Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ All I Wanted Was Love ❯ All I Wanted Was Love ( Chapter 1 )
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By: DarkWaterKitsune 
All she wanted was love, and she can't seem to move on without it....
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Adventure / Fantasy / Mystery | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 01.16.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 958 | Visits: 244 | Status: Completed
All she wanted was love, and she can't seem to move on without it....
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Adventure / Fantasy / Mystery | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 01.16.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 958 | Visits: 244 | Status: Completed
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All I Wanted Was Love
I sat down on the clifftop to watch the sunset like I did every night. Almost fifty years passed, but I can still hear him yelling at me. Why did he do that? He said that she was the only one he ever love, and I killed her.
'I *hate* you. Why did you have to be born? I never wanted you! I never asked for a child! You were a mistake!' I remember him yelling at me. I was a mistake. So, that's what I was. I always wanted to know. I looked to the sun again. It reminded me of that poem every single night.
...Long has paled that sunny sky:
Echoes fade and memoreies die.
Autumn frosts have slain July.
Still she haunts me, phantomwise,
Alice moving under skies
Never seen by waking eyes...
...In a Wonderland they lie,
Dreaming as the days go by,
Dreaming as the summers die:
Ever drifting down the stream-
Lingering in the golden gleam-
Life, what is it but a dream?
(-Lewis Carroll)
My mother was part ningen. That made things more complicated. He never did like humans, let alone love them. He always said she was different. She was 'Special' as he named it.
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"Well, what am I supposed to do? Where am I supposed to go?" I asked, defensivly
"Go and get yourself killed for all I care." he told me.
"You can't mean that!"
"She's dead. Why? Because you killed her!"
"Go ahead and point fingers at me! You just need someone to blame it on!"
"I never asked for you!"
"I never wanted to be born! Did that stop life? No! So get out of your damn shell and face reallity!" Even in the darkness, I saw him lash out and strike. I jumped back, but he left a gash on my cheek from my temple to my chin.
"Now go away! If I ever see your face again, I won't hesitate to kill you!"
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I still have that scar, too. It's not like I didn't love my mother as much as him, but he took it harder. I remember how my mother felt about me. She couldn't have loved me more. What was the word she used when I was around? Serenity, that was it. Therefore, that was my name, Serenity. Though, no one called me by my full name and lived to tell. It's almost embarassing, getting rejected and all. He swore to kill me if our paths ever crossed.....I promised myself the same.
My mother fell ill shorty after I was born. It was because I was born that she got sick. He thought it was hard for him? He always thought it was so hard. I sighed, for probably the millionth time since I sat down.
Where do we go when we just don't know,
And how do we relight the flame when it's gold?
Why do dream when our thoughts mean nothing,
And when will we learn to control?
(-Godsmack, Serenity) (A/N: Take a wild guess on what song I was listening to while writing this. I'll give you three guesses and the first two don't count.)
Mom would always teach me with what time she had left. She mostly made me memorize poems, though, I never knew why. Every saying she taught me had some meaning, whether great or small.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Why did you have to hate me so much?! Why couldn't you accept it?! You bastard! I hate you, too! And news flash, but torturing me won't bring her back! The only reason you haven't kicked me out yet is because you've been drinking so damn much!"
"Quiet! Shut your damn mouth!" He hit me upside the head.....again.
"Stop it! You think you're so alone because you jam yourself in a corner and ignore everything! You're alone because you want to be! You *want* to be miserable so you hide yourself from everything!"
"I told you to be quiet!" He hit me again, harder this time. I decided to walk away. He'd be even worse when he was sober.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I was right. I got my scar that night, and my pride was shattered. I've trained day and night for the last 47 years. That makes me a very young demon, but I live to fight. My name, you ask? Serenity Jaganshi.
DarkWater: Oh yeah! Another story! Woo Hoo!
Kurama: I think you've had one too many pixie sticks.
DarkWater: Quiet! Kitsune! I haven't had any pixie sticks!
Hiei: She really hasn't.
DarkWater: I just got back from cross country practice! My coach is so nice.
Kurama: Then shouldn't you be out of energy?
DarkWater: Not hardly! It's only one in the afternoon! The day is young, fox boy!
Kurama: And your summer reading?
