Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction / InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Starting Over ❯ Chapter 5

STARTING OVER

Ok. It seems that choosing kind over cold is a harder decision than I first thought…so this chapter will tell you what made Kagome the way she is. Yes that's right, I will go into all the gory details on what happened to her family. Oh ya…I'm sorry if hiei's name is still spelled wrong but I tried to fix it ^_^ ill just have to spell it right from now on. Remember I own nothing; so suing me would be a waist of time! ……. On with the story!
Chapter 5
A unanimous decision found them all in their prospective homes. It had been decided that everyone would get one day to sort out their lives, because once Kagome started training she wouldn't give breaks until they where finished. Everyone had gone along with the idea, grateful that she was giving them time to tell their families where they would be for the next six months. Kagome had gone to the past, delivered her message to Inuyasha, and left through the well, all within two minutes. She was secretly relieved that she didn't have to fight him this one time, while at the same time she was worried that by the time she came back he would be to far under Kikyo's control to be set free.
She sighed mentally while she dressed for dinner. Maybe he would be all right, she should just stop worrying. Kagome shook her head and finished tying the sash of her dress. It was black, with a yellow sash with flower outlines done in blood red. The front of the dress was in the shape of a deep `v' with the tip of the `v' ending just below her bellybutton. The back was also a `v' ending low on her back. It was long, ending about an inch above the ground. It also had slits going up the side up to the yellow sash. She had on black wrist guards that connected to gold wrings around her middle finger. Her hair was down, flowing freely down her back and legs. Her ears where pierced four times on the bottom, and twice on the cartilage, the earrings she wore where just silver studs going all the way up her ear. She had on black eye shadow, with red lipstick. Her feet where covered in black silk slippers. (A/N ok think of Yura of the hair's outfit…except, you know, not as short.)
Her, Shippou, and Sota where going out to diner. As was their tradition on their first night back. They always went to a high-class restaurant, probably because they had been eating ramen for a few weeks straight.
"Shippou! Sota! We'll be leaving in 2 minutes! Hurry up!" She called up the stairs.
They came running down laughing and playing while trying to figure out the knots for their ties at the same time. Kagome sighed and knelt down to tie them for the two boys.
"Hold still," She reprimanded absently. " we need to get going. I made the reservations for 5."
"Ok momma."
"Sorry sis." Came their replies. Kagome smiled gently and grabbed her long black trench coat.
"Let's go then."
They cheered and ran out of the house, heading for the shrine steps. Kagome followed at a slower pace, but ran as they hailed a cab.

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Dinner had been uneventful, but enjoyable all the same. After they had rented movies and stayed up a better part of the night before the hyperactive kitsune and the small, but just as hyperactive, boy finally fell asleep. Kagome sighed as she pulled the blanket over their prone forms on the couch.
On her way up to her room, Kagome passed what was her mother's old bedroom. She stopped in front of it and thought back to what happened three years ago.
*****Flashback (you know you've been waiting for this moment^_^)****
Kagome giggled happily as Shippou continued to tell her what Inuyasha had done while she was at the hot springs.
"…and then he said `get back here you little runt!' and then he jumped at me, but I was to fast so he fell!"

Kagome was seized by another bout of laughter as she watched Shippou make gestures and flop down on his face in imitation of the hanyou.
"Oh! Shippou stop! Oh, my stomach! Please Shippou, I cant breath!" Kagome fell on her back clutching her sides and kicking her feet in the air, meanwhile, said hanyou was sulking and glaring daggers at the tiny kit. Kagome finally stopped laughing and got back to the reason she came to talk to Inuyasha. She cleared her throat before asking him the question she already knew the answer to.
"Inuyasha?"
He made a grunting noise to show that he was listening.
"Can I go home?"
"Feh. You know that we've go jewel shards to collect, bitch, so no."
Kagome clenched her fist at the `bitch' comment, but let it slide.
"Inuyasha I'm going home! For 4 days weather you like it or not!"
"Then why the fuck do you bother asking, wench?"
Kagome felt the anger rise in her chest at the, now hated, name.
" BECAUSE!" She screamed the word in his face before grabbing her yellow pack, and bolting for the well with Shippou clinging tightly to her shoulder.
Inuyasha was to stunned by her outburst to say anything. He just watched numbly as she jumped into the well in a flash of light.
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Kagome was surprise that she had made it to her time without having to sit Inuyasha. She figured it was because of her little slip of control. Kagome shrugged and smiled at Shippou, who she just noticed. Maybe you just need to be touching me to get through. She though absently…when she felt a youkai at her shrine.

