Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Fire and Ice ❯ Lovers ( Chapter 11 )

Chapter 11: Lovers

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Disclaimer: I think it is more than obvious that I don't own this show. My name is nowhere on the show nor will it ever be, so don't bother me.

Warnings: LEMON ALERT, LEMON ALERT, LEMON ALERT! Okay, this is how it is…two people having sex, and it is consensual. If you are not mature enough to handle this, then go away. I must say that I tried to make the lemon as tasteful as possible and not sound like an article in Hustler. So if you are underage in the mind or you know mommy will get angry, skip this particular chapter.

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Kurama woke suddenly. He first noticed that it was still in the middle of the night. He wondered briefly what had caused him to wake up, that was until Hiei shifted against him in his sleep. Kurama was painfully aroused, and had less than no idea what to do about it. Was he dreaming that scene between the fire demon and himself, or was it a memory? It must have been a memory because he could almost taste the demon on his tongue, feel the sweat dampened skin, smell the scent of arousal and fire, and he could still hear the sweet moans that came from the fire demon's throat. He looked down at the reason for his arousal…Hiei.

"Why must you always stare at me?" The smaller demon mumbled, his face buried in the pillow. Kurama blushed in embarrassment.

"Gomen, Hiei, it's just that I couldn't sleep." The youko mentally crossed his fingers, hoping that the fire demon had not noticed his erection.

"I gathered as much. So, what is keeping you awake, and, in turn, keeping me awake?" Hiei turned toward Kurama and propped his head on his hand.

"It was just a dream," Kurama said nonchalantly.

"Must have been some dream the way you were moaning and moving around." Kurama's face turned a darker shade of red, and Hiei chuckled softly.

"You're cruel." Kurama shoved Hiei out of the bed and stepped over him.

"Where are you going?" Hiei sat back up and crawled back in the bed.

"I have to take a piss. Is that all right with you, Tousan?" Yup, the redhead was irritated…not enough beauty sleep perhaps?

"Such language kitsune. What would your mother say?" Hiei asked through the slightly closed bathroom door. The toilet flushed and the sound of running water signaled that Kurama washed his hands. The fire demon snorted and turned to face the wall. Kurama sneaked into the room and crept under the covers.

"Gomen Hiei," Kurama whispered in the youkai's ear.

"What are you apologizing for now?" Hiei tried to turn and face the fox, but Kurama wouldn't let him.

"I know that I made you life miserable in my past life. You suffered so much because of me and I'm so very sorry." The redhead was afraid that Hiei would run away as the body he held went rigid, so he tightened his hold on the fire demon.

"You're still worried about that?" Hiei's voice sounded stiff.

"I'm getting my memories back slowly and I don't know why you have forgiven me." The youkai tensed under Kurama's scrutiny.

"It's nothing to concern yourself with."

"Like hell it isn't!" Kurama shouted.

"You don't have to yell in my ear." Hiei was becoming the cold, detached youkai once again. Kurama felt as if he was taking one step forward and ten steps back.

"Don't close off on me now Hiei…please."

"Listen fox, I don't want to talk about it, so leave it be." Hiei tried to shrug out of the youko's embrace.

"I need to know." Hiei finally broke Kurama's hold.

"If you need to know so bad, why don't you ask yourself, kitsune." Hiei jumped out of the bed. "You know, sometimes I wonder why I forgave you." Kurama flinched at the words.

"Hiei…" The single word was lost in the night, for the fire demon had already escaped out the window. Kurama then allowed the beating of his breaking heart to lull him to sleep.

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Kurama was finally able to cool down his burning libido, so he made his way back to camp. That fire demon was a frustrating one that was for sure, but Kurama wouldn't have it any other way. Hiei was starting to warm up to him, for that, the youko was grateful. He didn't want to think about how much time and patience he was putting into this…relationship? Was this a relationship? How would he know? It wasn't like he would know, he had never been in a relationship before. He had never tried so hard to get a lover before, nor had he cared about the other's feelings. Why was this time so different? Why did this particular youkai make so much of a difference? Was it…nah, couldn't be…could it? Could it be that Youko Kurama was falling in love? A silly grin lighted his face…he was falling in love. The scary thing was that he was actually happy about it.

