Yami No Matsuei Fan Fiction ❯ From Hisae, With Love... ❯ Entry 1 ( Chapter 1 )

Author's Note: Hello Yami no Matsuei/Descendants of Darkness fans! ^_^ I'm yamigirl21. It's a pleasure to meet all of you! And please allow me to thank you for sampling this story of mine! I really do appreciate it! I have to be honest though, I'm rather new to the fandom of this series…. ^^; But in the short time that I have known about it, I've already devoured the entire TV series and all of the translated manga! :) Though I'm not one to usually write in this manner, (jumping into a project without planning ahead and what not) for whatever reason, I was almost immediately compelled to at least try!

For those who may know me or are familiar with my previous work, I'm also a big fan of Yu-Gi-Oh (as well as the pairing of Anzu and Yami Yugi, which I'm sure has a lot to do with my writing this; in terms of concept anyhow….{For more information please visit me at: yamigirl21 dot deviantart dot com} ). On that note, I have to say that my first attraction to the Yami no Matsuei/Descendants of Darkness series originated from the fact that the voice actor who played Yami Yugi/Atemu also voiced the character of Asato Tsuzuki. It was that one aspect that lured me in…. I suppose it was all down hill from there! @_@

Though I am passionate about many elements within this exciting series, I have to admit that I am particularly captivated by the character of Tsuzuki! Ah! What a rich, fascinating, multi-dimensional character he is! And I have to say, that for an anime guy I think that he's pretty hot too! *^_^*

As I was saying though, when I read the second manga especially, I fell in love with the short story regarding Tsuzuki's time with the young female dancer named Hisae Tojyo. I found it to be such a beautiful, moving story; one that I simply had to know more about! The interaction between Tsuzuki and Hisae was just adorable! I thought that they made such a lovely couple too! So I decided to try to expand on it personally; for fun if nothing else.

As a result, I've taken the story of “The Last Waltz” as it was titled in the manga and I attempted to give it that depth. To do this, I've written this “fan-fiction” as a sort of diary entry that Hisae Tojyo herself is writing; one which conveys everything that she thinks, feels and experiences during the time that she spent with Tsuzuki, perhaps even events that did not appear in the manga (he did live with her for two weeks after all! :P ) Though I'll admit that I'm rather uncertain about the direction that I wish to take this piece, I thought that it might be interesting to see how it unfolds! :)

As for the relationship issue, I wanted to say that I am very very much aware of the fact that many of the men of Yami no Matsuei/Descendants of Darkness have close intimate bonds with each other; perhaps some are of the romantic nature! Though I can honesty say that I have no desire to undermine those relationships, I personally like to believe that at least some of them are open to interpretation. Regarding Tsuzuki in particular, though I know that it's especially likely that he may have a relationship with the young boy named Hisoka, there is also quite a bit of evidence that supports that he is interested in women as well. It is made rather apparent not only in the story of “The Last Waltz,” but in many other volumes of the manga. That is the angle that I have chosen to focus on anyhow. So please everyone. Please allow me to utilize that concept without complaint. ^^;


WARNING: Though I would greatly appreciate any comments that you wish to leave for my story, I also ask that you please refrain from speaking against this work, simply because it does not follow through with the potential shonen-ai/yaoi elements of the series. However you wish to interpret Tsuzuki's relationship with Hisae, it appears to be quite obvious that he did love her; so much so that even Hisoka could feel it within him. Again this is merely my interpretation of that love. Now, without further ado…..

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Hello Diary,

Hisae here…. It seems that it's been quite a while since I've written in you, hasn't it? I apologize, old friend….. It wasn't my intention to neglect you as I have these past several weeks, really. And let me assure you that I didn't simply forget to tell you what's been happening in my life lately. No… How could I, Diary? After all, you've been my one trusted companion (other than Will of course) since even before my brother Suo died…. Suo…

But yes, please believe me when I say that I still consider you to be my sanctuary Diary, my comfort zone. This is the place that I could always go to, to collect my thoughts, to try to make some semblance of sense of my endlessly spinning emotions; especially after what happened to- Well, you know Diary…. There's no point in upsetting myself about Suo's accident here when my nightmares or even my every day thoughts alone are enough to do that…..

