Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Reflection ❯ Pain ( Chapter 2 )
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By: NekoJounouchiAKAJams 
Song 2: Pain by Yasunori Mitsuda
Anime/Manga: Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 06.23.2004 | Pages: 4 | Words: 2.8K | Visits: 327 | Status: Completed
Song 2: Pain by Yasunori Mitsuda
Anime/Manga: Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 06.23.2004 | Pages: 4 | Words: 2.8K | Visits: 327 | Status: Completed
Title: Reflection, Chapter 2: Pain
Author: Neko Jounouchi AKA Jams
Rating: Still PG
Pairing(s): Seto/Jou.... Who else!?!?
Spoilers: None that I can tell... Except for the fact that it has a song in it.
Disclaimer: Must I repeat myself!?!? ><
Summary: In this chapter, Seto remembers his past, and invites Jou to his home for cocoa. JUST cocoa guys... Be patient.
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Jams: I think I've found a way to continue!
Neko Jounouchi: Yay!!
Chibi Yugi Plushie: ::jumps up and down, clapping his hands::
Seto Plushie: Oh goodie....
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: I'll do the disclaimer. Jams owns us. Anyone who disagrees will be sent to Cherry World!! XD
Chibi Yugi Plushie: Oh!! Cherry World!! I wanna go!!!
Neko Jounouchi: But I thought we were going to Dairy World, Yugi.
Seto Plushie: I'm going to send them all to the world of HURT here in a minute!!
Jams: ::smacks forehead:: What I havta put up with. Seto, would you please do the disclaimer correctly?
Seto Plushie: If you'll buy the mutt a muzzle.
Jams: Deal.
Seto Plushie: ::beams:: ^____^ Jams does NOT own us. Nope. Not at all. She doesn't own the song either. That belongs to.... ::looks at CD case:: Yasunori Mitsuda. Yup yup. It does.
Jams: -.- Can we just get on with this...
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Notes
~Song Lyrics~
* POV Change or Flashback Notice* By the way, I've decided to do flashbacks in 3rd person POV.
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Reflection
Chapter 2
Pain
*Seto*
We decide on The Bean Scene for coffee. I never really liked the place much, far too smokey in my opinion, but it was the only place open at this hour. I guess beggars can't be choosers.
We walk close, and I must resist the urge to reach out and take his hand in mine. I don't want to seem too fast. It's the gentlemanly[1] thing to do, right? So instead, I simply walk beside him, glancing at him out of the corner of my eye.
I remember back on when we had first met...
*Flashback/Seto*
Seto Kaiba was not happy. Nor was he excited. Nor did he have the "New Student Jitters."
The private school he had previously attended had told him that he was too smart for their establishment and the government wouldn't let him just not go to school. So there he was, on the steps of Domino High, with his new schedule in his hand.
He entered the looming building and found his class with ease. Many students had arrived early, and were amidly chatting in groups or finishing up last night's homework assignmet. [2]
Seto took a seat at the back of the class and pulled out a book, pretending to read it while he surveyed his peers.
One caught his eye instantly, and it was all Seto could do to keep himself from starring. His eyes drank in the blonde hair and the sparkling brown eyes that twinkled when the boy laughed with his friend.
'No Seto! You can't like him! Not even in the tinest way!' The brunette immediately recognized him as a threat. It had taken years to build up his cold exterior, his only defense against the harsh outside world, and he'd be damned if some good looking, loud mouthed boy was going to tear it down.
'Just ignore him. He'll ignore you... And he's not ignoring you.'
The blonde turned to look at the new kid in the back of the glass. Seto tensed when he noticed him walking toward him.
"Hiya! You must be new."
"No really? I hadn't noticed."
"Name's Joey," The golden one said, extending his hand, "And you are?"
"Nunya."
"Nunya?"
"Yeah, nunya business."[3]
"Hey! I was just being friendly!" Joey shouted.
"Well I don't want or need your friendship," the brunette replied.
"Yeah? Well I don't need your's then either!"
Seto smirked. "I never offered."
Joey huffed and turned to walk away, muttering about what an ass the new kid was.