The happiness soon faded from his face as he heard the sound of shouting. Shouting was not an uncommon thing since the three youkos had been around…oh shit! He had forgotten about those idiots, and reason the yelling bothered him was because it was the voice of Hiei that was doing the shouting. He ran toward his tent, hoping to Inari that he wasn't too late, that they hadn't… No, he couldn't think that way. Hiei would be alright, he had to be.

He wasn't. The three dickheads had him pinned down as he struggled and kicked, trying to gain his freedom. Kurama saw red. That was his itoshi they were messing with, and he was not going to allow it. He pulled out his rose whip and slashed Doppo across the chest.

"This has gone too far. I told you not to touch him again. Now you die." Kurama's voice was cold, and detached. The three youkos looked up at him in shock. That bastard was betraying them for that little shit.

"Kurama?" The sound of Hiei's voice made Kurama's face soften. This was going to hurt more than anything he had ever known, but it was time to let Hiei go.

"Go Hiei, you've gained your freedom." Kurama growled as Sachi moved.

"But Kurama…"

"Hiei, get away from here. I won't be the cause of any more of your pain." Kurama pulled a seed out of his hair and a giant, acid spitting Makai flower was growing around the youkos. He then turned to Hiei, "GO! Get out of here. I just hope you can forgive me someday itoshi. Go on."

Hiei stared in shock at the youko in front of him. Had that silly fox actually referred to him as his beloved?

"Please go, Hiei." Hiei nodded, grabbed his things, and left. He couldn't explain it, but he didn't want to leave the fox. All he knew is that he had long forgave him for everything he had been through. Would he ever see the kitsune again? He made a promise to himself, as the camp faded away, he would find his fox again someday.

"Bye Kurama," Hiei whispered as he continued to run away from his pain and from the one individual who had ever really cared about him.

Kurama felt excruciating pain like no pain he had ever felt before. He watched as the only being he had ever loved walk out of his life. He had always heard that if you love something, sometimes you have to let it go. But why did it have to hurt so much? Would he ever see the fire demon again? He sent out a small prayer to Inari that they would meet again, some how, somewhere.

The prayer did not go unheard.

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Even asleep he looked deep in thought. Did the guy ever relax? Lips quirked up into a knowing little smile…no he didn't. That was just part of his charm, right? The way he worried about every little thing, how he always made sure everything was safe and secure, and the way he would scold if he felt if a particular activity was dangerous. Gentle fingers brushed back unruly locks of hair. He was beautiful. Strong fingers closed over the caressing hand.

"I didn't mean to wake you." That sweet voice. It was the voice that haunted his dreams every night.

"Keket, what are you doing here? You should be in bed." She offered him a sad little smile.

"You know, you always worry too much." He pulled her down on the bed and sat up to look in her shimmering violet eyes.

"What's wrong?" He ran a hand through her long ebony curls.

"Nothing," she replied simply.

"You can't lie to me." She closed her eyes. Being this close to him…yet he always seemed to be so far away. "Keket please talk to me." She opened her eyes and two crystalline tears slipped down flawless cheeks. He wrapped his arms around her and held her tightly.

"Why?" She whispered.

"Why what?"

"Dante, why can't I get you to see me?" She wrapped her arms tighter around him.

"I do see you." Men, why did they always have to be so clueless?

"No, why don't you see me…as a woman and not your princess?" Dante's blue eyes went wide. How he wanted to do just that for so long, but fear of rejection prevented him from doing it. He tucked a finger under her chin and tilted her head so he could see her face.

"But I do, and I have…for so very long." His voice was a tender whisper that made her tremble. When their lips touched, she started crying harder. She had loved him for so long, and now she knew the feeling was mutual. As he laid her down on the bed, she hoped that two certain demons realized just how much they loved one another.

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So the youkos failed. Fornitbras slithered around the carnage that used to be three kitsunes. That little Jaganshi certainly was a messy one. It wasn't a simple murder, but a bloody slaughter. Body parts littered the ground. That one was going to be trouble. Not to mention that Youko Kurama was still living. He should have known better than to trust those low class kitsunes.

His plan wouldn't be as simple now, but it would be effective none the less. He had to go prepare the altar and study the incantation. This was a delicate process that could not be screwed up. He needed to get that princess and fast. Wouldn't the Reikai Tantei be horribly surprised when they knew the real reason he wanted to capture the pretty little Fey princess.