Kagome didn't freak out, like she did when this happened the first time. Kagome had just come out of the well, when she felt a youkai. Two years of shard hunting made her act before she thought, so before she knew what she was going on she had drawn her bow and was aiming an arrow at a handsome man with a briefcase. Her jiichan had had to stop her before she purified the youkai. After the bow was taken from her death grip the youkai explained that he had been coming here for some time and meant no harm. Kagome had laughed nervously and from then on disregarded any and all youkai on the property.
Kagome shrugged and began to climb out of the well using the ladder her mother had placed there. When she reached the top, however, she almost fell back into it in shock.
There on the steps was her brother.
"Sota! Oh my gods, SOTA!"
He groaned in response and tried to sit up, only to be pushed back down gently by his sister.
"Sota?"
Kagome's voice was trembling and she felt the bile rise in her throat when she removed his shirt and looked at the wound. He had five gashes going from his right shoulder down to his left hip. They where deep, very deep. She could see the bones of his shoulder, ribs, and hip. She could also see stomach and entrails. They where uninjured, by some miracle. The blood was pooling under him, and Kagome knew that he would die if she didn't get him help.
The hospital…No! They take to long. The neighbors? No…they would ask to many questions I can't answer. Then WHO!
Kagome started trembling as she tried to staunch the blood flow with Sota's already soaked shirt. She felt warm tracks on her face as she called to her semi-conscious brother.
"Sota! Sota! Oh gods! SOTA!"
Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit…Kaede!
Kagome stopped shaking and picked up Sota's now prone form, and jumped into the well. Once on the other side she screamed with all her might. The results where almost instantaneous, Inuyasha appeared at the rim of the well and stared at her with worry filled eyes.
"Kag-"
She cut him off.
"Inuyasha take my brother and Shippou to Kaede, I need to go back and see if anyone else in hurt!"
The inu nodded dumbly and took Sota carefully from her blood soaked embrace, while Shippou jumped onto his shoulder. What could have done this? He wondered absently as he carried the child quickly, but carefully, towards where he could smell Kaede.
Kagome climbed out of the well hurriedly and sprinted to her house where she could see signs of movement. She slammed into the locked door, effectively breaking it open.
"Mom? Jiichan?"
Her voice cracked with suppressed tears. She heard footsteps coming her way, and almost cried in relief when her mothers face appeared around the corner of the hallway. Her relief quickly turned to horror, though, when the rest of what was turning the corner came into view.
It was a ryuu youkai holding her mothers severed head in its right hand.
"Nandayo?" Kagome was in shock, all fear gone from her. In fact she felt nothing at all, it was like she had lost all of her emotions. This only lasted for a few seconds, then an all-consuming rage enveloped her.
(a/n- ok Nandayo is `what the hell' and ryuu is dragon…I think ^_^)
All she saw was the ryuu. She didn't notice the blood on the walls and carpeted floors. She didn't see the parts of her mother's and jiichan's bodies strewn all over her house. She didn't even hear the small childlike gasp from behind her. All she heard was the ryuu's breathing. All she felt was the power inside her break free.
The ryuu roared its' challenge and charged her, the severed head still clutched in its' hand. It swung its claws at her face, but she dodged it easily and stepped under its' arm right up against its' chest. Kagome placed both of her palms against the ryuu's armored chest and let all of her miko powers out in one blast. The dragon screamed in agony as it was purified, leaving nothing but her mother's head, and a jewel shard behind.
Kagome fell to her knees and brought the head into her chest. She heard a strangled sob over her own ragged breathing, and turned to look over her shoulder. It was Sota; he was clutching his bleeding, shirtless, chest and trying to walk towards her at the same time.
"Kagome."
The way he said her voice made her want to cry out in frustration. His voice told her that he had been waiting for her to save them. It told her that she had been his hero, and it told her that she failed him.
"Oh gods Sota, I-"
She was cut off when he stumbled forward and fell into her warm, if exhausted, embrace. She clutched to him like a lifeline, stroking his hair and whispering and cooing to him.
They stayed that way, clutching each other in the hallway with their mother's lifeless eyes staring at them, for hours. When they finally did break apart, it was only do the fact that the police had arrived, and where trying to look at their injuries. The police and EMT's where asking what had happened over and over, like a broken record.
Kagome was silent the whole time; she just sat at Sota's side as they bandaged his injuries. They tried getting them to go to the hospital, but it was no use. Neither would leave the house until they could see the damage the ryuu had done. The police finally gave in and had a short, blonde, female, officer lead them to the major crime scenes.
Kagome followed the woman silently, but Sota would whimper every so often when they passed an especially large pool of blood. When they reached the first scene Sota hid his face in his sister's stomach and cried. Kagome, for some reason, couldn't look away.
She stared in a kind of sickening, morbid, fascination at all the gory details. She couldn't seem to tear her eyes away. The walls of the kitchen where a deep, glistening red, where the blood had spattered on them, the floor was much the same. The table was untouched by the blood and gore, the polished brown of the hardwood table looked out of place amidst the sea of blood, limbs, and entrails. In the corner, by the sink was Buyo, missing a large chunk of his shoulder, and the left half of his face. Near the immaculate table was the torso of her jiichan; it had gashes, much like Sota's, all over it. Other various parts of her grandfather where strewn randomly throughout the kitchen and dining area.

