Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ One's Desire ❯ Speaking Your Mind ( Chapter 2 )

Insanity Gurl: Hello it's me again! I don't feel like terrorizing people right now so I'll do this fanfiction! Thank you to the random person who I don't know who it is obviously… and my friend Tega! ^-^ I didn't expect one of my friends to review…

Johanna: *Twitch* I don't like yaoi…

Insanity Gurl: I don't mind it!

Emma: Either!

Kathryn: (O__O I don't know if she minds it or not…) …?

Insanity Gurl: Errr ok anyway on the with the chappie!

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~ Ryou's POV ~

I stir a little, and look about the hospital room, yawning at little. Is Bakura still out? My eyes keep drooping and I can't keep the open, so I just pull the thin sheet closer to my face and nuzzle into the warmth it is providing me. I keep my ears on watch waiting for my beloved Bakura to come back, from his fun outside. I close my eyes and take a deep breath before trying to get back to sleep.

I sigh a little before as I hear massive amounts of clatters outside my hospital ward. My eyes immediately spring open, as I struggle to get into a comfortable sitting position. I wonder what's going on out there? The door slams open to reveal, Marik and his hikari Malik, and standing next to him was Bakura. Sometimes I really don't want to know what they get up too…

Too afraid to ask, I just give them all a warm smile, as Malik strolls over to me to get a closer look.

"Are you ok Ryou-kun?" he asks, and I simply nod and reply, "I'm fine thanks" he flashes me a smile, as I see Bakura folding his arms and looking the other leaning up against the doorway frame. I take a glance over near him, as Marik walks over to me, then looks down to hikari. He looks back and forth between my yami and me as he nods to Malik. What's he thinking?

"I think we should leave these two alone… come on Malik" says Marik as he grabs his hikari by the scruff of his shirt and drags him outside of our room. I watch them until the slam shut the door, and Bakura comes over to me and takes a seat on the bed next to my feet. I continue to watch my other half as he lets out a large sigh and rests his head in his hands.

"Just why do you do it Ryou? Just tell me why" I look over to him as he says that and I take one deep breath. How can I explain it to him? I can't just say, `I love you and I'm killing myself because I know you wouldn't want to be with someone like me' that would just be weird. And if he does come in a relationship with me after hearing that it'll only make me feel as though he's only doing this so I wont die.

My mouth gaps in order to say something but the words just can't come out. I try to say them but it doesn't quite work out.

"Well you see it's just that… just that I-I-I" I just can't say it. My words are stuttering and I don't know how to show what I mean. He nods for me to continue but I can't. My words choke up, and I just look to the ground.

"I don't know why…" I whisper, as I keep my head in the same position just giving Bakura a quick glance. He's frowning at me, and he probably knows that I'm lying. I the uttermost worst liar you could find.

"Ryou… tell me" I sounding almost caring when he said that. I bring my eyes up to his as the lock on, and I try not to lean forward to kiss him. I wonder how he'd react? My eyelids drop as I fidget with the blanket placed upon me, and I let out a soft sigh. I'm holding back the tears right now I can't stand be pressured into telling this right now… I just can't. I take quick sniffs, and wipe my glazed tears away from my eyes. Great… now Bakura will think I'm really weak.

He's looking at me, as I take a deep breath in, and slowly manage to bring my eyes to his. He examines me carefully, as I continue to hold back the stubborn tears as I watch him too. I just want to feel what it's like to be in his arms. Nothing more. I slap myself mentally. I know nothing like that would ever really work between us… it never will…

"Bakura… it's just that I…" I start again. I always get stuck on the I. He continues to stare at me I'm not sure if he's bored or what. He never really liked waiting but he seems so patient right now… Maybe if I…I just tell him how I feel… Ok… I think I might. I haven't got much to lose, as my life is already nearly finished anyway. Here I go…

~ Bakura's POV ~

I'm watching my lighter half waiting for an answer. I don't know why he's doing this so much. And why is he stuttering? It's not like he's going to jail or anything. I watch as a few brief tears slide down his pale cheek. Is it really this bad? He doesn't cry when he gets bullied at school. Just for emotional issues maybe…

His mouth moves but no words are coming out… what's the point of talking?

"Bakura… if you must know why I'm doing this… it's because… it's because…" Great. Before he couldn't finish what he said after I, not he can't finish after because. I get the feeling we're going to be for a long time.

"Yes? Just tell me Ryou… it can't be that bad" I move closer to him. I don't really want to do this. It's unlike me and it'll ruin my reputation if those blondes saw me. But I don't think they're here…

I lean forward and embrace Ryou I'm my arms, as he immediately tenses up. I hope I didn't scare him with this. He whispers in my ear what I think seems to be what he's trying to tell me…

"Bakura the reason I'm killing myself is because… I love you…"

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Insanity Gurl: Ok five minutes left till school! I DID IT! YEAH!

Bakura: That was pretty cheesy…

Insanity Gurl: I know!

Bakura: -_-`

Insanity Gurl: Hehe Please review!!