Seto stuffed his nose back in his book, wincing at the sudden jerk in his heart that he felt. What was that? Whatever it was, it would be the downfall of Seto Kaiba if he didn't do something about it. He would have to keep that baka, Joey away from him.
~ First we touch and we hurt each other
Then we tear our hearts apart
We are too close and I can feel the pain
Fill my empty heart~
*Joey*
I notice that Seto has that look on his face, the one he gets when he's deep in thought. I like that look. His face seems to soften when he thinks. His eyes are blank. I wonder what he's thinking.
"Hey Kaiba?"
"It's Seto."
"Oh okay. What are you thinking?" I ask curiously.
"About the past," he replies.
"Yugi told me, 'One should not dwell on the past too long or it will eat you up from the inside out' but I think about it all the time."
"He's right."
"What do you mean? Is your past eating at you?"
Seto nodded. He stopps suddenly and starts rubbing the back of his head. He has a look on his face that kind of reminds me of when Tristan says something stupid. Dunno why. I think it might be how he rubs the back of his head. I just shrug the thought off for now.
"Joey I owe you an apology," he says.
"For what?"
"For everything I put you through. I treated you like hell."
"Well I'm not gonna argue with that." It's my turn to rub the back of my head sheepishly, "I did provoke some of those fights ya know. But what I'd like to know is why did you do that all the time?"
Seto hangs his head. "I was afraid."
"Of me?"
"Yes. Joey I..." he looks up, the look in his eyes is one I've never seen in those blue depths before, "I like you and.... Well I thought that I was unable to do such a thing."
"Unable to like me?" I ask, "I don't understand."
"My emotions were beaten out of me when I was younger. I took all of the abuse so Mokuba wouldn't have to. I just stopped feeling. If it wasn't for him, I probably wouldn't feel at all."
So that's why...
"Well it's not like that anymore is it?" I ask him. "You don't get beaten for showing emotion, right?"
"No. But this is all I've known," he replied, "Do you think people can change?"
"I know they can," I take his hand in mine, "I can help you. If you want, that is."
He smiles, but it looks a bit pained, forced even. Like the way he smiles at Mokuba.
"I'd like that."
~Is this pain too much for me
Can I stay the same
When this pain consumes my heart
Will I be able to hold on to my soul~
*Seto*
I'm a bit taken back when he wraps his arms around me in a light embrace, but I return it none the less. I have to start somewhere.
I breathe in the scent of him, reminds me of gingerlily.[4] I feel him sigh against me, apparently breathing me in as well. It's a nice feeling, being so close to him, and I want to savour the moment. I want it to last forever.
I realize that I need him, more than I've ever needed anyone. I hope that if I can change I can keep him. He did say that he would help me. Can I trust him?
*Flashback*
"Seto! You're afraid to admit that even you sometimes need help!"
"That's enough Mokuba,"Seto said clamly, his eyes never leaving the screen. They had been through this conversation before.
Mokuba fisted his hands in his ebony locks angrily, then stormed from the room. As he left, Seto heard the child muttering, "If you're afraid to trust, then you're just gonna be alone."
Seto snorted.
'Who needs them anyways?
~Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just dissolve me into night
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away~
*Joey*
He smells so good. Must be designer cologne or something. I could stay here forever. If this is a dream, then please dad stay out of my room!
He pulls away and I can't stop the whimper of protest that escapes my throat. I miss him already.
"How about we skip the coffee?" he asks.
I shrug, "Don't matter to me."
He takes my hand, and we start off towards the mansion looming on the hill. His place. I suddenly feel nervous and excited all at once. Maybe he would want to.... Cut it out Jou! Don't get ahead of yourself! Just getting to see his place, WITHOUT Mokuba trying to kill me,[5] would be enough for me.
Seto's hand is clammy. Maybe he's nervous too. I kind of hope so, then I wouldn't be alone in that department.
The walk is short, in no time at all, we're standing in his front hall. I'm still amazed at how big his home is, although I get a chill when my eyes fall on a picture of Seto's late step-father.