Anyhow, I'm not here to talk about my guilt, or my regrets, or even to document my real fear (a fear that I'm most likely suppressing, to be honest with you) that I don't have much time left in me….. Instead, I wanted to tell you about a surprising, almost bizarre encounter that I've just had! Wow…. What a whirlwind it was Diary, really…. There's no other way to describe it!

It all started on a rather bleak note though…. For just when I thought that I would be forced to give up my hopes to reopen my family's dance academy, (remind me to tell you what ELSE that conniving little bitch Shiori has done to ruin my life, later!!) I met a man who actually claimed to know Suo during the time that he lived in Tokyo! Can you believe it?! But it wasn't just that revelation that surprised me, (when I finally gave him the opportunity to tell me that is ^^;) what I found really shocking was the sound of his voice!

Hmm….. It seems that I have no choice but to tell you about my dispute with that insufferable woman, Diary… I think that this account would be a little too disjointed if I didn't…. I have to admit that I'm a bit embarrassed about it now. I could only imagine what I must have looked like, flying off the handle like that! But I was just SO angry! I'm telling you Diary, I just wanted to tear Shiori's hair out at that moment! Argh!!

The fit itself or even some of the things that I said are a little fuzzy now, but I distinctly remember throwing at least a few potted plants around as I screamed and cursed at her like a banshee! If that wasn't enough, I even grabbed a broom stick to attack her with! I didn't really consider what I was planning to do with that broom per say, but yeah… I most likely had the intention of beating the shit out of her with it, to put it mildly! Though I never actually went through with it, she seemed pretty intimidated by me at the very least! When I backed her into a corner, she also grabbed one of my plants, (a taller one, with its pot still attached and everything!) as she frantically attempted to stand her ground! It would have been a rather humorous sight to see if I hadn't been as mad as I was! Well, I definitely think that I won that battle of our long string of cat fights! Still, I really thought, for a minute there, that I had lost the war…..

To clarify all of that, the reason we were at odds was because Shiori had somehow managed to lure my dance partner Nitta away from me, RIGHT before the big competition that we had been preparing for! Just two weeks before!! How could Nitta do this to me, Diary!? He promised that he'd enter that contest with me! How could Shiori do this!? Hmph! I know how she could, Diary! She most likely used every skanky trick in the book, coupled with a nice fat bribe! I wasn't even shy about calling Shiori on that right to her face, though she of course denied it, claiming that I was the one who was “sick in the head!” Whatever Diary…. I just wish I knew what her problem was! Does she really hate me that much that she's willing to go to such great lengths to take everything away from me?! Will she stop at nothing to destroy me, to sabotage me?! What did I ever do to her to deserve this?! I just don't get it!! Ok…. I really need to calm down…. I'm getting all worked up again, just writing this!

But yeah, looking back at myself at that moment, I'm rather surprised that I was so physical about it…. To be honest, I wasn't sure if I still had it in me…. I mean, even my nightly practice and exercises are getting harder and harder for me to take…. I thought that I could handle it, that I was strong enough but-

I know that promised you that I wouldn't complain again, Diary, and I see that I'm getting side-tracked from what I was originally writing about, but I have to tell you, I am scared…. No, I'm terrified….. I can just feel the control slipping away from me…. It's as if my own body is turning against me, protesting loudly with sharp pains, cramping muscles…. I've even sickened myself when I've seen the amount of blood that I've vomited. And having to clean up after myself….all of those dark stains, the puddles on the studio floor…..

But what can I tell you diary…. I suppose that I'll just have to bear it, if I can. There's no one left to tell me otherwise anyway…. No one that really cares I mean…. Though, I can say that if was possible for a dog to make a decision for a person, I think Will would have surely forced me back to the hospital for treatment! Oh Will….

