Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Pondering ❯ Part III ( Chapter 3 )

Pondering (Part III)

By Carter Tachikawa

Rating: Still NC-17. Did you expect it to change now?

Disclaimer: Still not mine. Bleah

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In an instant, Ken's covers were wet and thick. Everything below his waist felt sticky and it wasn't just because of the sweat pouring down his body. He knew all about this. One of the guys he used to play with on the J-League told him about things that happened during sex. Evidently, when a guy got the feeling, his penis would harden like cookies that just came out of the oven (yes, this very simile that was used when the guy explained it to Ken). His insides would hurt but in a good way. And when the guy was nearby the girl (or in this, another guy), some stuff would come out of his penis. It would be white and, with that white stuff, he and his partner could make a baby. Of course, Ken was older and wiser since the time he was told the story. But a lot of it was true.

At least, everything about the white stuff was true. It had soaked through his mattress even. Meanwhile, Aya was sitting up and staring at him. Ken couldn't help but feel a slight bit embarrassed.

"Sorry, Aya." He blushed. "I'm not used to this…"

"Ran."

"Hmm?"

"I want you to call me Ran. That's my real name, you know."

Ken just stared at him. This was so different and wonderful. Aya (Ran) usually didn't say so many things in one night. He was usually brooding about Takatori or helping out customers because it was his job. Never did he act so relaxed, so nonchalant. Not that Ken minded though. He liked this new side of Ran.

"Should we…should we clean up?" He asked. It was a silly question but he wanted to break the silence with something.

"Why bother? It'll get dirty again." Ran shrugged. "You act like you've never done this before."

Ken fell silent and went back to pondering. He didn't want to reveal to Ran that he hadn't done this before. There had been many times he wanted to do it. But it hadn't fallen off his agenda.

"Are you okay?" Ran finally asked.

"Yes, yes, I'm fine!" Ken nodded, shifting his position in bed. He pulled Ran close and kissed him on the lips. "Just was shocked by the amount of…of…"

"Cum." Ran said, once again in that nonchalant tone. If nothing else surprised Ken about Ran's behavior tonight, this definitely did. Not only did he say the word, he said it casually like it was no big thing.

Regaining composure, Ken repeated in agreement. "Cum."

As he sat up, he got yet another glimpse out the window. The woman was still there, still shivering. Ken wondered whether he should go out and ask her to come in. She had been standing there for so long.

"What's wrong now?" Ran interrupted. By now, he had found his way back on top of Ken.

"I was pondering…" Ken began to say but was cut off as Ran's stomach pressed against his crotch. "Oh…Oh, Ran. Oh, that feels good."

"You shouldn't ponder so much." Ran insisted, grabbing Ken's buttocks again. Ken moaned. "It's not good for you."

"You said that already." Ken squeaked. That high-pitched voice was coming back. The more Aya (or Ran as he wanted to be called tonight) used his hands, the stronger the pain in his crotch. Sweat began to pour down his chest and face.

"More." Ken whispered, feeling Ran's penis brush against his.

"Hmm?"

"More! More!"

"So I'm not going fast?"

"No, you're too slow! I want some more!" He demanded, feeling Ran's mouth press down on his neck. He threw his arms around his lover. "God, I love you so much."

"Thanks for stating the obvious." Ran spoke up before going back to kissing Ken's neck. Ken's thighs had grown hot like boiling oil. His legs were lined with sweat and a little bit of cum from what happened earlier. Ran moved from the neck to the chest, nibbling on the nipples. Ken winced and moaned some more but didn't complain. It felt wonderful and it made him forget about the past. With every moan and every ounce of pain, he felt the memories slipping away.

But then it came back.

To think we're so much in love with each other especially after what we've been through. Ran lost his family and I lost my best friend. And then there are other things between us.

Ran groped him again and he moaned.

This isn't right…this isn't what we should be doing…

More moans and his feet touched a cum-stained part of the bed.

We're moving too fast…

"I love you." Ran breathed down his neck.

We shouldn't…be…doing…this…

In the last minute, he made a decision.

"Wait!" He sat up, forcing Ran off of him. "Wait, we can't do this!"

Ran was puzzled. "What do you mean?"

"We have to stop." Ken managed to get out. He was out of breath from all the activity in bed. "I can't do this. I can't. I've got so much on my mind and so many problems to take care."

"I do too but…"

"Sex isn't helping any." Ken shook his head. Ran stopped when he heard that. "I…I don't feel like doing this anymore. There's so much I'm thinking of and it…

"So…you want me to stop?" It was as if Ken had pulled out a gun and shot him. The nod he received confirmed that the bullet had gone through.

"I'm sorry, Ran. I love you. And nothing changes that. But there's so many things on my mind…isn't there anything on yours?"

Ran thought about everything for a moment. Oh yes, he had things on his mind. He worried about Aya (Ran) and he worried about himself. He thought about missions and he thought about killing Takatori. Occasionally, he would think about the others too. Especially Ken. He loved Ken so much that it hurt inside. That's why it hurt when Ken wanted to stop and ponder. But, no matter how he felt inside, he respected Ken. He'd do anything for him. So he got off of Ken and slipped off the bed. Then he pulled up his boxers.

"I'm going to bed now." He let out a yawn and headed towards the door. "Whenever you're through pondering, let me know."

Ken gulped. "That may be a long time."

Ran froze in place. Then he answered. "Then take all the time you want."

With that, he left the room but he wasn't in a good mood. All he wanted to do now was sleep.

Ken sighed, picked the covers off the floor, and took one last glance out the window.

The woman turned to the left and walked away.

~OWARI~

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Author's Note: I know, I know. I had trouble with the ending and I don't like it myself. I had to find a way to close this though.

Anyway, read, review, be respectful, be true!

This was my first lemon ever. Please be gentle, dear reader^^;