"I can't stand that thing," he says, wrapping me in a hug from behind.
"Then why do you keep it?"
I can't shake this chill.
"It's a reminder that he can't hurt me anymore," his breathe is warm against my ear, making my chills worse. I shudder against him.
"Cold?"
I nod. He leads me to the living room to sit in front of the fire.
"Wait here and I'll make us something warm to drink.
~Even when we behold each other
Somehow our eyes do not meet
And when you hold me in your strong embrace
Still I feel no heat~
*Seto*
As I wait for the water to boil, I busy myself by putting the mugs on a tray. Oh damn it, I forgot to ask him if he wanted hot chocolate or tea.[6] Oh well. I place packets of both with the mugs. He can just pick.
The kettle starts to hiss, so I remove it from the heat and place it on the beverage tray. I return to the den to find Joey wrapped up in a blanket with my favorite book, The Vampire Armand.[7]
"Enjoying my book, Pup?" I ask playfully.
He looks up and nods.
"A friend let me borrow it once and I fell in love with it."
"Well I guess my chances are shot. And to think, Seto Kaiba got beaten out by a book."
He looks at me with shock and confusion in his honey orbs.
"Did you just make a joke?"
I laugh and set the kettle on the coffee table.
"I guess I did."
He smiles and laughs along with me, the sound like music to my ears.
"So how 'bout that drink?" he asks. "Anything stiff?"
My eyes widen at the double implication. If he keeps up that talk there will be something stiff.[8]
"Tea or cocoa?"
"Cocoa. I'm not much of a hot tea drinker."
I prepare his drink, trying to clear my hentai thoughts, then I prepare my own.
"You wanna sit by the fire with me?" he asks with an innocense that touches my heart.
"Alright."
~But it gives me such delight
To feel you closer now
I know I am true to myself
Though it cuts deep into my heart somehow~
*Joey*
It feels nice, wrapped up in a blanket with Seto in front of a roaring fire. It's almost romantic. His voice is deep and sensual as he reads aloud from Armand.
I snuggle back into his warmth, trying not to wiggle the book in my lap much. I turn my head to look at him. He looks cute with his reading glasses perched on his nose.[9]
I think back a bit on the history we have and I'm amazed that we can go from worst enemies to where we are now in the blink of an eye. Not that I'm complaining. I could get used to this kind of thing.
But I know one thing for sure. I am DEFINITELY gonna have him read me the rest of the Vampire Cronicles.
~Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just dissolve me into night
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away~
End Chapter 2
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[1] Seto Plushie: Is that even a word?!?!
[2]Jams: I did the latter more often than not! ::sheepish grin:: ^.^U
[3]Jams: ::pauses to laugh hystericly::
[4]Chibi Yugi Plushie: That's what Jams' shapoo smells like!^^
[5]Jams: I read that issue of Jump. Bad Mokuba! ::smacks Mokuba's hand:: Bad!!
[6]Insert goofy Têa comment here...
[7]Jams: My fave book! Which I don't own copywrights to I might add. I DO own a COPY of the book though.
Seto Plushie: Wow Jams has intelligent reading material.
Jams: ::thwacks Seto Plushie with frying pan::
[8]Jams: ::pauses yet again to laugh hystericly::
[9]Jams: Seto with glasses... Kyoooote!! ^.^
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Jams: Well that stunk big monkey balls!
Seto Plushie: :: is having much fun playing with Neko Jounouchi's new muzzle::
Chibi Yugi Plushie: I can't believe you agreed to that Jams.
Jams: Oh let Seto have his fun. I have a special white jacket for him when he's done.
Seto Plushie: Shouldn't that be for him? ::jerks a thumb at Evil Malik Doom Dollie::
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: I'm letting you borrow it because I like you so much.
Seto Plushie: I highly doubt that.
Chibi Yugi Plushie: That jacket looks a bit uncomfortable.
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: Why don't you try it on and see?
Chibi Yugi Plushie: Ok ::puts on the jacket:: Hey! I can't move my arms!!
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: That's 'cause I tied them behind your back you little idgit!! XD Now the Millennium Puzzle is mine!!
