Dark Crimson Rivers

Part 5: Lost and Found

Ryou's POV

It was fun yesterday with Yugi. I did have fun going over made up plans to kill Anzu. Actually I was quite considering the idea to be carried out. I didn't think that Yugi had it in him to think of something like that. Well then again with what's been happening I shouldn't be surprised. I mean he's changed and everything right?

I was lucky that that wasn't Bakura at the door. Otherwise he would've discovered my secret, which isn't supposed to happen. So now today I'm doing my best to avoid him and anyone that he invites. I doubt that he will. I think that he's so hung up over Anzu breaking up with him. If I were him I would've just said fine and then kill her, but the thing is…I'm not him. Well in a way I kinda am so that doesn't count.

I wonder what would he be thinking if he found out I had a suicidal mind. Would he actually be happy so he wouldn't have to feel pain? You know he confronted me yesterday shortly after Yugi left. He visited my soul room, which by the way is suppose to be locked, how he got it open is lost to me, but he said that he saw that it was all black. He said that it tells the person's soul of whoever it is.

Well the thing is, that that my soul room has always been like that. Hasn't he pain attention when he was actually hurting me because he can't handle his own problems? I guess not when I actually talked back and said that it has always been like that. My soul has been lost ever since I got the ring so it didn't matter. I didn't bother finding it again because what's the use? You're just going to lose it again anyways. I think it has been wondering around looking for me, the vessel, but can't because I've hidden myself well and it can't see me. Yes that's right.

I'm happy that I'm half way dead. Then when I'm actually dead I won't have to feel anything anymore.

I glanced at the clock. It read 11:00 AM. Can you believe that time is a bomb? When you least expect it, BOOM! You're already dead. You won't have time to do anything because you don't know. Unless of course you're dying of old age and already transmitted disease then the doctors tell you when you're going to die so you have a wee bit of time to do something.

I feel like cutting myself. I know that I have 50/50 chance right here but it's okay at least I'm expecting to die. I didn't know the door of death could be so heavy. I got out my razor and made a cut on my left arm this time. It seemed more appropriate there. I heard the door slam and another door close and then the shower was running. Seems like Bakura just woke up. I better put this away before he comes in here after he showers. But now I'm just going to enjoy it for a little while.

After he was finished I heard the door close and I quickly put away the razor, cleaned up the bloodstains that I accidentally made, and then covered up my arms with wearing long sleeves. I just lay there on my bed looking at the ceiling. I find it interesting looking up at the ceiling. I can imagine pictures like in one of those children's books.

I soon fell asleep just imagining things up in the ceiling.

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Bakura's POV

I sighed as I took a look at Ryou's sleeping form. Every time I always see him asleep. I don't know what he does on his own time. But I did notice that he's drifting apart from the others.

There was something interesting that I found in his drawer though. It was a razor. I wonder what he keeps it for. I know that I don't use it because it's somewhat tempting but not that much. I was still pissed at Anzu for actually trashing the living room making Ryou clean it up, well not all of it but most of it. She could've taken it over at her own house but considering how lazy that bitch is she can't do anything smart.

I saw that Ryou turned to face my direction. I sighed in relief because I don't want him to see me here and jumping to conclusions that I'm going to start hurting him again because I'm holding his razor blade. He was still asleep. A part of his sleeve rolled up. I was curious why he still wore long sleeves. Isn't it the summer?

As he moved his arm a few more inches of his sleeve rolled up. I stared ridiculously. I didn't know how to react. A part of me wanted to wake him up and beat him until he bleeds but another part of me just wanted to scream 'Why'.

I opted for the former.

I shook him awake. Apparently he's a deep sleeper because usually he would wake up with the slightest touch. But with what I think he's been doing for the past year I would've expected him to be still asleep. I shook him harder.

I saw him flutter his eyes open.

"Bakura?" he said in question. He wouldn't expect me to be here so I guess that would be why.

"Hn, bout time you woke up," I responded.

"Really? What time is it?" he asked.

"It's afternoon. I don't know the time."

"Oh really? I didn't know that I slept that long."

"Yes, well can you help me with a problem?" I asked.

"Um…sure I guess. What kind of problem is it?"

"Sit up and I'll tell you."

Ryou sat up like I said. He looked at me with confusion. That is what I expected. I kept silent for a while, thinking what I'm going to say to him. No ideas came up, the light bulb never clicked.

"Bakura what is it?"

"Sorry," I said, "But can I ask why are you doing that?"

"Doing what?" he asked I can tell in fake cluelessness.

My temper is starting to get the best of me. "Dammit! Don't play stupid with me! You know exactly what I'm talking about!" I grabbed his arm and rolled up his sleeve.

