Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Crazy for you ❯ Not all avoidance ( Chapter 14 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

A/N: Hi again. I have been told about how much all kinds of errors I make while writing and I just thought you should know that English is not my national language, it's Finnish so, yeah, I can't know everything and thus make mistakes.

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Ryou just knew he couldn't get his old life back, he felt sad about it but couldn't find it in himself to really blame Mariku. His life was messed up too after all. Besides, Mariku was... important to him... At some unknown point, he had just started to think Mariku as an important part of his life. Sure they had had their ups and downs... mostly downs, but somehow they had gotten pretty close, considering that he hadn't really wanted to get very close in the first place. He somehow found himself trusting the insane teen, though it was difficult at least when he got “friendly” with him. Then Ryou just didn't know what to do and he ended up backing away with lightning speed. It was just so strange to him, he hadn't exactly been attracted to anyone before, and yes, that was before.
The fact that it had to be Mariku of all people didn't help either. Why did it have to be him? Ryou didn't know what drew him to 'his royal psychotic-ness', or maybe it was just the things he was scared of about him at first; the unpredictability and certain insane wildness. Well, the guy was crazy.

Ryou had had a lot of time to think about things now that he didn't really have much else to do, he did help Ishizu when he could, but besides that he just gazed at Mariku and thought things through. He just hoped the other didn't notice him paying more attention to him than usual, though when he caught him staring, he just smirked at him and Ryou quickly turned his eyes away and blushed a bit. So ok, maybe he had noticed that something was going on and so had Ishizu most likely. Ryou was just happy that the two siblings didn't seem to be so hostile towards each other anymore. They actually talked a bit nowadays, other than just Ishizu trying to talk to Mariku and him snapping at her. They almost sounded civilized now.

Mariku hadn't really done anything lately, which was of course always good. He had broken a plate for no apparent reason a few days ago but that was about it. He hadn't thrown a fit after the one about Ryou's dream, which had been out of jealousy, as Ryou later discovered.

Right now Ryou was helping Ishizu do the dishes in the kitchen, she washed and Ryou dried, placing them to the right places. He had some problems putting one bowl on to the top shelf do to his hight but then someone took it from him and reached to put it on the shelf, pressing against his back in the proses. Since Ishizu was standing next to him and there was only one other occupant in the apartment, it had to be Mariku. Ryou blushed a bit and faced his physical closeness dilemma again. On the other hand he wanted to lean back against Mariku but on the other he just wanted to run away, lock himself in a room and never come out again. So he tried to busy himself with the wet dishes, hoping that the other would leave him alone, and at the same time hoping that he wouldn't. His wish came true and didn't come true at the same time.

“Aw, why so tense sweets? Something the matter?” Mariku asked quietly near his ear and placed his hands on his hips. Ryou froze and Ishizu pretended not to notice what was going on.

“N-nothing, I'm not tense...”

Mariku chuckled in his ear. “Don't lie to me sweets. I can see right through you.” He purred, making Ryou shiver. “I don't think it's out of fear, is it?”

“I'm not scared of you... I feel strange, I-I think we should talk...” Ryou told, trying not to let his voice shiver, not fully succeeding though.

“Talk? Ok, now?”

Ryou felt relieved when the other agreed so easily, he didn't really know what to say though and felt a bit nervous too. “Not now, I need to finish the dishes.”

“Actually, I think you two should really talk now, I can finish the dishes myself.” Ishizu cut in and Ryou felt like going 'Damn you Ishizu!' but refrained from doing that. He had just wanted to buy himself some more time but his plan was shot now and he felt
Mariku tugging him away from the kitchen. Ryou sighed in defeat and followed him to their room, closing the door behind him and sitting next to the other on the bed. A moment of silence passed as Mariku waited Ryou to start since he was the one who wanted to talk. When that didn't happen and Ryou only found the covers to be very interesting, Mariku spoke up first.

“So... I got the impression that you wanted to tell me something?”

“Um, yes...” Ryou didn't look up from the covers. “I-ah... Whenever we're... close, I just get scared because I feel... kind of weird and that scares me so I want to run away as fast as I can but at the same time I don't want to and that confuses me.” Most of that was said very quickly, Ryou carefully glanced up from the covers to see the other's reaction. Mariku blinked and then grinned widely in a way that made Ryou back off a bit. “Uh, Mariku?”