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Where was he to go? Hiei hadn't the slightest clue. He felt like kicking himself. There was no need to be so cruel to the kitsune. Hiei didn't know why he did the things he did, but how was one to act in that situation? He hurt Kurama and there was no need for it. It's just sometimes that fox would make him so mad, and the only way he knew to handle such a situation was to lash out at him, whether he deserved it or not. But why couldn't Kurama accept the fact that he had been forgiven and drop it at that?

Hiei found himself at Yusuke's apartment building. He had planned to spend the rest of the night in the park up in a tree, but if Yusuke would take him in, it would be a more pleasant arrangement. He hopped up to the balcony doors of Yusuke's third floor apartment and peered inside. A couple of empty beer cans littered the floor, dirty dishes covered almost every surface, and a note was found crumpled near the coffee table. Looked like Yusuke didn't have a much better family life than his own. Hiei had never really considered that before. To tell the truth, he really never thought of Yusuke having a personal life. The only time he ever seen the human boy was on Reikai business. Yusuke hadn't invited him into his home life like he had the other detectives. It kinda hurt the fire demon's feelings, not that he could really blame the teenager…he did try to kill him. The front door of the apartment opened admitting Atsuko and a couple of men dressed as women. Well, there went that idea.

Hiei dropped his head and leapt down from the balcony. He couldn't stay here when all he wanted to do is go back and check on the fox anyway. He couldn't burden Yusuke with this, it wasn't his problem. It looked like Yusuke had more than enough problems to deal with on his own. The fire demon slowly walked down the street, still in his pajamas. When the fire demon finally stopped, he found himself standing outside of the Minamino residence, with a soft light burning in Kurama's room. There hadn't been any lights on when he left. Was the fox worried about him? Maybe the fox was angered by his words. Either way, Kurama should not be awake. He wanted to go see whether Kurama was awake because he was worried about him. Basically Hiei just wanted to know if the fox cared.

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Kurama made another pass across the carpet. He had been pacing for a good ten minutes. The dream disturbed him, yet comforted him at the same time. He always had feelings for Hiei it seemed. It also seemed that they had a way of finding each other in Hiei's lifetime and both of Kurama's. Did that mean that they knew each other in their past lives as well? Kurama liked the sound of that idea. There was only one problem. Where was Hiei now?

Kurama thought back on all the times he could remember being with Hiei. His recent memories of his past life, working with the Tantei now, and when they stole the artifacts. That thought caused him to stop and smile. Hiei had approached him with the idea, and he was so very confident. Kurama had often wondered why Gouki was involved. That was until they got caught…Gouki was to be the fall guy. Was there no angle that Hiei did not think about?

Kurama smile faded. Yes, there was one angle Hiei didn't think of…his betrayal. He would never forget the look in the fire demon's eyes when he stepped in front of Yusuke. E tu Brute? The youkai looked like his world was coming to an end. His big ruby eyes were filled with pain and anger. Kurama knew it would difficult for Hiei to understand and sometimes he still had trouble understanding. But, in the end, Hiei had saved him from the power of the Ghostslayer.

"Oh Hiei…"

Hiei watched from the tree as Kurama kept pacing back and forth over his bedroom floor by the soft light of his desk lamp. He seemed to be concentrating on something of importance. Hiei tilted his head as the kitsune paused in his pacing and smiled. So much for the fox being worried about him. The smile slid from his face suddenly and the kitsune whispered his name. The redhead suddenly turned and walked toward the window. He then flung it open and stuck out his head.

"Hiei!" The kitsune looked down at the street hoping to catch sight of the fire demon.

"Didn't I tell you not to yell? You're going to wake up your mother kitsune no baka," Hiei whispered harshly as he jumped through the opened window.

"You came back." Hiei looked at Kurama with a dry look.

"You make me sound as if I'm a stray dog."

"You sometimes act like one." Kurama chuckled at Hiei's disdainful expression.

"So…" Hiei shifted uncomfortably from one foot to the other. Kurama closed the physical distance that stood between them and pulled Hiei to him.

"Why did you come back?" Hiei pushed away from the fox and sat down of the bed to take off his boots.

"You wanted explanations fox, so I'm going to give them to you."

