Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Everybody's Fool ❯ Taking Over Me ( Chapter 3 )

The long awaited chapter 3!! Yea!!!

Dearest Readers,

Yo! It's me again! This chapter is where Shiori starts thinking about the situation in another perspective. I'm sorry to say this (well….not really) but THIS FIC WILL NOT HAVE A HAPPY ENDING!!! IT IS FILLED WITH REMORSE, DESPONDENCY, SUICIDE !!!! SEPPUKU!! SELF-DESTRUCTION, MARTYRDOM, HARA-KIRI!!! SUICIDE!!! Ok? Got that? Su-i-cide!! Suicide is generally not a happy subject. If you want to see Shiori and Kurama living happily ever afterFIND YOURSELF ANOTHER FIC!!

Ok, I noticed that it sort of seems that they are a couple, but they are not. I DO NOT COMPARE FAVORABLY WITH INCEST.

Here we go, the second to last chapter::

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~~ You don't remember me but I remember you ~~

It has now been two weeks. Two weeks since you told me whom you really are; a detestable demon in disguise. I'm sure you have forgotten all about me by now. I am just a silly human woman who you fooled. So why is it…..That I can't seem to forget you?

~~ I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do... ~~

I was lying in bed, starring at the ceiling. I had once again awoken from a dream of you. I can't get you out of my mind.

I have tried so hard to banish thoughts of you, you treacherous beast ………but I can't. I can't decide what I dream. And I'm dreaming of you. I have been told that you dream what you wish for deep down in your heart, your dream reality. I must really want you back.

~~ I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me ~~

In my dream I was running for you, to you. I believed in you again. I knew you were all that I wanted; a happy child who loves me. Then you disappeared. You vanished. I ran, desperate to find you, to find the love that we shared.

I realized in my dream that I still love you. How could I have not seen that? Was I so blinded by shock and denial that I couldn't see it? I am not a prejudiced person. How could I not have accepted you? You told me because you loved me. You were tired of telling me lies. You revealed yourself to me knowing that I would accept you. But I didn't. You did love me though. Even in your demon form.

You are not at all detestable, either; you're in fact quite the opposite. When you said you were a demon, I thought you would be hideous, but you weren't. You were a radiant, tall man with silver hair. Your long ears and tail were so silky and soft. You're golden eyes which you had described as cold and uncaring were filled with love and hope.

But I shattered your hope! I crushed you like a butterfly under a wheel. I saw your hope die in your eyes. It was painful, but I could not see it then.

I need you Shu-….Kurama. I need you to come home. I need you to be able to live my life, and to even breathe! I can't stand it when you're not here! You're taking over my mind and even my soul.

~~ Have you forgotten all I know
and all we had? ~~

I hoped that you would come home, but you never did. I don't know if you forgot me or if you had obeyed my false wish and left. Did you forget though? It is hard to think about for me. Did you really leave your mother behind? I can't think lowly of you if you had. I have been so horrible to you. I'm so sorry!!

~~ You saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
I knew you loved me then ~~

I don't know if this was a dream or not. I was in the kitchen, sipping tea, and sobbing. It was when I was still angry at you, but was beginning to realize I still loved you. You saw me through the glass door of our back yard, and came in. I was shocked. My tears were cascading down my cheeks but I was hopeful. Did you return to me? You approached me with sad eyes, and ashamed. You reached out to hug me, but quickly withdrew your hands, fearful of further rejection. You instead starred at the ground in shame and lightly touched my hand

I knew you love me then.

You withdrew your hand, but whispered a downhearted sentence to me.

"I shall in no way bother you again, I promise."

You then left, disappearing into the dark of outside.

"Shuiichi," I had whispered.

~~ I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me ~~

~~ I look in the mirror and see your face
if I look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are taking over ~~

Yesterday I woke from another dream and went to the bathroom to bathe. Once my soak was completed and my body cleansed [1] I wrapped a towel around my unclad frame and went to the mirror to brush my hair. I screamed and jumped back.

Instead of my own reflection, I was starring at a young boy with long, red hair. Your eyes bored into my through the mirror, somber and full of regret. I blinked several times and you were gone, my own reflection looking back.

I looked deeper into the mirror and saw you again, this time, seemingly in my eyes. So many things remind me of you. Anything red or green actually. Especially plants -roses in particular.

[2] You're trademarked weapon. Beautiful and deadly just like you. Graceful and smooth like your hands that wield them. They charm you, yet can harm you. Your eyes are brighter than illustrious emeralds as they brighten in a smile.

I hope I get to see your eyes again!!

~~ I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me ~~

Now I am running to find you. I put my dreams together and came to a solution.

You still love me.

You ran away because I told you to.

You left to a forest.

~~* FLASHBACK *~~

"I shall in no way bother you again. I promise."

~~* END FLASHBACK *~~ //*Boy. …That was a long flashback wasn't it? *//

You're leaving. Forever.

How are you leaving? Are you going to the demon land, Makai as you called it? Or will you……?

"No!" I whispered as I continued to run. You won't die.

I will find you Kurama. I will give my life to do so! Just to see you again! I believe in you again! I love you! I still need you to live; to breathe, to be able to remain sane.

`You truly have taken over me,' I mused.

* //* End songfic portion of chapter. Sorry, just though I should tell you that.* // *

I stopped to catch my breath in the near-center of the forest. I bent down and placed my hands on my knees, gasping for air. I have been running for miles on pure adrenaline. My desire, no, my need to see you has given me strength that only one such as you would possess.

After my pants had evened out a noise caught my attention. The sound of jagged, labored, breathing reached my ears, coming from an oak tree on my right. Slowly and cautiously I walked over to the tree and leaned against it, listening. The breaths were doubtlessly coming from here. In concern for whatever was behind the tree, I slowly walked to the other side of tree…………..

……….and screamed.

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Ooh! A cliffhanger! Oh goodie! Personally I think that was better than chapter 2. Don't you? I hope you all like my fic. I might do one more chapter from Kurama's point of view, then the suicide scene, but after that I'm done.

[1] Sorry y'all, I was just trying to sound smart there.

[2] This is from a poem that I wrote about Kurama in band class. I might post it if I ever find it.