Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Everybody's Fool ❯ My Last Breath ( Chapter 4 )

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Dearest Readers,

I made a typo in my last chapter. "Hiei's" was not supposed to be in there. I deleted it on my computer, but I had already posted it on FF.net. Oops!! Sorry for any confusion that may have caused. Hiei is not in this fic. At all. Ok? So why did I wrote "Hiei's"? My computer kept on telling me that "Hiei's" and "Kurama's" aren't real words so I was getting sick of it. I typed them out and added them to the list of worddie thingies. I may be stupid, but I can right!! *Puffs out chest stupidly in pride.*

THANK YOU FOR THE REVIEWS!!

*Sings* The best part of wakin' up, is reviews in your inbox folder. -^_^-

*Ahem* Let's move along.

(If you understand that this is a tragedy fic with a SAD ENDING, you don't have to read this next paragraph.)

I would like to warn you all one last time: THIS FIC DOES NOT HAVE A HAPPY ENDING!!! If you would like to imagine that Shiori finds Kurama someplace and takes him home to shower with apologies and love, you go ahead and stop reading. I considered doing that, but then this wouldn't be a tragedy fic would it? This fic is enough to make everyone (`cept me) cry their pathetic ningen eyes out. Don't bother flaming me complaining about how "it made me cry after a `fucking year' of dry eyes" or anything like that. All it does is give me a merciless satisfaction knowing I made you miserable. Ok? I KNOW I've said it before, but some people are ignorant and want to believe that I actually have a heart and will make it happy (which it is not). THIS IS YOUR FINAL WARNING PEOPLE!!

NOT………A……….HAPPY…̷ 0;.ENDING!!!

Summary:: The last chapter in this fic. It's very sad. I mean `grab-your-tissues-all-of-you-people-who -(unlike me)- cried during-that-boring-ship-movie' (Perfect Storm I think it was. The shark scene was cool, but everything else was blah!). This chapter doesn't start out as one, but it is a song fic.

I have heard that if Shuiichi's body dies, the yoh-ko will take over. Let's ignore that, shall we?

The fic may be a little confusing because I keep switching perspectives. You should be able to figure it out though.

Chapter 3-My last Breath

I screamed loudly as my worst nightmare came true, right before my eyes.

Shuiichi was lying against an Oak tree, his pale face calm and relaxed. In his chest was a gaping wound, which was pouring out blood. His left hand was drenched in crimson, and in it was a large knife. A trail of blood was running steadily from his lips and down his face.

"SHUIICHI!!" I screamed.

Your eyes opened slowly and you looked up at me. Gods, I wished you didn't. Your beautiful, lustrous, green eyes were caliginous and almost unseeing.

Your lips moved slowly, mouthing unspoken words before your eyes fell closed and you sagged further onto the tree.

"SHUIICHI!!" I sobbed and ran to you. I held you in my arms and sobbed uncontrollably. "I'm so sorry," I repeated habitually. "I'm so sorry, please don't die!"

~~ Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid ~~

Okaa-san……… I thought I was imagining it, but………You're really here!

I never thought you would hold me like this again. Please, embrace me until the end mother. I can't stay much longer. I can no longer feel most of my body. My mind knows that you are holding me, but I can only feel the agonizing ache in my chest.

I lack the strength to speak mother, but I want you to know that I love you. You told me to die, so here I am, my blood staining your clothes and the grass beneath me. I spilled my blood for you.

I manage to open my eyes, and I can scarcely see your face. Your lips are moving but I can no longer hear. My mind wonders so I am unable to read your lips. Is this what death feel like? Shouldn't I be scared? I should, but I am not. I am only obeying your wished okaa-san.

~~ Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms? ~~

Shuiichi, I am speaking to you, but you don't respond. Can you hear me? I said that I love you, but your eyes hold no recognition. You simply stare at the sky, as though something there is calling you, talking to you.

Look away from it, Shuiichi! Try to focus on me! I want you to stay alive!

My hand is tightly grasping yours.

`You hands are so cold.' I think in despair.

I brush your hair away from your face and wince as I feel the chill of your skin.

You don't seem to notice. Do you even feel it?

~~ Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight ~~

I feel my breath become more agonizing each time I draw it. I know it will end soon. I pass the time by thinking of you, mother. Memories wash through me. I see my lives as a ningen and yoh-ko flash before me.

Yoh-ko.

Thieving.

Kuronue.

Ningen.

Hiei.

You.