Jams: Malik play nice.
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: Yes master. Now... ::glares at reviewers:: You guys better be nice to Jams and say good things about her story or I'll banish you to Bakura's bedroom!!
Jams: ::falls:: X.x
Author: Neko Jounouchi AKA Jams
Rating: Still PG
Pairing(s): Seto/Jou.... Who else!?!?
Spoilers: None that I can tell... Except for the fact that it has a song in it.
Disclaimer: Must I repeat myself!?!? ><
Summary: In this chapter, Seto remembers his past, and invites Jou to his home for cocoa. JUST cocoa guys... Be patient.
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Jams: I think I've found a way to continue!
Neko Jounouchi: Yay!!
Chibi Yugi Plushie: ::jumps up and down, clapping his hands::
Seto Plushie: Oh goodie....
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: I'll do the disclaimer. Jams owns us. Anyone who disagrees will be sent to Cherry World!! XD
Chibi Yugi Plushie: Oh!! Cherry World!! I wanna go!!!
Neko Jounouchi: But I thought we were going to Dairy World, Yugi.
Seto Plushie: I'm going to send them all to the world of HURT here in a minute!!
Jams: ::smacks forehead:: What I havta put up with. Seto, would you please do the disclaimer correctly?
Seto Plushie: If you'll buy the mutt a muzzle.
Jams: Deal.
Seto Plushie: ::beams:: ^____^ Jams does NOT own us. Nope. Not at all. She doesn't own the song either. That belongs to.... ::looks at CD case:: Yasunori Mitsuda. Yup yup. It does.
Jams: -.- Can we just get on with this...
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Notes
~Song Lyrics~
* POV Change or Flashback Notice* By the way, I've decided to do flashbacks in 3rd person POV.
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Reflection
Chapter 2
Pain
*Seto*
We decide on The Bean Scene for coffee. I never really liked the place much, far too smokey in my opinion, but it was the only place open at this hour. I guess beggars can't be choosers.
We walk close, and I must resist the urge to reach out and take his hand in mine. I don't want to seem too fast. It's the gentlemanly[1] thing to do, right? So instead, I simply walk beside him, glancing at him out of the corner of my eye.
I remember back on when we had first met...
*Flashback/Seto*
Seto Kaiba was not happy. Nor was he excited. Nor did he have the "New Student Jitters."
The private school he had previously attended had told him that he was too smart for their establishment and the government wouldn't let him just not go to school. So there he was, on the steps of Domino High, with his new schedule in his hand.
He entered the looming building and found his class with ease. Many students had arrived early, and were amidly chatting in groups or finishing up last night's homework assignmet. [2]
Seto took a seat at the back of the class and pulled out a book, pretending to read it while he surveyed his peers.
One caught his eye instantly, and it was all Seto could do to keep himself from starring. His eyes drank in the blonde hair and the sparkling brown eyes that twinkled when the boy laughed with his friend.
'No Seto! You can't like him! Not even in the tinest way!' The brunette immediately recognized him as a threat. It had taken years to build up his cold exterior, his only defense against the harsh outside world, and he'd be damned if some good looking, loud mouthed boy was going to tear it down.
'Just ignore him. He'll ignore you... And he's not ignoring you.'
The blonde turned to look at the new kid in the back of the glass. Seto tensed when he noticed him walking toward him.
"Hiya! You must be new."
"No really? I hadn't noticed."
"Name's Joey," The golden one said, extending his hand, "And you are?"
"Nunya."
"Nunya?"
"Yeah, nunya business."[3]
"Hey! I was just being friendly!" Joey shouted.
"Well I don't want or need your friendship," the brunette replied.
"Yeah? Well I don't need your's then either!"
Seto smirked. "I never offered."
Joey huffed and turned to walk away, muttering about what an ass the new kid was.
Seto stuffed his nose back in his book, wincing at the sudden jerk in his heart that he felt. What was that? Whatever it was, it would be the downfall of Seto Kaiba if he didn't do something about it. He would have to keep that baka, Joey away from him.
