fate help him or is this the end to it all? Guess you'll have to wait and see *hehe* Ja/Atsureki