Mariku bounced. Ryou let out a shocked cry as he was pinned down. Mariku sat on his hips and pushed his down by his shoulders, grinning like a madman he was, a happy madman.

“So I make you feel uncomfortable?” He asked and leaned so close their noses were touching.

“Yes, very...” Ryou choked out while blushing furiously, resembling a tomato now. “Could you get off of me?”

“No.” Mariku stated. “Not when I have you in my mercy like this.”

There was something in that simple statement that made Ryou's mind scream 'Oh no!' but his body went 'Oh yes!', that didn't serve to lessen his confusion any. “I really don't think-.”

Mariku interrupted him. “Good, you think way too much anyway, just let go for once.”

“C-can't we just talk this through like civilized human beings?” Ryou suggested weakly. He might have preferred talk, but Mariku preferred action.

“Well, since there's only one civilized human being in this room, I really don't think that's going to happen.”

Wasn't this an interesting situation... Ryou didn't know what to do with his inner conflict. He wanted to punch the other for invading his personal space and push him off, but also pull him even closer, press his body against his, kiss him and ran his hands through his hair... If it would have been humanly possible to blush more, Ryou would have turned even redder because of his thoughts.

“Ryou? Your head looks ready to blow up.” Informed Mariku kindly, Ryou blinked and opened his mouth to say something but them closed it, not having a comment for that. “Are you ok?” Mariku placed his hand on his forehead, giving Ryou some space, which he was thankful of.

“It's nothing, I'm... I'm fine.” Ryou smiled a bit. Mariku sat up and Ryou followed his example, or more like his body didn't want to lose the close contact so it followed Mariku's body up.

“Really, I'm ok.” Ryou reassured. At least he thought that he was ok... He might be developing some kind of double personality though...

Mariku frowned at him. “If you say so...” His hand, which was still on Ryou's forehead, traveled down his face slowly.

“M-Mariku, I don't think... You shouldn't... ah...”

The other tilted his chin up. “Don't worry, I won't do anything you don't want, but Ryou? Do you know what you want?”

“I...” The truth was that he didn't. Ryou knew what his body wanted, but not what he wanted. “I don't know...” He admitted quietly.

“Figure it out.” Mariku got off of him and left the room, and Ryou.

Ryou looked down on his hands, sad frown on his face. Now what? He only wished he could figure things out... It would help if he had someone to talk to, other than Mariku. Speaking with someone might help him sort things out. There was Ishizu, she would probably be willing to listen and maybe give some advise.

But wait... Why did Mariku care? Why was it suddenly so important to him what Ryou wanted? It wasn't like he had cared much before... Ryou decided to bring that up with him some time, after he got his part sorted out.

“Ryou? Are you alright?” Ishizu, the very person Ryou wanted to see, asked from the doorway. Ryou looked up at her and smiled a little.

“Of course. Why wouldn't I be?”

Ishizu came to sit next to him. “My brother isn't forcing himself on you, is he?” She asked worriedly.

“No, nothing like that! He hasn't actually done anything...” Ryou hurried to tell, not to give the wrong impression. Mariku had said he wouldn't do anything he didn't want, right?

“Good, it's just... with him you never know.” She smiled faintly. “So what's bothering you? You seem, I don't know... So thoughtful.”

“Yes, well...” Ryou fiddled with the covers a bit. “I was hoping you could help me with something, actually...”

“Of course, ask me anything.”

“The thing is... There's this person I... I can't really explain...”

“Do you like this person?” Ishizu helped him to continue.

“Yes, I... He's important to me.” That was the first time he actually admitted it aloud, it made a pink tint rise on his cheeks but it rang so true.

“He? I see...” Ryou glanced at her and saw that she was looking at him knowingly. Not like 'I knew you were that way all along!' but like she had a pretty good idea who he was talking about. “So what what seems to be the problem?”

“I don't know... I mean I'm not sure if I... like him that way...” Ryou looked embarrassed. “I think I'm attracted to him but... I'm kind of scared to actually do anything, or let him to...”