"Hiei, I don't think…" Kurama started to tell him that he understood now, but…

"Shut up fox! You wanted to know, and I'll tell you damn it." Hiei closed his eyes and swallowed hard. "I can…no, what I mean is that I never was afraid of you to begin with. After being thrown away, beaten, almost killed on a number of occasions, and raped, I would like to think that I have a pretty good judge of character. Yes, you were the cause of many of my problems, but when you came to me that night…it was the look in your eyes kitsune. You cared. No one had ever cared before. That's when I forgave you."

Kurama felt his heart breaking for the tiny youkai. Hiei was so strong to forgive him for the things he had done to him, and on the very same day. Was the poor fire demon that starved for affection? Kurama watched as Hiei left the bed and walked over to his desk. The youkai began picking items that he had seen many times before and examining them. Nervous habit perhaps? Hiei placed the stapler in its place on the desk and turned to him with uncertain eyes. Kurama walked over to him, picked him up, and placed him on the desk.

"Kurama?" The fox just shook his head and caressed the fire demon's cheek.

"You are one of a kind Hiei. Thank you for forgiving me." Kurama placed his hands on each side of the youkai and leaned in until their noses touched.

"Hn."

"May I kiss you?" The fox nuzzled Hiei's nose. The only thing that the youkai was able to do was nod. Kurama sighed and gently touched his lips to Hiei's. The fire demon's eyes closed as he trembled. The fox was always so tender, so…he didn't know how to describe it. It was like the world condensed until it was only the two of them, touching, breathing each other's air, and just existing. It was almost as if they existed only for each other. Who knew, maybe they did. The hands on the desk moved slowly to tangle with the hands that were fisted in black fabric, and the joined hands held on to one another like a lifeline.

Kurama gasped in surprise as a tongue touched the seam of his lips shyly, but opened his mouth to allow the invasion. He would let Hiei to control this kiss…for now anyway. Hiei's fingers tightened on the redhead's as he stretched to deepen the kiss. He wanted to taste his fox, breathe his breath, and swallow his sighs. The fire demon asked and Kurama gladly gave, allowing Hiei to win the wet, erotic duel. The youkai untangled his hands from the kitsune's in order to wrap his fingers in silky red tresses. The youko moved his hands to cup the fire demon's face as the kiss got more intense. This had to stop, or he would have no self-control left. Kurama whimpered, he really didn't want it to end. When Hiei wrapped his legs around the fox's waist, Kurama couldn't help but come unglued and grabbed the smaller demon's hips and brought them to meet his own. Hiei's breath caught in response, not in arousal, but in apprehension.

"Hiei," Kurama whispered like a prayer as he tore his mouth from the youkai's. His tongue came out to lick the taste of the fire demon off his kiss-swollen mouth. "I don't want to frighten you, so we had better stop." Hiei pushed the fox away from him.

"I'm so sick of this!" Kurama backed away from the irate demon, hurt dulling his eyes.

"Hiei, I-I…gomen." The fire demon shot a death glare at the kitsune.

"What the hell for? Did you rape me?" Kurama shook his head. "Did I say that you did anything?" Again a negative motion of the head. "Quit apologizing for them! I'm so sick of feeling them every time you touch me. I hate the fact that just the thought of someone touching me in anyway makes my skin crawl. I just want it to stop!"

"It's alright, it's normal for someone that was in your situation." Kurama's words made no difference to the fire demon.

"That's easy for you to say! No one has ever wanted me before, and then there was you. You wanted me then, and I think you want me now. I know I want you, but what can be done about it? All I can feel is their sweaty hands all over my body, their rancid breath in my face, their…"

"Hiei, stop! Stop hurting yourself."

"It's just that it's so hard. They can't leave me alone…even when I sleep. That used to be my only reprieve from this miserable existence that is my life, and now I don't even have that. Why can't they leave me alone…THEY ARE DEAD!!" The fire demon collapsed on the floor and started rocking back and forth. "They are always here, they just won't go away. It's not fair!" Hiei's voice broke and he hiccupped. "I want…so much…to be held." The fire demon sniffed unconsciously as a tear gem fell unnoticed by him to the floor. Kurama, on the other hand, had noticed the reddish-black gem glittering beside the hysterical youkai. "Damn it!" Hiei rubbed his eyes furiously, keeping other tears at bay.

