Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Forever Is A Long Time ❯ Confusions of the Mind ( Chapter 1 )

Title: Forever is a Long Time

Series: YuGiOh!

Author: Magician of Black Chaos -- Angel of Death and Rebirth, Hugger of Cathan-sama and Rapp-chan and Stalker of Cute Psychos

Type: angst/romance

Timeline: three years after the tournament

Warnings: shounen ai, shoujou ai, OOC, MAJOR angst on Yugi's behalf, Bakura angst, YxR (Yugi x Ryou), JxH (Jounouchi x Honda), AxM (Anzu x Mai)

Plot: Yugi's life turned downhill when the one he loved didn't love him back. Now, three years later, Ryou transfers to a different college where Yugi has the reputation as the most ruthless teenager there. Can Ryou bring back the sweet Yugi he knew or is Yugi destined to wander in darkness forever?

Disclaimer: Do I look like I own YuGiOh? Nope, I'm just a poverty-stricken fanfiction writer like the rest o' ya. I only own the fic and my fragile little mind. The song "Bad Medicine" is by Bon Jovi.

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"Bad Medicine" -- By Bon Jovi

I ain't got a fever, got a permanent disease

It'll take more than a doctor to perscribe a remedy

I got lots of money but it isn't what I need

Gonna take more than a shot to get this poison out of me

I got all the symptoms, count 'em 1, 2, 3

First I need

That's what you get for falling in love

Then you bleed

You get a little but it's never enough

On your knees

That's what you get for falling in love

And now this boy's addicted cause your kiss is the drug

Your love is like bad medicine, bad medicine is what I need

Shake it up just like bad medicine

There ain't no doctor that can cure my disease

Bad, bad medicine

Bad, bad medicine

I don't need no needle to be giving me a thrill

And I don't need no anesthesia or a nurse to bring the pill

I got a dirty down addition

It doesn't leave a track, I got a jone for your affection

Like money on my back

There ain't no paramedic

Gonna save this heart attack

When you need

That's what you get for falling in love

Then you bleed

You get a little but it's never enough

On your knees

That's what you get for falling in love

And now this boy's addicted cause your kiss is the drug

Your love is like bad medicine, bad medicine is what I need

Shake it up just like bad medicine

There ain't no doctor that can cure my disease

Bad, bad medicine

Bad, bad medicine

I need a respirator cause I'm running out of breath

You're an all-out generator wrapped in stockings and a dress

When you find your medicine you take what you can get

Cause if there's something better, baby, they haven't found it yet

Your love is like bad medicine, bad medicine is what I need

Shake it up just like bad medicine

There ain't no doctor that can cure my disease

Your love is like bad medicine, bad medicine is what I need

Shake it up just like bad medicine

Your love's the potion that can cure my disease

Bad, bad medicine

Bad, bad medicine

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Chapter One:: Confusions of the Mind

******************** -- THREE YEARS AGO -- ********************

Yugi finally had his silver-haired fantasy cornered although he was still a foot shorter than him. His hands were placed on both sides of the wall so Ryou Bakura couldn't escape until he decided. Yugi's breath quickened. Finally it wouldn't be a fantasy anymore......

Ryou looked scared and confused at the same time as a delicate pink tongue ever-so-slowly rolled over Yugi Mutou's lips. He'd seen Jounouchi and Honda in this position many times but what on earth did Yugi think he was doing? His eyes widened when his mouth became trapped in a forceful kiss. Ryou gasped in surprise and Yugi took that opportunity to explore his chosen love's mouth with his tongue. The silver-haired boy jerked away, in turn making Yugi fall on his ass. Ryou wiped his mouth with the back of his hand.

"Yugi, what are you doing?!"

"It should be quite obvious, Ryou-chan," the shorter boy all but purred as he got up, brushing himself off. Yugi licked his lips again, eyeing his prey. "Why? Didn't you like it?"

"No! I......"

"Or......is there someone else in your life?" The normally bright amethyst eyes dulled and narrowed as Ryou blinked.

"Huh? Yugi, wh......"

Yugi glared, crossing his arms over his small chest and eyeing Ryou's millenium ring. "Is it Bakura? Kaiba? Malik? Mokuba?!"

"What?! No! I'd just prefer it if we stayed friends, Yugi-kun!"

His multicoloured locks fell over his eyes, a cold, bitter smile curling. "Friends? I'd rather us be more, Ryou-chan. Much more! Haven't you ever seen Jounouchi and Honda or Anzu and Mai together? Haven't you ever felt lonely?"