Ishizu stayed silent for a while before saying anything. “Would you like him to?”

“Eh?” Ryou looked at her wide eyed.

“You said that you were scared to do anything or let him to, but do you want to?” Ishizu made her question clearer. Ryou's eyes widened if possible and he blushed again.

“W-well I...” He stammered. “...yes.” Ryou quickly clapped his hands over his mouth, as if that had been a slip and he hadn't meant to say that, aloud at least. If he had turned away any faster, his neck would have snapped. “I-I meant that... Uh...”

“Hey, it's alright.” Ishizu hurried to say, raising her hands up. “There's really nothing to be embarrassed about. A boy at your age... It's normal.” She tried to reassure him but Ryou buried his head under a pillow.

“I'm such an idiot! I never meant to-! It just kind of happened! Why him?” He exclaimed from under the pillow, voice muffled by it.

“Ryou, really, it's ok.” Ishizu said calmly, placing her hand on his back. “There's nothing wrong with that.” She started to draw slow circles on his back to calm him down. “You can't decide things like that.”

“I know...” Said the muffled voice. Ryou sighed. Had he over-reacted again? He lifted the pillow from his head to look at Ishizu who smiled gently at him. “I'm sorry...”

“It's alright Ryou.” She patted his back a bit. “Will you be ok now?” Ryou nodded. Ishizu took her leave, having things to do, leaving Ryou with his own thoughts.





Wonderful... It seemed like Mariku was ignoring him now. He didn't speak to him, he seemed barely even acknowledge him! Some time back Ryou would have though that this was a blessing but now he was just plain pissed. What had he done? He had thought about things like Mariku had told him to do, he even somewhat knew what he wanted. He just wanted to proceed with caution, that was if anything would ever happen, what with the whole ignoring.

Mariku had even gone so far as to sleep on the couch, and as reluctant he had been to admit it, the bed was far too big for him alone. Ryou had let it go on for few days now, but that was enough, he was going to find out what was going on and he was going to do that now.

He went to the living room where Mariku was located and sat next to him, staring at him for a while, just to see if he reacted in any way, before speaking up.

“What's going on?” He asked, sounding a bit pissed. The other didn't even bother to look at him as he answered, voice deadpan.

“Nothing.”

“It's not 'nothing'! You've been ignoring me and I want to know why!” Ryou yelled, not getting much of a reaction though. Mariku just changed the channel and watched the TV, looking bored. Ryou did the only thing that he could think of to get his attention, besides kicking his sorry ass for being such an idiot, and sat on his lap, one leg on each side. That did get his attention as he snapped his eyes on Ryou, slightly lifting his eyebrow.

“Now that I got your attention, finally, you can tell me why you have been ignoring me.” He said firmly, crossing his arms on his chest.

“Because you look so cute when you're pissed.” Mariku said casually, smirking when Ryou glared at him.

“Haa haa, very funny. What's the real reason?”

“Why are you so angry anyway? Missed me?” Mariku waved the question off and changed the subject.

“No! You just started to ignore me without any reason, I have a reason to be angry.”

“Actually, I had a reason, I just wanted to give you some space but then you didn't seem to want my attention too much so I continued to ignore you.”

If that was meant to lessen Ryou's anger it didn't work at all. “What did you want me to do? Beg your attention? I tried to get it you know!”

“That's not the only thing I want you to beg from me.”

Ryou blushed and hit him up side the head, not really hurting him though and only making him chuckle.

“Aren't you violent today...”

“Well you're being an ass, as usual...” The last part was mumbled but could still be heard. “You deserved it.”

“Aw, you're so mean to me.” Mariku said, faking hurt.

“You're far meaner to me. Somehow I just always end up forgiving you.” Ryou found that he wasn't really angry anymore, the other just seemed to poses the ability to piss him off and then calm him down again.

“That's only because I'm so irresistable.” Mariku said smugly. “Now we can kiss to make up.” He grinned and pulled Ryou closer by the hips, Ryou placed his hands on his shoulders to keep his balance but also to leave some space between them.

“Um, well... I don't know about that...”

“It's going to be perfectly innocent, don't worry.”