"One day it will stop hurting Hiei." The kitsune sat down beside his friend. "When it does, I'll still be here…waiting to hold you."

"I'm tired of waiting, fox. You once told me that it could feel good. Is that true?" Kurama could only nod. "Show me. Help me forget them. I want to only remember how you touch me. I need to know how good it can feel." Kurama looked at the hurting youkai in front of him and wondered quietly to himself if he could really turn down such a desperate plea. It would probably be in Hiei's best interest if he did, but would the fire demon see it that way? The youko really doubted that. If he was a less selfish person he would convince the smaller youkai that it would be best to wait, but he wasn't a selfless individual. He couldn't look in those garnet eyes and deny Hiei anything, and it just happened that he would also get something out of it. Oh who the hell was he kidding, the fire demon's proposition turned him on.

"You have to be sure about this you know." Pale fingers petted dark, fur-like hair.

"I'm sure."

"Okay then." Kurama scooped up the unsuspecting fire demon and carried him to the bed. Their lips joined again as Hiei was lowered to the bed. It was a slow passionate kiss that aroused both parties involved. Tongues fought for dominance, neither really losing, but both winning. Kurama made sure to keep his weight off the writhing body beneath him. He didn't want Hiei to feel confined or threatened. At any sign of discomfort or fear, Kurama would stop, no questions asked. Of course, all he was getting was the green light at the moment.

The redhead reluctantly left the warm wet mouth of his soon to be lover, but there were other areas he wished to explore. He kissed the Jagan before removing its ward. Hiei opened his mouth to protest, but the fox silenced him with a noisy peck on the lips.

"It is a part of you, and I want to see every single inch of you." Hiei gulped. That sounded…nice. The kissing resumed, only it moved on to the fire demon's jaw line and neck. Kurama tasted and nipped at the soft skin that covered hard, corded muscles, unconsciously noting that the fire demon tasted of something warm and spicy. Hiei sighed and dug his fingers into the mattress below him, not knowing what else to do with his hands.

Kurama then turned his attention to the four large buttons of the fire demon's pajama top. He waited until Hiei met his eyes before his nimble fingers undid the first button. While maintaining eye contact, he leaned down and licked the exposed skin playfully. Ruby eyes widened in pleasant surprise and Kurama offered him a foxy little grin while moving on to the next button. The process was repeated until each button was undone.

"Having fun yet?" Kurama teased as he rubbed the silk against Hiei's skin before parting it and fully exposing the fire demon's chest. Whatever Hiei was about to say was lost in a moan as Kurama softly nibbled on the smooth skin of the youkai's chest. He started with the collarbone and worked his way down to the skin tightly stretched across hard pectoral muscles, making sure to bypass the nipples that were made into little beads by arousal. Hiei whimpered and buried his hands in the kitsune's hair, trying to move that torturous mouth to the sensitized nubs of flesh, but Kurama just chuckled and moved his wet kisses to the highly defined abdomen, paying special attention to the scars. The redhead came to the bellybutton and nibbled around the small ring of fleshy tissue and playfully blew cool air on the moisture left behind. That's when he heard the most exquisite sound, a rich rumbling moan that came from somewhere deep within the fire demon.

"Do you like that, Hiei? Tell me, does it feel good?" The fox teased in a voice an octave lower with arousal.

"Uh…y-yes," the youkai whispered. Kurama moved back upward to an aching nipple, biting it hard enough to leave a mark, but not hard enough to really hurt. That action caused the youkai to arch his back and whisper the fox's name. Kurama ran his hands down the demon's sides in a soft caress. He then brought one hand up to pinch and fondle the opposite nipple while he continued to kiss, nibble, and suck on the other one.

"Off." Simply said. Callused hands left soft, fiery hair to tug insistently on a white t-shirt. Both demons raised into a sitting position to get rid of the offending garment. Before Kurama could free his head from the shirt, he felt the prickle of fangs on his chest followed by a long, soft soothing motion of a tongue. Strong arms wrapped around the pale torso of the fox and small hands trailed across the smooth, alabaster skin of the redhead's back. Finally freeing himself from the offending shirt, Kurama looked down and watched as Hiei nuzzled each area of flesh before tasting it with small, uncertain laps of his tongue. Nimble fingers massaged corded back muscles as they traveled lower to slender hips.

