Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Reflection ❯ Reflection ( Chapter 1 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Title: Refection

Author: Neko Jounouch AKA Jams

Rating:I would havta say PG. There may or may not be a rate hike if I decide to continue this story.

Pairing(s): Gee I wonder... O.o

Spoilers: UUUUUUUUHHHHHHH.... no sex? ::ducks flying root veggies::
Neko Jounouchi: Jams, that's a cantalope.
Jams: It's a root veggie if Bakura says it is!

Disclaimer: Isn't my license on the bumper man?? Just look below. Yugi takes pride in doing disclaimers and if I take that privilage away from him I'll have one angry muse.

Summary: Seto and Jou contimplate their reflections and their feelings for one another.
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Jams: I'm here!!! Yay! My first aff.net story!
Seto Plushie: Like they care....
Jams: ::twacks Seto Plushie with frying pan:: They do too care!!!
Seto Plushie: ::rubbing head:: You've gotten ONE review on ff.net!
Neko Jounouchi: That don't mean they don't care Seto. Maybe they're just too lazy to review... Like you are sometimes.
Seto Plushie: I'm not lazy! Do you have any idea how hard I work!!
Neko Jounouchi: O.o
Jams: Alright that's enough you too! Yugi would you do the disclaimer?
Chibi Yugi Plushie: Okie dokie!! Jams dun own us. We belong to Kazuki Takahasi.
Jams: Lucky.....
Chibi Yugi Plushie: You just rent us for free huh Jams?
Jams: Right Yugi. Anywho..... This is my first REAL attempt at shonen-ai so please be gentle! It's a Seto/Jou fic. Yeah I know ya see 'em all the time but they're my favorite pair along with Tristan/Jou. ^.^ The POV switches back and forth between the two and those will be marked. And of course this is a song fic. Music inspires me.
Chibi Yugi Plushie: Another disclaimer!! Jams dun own the song neither. It belongs to Christina A-goo-lee-ra... Whoever she is. O.o
Neko Jounouchi: XD A-goo-lee-ra!! ::falls::
Chibi Yugi Plushie: Well it's from the Mulan movie!! Is that better?! ::thwacks Neko Jounouchi::
Jams: On with the story....
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Notes
*POV change*
//*Song lyrics*\\
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Reflection
*Seto*
The sound of shattering glass echos in my ears. The splinters fall helplessly to the floor at my feet, landing in a disarray.
I look down at the broken pieces, a few tipped with crimson blood, and I catch my own gaze. I hate my reflection.

//* Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday
It's as if I play a part.*\\

*Joey*
The rain pours down relentlessly. Perfect weather to fit my mood. I catch my reflection in the glass, but I don't recognize my own face.
Who are you? You're not the happy-go-lucky Jou that everyone knows and loves. I look myself over, from the blood stained hair, to the dark purple around my left eye, to the dried blood caked to my cheek from the cut under my eye.
You are a sad, broken, little boy Joseph Wheeler.

//* Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart.*\\

*Seto*
What has happened to me? I, Seto Kaiba, have changed. But I am so used to seeing this broken face, these cold blue eyes. Ever since... No! I can't remember. I won't!
I have made everyone cower in fear at my feet. At first it was such an ultimate thrill knowing I could strike such terror in one's heart, but those actions have driven everyone away. I have shut everyone out and for that, I have ended up alone. Yes, I have Mokuba, but he dosen't complete me.
I long for a compainion, a compassionate soul to share my pain with, but all I have are these shards of glass and the reflection I hate so much.

//* Who is that boy I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?*\\

*Joey*
I have hidden my true self away from the world. Everyday I put on my happy mask. My friends would care if they only knew, but I have told nobody. And that's how it's going to be.
I long for a special someone to share all my secrets with, but who would truely understand? If anyone knew the real me.... hell I don't know WHAT they would do. I know it wouldn't be good.
But that means I must remain alone.

//* I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in.*\\

*Seto*
Can I really change? There MUST be at least some small bit of warmth under all of this ice. What would everyone else think of a reformed Seto Kaiba?
I was always told that kindness is weakness and my ice wall was the result. I suppose it dosen't matter what people think of me. I paid it no mind before, so why am I bothering now?
I guess the real question is: 'Do I WANT to change?'
If I did, maybe I could find that one and not drive them away. Like I have for so long...

*// But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am.*\\

*Joey*
I wince as I apply alcohol to the cut on my cheek. Damn that smarts! That's the last time I pick a fight with a rabid dog.
Dog... That word.... I really hate it sometimes. It always reminds me of HIM. Seto Kaiba, my one true rival. And yet... No! I can't think that way of him! I hate him! Don't I ...?
I sigh as I think of him. He has it all. Money, power, good looks. Any guy would KILL to be him. Or to be with him...
I look again at my reflection. Be with Seto Kaiba? Ha, keep dreamin' Wheeler!