Ryou wasn't very reassured, knowing full well that nothing was ever innocent with Mariku, but his body seemed to except that and didn't put on much of a fight when the other's lips touched his. At first he just froze, not knowing what to do and simply let Mariku's lips move on his but then he slowly snaked his arm around the other's neck, starting to respond. When Mariku licked his lip, he opened his mouth for him, beginning to enjoy this and the warmth that radiated from the other.

Mariku ran his tongue briefly across Ryou's teeth before tasting him deeper, touching his tongue and coaxing it to come and play. Ryou eventually moved his tongue hesitantly with Mariku's, caressing it carefully and shyly. Mariku smirked, almost smiled, into the kiss, finally getting the response he was after when Ryou moaned softly, intertwining his fingers with Mariku's hair.

They parted for air eventually and Mariku began to trail nips and licks down Ryou's neck. Ryou gasped for air and because his neck had always been sensitive.

“You said it was going to be perfectly innocent.” He said a bit out of breath.

“I lied.”

Ryou intended to scold at him but ended up only tilting his head to a side to give Mariku a better access.

“And you're always... mmmh... telling me not to lieh.”

Mariku nippled at his Adam's apple. “Well... You can never think of a good lie anyways.” He dipped his hand inside Ryou's shirt while licking his way up to his yaw and proceeding along his yaw line to his ear.

“You're a jerk Mariku, you know that?... Aah! Mmm....” The other had just found the sensitive spot just behind his ear and nippled it with a bit more force, getting reworded with a loud moan from Ryou.

“Mm, I know...” Mariku mumbled against the sensitive skin. “But you love me anyway.”

Ryou blushed and yanked his hair a bit for making such a comment.

Something falling down and breaking was heard and Mariku reluctantly moved his head to see his sister staring at them, mouth open, a broken glass in her feet. Ryou too noticed her now and blushed furiously.

“Hello, sister, excellent timing I must say.” Mariku said smoothly. “Couldn't come any sooner to stop my fun?” Some sarcasm wasn't really hard to notice.

“I'm sorry... I didn't know you were... um... Maybe I should just leave now...” She backed off slowly.

“You do that.”

Ishizu turned quickly around and bolted out of the room, forgetting her broken glass on the floor.

“That was kind of rude, this is her home you know.” Ryou scolded at Mariku. He tried to get up, maybe to offer Ishizu some kind of explanation or to at least clean the glass from the floor but Mariku wasn't quite ready to let him go.

“Aw, don't go sweets.” His other hand still inside Ryou's shirt and the one on his hip were holding him down.

“I have to, please let go.” Well, that was exactly what he didn't do.

Ryou thought fast and leaned to kiss Mariku, nippling his lower lip and distracting him to loosen his grip enough for Ryou to slip away from his lap. Keeping the other distracted for a while longer when he stood up slowly and removed the hands off of him, before standing fully up, flashing the surprised Mariku a grin and exiting the living room to find something to clean the glass with. Mariku blinked after him and Ryou was still grinning as he walked calmly out of the room.

As Ryou was cleaning the mess from the floor, he could hear the shower running and couldn't see Mariku anywhere. Ishizu on the other hand was in her room, busying herself with work. Ryou went to pay her a visit because he felt that he owned some kind of explanation as why he had been making out with her brother in the living room. He knocked before peeking in carefully.

“I cleaned off the glass.” He informed and could see Ishizu nod though her back was towards him as she was typing on her computer.

“About the-.”

“No need to explain. I was just a bit surprised, that's all. It's none of my busyness what you two do anyway. But please-” She turned around in her chair to face Ryou. “-next time when you get intimate, do it in your room.”

“Um ok.” Ryou said, with a slight awkward smile. “I'll leave you to your work now.” With that he left the woman to her own peace.





Ryou was relieved when Mariku joined him in the bed next evening. He was terribly cuddly though and Ryou had the feeling that he wanted to do something else too but restrained himself, perhaps for Ryou's sake. Ryou was grateful for that and didn't mind the cuddling.

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A/N: THERE! Phew... I sure hope that didn't suck terribly... I'm don't write all that much kissing scenes. Please tell me what you think. Did it suck? Was it even relatively good? I just want to know. So...

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