Hiei licked around an aroused nipple before gently suckling on it. Kurama licked his lips and panted as the fire demon pulled back and blew cold air on the now moistened flesh. Hiei raised his gaze to that of his foxy lover, enjoying the way Kurama's eyes darkened to an emerald green with golden highlights. Gentle hands removed his black silk top and threw it to the ground. Long fingers moved up and cupped his cheek and brought his face up for a leisurely sweet, loving kiss that made Hiei's pulse stop and flutter wildly. This is where he belonged…in Kurama's arms. Finally he had a home. He was no longer the Forbidden Child.

Just coming to the realization they were closed, Hiei opened his eyes to see Kurama ridding himself of his boxer shorts. When the fox met his gaze, Hiei blushed and looked away.

"You can't get shy on me now koi," Kurama whispered as he fingered the waistline of Hiei's pants. "This is a time for exploration." The redhead grasped the fire demon's hand and brought it to his lower abdomen, now devoid of clothing. "Let's explore each other Hiei." The fire demon cautiously fondled the kitsune's hip before moving his caress forward to darker hair of his lover's groin. Kurama's breath caught sharply and he leaned into the shy touches of the demon under him. When Hiei gently encircled his aching erection, the kitsune almost collapsed. Instead he just took Hiei's hand in his and brought to his lips to place a gentle kiss on the palm.

"We will save that for later. You are going to be the death of me firefly." Hiei gave a coy little grin and gave Kurama a small kiss on the lips, which the kitsune tucked away in his memory to treasure forever. The kitsune was finally able to control himself enough to rid Hiei of his pants, now all that was left between them was those wicked black boxers that Yusuke had bought him. The redhead massaged the powerful thighs that lied on either side of him as he bent down and rubbed his cheek against the soft silk next to the youkai's groin. He slowly slithered his hand across a plain of muscle and silk until he came in contact with the hardest part of Hiei's body.

"Na a' an t-àite?...math, seadh math [1]," the fire demon muttered breathlessly as Kurama stroked him through the thin, black material. So the little demon liked that did he? Well if he thought that felt good, he had never felt anything like what was coming next. The hansome redhead blew warm air on the straining hardness underneath the soft fabric, an action that caused the fire demon to tremble furiously.

"Tell me if you want me to stop," the redhead whispered as he nuzzled Hiei's arousal. The youkai shook his head in understanding as he groaned. Kurama then proceeded to softly kiss the erection through the material, starting with the base. When he got to the tip, he gently raked his teeth across its girth before licking the silk causing it to dampen. The small fire demon panted underneath the kitsune, trying to both understand and control the feelings coursing through him. Hiei soon found himself lifting his narrow hips to allow Kurama to pull down the last barrier of clothing.

Kurama looked down on his small, panting lover who was now deliciously naked and magnificently aroused. The small chest heaved with every shallow breath, swollen lips were parted to allow air into starving lungs, nipples were erect and slightly bruised from less than gentle kissing, a slight red flush covered the small body, and a delightfully hard erection rose from a patch of black fur. All in all, Kurama had to admit his small lover was beautiful in his states of vulnerability and arousal. Before he could stop himself, (not that he would have mind you) the redhead found himself yet again staring into Hiei's carnelian gaze.

"I just can't get enough of kissing you," was the only warning the fire demon received before his lips were claimed by a possessive kiss that left no question whether or not Kurama was staking his claim. While most of the kisses they had shared up to this point were gentle and controlled, this one was rough, passionate, and lustful. Lips tangled, tongues clashed, and bodies strained against each other, still not feeling close enough. When Hiei shifted his hips against Kurama's, he felt a jolt of spine-tingling pleasure course through his body starting with the tips of his toes pulsing all the way to the roots of his hair. The action that caused such a pleasurable result was repeated, causing the kitsune to moan into his mouth. Sweat slicked bodies moved fluidly against one another as the two demons continued to kiss each other heatedly.

"Inari, Hiei!" Kurama groaned as they broke the kiss, both in desperate need of air. The redhead furiously kissed his way down the fire demon's body, causing him to shiver with excitement. When the fox blew warm breath on Hiei's arousal, the demon whimpered and arched his back in askance, not sure what it was exactly that he was asking for. Kurama answered the unknown plea by taking the tip of the youkai's arousal into the warm, wetness of his mouth and suckled gently.