"Maybe in a couple of years, but I'm not quite ready to start a relationship with one of my best friends!"

Yugi turned, school jacket billowing out behind him like a cape. "I see......"

Ryou could hear that Yugi's voice was racked with sobs. "Yugi, wait!"

"Why? I know you don't want me around, Bakura. I know how much you must despise me now. Do me a favour and go rot in a gutter!"

The silver-haired boy stared in shock as his best friend walked away. Yugi's voice had gone from unforbidden lust to pure venom in just seconds.

Yugi was gone before he could apologise........

The next day, Yugi wasn't at school for some reason. Ryou met the other four at lunch in the cafeteria and sighed when he saw the empty spot where the normally cheerful boy would be waving for him to join them.

"Hey, Ryou," Jounouchi greeted, less cheerful than normal. Was it just him or did the life of the group demise with Yugi not around?

"Hey. Where's Yugi? I haven't seen him all day," he said, sitting down next to Honda as usual.

Anzu looked at him, confused. "You mean you don't know?"

"Know what?"

Mai bit into her banana before continuing for her girlfriend. "Yugi and his grandfather moved away to another city this morning. Apparently SOME BLONDE forgot to tell us!" Jounouchi scratched his neck in embarrassment while Ryou froze, going numb.

'That's why Yugi did what he did yesterday. He was moving and he wanted to tell me his feelings before he left! Oh man, I completely screwed it up for him! How could I have thought he'd be here? How long until I see him again?'

"Oh yeah!" Honda dug around in his backpack before producing a yellow note and handing it over to Ryou. "Yugi told me to give this to you, Ryou." Ryou took it and unfolded it. His eyes widened at the note.

Dear Ryou Bakura,

Since you said those words to me, my heart's been ripped in two. I don't know how long it will be until I see you again, but I can guarantee you I wish you'd die and go to Hell! And if I could kill you myself, I would.

Until next time I'll love and hate you forever,

Yugi Mutou

There were tear stains on the yellow paper and Ryou felt tears in his own eyes. He collapsed onto the table into a feirce storm of sobs in the middle of the cafeteria.........

******************** -- PRESENT TIME -- ********************

'New year, new school, new town,' Ryou thought moodily as he walked down the corridors of bustling students, one hand in his pocket, the other holding one strap of his backpack over his shoulder. His white sneakers squeaked against the linolium floor from the rain on them. He'd been to five different towns and schools during the last three years because of his father's work but Yugi wasn't in any of them.

Ryou looked at his schedule. "Maths, ugh. Room 34...... Here we go!" Ryou took a deep breath and stepped in. Not a great lot of the students were here yet, but a mass of multicoloured locks caught his eyes. Ryou froze.

Yugi sat at his desk, sketching passionately in a sketchbook. He was dressed fully from head to toe in black and every bit of clothing was perfect. A black trenchcoat opened up from waist up, showing a black skin-tight turtleneck, black leather pants and black sneakers with no mud on them despite the pouring rain outside. A black leather backpack sat on the seat next to him, clearly stating that he wanted to be left alone to the darkest corner of the classroom.

Ryou blinked off the shock, then noticed that the millenium puzzle no longer hung around his neck and his grandpa's deck wasn't sitting on the desk. Ryou felt like an angel in his colourful clothing. Yugi also seemed to be as tall as Yami Yugi, if not a bit more. Yugi heard footsteps and stopped sketching his D. Human before raised his cold amethyst eyes, only to widen them in surprise.

'So, he finally caught up to me, ne? Well he's in for a shock. I'm not the sweet little kid he knew. That part of me died one and a half years ago when grandpa died. Grandpa was the only support I had from the darkness after he rejected me and now the very shadows themselves consume me, consume my soul.........'

"Ryou Bakura," he spat, voice filled with nothing but venom and hidden hurt.

"Yugi Mutou," the silver-haired boy greeted back while the class stared.

END OF CHAPTER ONE

In the next chapter of "Forever Is A Long Time"::

Ryou's finally found Yugi after three years but the sweet teen he knew is no more. Born from the darkness of his rejection and the death of his grandfather, Yugi thrives on other people's pain. Can Ryou find a way to cure him before Yugi, being the sadist that he is now, decides to break Ryou's spirit?

Next chapter:: "Confusions of the Heart"