//* Who is that boy I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?*\\

*Seto*
Mokuba's calling me. He can't see me like this, broken.
I look back down at the shards on the floor. Why do I keep doing this when I hate my reflection?
Hmm... That's strange. Looking into those blood stains makes my eyes look.... brown? Brown like that Pup's. Wait, where did THAT come from? Has he been there all along?
I seem to have as obsession with him. Is it because I like to irk him...? (A.N. Irk! I LOVE that word! ::falls:: XD) Or maybe it's.... No! That can't be right. I'm supposed to hate that blonde mutt.
Then again.... He IS rather attractive, and he's so happy all the time. Well maybe not when I'm pissing him off...
Maybe I should try being nicer to him. I remember someone saying, 'You get what you give.' I think the Pup was the one who said that. Perhaps the Puppy could help me like my reflection again.

//* Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time?
Wehn will my reflection show
Who I am inside?*\\

*Joey*
Should I tell him? I bet he would only laugh at me and call me a mutt. What the hell...? I already feel like I'm dead inside, what's one more blow? But, this blow might hurt the most. I could cry just thinking about it. When did this happen. Perhaps deep down inside I always knew.
Maybe, just maybe, he could tell me who my reflection is.

//* There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why.*\\

*Seto*
I can't stand this anymore. I need to get out of here before I suffocate! I clean up the broken glass and bandage my damaged hand, Grabbing my favorite trench coat, I head out into the rain. Rain is soothing sometimes, and I let it wash over me.
I walk aimlessly, not knowing or watching where I'm going. Before I know it, I'm on my rear end in the park, having bumped into someone. I am ready to give the idiot a verbal thrashing when I look up and realize who the other is. My jaw drops. It can't be! What is he doing out in this weather?
I see him look up and his eyes widen. He's suprised to see me too it seems. I stand and offer him a hand.
"Need assistance in regaining your upright stature?" I ask with a bit of a smirk. (A.N. I can SO hear Seto saying this! Seto Plushie: Over my dead body!) I needed that.
He looks at me like I grew another head, Confusion clear in his honey orbs.
"Huh?" (A.N: I can picture Jou saying this too!! ::falls:: XD Neko Jounouchi: Funny Jams... >.>)
Oh yes, that was intelligent.
"Need a hand up?"
"Oh... Why didn't you say so?"
"I did."
He takes the prooffered hand and pulls himself to his feet, mumbling a thanks. Well Seto... It's now or never.

//* Why must we all conceal
What we think,
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?*\\

*Joey*
He's actually being friendly. How weird... Nice, but weird.
He pulls his lower lip between his teeth like he's nervous. It's almost as if he wants to tell me something important. Like maybe... Wishful thinking on my part.
"Pup..." he starts, then stops and corrects himself, "Joey..."
"Yeah?" OK that sounded a bit TOO eager...
He places a hand on my cheek and takes a deep breath. His eyes warm up a bit. I think I like that look...
"Would you like to go get some coffee?" he asks, "It's rather cold out here."
"OK."
He smiles a genuine smile, and I just want to melt. He can be rather charming when he's not being a pain. Which is most of the time. (A.N. I know... I stole this line. But it's so funny hearing Jou say it instead of it being said about him! XD)
I shiver and he puts an arm around my shoulder, that lovely, warm smile still on his face. I smile as well.
Well... It's a start.

End of Reflection
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Jams: Ok that royally SUCKED!!
Neko Jounouchi: No it didn't Jams. ::pat pat:: It was very... um... sweet!! Yeah that's the word I'm looking for.
Seto Plushie: The word I'm looking for I can't say.... 'Cause Yugi's present!
Chibi Yugi Plushie: Hey!!!! ::thwacks Seto Plushie with Dark Magician Action Figure::
Jams: That's not very nice Seto.... You're supposed to disagree with me when I say it sucks.
Neko Jounouchi: Yeah show a li'l sympathy Seto.
Seto Plushie: Like the readers....?? >.>
Jams: O.O Oh hell I almost forgot about THEM!!
Chibi Yugi Plushie: Please review and I'll give you a cookie!
Neko Jounouchi: Coooooookie........ ::drool::
Chibi Yugi Plushie: ::smacks Neko Jounouchi's hand:: Those are for the reviewers!!! >.<
Seto Plushie: ::gets out torch:: And no flamming. Only I get to do that!!