Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Please, Give Me Another Chance ❯ The Pen Is Mightier Than The Sword ( Chapter 3 )

Please Give Me Another Chance

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : I own diddly-dick that's all I'm gonna say 'bout it

Paring : Aya/Ken, one-sided

Warnings : OCC, angst, Shonen-ai (sorta)

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts or the strange little voice Ken hears in his head.

Chapter 3. The Pen Is Mightier Than The Sword

Ken dragged his feet as he walked back to the house. It had been almost two weeks since he had… put his stupid plan into action. Even if it wasn't all bad the bad things surely outweighed the good ones. Spending time with Aya was actually very nice, most of the time. The silent redhead had opened up and showed Ken who he really was behind his callous mask. It was just that they weren't 'just' friends so Aya expected more. Never in his life would the brunette had guessed that his older team-mate was a cuddler. He really liked Aya but not romanticly and he certainly did want to kissing him or be nuzzled by him. But thanks to his wonderful idea he had to put up with it and he had to look happy about it which was almost impossible. The only luck he had had so far was the fact that Aya didn't have any intentions of letting Omi and Yoji find out about their relationship. That meant that as long as Ken could keep them from being alone he could keep the redhead from touching him. It was just that he felt bad about doing that, it wasn't fair to Aya. The pressure the brunette was under was getting to him and it made him jumpy, unhappy and extremly tense. To get some of it out of his system he had started to keep a diary where he poured out his feelings, mostly the extreme guilt he felt for what he was doing. Ken kicked a rock on the sidewalk and pouted. Why had he done such a stupid thing again? Instantly he felt bad for what he was thinking. He was keeping Aya alive and that was worth anything. But what on earth would he do if the redhead wanted sex? Ken groaned, that was the last thing he needed to think about. There was no way he going to… to… do that with Aya. They were both men for heaven's sake. The brunette had beliefs, catholic ones at that so he knew perfectly well that homosexuality was wrong, that it was a sin. What a mess he had put himself in.

The Koneko was almost empty since all the girls were at school. Ken yawned and started on a new page in his diary. At the moment he was given a brief break from the mess he had made his life. Aya was in the kitchen making lunch while he watched the shop. The brunette was just about to close his diary when the bell above the door rang. He left his chair to help the woman who entered. It took him a while and he never noticed when Aya returned or what he did while Ken wasn't looking. When the woman left Ken put up the 'Closed For Lunch'-sign, put away the book and left the shop. He sat down in the kitchen and gave the redhead a glance. Aya had already started eating and he had his nose buried in a book. That's strange, Ken thought. The other two members weren't there which usually meant that the redhead wanted to talk. But Aya obviously wasn't interesting in that at the moment. After 15 minutes Ken had to ask.
"Are you okay Aya?"
"Aa," the redhead answered blandly without even looking up from his book. Ken frowned deeply. Aya hadn't used that tone towards him for two weeks. He shrugged it off and finished eating. They had a mission that night and the brunette was NOT looking forward to it. It was on that damn mission he had gotten Aya killed. But this time things would go diffrently. Ken smiled to himself. This time the redhead would stay alive and things would be just fine.

