Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Shattered Hope ❯ Shattered Hope part one ( Chapter 1 )

Title: Shattered Hope [part one]

Author: Farfarello

Rating: NC-17 for later chapters

Warnings: yaoi, angst, lemon in later chapters

Disclaimer: Weiss Kreuz does not belong to me...

I took another drag from my nth cigarette, brushing some of my stray blonde locks from my face using my thumb as I finished what was left of my drink. It felt good to be in familiar surroundings, the smell of alcohol, cigarettes and sex permeated the air while the hard driving music led the people around me to the dance floor.

Yes... it was another Saturday night in the life of Kudou Youji. First, go the nearest "near-decent" club, followed by drinking bottles of alcohol and smoking a stack of cigarettes then look for a well-endowed woman, fuck in a dingy old motel room. Finally, take a shower, go home then sleep like a rock until Aya kicks my door open and drags me out of bed... yeah... just the basics again tonight.

I let my eyes wander above my sunglasses that were perched on my nose for a dance partner and probably the one whom I'm gonna screw to the mattress tonight. My eyes fell on a blonde, she had a pretty nice body, big breasts... blue eyes... I guess she'll do.

I winked at the blonde, making her widen the smile that was already plastered on her face. I stood up from my seat, tossing what was left of my cigarette into a dark corner of the counter before straightening out the black tank top and leather pants that I was wearing. The blonde woman approached me, swaying her hips seductively... obviously, she wanted a goodnight's lay.

[Oh God Katchzen, she looks like she opens her legs to every person that crosses her way!]

I froze on the spot at the sudden intrusion of a nasal voice inside my mind. A voice that made my spine shiver and my skin crawl, a voice I knew all to well... "Schulderich." I nearly spat the name out as I backed away slowly, turning my head from side to side, trying desperately to located the Schwarz telepath.

[Don't spit out my name like you hate me, that's not very polite Katchzen...]

[Show yourself you fucking bastard!]

A sharp tug on my arm made me wince in pain as I was wheeled around roughly, fingers painfully digging into my skin. "My... my... we should really do something about that pretty little mouth of yours, hm?"

The German's fingers clamped down on my jaw, forcing me to come face to face with the red-haired devil himself. "Bastard!" That earned me a knee jammed against my abdomen... hard, making me fall against him.

"You should learn to control your tongue Katchzen or I might be forced to teach you..." Schulderich drew his face closer to mine, his hair tickling the side of my face. I didn't know what he wanted from me... but he seemed intent on getting it.

I tried to get away from him but there was something keeping me from lashing out or even moving away. "W-what do you want from me?" My voice sounded pathetic and I see his lips turn up in a wry grin at the hesitation in my tone. To my surprise, the German had already backed me up against the counter, leaning forward effectively pinning me in place. "I want a lot of thing Katchzen... very many things... but for tonight, I want none other than YOU..." My eyes widened at his words, I felt my lip quiver as I chewed on it nervously.

What did he think I was? GAY???!!! He must be crazy! Crazier than that psychopath that they always have hanging around with his knife... Me, Kudou Youji, the greatest play boy who ever walked the streets of Japan is... GAY???!!! Now, the red-haired freak was really far, far away into LALA land if he ever thought that I was interested in MEN... M-E-N!!!

"Do you really think that I'm going to believe that?" I nearly jumped out of my skin when Schulderich pulled me out of my thoughts with a quick nip on my lower jaw. "Stop it! Damn it! I'm not interested in men!!! Get off of me!!!" I wanted to get away from him as much as possible and I started to struggle against the hold he had on my wrists.

People were starting to stare at us and I just wanted to hide of shame at the ridiculous position that I was in. I was leaned over on the counter with a perverted red-head who's trying to get his hands all over me and to top it all off, we were in public! I glared at him angrily but all I saw in those emerald orbs was sheer amusement. "I don't think I want to let you go just yet... it took me a fucking long time to find you Katchzen..."

I managed to get one of my hands free and tried to reach my wire on my other wrist but Schulderich was too fast and he grabbed by wrist tightly. "I wouldn't do that if I were you..." Damn! What did he want from me? I glared at him again, this time I looked at him like I wanted to burn a hole right through his head. "I told you... I'm not..."

I took a sharp breath as Schulderich pressed a knee between my legs and forced me to sprawl helplessly beneath him. He must've done something since the people didn't seem to mind what was going on, leaving me no hope of asking anyone for help. "What was that Katchzen? I didn't hear you finish the sentence."

I swallowed the lump in my throat and repeated hoarsely, "I told you, I'm not interested in men!" I gasped in surprise as his knee brushed against my member through the leather pants I was wearing. "Hm? Did I hear that correctly? I don't think your little friend here agrees with what you're saying." With that, Schulderich ground his knee harder against my awakening shaft, drawing another stifled moan from my lips.

My mind was is chaos, I didn't have any idea what I was going to do or say or think! I began to panic, pulling and kicking violently but his hands held a firm grip on my wrists that were now starting to hurt. All I wanted was to get away, to escape the German and that forsaken smirk he always has on his face.

I lashed out completely, waving my arms wildly and thrashing about uncontrollably as I screamed a litany of "LETGO!LETGO!LETGO!LETGO!LETGO!" My energy was draining out of my body but the German seemed completely unaffected by my outburst as he just stood there, looking at me amusedly. I finally stop struggling... it was hopeless anyway... and just lay there on the counter silently, except for my ragged breathing.

I felt hot tears roll down my cheeks, I felt so helpless and weak against Schulderich... I was scared. I was really scared, this person was my enemy and I knew he wouldn't hesitate to do whatever he had in that twisted mind of his. I lay there, crying in front of the telepath, showing him how weak I really was.

I had never cried in front of anyone before, it was unmanly to begin with and it showed how weak you really are. And here I was, crying like a scared little child. To my surprise, the German let go of my wrists and stepped away from me, running a hand through his hair as he did. I stand up shakily as I wiped the rest of my tears with the back of my hand, desperately trying to regain my composure.

I managed to muster up enough guts to look at Schulderich, finding him looking right back at me with those piercing emerald eyes. My mouth opened to speak but my voice was nearly inaudible as I asked, "Why?" He merely shook his head and began to walk away from me saying, "I hate it when guys cry, it's just not my thing!" But then he stopped and turned his head and... I might have been hallucinating, but I thought I saw him smile at me. Not the usual grin he always had on his face... but a real smile. Schulderich smiled at me and said, "...but think it over Katchzen... if you need me, I'll be in touch right here." He tapped his temple and gave me a knowing look before the telepath continued to walk away, finally disappearing in the crowds of people inside the club.

I stood there, staring blankly at the direction where the German had walked off to... What just happened? I felt confused and afraid... not afraid of what Schulderich had done, but of what he had said. I never thought of guys in "that" way... at least I never thought I did. I had been Japan's leading playboy, leading a happy life until a certain red-haired telepath comes into the picture and blows everything out of proportion.

Keep in touch huh? I don't need to know what he has in his sleeve... no, I don't WANT to know... I really don't really have to complicate my life more than it already was. I heave a deep breath before heading out of the club... I guess tonight was not like the usual after all.

~tbc

[comments and suggestions please] -Farfarello