Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Lost Inside ❯ True Feelings ( Chapter 6 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

As Ishizu walked downstairs to get something to eat, she peeked into the living room to see Seto writing in his journal. She smiled, hoping that he was writing about more than his death and how much of a 'weakling' he was. She entered the kitchen, made herself a bowl of cereal, and went to check on him, only to find a note in his place. She put the bowl of cereal down on the coffee table and read the note.


Dear Ishizu,

Went to work. You know where the food is kept and such. I'll probably be home by dinner time. Try to entertain yourself while I'm gone. If Mokuba calls, tell him to call me on my cell. Thanks.

Seto Kaiba


Ishizu smiled and threw the note away. "Now I have all day to figure out what's wrong with Seto," she thought proudly. She ate her bowl of cereal, took a shower, and got changed. She then immediately headed over to the bookshelf, where she found Seto's journal. Ishizu knew that what she was doing was wrong, but she had to know what was the matter with him. She flipped to the first entry, decided to read the first and last entries today to see how much progress was being made. The first entry was something of its own kind as Ishizu read it to herself.

Dear Journal,

Mokuba says journals are the new big thing in his class, so I've decided to buy one on his behalf. Mokuba is my little brother and the only one that cares for me. I've decided to write in this journal in hopes of getting myself to realize that what I'm doing is wrong. For the last two days, I've been cutting my arms to make them bleed. It hurts, but it feels so....relaxing. Joey and I got into another fight today. Damn....I don't know why....but Wheeler....makes me feel weak. But how? I have everything a man could ever want. But, then again, I am cutting my arms and feeling like a weakling more and more everyday. Mokuba has been going to friend's houses and such, leaving me all alone in this deadly silent place I might be able to call home. I think the reason that I hate Yugi, my archenemy, and his group of friends (Joey Wheeler being one) is because he has friends, family....everything I don't have. Oh god....I have to go. Another cut is awaiting me.

Seto Kaiba


Ishizu flipped through the pages until she came to the last entry. What she read though, surprised her beyond belief.

Dear Journal,

Ishizu seems to be living with me now, which I have to admit, I don't mind. She's always playing with my hair, which I really enjoy. It's nice to have somebody there beside you. She really comforts me, but somehow I can't let her know that. My reputation always gets in the way of things for me. I just want to be myself. I don't know why, but....I think I really like Ishizu. She's always there for me, it seems. Especially now, when I need somebody here. If even just to hold my hand....or in her case...play with my hair. I tried to cut myself last night before I went to bed ( I was thinking about my stupid reputation again ), but then, something weird happened. I...I thought about her. The thought of her, bandaging my wounds up again, it...it hurt me. I think I'm falling for her. But how can I tell her that? Oh man. I'm confused. I can't fall for her now; I have enough problems as it is. What if she doesn't like me that much anyway? She could just....no, she cares for me, I know that. But I can't become a burden on her. Tonight, I'll tell her that I can't become a burden any longer. I hope she understands. I'll probably end up killing myself, but I can't hurt the angel that came to save me.

Seto Kaiba