Those are what matter to me the most. My closest friends and my mother... I will miss you. I will miss being your son. I will miss the sweet rapturous feeling of being alive in the light of ningenkai.

~~ I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me) ~~

I think now of things that I will miss in the world. The forests, my plants, and seasons. Winter has always suited me best. I find that strange. Being a plant wielding kitsune, shouldn't I love the warmer months where plants are blooming? No, I liked winters.

The world is so fragile and graceful in winter. Snow covers everything, making the world beautiful and sparkling like millions of diamonds. Everything is serene, and compassionate in the winter seasons.

Even though I am dying, my image will forever remain. Just search for me in the wintertime. You'll see the image of a white kitsune hiding in a consecrate tree. If I run away, its because I am complying with your wishes.

If you wish to ever see me again, come find me. I am close enough to know you're searching, but far enough to not be seen.

Suddenly, your voice penetrates my thoughts.

"Shuiichi, I love you!"

~~ I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears ~~

I finally got a response from you! I know you can hear me Shuiichi! Your eyes focused on me briefly when I spoke.

"I love you so much!" I sobbed. As I cried, your lips moved again, only this time you spoke audibly.

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"O..kaa…san," I whispered. I could barely hear my own words over the loud beating of my heart. When a person dies, the last thing they ever hear is their heart beat. It echoes louder and louder as time runs out.

My mind wanders now, so I am almost unable to complete a though. I am exhausted and am constantly thinking of sleep. It took all of my energy to choke out your title, but I need to tell you this before I pass on.

"Okaa-san…A-asi...shi...shiteru."

I know you heard me. One of your tears fell onto my face and slid into my mouth. The salty taste of your sorrow made me feel mournful, but I can do nothing to stop the inevitable. Even if you asked me to stay now, I could not. I have always completed your wishes; this gaping whole in my chest is proof of it.

~~ Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight ~~

I can feel myself draw my last breath. I hold it, praying to have a little more time with you. Botan is coming. She may already be here. She will be waiting for me.

I remember everything that happened since I first came to Ningenkai. I remember taking over your son, living with you for six years, and then I began to change.

You got hurt because of me.

You scarred yourself while saving me. That's when you first proved that ningen love is stronger than many other things. It may not be stronger than you-ki, or rei-ki, but it has more of an effect on humanity.

I then accepted the humanity in me and began to show you that I loved you.

Now here I am, proving my love for you once again. Only this time, the sacrifice stays.

I am being consumed by darkness. I feel as though I am swimming in it. I call your name once more, then hear your response. Now I hear no more, feel no more.

I feel my last breath escape me and…………………………&# 8230;……

~~ Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there ~~

I closed my eyes and held your still body tight.

`Please let this nightmare end,' I prayed. `Inari, please don't do this to me!'

I want to disappear! I want to go home! I want Shuiichi and I to be happy again! I hope that I will wake in my own bed to find my precious son sleeping soundly in his room.

No.

Instead I opened my eyes to find myself in the forest, your body still clutched in my arms. I opened my eyes to find myself alone.

Rather, I will be soon.

~~ Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me calling me as you fade to black ~~

"Go to sleep Shuiichi," Shiori sobbed. I know there is no way to save you. You're dying. "Say goodnight."

"Ok..aasan," you called softly.

"Go to sleep," I whispered. I kissed the top of your head and rocked back and forth. "Sleep, Shuiichi."

Not a minute later, you went limp in my arms, and your breathing ceased. I screamed loudly knowing that you were gone.

And you would never come back.

Goodbye.

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*Grin*

MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Don't you just hate me?

If you do, I understand.

That was REALLY fun for me. -^_^-

Jeez…..….I'm creepy. *Laughs*

Anyway, please REIEW!!

I wrote a humor story (*crowd gasps*) about Kurama and Hiei. It's a (REALLY SHORT) mix of a bunch of Monty Python sketches. It's kinda (*coughs* EXACTLY *coughs*) like the fics my Friend BakaTariTori writes.

PS: I am rtoo lazy to read my story over for the thirtieth time, so if I made a typo like "Hiei's" "Kurama's" or "Weiss Kreuz" just ignore it ok? Ok.

Toodles minna!

(Oh, and by `minna' I mean `everyone', not just some chick names Minna. Ok? Ok.)

IN MY NEXT FIC!

Hiei may or may not reject Kurama.

Kurama may or may not decide that Hiei is worth it.

Kazuma WILL NOT be cute.

Kazuma WILL NOT be in it.

Mukuro may or may not get an appearance.

KAZUMA WILL NOT BE AN OOBER HOTTIE.