Kagome jumped when she felt the officer's hand on her shoulder. She looked at the blonde woman, then motioned for her to lead the way to the next scene. The woman looked concerned, but did as she was told.
The next scene was in her mother's room. The once white fluffy carpeting was now red, almost black with blood. The bed sunken and broken from the struggle, and rape of her mother. The once smooth curtains ripped and torn from the wall hangings. Her mothers' body was pretty much in tack, with the exception of her head, which was down stairs somewhere. The body was bruised on its arms and legs near the crotch, proving her guess of rape. Kagome swallowed and turned from the scene. Sota, like Kagome had been before, seemed to be trapped with morbid curiosity.
"Sota." Kagome flinched at the hoarseness of her own voice.
Her brother jumped at her voice, but nodded and followed her down to the ambulance. The night was filled with gentle questions from the police.
"Can you remember what happened miss?"
The detective in front of her was fat, and smelly. She wanted to move away when he crouched in front of her, but didn't.
"I was doing my English history homework with my headphones on when I thought I heard something. So I went down stairs and saw a little trail of blood going out to the well house, so I followed it and found Sota. I helped him into the house and saw everything else. I don't know who did this." Kagome said all of this without any emotion, staring straight ahead, but not really seeing at anything. The detective looked at the EMT behind Kagome for confirmation, the man nodded, then mouthed one word. `shock'. The fat man nodded his bulbous head and walked away, leaving Kagome sitting in the waiting room of the hospital.
Fuck, why did this happen? Kagome shook her head, then saw the nurse waiving her into Sota's room. While she was walking she thought of who would do that. Naraku. He is the only one, but how did he find out about the well? And how did the ryuu get through? Kagome smiled sadly at her little brother and sat down on his bed. He immediately clung to her and asked her to sing him to sleep. Kagome nodded numbly and began singing his favorite song. She smiled at him and sung, noting dully that the nurses, doctors, and passing visitors where stopping to listen to her dulcet voice. She paid them no head and was soon lost in the song, and her own thoughts.
Why did this happen? What should I do? Kagome closed her eyes to stop the tears. It doesn't matter, because it won't happen again. Ill become strong, stronger than Inuyasha, or Kouga, or even Sesshoumaru. This will never happen again. Sota… I let him down. Kagome shook her head fiercely, as if to rid herself of such thoughts. No. I didn't, I can see it in his eyes. But I can't ever leave him here again. I can't take that chance. I wont take that chance. He will become strong, so will Shippou. I wont lose anyone else. And if I have to become a cold killing machine to do so then so be it.
She finished her song with her stoic mask firmly in place for the first time. She made a silent vow to Sota, Shippou, Sango, Miroku, and Inuyasha. She would become what she hated to protect them. She would never show any weaknesses for them. All for them.
****End flashback****
Kagome closed her eyes and walked slowly passed the door that hadn't been opened since that fateful day exactly three years ago.
I wont forget you momma, but I will move on. Please don't hate what I've become. I'm still Kagome…just a little different. I don't know if I'm better, but I can protect my family. I can save them. I wont lose them momma! I cant!

She opened her eyes and went silently to her room. She removed the make up and replaced the dress with black lacy lingerie. Kagome sighed as her head hit the black feather pillow; she slowly pulled her back satin sheets over her shoulders. Strangely, the last thing she thought about before she fell asleep wasn't her dead family, it was the fierce jaganshi.
Kagome closed her eyes and fell asleep to the sound of his voice as it played from her memories.
Hiei.
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Phew! That was long! Ok so this might make your decision easier. I'm only gonna listen to five more reviews, so if you want a say in this fic you better speak up. Cold Kagome- or Nice Kagome!!!!!!!
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