"Oh gods!" Hiei's breath came in short spurts as he buried his hands in Kurama's hair. The redhead took in as much of the fire demon's erection as he could and started a slow, teasing up and down motion. Hiei tried to lay perfectly still, but when Kurama began utilizing his tongue, the youkai began move his hips in time with the motion of his lover's mouth.

"Ku-ra-mah!" Something was happening, something he had never felt before. It felt so good it was painful, yet it wasn't enough. If the fox would just keep going he knew that there would be an end to this incredible torture.

Hiei was close, very close. Kurama could tell in the way the demon panted, moaned, and the way his hips picked up a faster pace. It was time. Kurama pulled away and Hiei tightened his hands in red hair painfully, trying to get the kitsune to continue. The fox untangled the fire demon's hands and linked their fingers. Hiei trembled furiously, his body still singing with arousal.

"Shh, calm down firefly. It's time." Hiei looked at Kurama in confusion. Time for what? "I want to make love with you." Fear. That was what Kurama saw in beautiful ruby eyes as they stared a whole into him. "It's okay, if you don't want to, we stop here."

"No, I-I don't want to stop." Hiei closed his eyes tightly and spread his legs wider. "Go on." This was not passionate submission, but fearful defeat. Definitely not Kurama had in mind, not how he wanted it to be. There was only one solution he could think of and he just hoped Hiei wouldn't feel violated.

The fire demon felt a soft touch caressing his erection and felt thankful for the gentle, comforting gesture. Hiei make a strangled sound that caught in his throat as he felt exquisite, tight heat surround his aching arousal. He opened his eyes to see Kurama impaling himself on his erection. The redhead's face was contorted in pain and his breath came in short little pants, and guilt washed over the small demon. He didn't want his lover to feel the pain he had felt.

"Kurama, stop." Green eyes flew open. Hiei didn't look scared or disgusted. In fact, his eyes were filled with passion, desire, and very little self-control. Kurama lowered himself a little more, and Hiei hissed in pleasure. "Kitsune no baka, I said to stop," the fire demon growled between clenched teeth.

"Why? Are you frightened?" Kurama couldn't remember if he had ever been taken before, and if he had, he had definitely forgotten how much it hurt. It burned, but feeling his lover inside him made the pain more than worth it. He just needed time to adjust.

"I'm hurting you. I don't want to do that." The fire demon blinked in confusion when Kurama offered him a dazzling smile.

"I want this Hiei. It always hurts the first time, especially when one is unprepared. Just lay back and enjoy." The fox lowered himself completely until Hiei filled him totally. "I've wanted this for so long…it feels so good." Kurama remained still for a few moments, allowing his body to get used to the invasion. He looked down at the youkai whose eyes were wide with shock. Kurama rotated his hips slightly, relishing the feeling of his lover deep inside him. They were finally as one…no beginning, no end, just a single entity of feeling. This is what true happiness was made of, knowing that there is a certain feeling of belonging…like being in the right place at the right time. This is where he needed to be. And who better to feel this strongly with than your best friend. Hiei was more than a means for sexual release, more than a lover, more than a companion…he was Kurama's everything.

Hiei tried to take in deep breaths. This was…was there any way to describe it? It was the closest thing to Heaven that this damned soul would ever feel, taste, or see. Kurama was his salvation, exorcising his demons, mending his wounded soul, reviving his dying heart…he was the fire demon's everything. Hiei could feel that they shared the same heartbeat, the same breathing pattern, and the same overwhelming passion.

Then Kurama began moving against the youkai fluidly, and watched as the scrumptious little demon's face completely relaxed into a look of total passionate abandonment. They had become a puddle of raw sensation and emotion, every sense heightened. Their skin was more sensitive to the touch, their moans became an enchanting melody that their bodies moved to in an erotic dance, and they could see the depths of the one another's souls through their jewel-toned eyes. When Kurama flipped them to where Hiei was over him, the fire demon couldn't help but moan at the feeling of being totally surrounded by his lover's long limbs.

