Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Fallen ❯ Going Under ( Chapter 1 )

Priestess: You may or just as easily may not have read my fanfiction 'Hybrid Theory,' which was a collection of Yu-Gi-Oh one-shot songfics from the Linkin Park CD Hybrid Theory-or it will be once I have more than one chapter of. This is pretty much the same thing, except that-as you might have already figured out-it's Evanescence's Fallen. The first one is 'Going Under.' (They're in order)
Warning: This contains Yaoi! As in (one-sided) romance between two guys. Most Yu-Gi-Oh fans don't seem to mind, but just so you know. The pairing is one-sided Darkshipping (Yami no Yugi/Yami no Bakura) and implied Casteshipping (Thief King Bakura/Pharaoh Atemu)

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
I'm going under

He doesn't remember me.

Dammit, how long have I spent obsessing over that?

Since I found out, I suppose, and that's quite a long time to obsess over something-over anything. Though for somebody who is over 3500 years old and has an eternity to keep obsessing, it isn't really that long.

I still remember the day I found out he was sealed into the Puzzle-still remembered the moment that runt Yugi's comatose body rose up with a new fierceness.

"Who are you? Where is Bakura?"

I am not likely to forget those words for a long time, nor the fury and disgust in his eyes and face and voice when he said them.

The warmth in his eyes were gone, as was some of the fire. They were just icy-as piercing as I remembered them, but not the same. They weren't even the same color.

Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again

I didn't want to seem like a wimp to him, whether he remembered me or not. So I held my head up high and kept all my emotions bottled up.

But I couldn't think right, and I lost.

And when he sent me to the Shadow Realm, it was all I could do not to burst into tears.

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under

Could he look me in the eyes as I spoke to him of a Pharaoh's reckless decision to slaughter a village in order to collect enough blood to make the Millennium Items?

What would happen if I told him how I avenged the villager's death, trading a life for a life? Would he feel that same rage as he did before over my acts of hatred and vengeance?

And if I told him that we fell in love nevertheless, would he believe me? But that love wasn't enough, apparently, for him not to punish my crimes-crimes that were his fault in the first place.

It was he who sealed me to the Ring, leaving my body to rot in a dungeon cell. He chose his kingdom over his love.

That alone I should never have forgiven him for. He doomed me to an eternity of wandering the darkness, denying me of the chance to attain even a moment of peace.

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again

I forgave him long ago.

And now, whenever I see him, it takes all my self-control to keep from screaming in frustration. And when he insults me, hurts me, it's just too much. I retaliate, but he gives much worse than he gets.

I'm a spirit because of him. I hate because of him. I suffer because of him. I'm insane because of him. He's dug a bottomless pit and pushed me in.

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under

And nothing can pull me out.

So let him hate me. Let him insult me. Let him be more ready to send me to the Shadow Realm than to spare me a glance.

The man I loved is dead to me.

Merely dust in the sands of time.

So go on and scream
Scream at me so far gone
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under