Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Change of Heart Trilogy ❯ Before Your Love ( Chapter 3 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

YG710: Hello!!! I am not a big fan of Valentine's Day but hey - here's a treat for all you out there who love B/R fics!! Here's is the third and final attachment to the 'Change of Heart Trilogy'! I would also like to thank all my reviewers for their support!

Yami: Must I sit through this every time.

YG710: *glares at him* Yes Pharoah no baka.

Yami: That's it! You are forbidden to talk with that Tomb Raider ever again!

YG710: I'm the authoress remember. I can do whatever I please. ^_~

Yami: Ra has forsaken me...

YG710: ^__^ Just do the disclaimers Yami-kun.

Yami: Fine. YG710 does not own Yugioh or the song 'Before Your Love' by Kelly Clarkson. Plus she's flat broke so don't try sueing her.

YG710: Meanie...Anyways on with the Fic!!

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*lyrics*

"speech"

'thoughts'

(me and Yami interrupting)

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Before Your Love


*I wonder how I ever made it through a day
How did I settle for a world in shades of gray*

Ryou is asleep. He has been for awhile. Who wouldn't be exhausted after wandering around in heavy rains for hours? I look at him from my casual leaning position on the doorframe. He's truly beautiful; an angelic being meant to grace my miserable life. Ryou means the world to me, whether or not I choose to show it. I wouldn't trade him for all the millennium items in this world or the next.
It's still raining; just lighter than before. I go over to the window and sit on the sill just contemplaing life. Rainclouds cover the usually clear skies casting a dark and gloomy effect on the entire city.

*When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know why*

My hands travel to the ring hanging limply from my neck. My fingers gingerly travel over the gold trinket until it reaches one of the many sharp points connected to it. As my thumb grazes the tip it creates a small line of red. Blood. I love the sight of it. I always have...well at least till recently.
One night I came home extremely drunk and beat my hikari to the point of breaking his skin. When I saw his blood I expected to laugh at the sight but...I didn't. I almost killed myself. I had spilled my soulmate's blood purposely. Dammit! What kind of Yami am I!?
That night I tended to my unconcious aibou's wounds and the next morning when he awoke he stared at the bandaged cuts curiously and looked at me. I merely glared and retreated to my soul room. If he ever found out I was kind to him he would laugh and think of me weak. I do not tolerate weakness.
I heard a low groan behind me. I turn my head to see Ryou waking up. His half-lidded chocolate eyes blink a few times adjusting to the dim lighting of the room. He turns his head to the side and his eyes meet my intense stare.

*And I looked into your eyes
Where the world stretched out in front of me,
And I realize*

My glare was softening by the second as the chocolate brown pools looked at me. He finally broke the stare and looked down finding his hands extremely interesting. I sighed and walked over to him, never taking my eyes off my beautiful angel's face.

*I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again I wasn't really living
I never lived before your love*

He was still tired; that was obvious. But there was something different about him now. He seemed a little cheerior and more at peace with whatever conflict his mind had gone through. This made me curious so I sat in front of him on the comfortable couch and took his hand and intertwined his finger with mine. His eyes shifted to our clasped hands and then up to face me.
"I'm sorry Bakura. Suicide is for the weak. I'm so very sorry..." he kept apologizing over and over for everything he had ever thought he'd done wrong. I grew angry at the fact that he was doing this to himself; allowing himself to hate himself enough to go as far as suicide. Didn't he understand? Didn't he see how much he meant to me? How much his friends cared about him?
Back in Egypt when I was a cold psycopatic jackass, not very different from what I am now, I killed anyone who dared try stopping me in my robberies. I was ruthless and known all around Egypt as the expert Raider of Tombs. Not a thing mattered to me but my treasures. I had never experienced love or compassion. I had only felt pain, sorrow, and betrayal in my past so I swore never to feel for a person.
That life is over now. I live in a large house with my sweet aibou and I can't find anything better that that.

*I wanted more than just an ordinary life
All of my dreams seemed like castles in the sky*

I had no goal in my past; only to rule the world. It was a goal, not a dream, not a wish, just a goal. Nothing more, nothing less. In the present I only have one main purpose; to love and to be loved by Ryou. But that doesn't seem to want to come true. The only thing I trully hope for is not given to me. I know I am not the nicest guy but by Ra all I want is Ryou's love.
Ryou is still apologizing. He must really feel he's let me down. Oh if he only knew... "Gomen Yami. I was so-" he was cut off when I covered his lips with my own. His lips so soft, so irresistably soft. He smells of vanilla mixed with chocolate; a truly wonderful scent. I am surprised that he hasn't pulled back and stared at me with disgust by now; not that it's a bad thing.
I let go of his hand and carresed his face gently as I deepened the kiss. He yet again surprises me when his hands tangled into my hair and pulled me even closer. So this is what heaven feels like...

*I stand before you and my heart is in your hands
And I don't know how
I survived without your kiss
Cause you're giving me a reason to exist*

As the kiss wears on I notice a strong need in my lungs. Reluctantly I pull away gasping for breath. Ryou is under me, face flustered and eyes closed in contentment. I brush a few white strands of hair as he recovers from our passionate experience. His eyes open slowly, brown eyes full of lust and confusion.
"What was that for?" he asks quietly. I smile and lean in so are foreheads are touching. "Do I need a reason to kiss my beautiful aibou?" I ask knowing that the only responce I'd get from him are wide eyes and a small blush.

*I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again I wasn't really living
I never lived before your love*

My hikari raised his head slightly and looked into my eyes. He smiled brightly despite his weak confition and enveloped me in a bear hug. I return the embrace and run my hand through his silky white locks.

*I never lived before your love*

I glance at the window to see that the rain has stopped and the clouds are beginning to part. For a second I wished the rain to return for I wanted to stay in the warmth of our house with my Hikari.

*And I don't know why
Why the sun decides to shine
But you breathed your love into me just in time*

My thoughts are interrupted by the feeling of soft lips covering mine. I kiss back gently and was about to deepen the kiss when Ryou pulled back, a small smile gracing his pale and angelic features.
"Aishiteru Bakura," he said softly. I look at him with wide eyes. He loved me. He giggled at my expression and nuzzled my neck making me snap out of my stupor. I try my best to stifle the moan rising in my chest. My hikari's touch is electrifying; enough to make me wild. "Aishiteru Ryou, my koi," I say as he stops his nuzzling to look at me. He burries himself in my chest and sighs. "Will you sing for me Yami?" he asks shyly. "Anything for you Koi," I said before searching my mind for any song. I finally come apon a chorus of a song I had heard before on that contraption Ryou calls a radio. It reminded me so much of my feelings for him that I preserved the words in my memory.
*I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again I wasn't really living
I never lived
I never lived before your love*
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Yami: Very appropriate song.
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