~ First we touch and we hurt each other
Then we tear our hearts apart
We are too close and I can feel the pain
Fill my empty heart~
*Joey*
I notice that Seto has that look on his face, the one he gets when he's deep in thought. I like that look. His face seems to soften when he thinks. His eyes are blank. I wonder what he's thinking.
"Hey Kaiba?"
"It's Seto."
"Oh okay. What are you thinking?" I ask curiously.
"About the past," he replies.
"Yugi told me, 'One should not dwell on the past too long or it will eat you up from the inside out' but I think about it all the time."
"He's right."
"What do you mean? Is your past eating at you?"
Seto nodded. He stopps suddenly and starts rubbing the back of his head. He has a look on his face that kind of reminds me of when Tristan says something stupid. Dunno why. I think it might be how he rubs the back of his head. I just shrug the thought off for now.
"Joey I owe you an apology," he says.
"For what?"
"For everything I put you through. I treated you like hell."
"Well I'm not gonna argue with that." It's my turn to rub the back of my head sheepishly, "I did provoke some of those fights ya know. But what I'd like to know is why did you do that all the time?"
Seto hangs his head. "I was afraid."
"Of me?"
"Yes. Joey I..." he looks up, the look in his eyes is one I've never seen in those blue depths before, "I like you and.... Well I thought that I was unable to do such a thing."
"Unable to like me?" I ask, "I don't understand."
"My emotions were beaten out of me when I was younger. I took all of the abuse so Mokuba wouldn't have to. I just stopped feeling. If it wasn't for him, I probably wouldn't feel at all."
So that's why...
"Well it's not like that anymore is it?" I ask him. "You don't get beaten for showing emotion, right?"
"No. But this is all I've known," he replied, "Do you think people can change?"
"I know they can," I take his hand in mine, "I can help you. If you want, that is."
He smiles, but it looks a bit pained, forced even. Like the way he smiles at Mokuba.
"I'd like that."
~Is this pain too much for me
Can I stay the same
When this pain consumes my heart
Will I be able to hold on to my soul~
*Seto*
I'm a bit taken back when he wraps his arms around me in a light embrace, but I return it none the less. I have to start somewhere.
I breathe in the scent of him, reminds me of gingerlily.[4] I feel him sigh against me, apparently breathing me in as well. It's a nice feeling, being so close to him, and I want to savour the moment. I want it to last forever.
I realize that I need him, more than I've ever needed anyone. I hope that if I can change I can keep him. He did say that he would help me. Can I trust him?
*Flashback*
"Seto! You're afraid to admit that even you sometimes need help!"
"That's enough Mokuba,"Seto said clamly, his eyes never leaving the screen. They had been through this conversation before.
Mokuba fisted his hands in his ebony locks angrily, then stormed from the room. As he left, Seto heard the child muttering, "If you're afraid to trust, then you're just gonna be alone."
Seto snorted.
'Who needs them anyways?
~Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just dissolve me into night
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away~
*Joey*
He smells so good. Must be designer cologne or something. I could stay here forever. If this is a dream, then please dad stay out of my room!
He pulls away and I can't stop the whimper of protest that escapes my throat. I miss him already.
"How about we skip the coffee?" he asks.
I shrug, "Don't matter to me."
He takes my hand, and we start off towards the mansion looming on the hill. His place. I suddenly feel nervous and excited all at once. Maybe he would want to.... Cut it out Jou! Don't get ahead of yourself! Just getting to see his place, WITHOUT Mokuba trying to kill me,[5] would be enough for me.
Seto's hand is clammy. Maybe he's nervous too. I kind of hope so, then I wouldn't be alone in that department.
The walk is short, in no time at all, we're standing in his front hall. I'm still amazed at how big his home is, although I get a chill when my eyes fall on a picture of Seto's late step-father.
"I can't stand that thing," he says, wrapping me in a hug from behind.
"Then why do you keep it?"
I can't shake this chill.
"It's a reminder that he can't hurt me anymore," his breathe is warm against my ear, making my chills worse. I shudder against him.
"Cold?"
I nod. He leads me to the living room to sit in front of the fire.