DarkWater: Yikes! Shit! Ummm....go have fun in my Bishonen Land of Peace and I'll get on that!
Kurama: Please review.
Hiei: What do you mean 'Please'? REVIEW DAMN IT!
All I Wanted Was Love
I sat down on the clifftop to watch the sunset like I did every night. Almost fifty years passed, but I can still hear him yelling at me. Why did he do that? He said that she was the only one he ever love, and I killed her.
'I *hate* you. Why did you have to be born? I never wanted you! I never asked for a child! You were a mistake!' I remember him yelling at me. I was a mistake. So, that's what I was. I always wanted to know. I looked to the sun again. It reminded me of that poem every single night.
...Long has paled that sunny sky:
Echoes fade and memoreies die.
Autumn frosts have slain July.
Still she haunts me, phantomwise,
Alice moving under skies
Never seen by waking eyes...
...In a Wonderland they lie,
Dreaming as the days go by,
Dreaming as the summers die:
Ever drifting down the stream-
Lingering in the golden gleam-
Life, what is it but a dream?
(-Lewis Carroll)
My mother was part ningen. That made things more complicated. He never did like humans, let alone love them. He always said she was different. She was 'Special' as he named it.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Well, what am I supposed to do? Where am I supposed to go?" I asked, defensivly
"Go and get yourself killed for all I care." he told me.
"You can't mean that!"
"She's dead. Why? Because you killed her!"
"Go ahead and point fingers at me! You just need someone to blame it on!"
"I never asked for you!"
"I never wanted to be born! Did that stop life? No! So get out of your damn shell and face reallity!" Even in the darkness, I saw him lash out and strike. I jumped back, but he left a gash on my cheek from my temple to my chin.
"Now go away! If I ever see your face again, I won't hesitate to kill you!"
~~~~~~~~~~~~
I still have that scar, too. It's not like I didn't love my mother as much as him, but he took it harder. I remember how my mother felt about me. She couldn't have loved me more. What was the word she used when I was around? Serenity, that was it. Therefore, that was my name, Serenity. Though, no one called me by my full name and lived to tell. It's almost embarassing, getting rejected and all. He swore to kill me if our paths ever crossed.....I promised myself the same.
My mother fell ill shorty after I was born. It was because I was born that she got sick. He thought it was hard for him? He always thought it was so hard. I sighed, for probably the millionth time since I sat down.
Where do we go when we just don't know,
And how do we relight the flame when it's gold?
Why do dream when our thoughts mean nothing,
And when will we learn to control?
(-Godsmack, Serenity) (A/N: Take a wild guess on what song I was listening to while writing this. I'll give you three guesses and the first two don't count.)
Mom would always teach me with what time she had left. She mostly made me memorize poems, though, I never knew why. Every saying she taught me had some meaning, whether great or small.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Why did you have to hate me so much?! Why couldn't you accept it?! You bastard! I hate you, too! And news flash, but torturing me won't bring her back! The only reason you haven't kicked me out yet is because you've been drinking so damn much!"
"Quiet! Shut your damn mouth!" He hit me upside the head.....again.
"Stop it! You think you're so alone because you jam yourself in a corner and ignore everything! You're alone because you want to be! You *want* to be miserable so you hide yourself from everything!"
"I told you to be quiet!" He hit me again, harder this time. I decided to walk away. He'd be even worse when he was sober.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I was right. I got my scar that night, and my pride was shattered. I've trained day and night for the last 47 years. That makes me a very young demon, but I live to fight. My name, you ask? Serenity Jaganshi.
DarkWater: Oh yeah! Another story! Woo Hoo!
Kurama: I think you've had one too many pixie sticks.
DarkWater: Quiet! Kitsune! I haven't had any pixie sticks!
Hiei: She really hasn't.
DarkWater: I just got back from cross country practice! My coach is so nice.
Kurama: Then shouldn't you be out of energy?
DarkWater: Not hardly! It's only one in the afternoon! The day is young, fox boy!
Kurama: And your summer reading?
DarkWater: Yikes! Shit! Ummm....go have fun in my Bishonen Land of Peace and I'll get on that!
Kurama: Please review.
Hiei: What do you mean 'Please'? REVIEW DAMN IT!