He looked at his three team-mates and frowned. What he saw before him was looking a little too much like the last time he had done this mission. Omi and Yoji were talking while Aya just stood there staring at the wall. The redhead's face was callous though, which it hadn't been the last time so Ken decided not to worry about it too much.
"Siberian, you and Abyssinian are going ot take out the targets on the fifth floor," Omi said quietly and nodded towards the stairs.
"Hai Bombay."
"Balinese and I will search the lower floors for guards and plant the explosives."
"Let's get a move on or we'll be here all night," Yoji muttered and restlessly pulled at his sleeves. Ken nodded and started walking towards the stairs with the silent redhead in tow. He really tried not to think about the way Aya acted but it was worrying him. His older friend had never talked much but he hadn't said a single word since they left the house. They soon reached the corridore where Aya had gotten killed the last time and it made Ken's skin crawl to be back there.
"Are you okay?" the brunette asked and tilted his head.
"Aa."
"Come on Aya something is bothering you." The only reply he got was a bland look from cold eyes. "Um be careful okay, I don't want anything to happen to you," Ken mumbled and lowered his eyes.
"I thought it would make things easier for you if I… say got killed here tonight." Aya's cold words made the brunette snap his head up.
"What? What the hell is that suppose to mean?" Ken demanded to know and glared. The look in the redhead's face turned to anger.
"Next time you decide to keep a diary, don't leave it lying around for anyone to read," Aya said flatly. Ken winced. He was such a fucking idiot! The redhead knew what he was doing.
"Aya I… I."
"Just shut up Siberian. I really don't want to talk to you!" Oh God he had messed it up again!
"It's not like that," he objected lamely.
"Isn't it? I disgust you, you have to fight the urge to run away every time I touch you… What made you think I wanted your fucking charity anyway? Did you think I would just break down if you didn't want me?" Aya spat out with anger and hurt. "Don't flatter yourself! I'm perfectly capable of functioning without you!"
"Siberain, Abyssinian, watch your backs I just saw several guards heading upstairs." Omi's voice interrupted the awful moment.
"Copy that Bombay." Ken took a step into the shadows and gestured to Aya to follow him but the redhead didn't move.
"Stay the hell away from me Siberian. If you get too close I don't know what I'll do!" With those hard words Aya stalked away down the corridore. Ken wanted to yell to him to stay but he couldn't speak. It only took a moment before the herd of guards almost ran into the redhead. Shocked Ken was again faced with the horrific sight of Aya being gunned down in the dark corridore.
"NO!!" he cried out well aware that no one could hear him over the loud clatter of shots that hit the tall body he was staring at. The guards moved past him and the brunette sank down on the floor. He had failed again. Ken hid his face in his hands and started crying. Aya was dead… again and it had been his fault this time too.
"Siberian, Abyssinian? What's going on, I heard guns." The brunette didn't answer he just closed his eyes and damned himself. "Balinese? What's going on?" It was just the same as the last time.
"I'm not sure Bombay. The shots came from the fifth floor, I'm going there now."
"Copy that Balinese." It became quiet again just like Ken knew it would.
"Aya," he croaked out between the sobs and rocked back and forth. "I'm sorry, I just wanted to keep you alive." His eyes opened and turned to the dead body lying on the dirty floor. He had hurt Aya even worse this time by lying to him. "Please, why is this happening again? I just wanted to keep him safe." Yoji showed up at the end of the corridore and ran up to their fallen leader.
"Oh Jesus Christ! Aya!" The lanky blonde turned the redhead onto his back and lowered his face at the sight. "Aya, oh dear Gods." He looked up and spotted Ken. "Ken what the hell happened?" Yoji asked and hugged the redhead's body.
"I killed him again," Ken cried. "I just wanted him to be safe and I thought that if I just pretended to love him he wouldn't… they wouldn't… I… just."
"What the hell are you babbling about? Why didn't you call for help?" The brunette failed to answer.
"Balinese?" Omi asked in their ears and Ken cowered. Not this again, please anything but this, he begged but it was pointless.
"Omi there's… been a… an accident. Aya is… eh… Omi, Aya is… gone."
"Gone? What do you mean gone? Yoji? Yoji?! Where's is Aya?" Omi's voice was cracked.
"I killed him Omi, I killed Aya," Ken sobbed and banged his head against the wall. "I killed him again. Why? Why do I always have to kill him?"

For the second time Ken found himself sitting on his bed with the blame of Aya's death hanging over him. He wanted another chance, he refused to accept that Aya would die because of him. How many chances do you think I can give you? Ken lifted his head up and frowned. It was that strange voice again.
"Who are you?" The voice chuckled. Does it matter who I am? The brunette bit his lip. You can call me Fate. Now do you want another chance or not? "Yes please. I don't want him to die." Guilt, the voice muttered, what a rush. Listen, you amuse me and I am seldom amused by anything these days. So, I am going to give you another chance, again. Now would you please stop fucking up? Why do you punish this man so hard? His only crime is that the loves you why do you not just accept it. I suggest you try telling him the truth instead, and I suggest you do it without the yelling this time. Ken lowered his head in shame. "Can I save him?" he asked with hesitation. No, but you can change his fate if you get it right. "But how do I do that? What is the right way?" Whoa Ken. Do you seriously think that I can just give you the answer to that? I am sorry but I can not. This you will have to figure out on your own. But I will give you another chance. Do use it with care, I can only give you so many… The voice disappeared and Ken crawled under the covers. He prayed that the voice was telling the truth, that he would get another chance with Aya. Exhausted he fell asleep.

~TBC~

Stupid Ken! *mutters* And poor Aya finding out like that. But Ken will get another chance but what is he going to do with it this time? Um this fic is sort of inspired by the movie Groundhog Day, although there's really nothing funny about what happens here. Ken will have keep on trying ne? Ja/Atsureki