Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Dream Weaver ❯ The End - Version 1 ( Chapter 6 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Kurama sighed, trying desperately to keep his eyes open, to pay attention to the lecture his anatomy professor was giving. He knew that they were to be tested on the muscle structure of the domestic feline the following day, but he just could not bring himself to actually soak in any of the knowledge. His mind was elsewhere, and it simply refused to focus on other things.

Hiei…

When he had stepped into the Fire Demon's mind, those many weeks ago, he had no intention whatsoever of being nosy. He knew that Hiei would kill him if he ever found out that his mind had been invaded against his wishes. It would be a serious blow to his pride, and whatever feelings the small demon possessed. Kurama would be damned if he ever dishonored himself and Hiei in that manner. He had a mission: Inform Hiei of the only way to dispel the Dream Weaver from his mind, then quickly make his escape. It was simple, and he had no problem with simply doing so.

However, saying and doing were two totally separate things it seemed.

Many times Kurama had tried to justify his actions; tried to prove to himself that he had had a damn good reason for digging through Hiei's subconscious. The funny thing is, he almost had himself convinced. But then it all came full circle, and he felt nothing but utter shame. He had broken whatever trust there was between Hiei and himself, completely destroying any chance at a real friendship that he had. Maybe even a chance of…

No. It's not to be.

He sighed again, resting his chin in his palm, again trying to focus his attention on the lecture. He had almost locked in on the words, when he felt a light brush to the back of his neck.

Sitting up sharply, his eyes quickly focused on the window. And he almost smiled when he saw a black figure crouched on a tree branch, ruby eyes locked on his. His lips turned into a half smile then, lifting his fingertips in a small wave. The figure did not move, the eyes did not blink, and Kurama felt his blood freeze.

Meet me in the park when you are finished with your pointless Ningen activities.

Kurama gave him a small nod, and with a flash of darkness, Hiei was gone. Kurama turned his attention to the clock on the wall, and almost whined when he noticed that he still had a good three hours left before the school day was finished. He was excited to see Hiei. After all, he had been gone for a good three weeks. But there was also a terrified feeling in his gut that would not go away. Was Hiei angry with him? Did the little Fire Demon know of his betrayal during his weakest moments?

Kurama prayed to whatever God that was listening that if he was doomed, to please make it quick and as painless as possible.

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"Took you long enough."

Kurama sighed and slumped down beneath the ancient tree, leaning his back against the trunk of it, his eyes staring blankly across the overgrown grasses and flowers. Hiei was seated above him, in his customary tree branch.

"I apologize for my tardiness, but I ran into some unexpected difficulties."

"Oh?"

"Yes. It seems that my professor noticed when my attention was fixed on 'something' outside the window."

Hiei chuckled lightly, shaking his head; the first real amusement he had felt in a long, long while. Kurama nearly relaxed when he heard the soft laughter, but something about it sent soft chills down his spine. It was unnatural to hear Hiei laugh like that.

"So are you going to tell me why I'm out here?"

His breath caught, when suddenly Hiei was kneeling before him, nearly between his open legs as a matter of fact. Kurama clenched his jaw, trying desperately to hide his shock when Hiei leaned forward, resting his palms atop his thighs. His hands were so incredibly warm…

"Would you allow me to try something, Fox?"

Kurama swallowed hard, not sure what Hiei meant. What exactly was he doing this close in the first place? His eyes, as usual, gave nothing away. His face was calm and composed, showing no signs of what he intended to do. Again, Kurama said his little prayer in his mind, and forced himself to nod.

And then, there he was, blood colored eyes closed, lips touching his in the softest manner. Kurama's head spun, not certain what to do. His arms ached to wrap around the little Demon before him, to sweep his fingers through that gloriously black hair, to pull him in deeper and swallow him whole. The kiss was so gentle, almost shy in a way, and nothing that Kurama would have ever expected to come from the normally aggressive being before him. He felt light and floating, leaving his body behind in the grass to fly among the clouds.

But Hiei was pulling away, and Kurama's heart began to panic.

He tilted his head, begging to no one for this to continue, for it to never end.

And then Hiei's hands were touching his face, his fingertips sliding into his hair. Their lips parted, tips of tongues flickering against one another, and Kurama swore he could hear a wanting moan rumble within his companion's chest. Hiei pressed himself flush against the Fox before him, tasting and memorizing every warm inch of Kurama's mouth. It was a delicacy, he knew, and planned on savoring it as much as he could.

Kurama finally found his mobility, his own hands reaching up to slide along Hiei's back, curling his fingertips over his shoulders, pulling him closer. He needed to feel that searing heat, burning though it was even through both their clothing. He closed his eyes tighter, pouring out all the emotion he had ever felt for his companion into that kiss, wordlessly cherishing that which he had loved from afar.

Hiei pulled away then, his hands cupping Kurama's cheeks, resting his forehead against that of the Fox's. Both panted heavily, neither wanting to open their eyes, for fear that this could only be a dream… one beautiful, wonderful dream.

"I am sorry, Kurama."

His breathing stilled, eyes opening without thought of it being a dream or not, searching Hiei's face for something, anything, that would destroy those words. His hands moved to grip Hiei's forearms, squeezing hard.

"I do not expect your forgiveness."

Kurama closed his eyes again, silver tears streaking down his face, a strangled sob escaping his lips. Hiei was…

"I wanted to see and I… I wanted… needed to say goodbye. You deserved that much."

Kurama did not want to let go, but felt Hiei easily escape his grip. He couldn't open his eyes… couldn't stop the tears from coming. Without another word, Hiei walked away, stuffing his hands in his pockets, not looking back.

"Hiei…"

But he was gone. Vanished from his sight. Kurama curled up on himself, hugging his body tightly as he tried to retain that unnatural warmth Hiei had brought him. How stupid was he? He had thought… He had hoped… That kiss… He had believed so very much that Hiei was going to stay there forever with him… He believed it so much that it had all ended too quickly… He had not the time to savor and hold onto the flavor… the texture… the heat of it all.

His mind and body would forget eventually, and that, he supposed, was what would hurt most of all.

What do you have, if you have not even memories to visit in the night?

* ~ Winter is a time for lovers

All curled up with pillow tucks

Many secrets to uncover

Sweaty dreams and twisted thoughts

And yes I miss you at least once or twice a day

But love became a game I didn't know how to play

And I know it doesn't work that way

This is part of me I cannot touch

Yes I know

I expect too much ~ *

~Hattie - twenty3 years into 4teen songs - "Winter Blues"~

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SM: *smiles and leans back in her chair* Well people, there's ending number one! Sorry it wasn't the happy version first, but hell, I write what I feel at the time. *lights a smoke*

TheBoy: That was rather short, don't ya think?

SM: Well ya… It was the conclusion, old man… Besides, I don't really think they want to read on and on about how much pain Kurama was in, blah blah blah… Plus, I think I covered that inner turmoil pretty well in those few short paragraphs.

TheBoy: Whatever you say. Get on with the disclaimers and crap so I can go to sleep. I have duty tomorrow morning.

SM: *sticks her tongue out at him* Don't forget to review people!! I don't want to have to threaten withholding the happy ending! *evil grin*

Disclaimer: I still don't own YYH guys… But damn, it's a nice thought…

Disclaimer II: I don't own the song "Winter Blues" by Hattie, either. In fact, if any of you have actually heard of the song, or the artist for that matter, I will be quite shocked. One day I'll remember the site I bought it from…