I know it sounds crazy, Diary, but sometimes I think that he really does worry about me and my health. He's a bit of a wanderer, it's true, but I often wonder if leaves home because he doesn't want to see me pushing myself like I have been…. I mean, I can't think of any other reason why he would, especially since he is there when I need him. Somehow he just knows when to be….. Wow… It really is strange… It's almost as if he's watching over me, caring for me in Suo's place; like a little piece of Suo lives within him, you know? He seems to care so much that at times I even feel a little guilty about what I've been doing….. I try not to let it get to me but I've noticed that even Will's been finding the blood stains that I've been leaving behind…. He just stands over them, looking up at me; giving me the most pitiful stare…. God….

But no, no! I won't even let those sad puppy dog eyes get the best of me! I don't care if my insides are aching, burning… It wouldn't even matter if I was being plagued by every terminal illness in recorded history! Nothing and no one is going to stop me from finishing what I've started! Not Shiori, not Nitta, not even Will! I'm serious, Diary! I'll even go as far as to say that if the Grim Reaper himself showed up at my door, I'd slam the door right in his face! I'm telling you….. I won't be taken without a fight….! I simply refuse! Watch me! I'm going to do it! No matter what it takes… On that note, Diary, let me finally tell you about Suo's friend from Tokyo; the mysterious Mr. Asato Tsuzuki….

Where to begin…. Well…. I guess I should start with how I happened to come across this man. But then, I suppose it's more accurate to say that he came looking for me first! Yeah, apparently either Shiori or Nitta had left the front door open when they came to tell me their “news” and this man, Tsuzuki, had decided to let himself in. From what I understand, he had been trying to get my attention during my little brawl (I found out later that he had even managed to get caught in the crossfire of it all too! ^^;) but it wasn't until those two back stabbers were actually leaving that Suo's friend ultimately addressed me.

I remember that I was facing away from Mr. Tsuzuki then….. (Yeah, I was going to make sure that Shiori and Nitta were getting the hell out, Diary!!) Though I was still focused on them when he spoke, when I did finally allow myself to hear his words (his mention of my first name in particular) I swear that I felt like I had been hit by a truck! That voice sounded so much like- God! I could just feel my eyes widening….! As impossible as it seemed, I turned instantly, fully expecting to see- But no….. though it took me a moment to process it, to differentiate two voices that sounded remarkably alike, I soon realized that it wasn't Suo that I faced but someone else altogether….

I know. I know…. Much like everything else that I've written, it does sound crazy! But if you could have only heard him…..! Why, Diary? Why do I keep torturing myself like this? Even I don't understand it! How I must sound! But even so, I can't help the way I feel…. I'd never admit this to anyone else, but the truth is, sometimes I wonder if I AM being haunted my Suo…… Just like Shiori says….

Getting back to what I was saying though, I think I scared that poor man half to death with my assumptions! He certainly looked surprised! I don't know why I would say such a thing (maybe I was embarrassed or maybe I was still pissed off at Shiori and Nitta) but I actually asked him if he was a salesman of some sort! Yeah…. I didn't even give him a chance to tell me otherwise! I was pretty short with my “I'm not buying” remark too. I guess I was pretty rude to him….

 

When I was finally able to get a hold of myself, I treated Mr. Tsuzuki to a cup of tea. I suppose I hoped that by doing so, I'd be able to make up for my bad first impression; at least in some small way, you know? I like to think that it did the trick too, given his joyful, almost goofy expression over it! :) It was then that he finally told me himself that he was an acquaintance of my older brother. Though I don't usually feel too comfortable with strangers, I felt at ease enough to talk openly to Mr. Tsuzuki. I even admitted that I had mistaken him for Suo, which was followed by my rather sheepish apology… For whatever reason, I really did appreciate that he was gracious enough to accept it…..