His eyes widened in surprise.

"They were accidents," he said as an excuse.

HAH! Accidents my ass!

"Accidents? From where, the road?" I said sarcastically.

"No from cooking. I was chopping some ingredients and wasn't paying attention."

"Really? Well then I guess that it's no coincidence that I found a razor blade in one of your drawers." I said waving it out in front of him.

He quickly made a grab for it but I'm faster. "Reconsidering your answer?"

"No," he said firmly still trying to get the razor from me the best he can with his one free hand. After awhile he got tired of trying to get it and just stood still, catching his breath.

"You ready to tell what has been going on the past year that I should know about?"

"There was nothing going on that you should know about."

Stubborn.

"Fine let me put them in simple words so your brain can understand it. Why have you been damaging your body?!" I said harshly.

"None of your business!" He equally yelled back.

"Considering the circumstance of being your yami it is my business!"

"Well then don't make it your business!"

"With your emotions I'm feeling I can't make it not my business!"

"Fine then I won't tell you anything and my excuse was true because they were accidents!"

"ACCIDENTS MY ASS!" I yelled even louder than our little verbal yells.

"Yes accidents happen because of your ass! If only you didn't date that bitch I wouldn't have to run to the furniture shop and be paying for the mess that she made!"

Wait a minute, he said ass and bitch. Okay that's a surprise. I stared in shock for a second before regaining my composure. I smacked him on the face. I don't know where that reaction came from but I guess it would actually make him come to his senses because he is really out of character.

It was silent for a minute. Then I felt a smack on my face. The impact made me release my grip on Ryou. I rubbed my cheek. I know that hit wasn't going to put a bruise on my face but it did hurt a little. Didn't know he had it him. He's really surprised me these past few moments.

I never one to back down from a challenge punched him, sending him on the floor. Of course after he stood up he came after me sending me a punch but it didn't reach me. I blocked it and held my own. For someone who couldn't stand up to do this he's pretty strong. I pushed him backwards and pinned him to the floor. I straddled his waist so he wouldn't make any further movements of his own down there. I don't want to get kneed on the balls.

I wonder how it ended up like this. I don't know why I would actually strike him. Was it because I didn't know what else to do? I need to come up with better ways to handle things besides violence.

He still continued to struggle. I still held him down. I was really getting annoyed. "Don't even thing of doing anything because you're not getting out of this until you tell me the truth," I said.

"Why should I?" he said back.

"Because I care!"

He stopped his struggles that made my job easier. But before I could completely get up off him he retorted back.

"LIAR!"

ARGH! How dare he call me a liar!

"Your calling me a liar?! What about you?! I think that you've just lied to me this past year!"

"So?! Is it wrong?! I know that you're lying right now because you just started to notice a few things?! About how I drifted away, how I don't say anything that much anymore?! You're the one who's really lying! I, at least, had-"

I placed my lips over his to silence him. He's spoken enough and it was annoying. I heard him gasp and took this opportunity to slide my tongue in his mouth, exploring it. He didn't respond for a while but joined in. He tasted sweet, much better than that bitch. I stopped it so he could breathe. "Do you think I'm lying now?" I whispered in his ear. Then I started trailing soft kisses down to his white, milky soft throat.

"Yes," he said breathless. I heard his panting and somewhat not resisting. I can tell that he's lying. He knows that I'm not lying and I know for a fact that he's enjoying this too.

"Now who's the one lying?" I said using my free hand, unbuttoning his shirt. There were plenty of buttons so I just ripped it off. I heard him gasp and I stared at his chest. There were a few cuts I can tell was created by him. That didn't matter now because I know that he won't be doing stupid things again and they could be healed easily.

I made my own assault on his chest. I licked the cuts, tasting the small ticks of blood. I heard moans coming from him and they were music to my ears. I couldn't wait for that beautiful voice to cry my name out in ecstasy knowing I'm the one giving it to him.

I had no idea what I was doing. I think I'm still upset about what that bitch did to me. I then thought about it. No she didn't do anything. I actually wasn't happy with her. I guess that I've just been denying my feelings for my hikari. Yes this is where my heart truly lies.

I stopped my train of thought and just followed where that path of lust has led me. No use turning back now.

I picked him off the floor and put his half naked body on the bed unceremoniously. I quickly pounced on him before he could say anything coherent for the night.

~ End ~

Kinshin: You people are great! ^_^ Thanks for your reviews and visits! I'm sorry I took too long! I was just a little lazy the past few week or so. Anyways you people are very supportive! There's just Yugi's ending left!

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