"Wait here and I'll make us something warm to drink.
~Even when we behold each other
Somehow our eyes do not meet
And when you hold me in your strong embrace
Still I feel no heat~
*Seto*
As I wait for the water to boil, I busy myself by putting the mugs on a tray. Oh damn it, I forgot to ask him if he wanted hot chocolate or tea.[6] Oh well. I place packets of both with the mugs. He can just pick.
The kettle starts to hiss, so I remove it from the heat and place it on the beverage tray. I return to the den to find Joey wrapped up in a blanket with my favorite book, The Vampire Armand.[7]
"Enjoying my book, Pup?" I ask playfully.
He looks up and nods.
"A friend let me borrow it once and I fell in love with it."
"Well I guess my chances are shot. And to think, Seto Kaiba got beaten out by a book."
He looks at me with shock and confusion in his honey orbs.
"Did you just make a joke?"
I laugh and set the kettle on the coffee table.
"I guess I did."
He smiles and laughs along with me, the sound like music to my ears.
"So how 'bout that drink?" he asks. "Anything stiff?"
My eyes widen at the double implication. If he keeps up that talk there will be something stiff.[8]
"Tea or cocoa?"
"Cocoa. I'm not much of a hot tea drinker."
I prepare his drink, trying to clear my hentai thoughts, then I prepare my own.
"You wanna sit by the fire with me?" he asks with an innocense that touches my heart.
"Alright."
~But it gives me such delight
To feel you closer now
I know I am true to myself
Though it cuts deep into my heart somehow~
*Joey*
It feels nice, wrapped up in a blanket with Seto in front of a roaring fire. It's almost romantic. His voice is deep and sensual as he reads aloud from Armand.
I snuggle back into his warmth, trying not to wiggle the book in my lap much. I turn my head to look at him. He looks cute with his reading glasses perched on his nose.[9]
I think back a bit on the history we have and I'm amazed that we can go from worst enemies to where we are now in the blink of an eye. Not that I'm complaining. I could get used to this kind of thing.
But I know one thing for sure. I am DEFINITELY gonna have him read me the rest of the Vampire Cronicles.
~Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just dissolve me into night
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away~
End Chapter 2
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[1] Seto Plushie: Is that even a word?!?!
[2]Jams: I did the latter more often than not! ::sheepish grin:: ^.^U
[3]Jams: ::pauses to laugh hystericly::
[4]Chibi Yugi Plushie: That's what Jams' shapoo smells like!^^
[5]Jams: I read that issue of Jump. Bad Mokuba! ::smacks Mokuba's hand:: Bad!!
[6]Insert goofy Têa comment here...
[7]Jams: My fave book! Which I don't own copywrights to I might add. I DO own a COPY of the book though.
Seto Plushie: Wow Jams has intelligent reading material.
Jams: ::thwacks Seto Plushie with frying pan::
[8]Jams: ::pauses yet again to laugh hystericly::
[9]Jams: Seto with glasses... Kyoooote!! ^.^
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Jams: Well that stunk big monkey balls!
Seto Plushie: :: is having much fun playing with Neko Jounouchi's new muzzle::
Chibi Yugi Plushie: I can't believe you agreed to that Jams.
Jams: Oh let Seto have his fun. I have a special white jacket for him when he's done.
Seto Plushie: Shouldn't that be for him? ::jerks a thumb at Evil Malik Doom Dollie::
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: I'm letting you borrow it because I like you so much.
Seto Plushie: I highly doubt that.
Chibi Yugi Plushie: That jacket looks a bit uncomfortable.
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: Why don't you try it on and see?
Chibi Yugi Plushie: Ok ::puts on the jacket:: Hey! I can't move my arms!!
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: That's 'cause I tied them behind your back you little idgit!! XD Now the Millennium Puzzle is mine!!
Jams: Malik play nice.
Evil Malik Doom Dollie: Yes master. Now... ::glares at reviewers:: You guys better be nice to Jams and say good things about her story or I'll banish you to Bakura's bedroom!!
Jams: ::falls:: X.x