Heh, you know, I'm starting to wonder if I was a little too straight forward with Mr. Tsuzuki, Diary… For starters, I remember ranting on and on about Shiori and Nitta when he asked me about the little scene that he had witnessed. I think I even startled him with some of my particularly colorful language (Not that Shiori isn't a bitch, mind you!). But it was when he was looking a bit sympathetic over my dilemma (concerning the competition and all) that I was really direct with him; so direct that I got right up in his face, grabbed him by his tie, and asked him to be my new dance partner!

Really, Diary! I even surprised myself with that one! But I just had to go for it! With a little luck, I think that we might be able to pull it off! I had been studying Mr. Tsuzuki as we talked…. Like I thought then, he definitely has the ideal height (he's taller than Nitta actually!). I noticed that right away! And though he is thin, he does seem to be pretty developed; good arms, good legs, strong looking back and shoulders… Somehow I'd even guessed that he'd be pretty agile! Don't ask me how I knew, Diary. I just had a feeling, I guess….

In addition to all of that, he's got the looks too….. Tall, dark, handsome….. I think he mentioned that he was in his mid 20s or so, yet he does seem to have this boyish air to him…. It's kind of…cute actually…. Hmm… Not that I care about any of that, Diary!!! I just mean that he'll look good at my side during the competition! It's strictly business! Nothing more than that! I mean beggars really can't be choosey right?!

Seriously though…. All kidding aside, Diary, I'm really really not looking for anything else but a partner that will see me through this event. Nitta, Mr. Tsuzuki, it makes no difference to me in the end….though I do hope that Mr. Tsuzuki will show a bit more commitment to all of this than that bastard did….!! But yeah, though it may be a little crude, the way I see it, Mr. Tsuzuki is nothing but a tool…. It's as simple as that. No, I won't let him be anything else! I made a promise to myself….that I wouldn't think of anyone but Suo….. After all that he did for me, how could I not?! I owe it to him, Diary…. Suo has to come first! Everything I do, I do for him…..

Even so, don't get me wrong, Diary! I am grateful for Mr. Tsuzuki's help! I mean he did drop everything for this after all! He even agreed to stay here with me; to train in the studio, for two whole weeks! He certainly is nice enough to do something like that…. But then, I really didn't give him much of a choice in the matter! ^^; I'm just going to come out and say it! I was desperate, ok?! There was no way in hell that I was going to let him get away! I think I even threatened to hack him into tiny little pieces if he even tried to refuse me! Maybe not the smoothest move on my part, I'll give you that, but hey, whatever works! Oh yeah…. I definitely think that I put the fear of God into that man….. Well…. If it keeps him in line….

But anyways Diary, though I'm not completely through with my description of the day's events, I think I'm going to leave it at that for now…. I'm…. feeling a bit tired all of a sudden. It's strange… I didn't think it was possible to exhaust yourself just by writing something, but yeah…. I do need to lie down. I'll only rest for a little while though. I will not allow myself to skip tonight's rehearsal! I know I'll feel better once I take my medicine too. But even if I don't, I'll keep at it. I'll just keep my eyes on the prize, so to speak. I can ignore just about everything else if I maintain my focus; the pain, the fatigue, even the criticism…..! Hmph! I'd almost forgotten….!

Look! I know that it's going to take some time to teach Mr. Tsuzuki the routine that Nitta and I practiced, I have no problem admitting that, but that doesn't mean that I can't perfect it! That…. That….know-it-all….! Who did he think he was talking to?! I'm the one who's been dancing for more than a decade! So what if he knows the basics?! He's not that much older than me! He shouldn't be telling me how to do my job! I don't “share the dance,” he says! I need to “dance like I want him!” Please!

Sorry Diary, you probably have no idea what I'm talking about, do you? Well… I'll save that bit for later…. I'll probably have trouble getting back to sleep after this evening's practice anyway, so I'll be sure to finish up then. As always, thank you for listening to me, my dear friend. Until next time, ok?

Love,
Hisae Tojyo

7:34pm