"Seo bi e, de e bi an dan bi. Thoir thu, Kurama, [2]" Hiei whispered against Kurama's lips before resuming the earlier rhythm of his hips. They chanted each other's names like a prayer, offering themselves to the gods of passion, desire, and pleasure. Their lips were so close that they breathed in each other's breath, drinking in the passionate moans. The redhead arched against his lover, trying to get closer, almost trying to merge their souls. When the fire demon softly stroked the hard erection trapped between their straining bodies, the kitsune knew that he was unable to hold on any longer. Something bigger than the both of them washing over the lovers like a moonlight tide, being pulled by a force that neither could control. The fire demon had remembered this feeling from earlier but it was nowhere this close in its intensity. Never had he had anything to feel so incredibly strong without being in pain. Then again, this was pain, the sweetest pain imaginable.

"Ai sh…ai shite…ai shiteru Hiei," Kurama panted as he got closer to his climax. Hiei's eyes widened as his breath caught. Kurama's hands tightened around his lover's back, digging his nails into the smooth skin as he raked them down the expanse of the plain of corded muscle until his grip rested on Hiei's muscular buttocks. Hiei thrust harder and faster into the strong body beneath him, overwhelmed by emotions and ecstasy. He bit his lip and dropped his forehead to the youko's shoulder. The Jagan was causing their pleasure to intermingle, making it impossible to determine which feelings were coming from what person. They were climbing higher and higher until they were free falling over the cliff of Mount Olympus to crash back to Earth, calling each other's name and panting furiously. Kurama arched his back off the bed and Hiei's hips jerked with the force of his release as he gave a final vulnerable whimper.

They fell back on the mattress, trying hard to slow their pounding hearts and catch their breath. Hiei buried his face into Kurama's chest and held the fox tighter as his body started to shake. Kurama loved him…someone loved him. He had waited so long to hear those words. Yet he was terrified. He had no idea how to go about loving someone. Would he let his fox down? Before he could stop himself, silent tears ran down his face, some crystallizing into fiery-red tear gems on Kurama's chest.

Kurama was brought from his post-orgasmic bliss by the feeling of something cold and hard hitting his chest. At first he thought he was imagining things, but when they came in a steady flow he knew it was time to worry. About the time he looked down at the body clinging desperately to him, the sobbing began. Maybe he had pushed the small youkai too far in this relationship. It was very possible they were moving too fast.

"Hiei? Did I hurt you? Are you alright?" The small arms just tightened more, and Kurama could feel his ribs begin to protest. "Firefly?"

"G-gomen." If this kept up, Kurama could retire quite nicely before he even had a job by the amount tear gems he was collecting.

"For what koi?"

"I don't know how to love you. I can't even say the words." Kurama pried the demon off of him and rolled them over so they could face each other. Large, ruby almond-shaped eyes glittered with unshed tears and a small fist came to rub one of the eyes in a motion much like a child's. Kurama caressed the tired, flushed face of his lover…lover, it had been so long since he had one of those.

"You don't have to tell me in words, love. I can see it in the way you look at me, the way you protect me, the way you talk to me, and the way you make love to me. Words are just words, anyone can say them, whether they mean them or not. You can't hide your soul. I don't need to hear the words, I already know." The fire demon snuggled closer to Kurama and pulled up the covers. The redhead smiled and wrapped his arms around the smaller body, comforting Hiei into a deep slumber. He just hoped the morning after wouldn't be awkward and confusing for either of them. That thought kept sleep away for a few moments before Kurama realized that he would just have to wait until morning to find out. Burying his face into black spiky hair, Kurama finally fell asleep.

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[1] What the Hell?…good, so good.

[2] This is it, this is how it is meant to be. Thank you, Kurama.

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Okay guys that's the end of this chapter. I don't think it turned out well, but if you guys like it…great. Just be sure to let me know.

Kurama: Finally, I thought I'd never get a piece of that cute little demon.

Hiei: Did we have to show the world? I feel so…exposed.

Yusuke: Nice ass Hiei.

Kurama: Hey, You're not allowed to look at Hiei's ass, only I can.

Hiei: Well I hate to break the news to you kitsune, but several people just saw my ass.

Kurama: NO!!!

Yusuke: Is it just me, or does he get weirder with each chapter?

Hiei: I hate to say this, but I'm going to have to agree with you this time.

Laters,

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