Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Anzu cries. ❯ Anzu cries ( One-Shot )

Bunny: Okay, this is a one-shot Anzu's point of view. It's real angsty so don't complain to me. It's supposed to make people actually kinda like Anzu, or at least think a bit more about her character. Personally I don't like Anzu but I just cant get this out of my head. I need to write it down.

One-shot

Anzu's POV

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Uhhhh... Im sitting her now in this damned dark room, why won't the lights work in this place? Perhaps they hate me, just like everyone else. My family, my friends, they've all abandoned me. Though I suppose I deserve it. I've driven them all away, but with reason I suppose. I'm afraid of being hurt so I hurt others before they can get to me. That's why I've put up this happy bimbo facade that everyone seems to accustomed too, they seem to think that I'm nothing but some evil whore. I kinda of led them all to believe it though..

Im just so afraid. I shudder at the thought of my fear, but what if one day they actually do break through my barrier and see through to the real me? They might get so close to me as to actually love me.. But then.. What if they push me away? Break my heart like all others have done before them. That's why this front I've put up is here. My fake smile and rants.

The candle light flickers against my skin making it glow . Damnit the light just won't turn on. I scraped up enough money to pay the electric bill this month so why won't it fully turn on. I think it hates me too.

You know it's so ironic that the one thing I use to bring people together is actually what drives them away. My little so called friendship rants that everyone is so sick of was just a device to make everyone despise me. Like anyone would really believe in that drivel, that friendship will get us through everything. Hah, I once believed that but then I was hurt. Really badly.

A few years back before I met Yugi I had a friend who tore me apart. I had believed every word she said until I over heard one day that they were all lies. She had just been using me to get to my fathers car. The father that abandoned me, used to curse and scream at me telling me that I was worthless. But he's gone now. My mother murdered him in a fit of rage and was sent to women prison for life. Isn't that odd? Normally one would expect the male of the house to take violent action against the female.

Recently a few have almost seen through my guise, Yugi and everyone. But mostly Yugi. Im not sure Jonouchi has seen through but something tells be that he's a lot smarter than he leads us to believe. It might be the look in his eye's when he's serious or when he's thinking and doesn't think anyone notices it, but that only leads me to my thought's about Yugi, Yugi the small boy who knows no end to kindness. God I admire him so, he used to be such a loner until Jonouchi, Honda, and I started talking to him.. I wonder how he does it... Make everyone around him feel so important yet inferior. A lot of girls would really go for that in a boyfriend, I wonder why he doesn't have a girlfriend yet. There should be girls falling all over their pathetic selves for him yet. I think it may have to do with that spirit of his. Yami the ancient pharaoh, it's just the way they look at each other. It's almost erotic. Like they share a deep secret that the whole world doesn't know. You can tell that fire flow through their body and they are on a higher level of self-conscious than everyone else.

I wish I had that with someone like that, then I wouldn't have to envy them. But gods, sometimes the people around me are so infuriating. I just want to smack them and tell them to shut up. I bet they feel that way about me though, just want me to go away and never return.

Well they got their wish, I've annoyed them to no end that they have finally told me to leave. They don't want me as their "friend" anymore. But like I said, I deserve it for I brought it upon myself. So I'm just curling up into a ball now, I fall over onto this bed and listen to the noises of the night. Nothing. There are no noises, the walls are sound proof. Closing my eyes I exhale through my nose and sigh. Sleep takes me soon.

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Ryu: Aibou... You're so screwed up..

Bunny: Yes I know that but this was for the soul purpose of getting it out of my head. I actually pity Anzu a bit, just thinking about her character and role in Yu-Gi-Oh makes you wonder about her. What is she really like?

Ryu:... I think you really need to stop talking to Alona (the Evil Authoress).. She put's too much angst into your head.

Bunny: Bah...