Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ A soul, a life, a pendant... ❯ Nobody loves me ( Chapter 5 )

I was distant, even to Kuronue. He tried to keep me happy; force-feeding me when needed, using the most pleasant memories he could... But one thing was on my mind constantly: he'd have to leave me eventually.

My mom thought I was depressed because school was ending, Heh, fat chance. My dad thought I wanted a new RPG to play to keep my spirits up, I did get Sims 2 out of that, but it failed. My baby sister would ask why "sissy" was so sad, I'd tell her to go away. Kuronue soon realized that draining my blood to make me forget the pain didn't make me forget...

But he did become more, there. And as he showed up more and more, I grew to less and less... My normally high grades were now C's and D+'s, my mind was sent spinning when I had to think harder past doing the dishes.

I was a wreck.

Kuronue blamed himself for my downward spiral, telling me not to be so self sacrificing... I didn't speak with him for a while. Then the one day I needed him came...

The school dance, eight grade only. I didn't have a date, not a single person to go with... Kuro offered himself, I accepted.

 

It was easy to smuggle Kuronue into the dance, he was around my neck in the pendant I wear everyday. He let himself out in a small corner type area. I guess it was enough to make the people outside think we were doing something else the way we came out, because Jessica B, the girl I hate the most, came over. She smiled, flipping her 'perfect' blond hair over her shoulder, the most popular guy in school trailing her like a love-sick puppy.

"So, you do have a boyfriend after all..." She looked at Kuronue, then that evil wench, she started flirting with him! "How did someone so cute end up with an ugly brat like her?" Jess's boyfriend was fuming, that was funny. But at the moment, she was hitting on my friend... And she had to be stopped.

"I guess it was just fate..." Kuronue smiled in my direction, he saw me buying a soda from the concessions... He knew my plan when our eyes met. "But then again, maybe meeting you was destiny..." Kuronue winked, and Jessica blushed...

Then she was very wet, and very sticky.

And I was very amused. As were the people around us... I had spilt my coke on Jess's new dress that apparently had cost her a lot of money... I'd tell you the exact sum, but I lost interest as she ranted on. But Kuronue smiled... At me. He knew that I'd never stood up for myself like that, that I have never done anything that harsh to even my most hated of enemies... And he knew I had just stood up for myself for the first time.

He also knew it was because of himself.

The rest of the dance was smooth; Kuronue didn't let me go all night... I don't know why, but the thought of him leaving me behind once he gets his body back for real makes me sad. It's like he's the closest friend I have, and maybe more then that. I don't know anymore. But he spent the whole dance with a hold on my hand, no matter what. We were the only couple on the floor at first; me in the best pair of jeans I owned, a midnight blue with red and gold dragons up the right leg; and long sleeve shirt that matched. He was in an outfit similar to the one he wore in the old days, without his hat. He threw a fit when I told him he couldn't have the hat, but he calmed down in the end...

I don't know what was better; the dream when Kuronue took me to the stars, or dancing with him to the beat of the live DJ's mix in front of everyone... I think it was just Kuronue himself. Is this wrong? What do I feel for him, this bat whose life I'm reviving... Do I feel more then love?