Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Love and Lost ❯ Love and Lost-Chapter 9 ( Chapter 9 )

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Seto's POV

I let a ghost of a smile grace my lips as I watched Ryou smile and laugh with his friends, I couldn't really remember the last time he smiled around me. I wish he did, I truly wish he could be with me as well but I also know I would make him miserable…and I simply cannot do that to him…I love him to much to hurt him like that.

I used to have such a problem with saying that word…love, I didn't even think I was capable of that emotion and yet I am. However that doesn't mean I can express it, I still think I can't express such a strong emotion…so I hope Jou will treat Ryou like the royalty he is. It pains me slightly to see Ryou with another man, but I promised myself I would give him the chance to be happy so I simply cannot ruin it for him…it's better for him even if it's killing me.

Ryou's POV

I guess he really didn't care about me…I thought maybe he actually did considering the way he acted when Jou and me were walking home that day. It was all false hope. He doesn't care; I wish he did so much…I don't understand why he is like this and why I believe that he could actually care about me in the first place. I sighed slightly to myself as Jou hugged me softly making me blush.
"I have to get to work guy's I'll see you later!" Jou said as he walked away from us giving me a gentle kiss on the cheek and jogging off.

I touched my cheek slightly…and frowned. I didn't feel anything when he kissed me, which in itself was shocking. He was so nice and sincere all the time with me in the first place and yet I felt nothing for him and I should, what the hell is wrong with me? Also, why of all people do I have to care for Seto…he doesn't care for me so why should I give a damn about him? I sighed heavily as I began to walk home. Seto would sometimes pull up next to me and take me home…not to his place or take me home to share my bed, just home and he would drop me off kindly. There were times when he was nice to me so very nice…I had come to recognize every room in the mansion each one represented a mood weather or not he noticed it I did. His light blue room was the one that I have very fond memories of.

Seto POV

I stroked the empty space of my bed as if Ryou was lying beside me. I was in my light blue room at the moment. We had never had sex in this room; it was for other uses…it was for relaxing. We had napped together many times and talk until the sun came up over the horizon. I had confided my darkest secrets in him and he did the same to me, so many memories in this room…God I want him back! I felt tears well in my eyes again. I couldn't stand it; I have been like this for days! I haven't cried before in so many years yet he can break me down so easily. Why can't I let him be happy? He deserves to be happy damnit! I brush away the tears furiously as I grabbed the nearest phone dialing his number.

"Hello?" He answered on the other line.

I smiled just hearing his voice made me feel better, I could hear running water in the distance he was probably doing the dishes.

"Hello?" He repeated in the phone although I didn't answer there was a short pause before he spoke again. "Seto? It's you isn't it?" He said as I smiled on the other line as if it was some sort of acknowledgement.

Normal POV

Ryou smiled hearing Seto's soft breath on the other line as he shook his head at him silently "Why are you calling me?" Ryou asked softly

"Why not?" Seto answered simply although his voice sounded strained slightly.

"Are you all right? You sound…different" Ryou said noticing the straining in his voice…as if he had been crying.

"I'm fine…" Seto voiced strained considerably when he said those word's gripping the phone handle tightly as if it was his lifeline to Ryou…in a way it was.

"Seto I need to finish…" Ryou was cut off by Seto's voice

"Don't hang up me…please just stay on the line, you don't even have to speak just stay." Seto sighed heavily "Take a nap with me…" He said softly laying down on the light blue and white sheet's imagining Ryou beside him.

Ryou smiled slightly "You're insane Seto…" Ryou said lying down on the couch as he held the phone to his ear.

Seto smiled hearing Ryou laying down "You're not objecting though…" He said closing his eyes hugging a pillow to his chest unknowingly.

Ryou rolled over pressing his body against the back of the couch as if it was Seto as he listened to his breathing and soon drifted off to sleep. Seto smiled hearing Ryou's breathing deepen as he soon followed.

Seto awoke to sunlight in his eyes as he rubbed his eyes sleepily sitting up looking around him. He noticed he was still holding the phone to his ear and trembled slightly at the thought of being so hopelessly in love with someone who left him. He wondered if Ryou still had the phone with him too.

"Ryou?" He asked softly

"Hmmm…Seto?" He answered softly.

Ryou heard Seto's sweet voice in his ear as his eyes opened slowly for a moment he thought it was when they first made love in his living room but realized he was fully clothed and remember the short conversation he had with Seto.

"Good morning…" Ryou said trailing off.

"Good morning, you actually held on to the phone the entire night?" Seto asked

"Obviously, I know you heard me fall asleep you won't go to sleep yourself unless I do first." Ryou said knowing Seto liked to watch him sleep not to mention he liked to be last to sleep and first to wake.

"You know me too well." Seto said in a slightly dreamy tone of voice.

"We have school soon." Ryou said softly

"Let's sleep in." Seto said allowing a full smile to grace across his features although he knew Ryou couldn't see it.

Ryou smiled too giving a small laugh, "You really are insane aren't you?" Ryou said their moment being interrupted when the doorbell rang. "Hold on a sec." Ryou said setting the phone down for the first time in hours.

"Jou…what are you doing here?" Ryou asked

"We have school silly." Jou said with a smile

Ryou frowned "Oh…well I was just gonna skip today you know catch up on some…stuff." He said his mind drawing a blank.

"We have that test Today Ryou, no way can you miss it now hurry up or we'll both have detention…unless you want to spend an hour with me alone?" Jou said playfully making Ryou blush from embarrassment.

"Hold on a sec…" Ryou said rushing to the phone but before he could get a word in Seto spoke.

"You better hurry or you'll be late." Seto said hanging up the phone hard.

Ryou winced at the sound as he hung up the phone and smiled at Joey slightly. "I'll be right back let me get dressed." Ryou said running upstairs.

Joey glared at the phone as he went through the memory his curiosity getting the better of him as he dialed the number.

"Hello?" Seto said on the other line

Jou's grip tightened on the phone "Listen Kiaba I know you have a thing for Ryou but you blew your chance with him you had better stay away from him. Maybe next time you'll treat your partner better." Joey said hanging up before Seto could interject.

Seto closed his eyes hanging up the phone lightly "I'm trying…I really am trying…why can't I forget about you, why can't you just leave me alone?" He said sadly, placing his head in his hands. "I need to forget about you…but I can't, I just can't." Seto said somberly.

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