Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Healing (My Kitsune p3) ❯ Healing ( Chapter 2 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

Healing chp 2 (New York11-20-02)

"...and the fire of love is ablaze;
and when the fire of love is ablaze,
it burneth to ashes
the harvest of reason..."

Rume : The valley of Love



I'm burning! I'm on fire! Ah Hiei!

He bit my nipple and I arch my back as he sucked so
hard it sent a lightning shock of pain straight to my
groin his skin is so hot, it's like he's running a
fever that dances with delirium.

Oh Delirium! This is Hiei passion unleashed, I groan
in pain and in pleasure as I tug at his clothes. I
want all of it, all of him. Consume me Hiei, burn me
clean with your fire. Turn to ashes the stains on my
hands and on my soul.

I looked at his burning blood red eyes as he tore at
my clothes and I didn't give a damn what they cost,
they are barriers to my soul's release, and my
ecstasy. I threaded my fingers through his soft rough
hair and I gasped as I was denied, he opened my pants
and freed my need from their confines then he raised
himself up to his feet to look down at me and I felt
like a helpless penitent under his all consumming
glare.

He tore my pants off grunting as he tossed my shoes
over his shoulder hitting the tree with a loud tinkle
of golden bells, my socks became an odd white decor
among the tinsel and gold and glass of the evergreen.
Then his clothes turned to cinders and I was alarmed,
the smoke detectors might douse him in cold water.

I looked at the ceiling then back to his face, and I
saw his smirk, HE is in command. I let go, and let him
take control of me.

I closed my eyes as his fingers threaded through my
hair and I felt myself dragged on the carpet, I
crawled by his feet and climbed the table he led me to
on my elbows backing-up to lay myself down as an
offering to his need.

I gasped as the cool table touched my buttocks then
my back, I opened my eyes to bear witness to my
beloved's arousal hard and ready. Not as long as
Yomi's but thicker and traced with angry veins I know
I will feel as he rams himself right to the core of my
being. I shuddered with anticipation, I shivered with
need.

He smiled at me and his glare softened, but no less
dangerous as he crawled on his hands and knees to
straddle my waist. I almost clutched at my heart
because it was trying to escape it's confines. His hot
skin burned me as he lay over me, ripping a gasp from
my throat, I'm trapped between the cool table and the
fevered skin of my dark demon and his lips when they
reclaimed me was a taste of heaven and forgiveness.

What are devils but angels fallen from grace?

The raging kiss that bruised and wounded me a while
back was soothed by this balm. Kind, soft, slow, his
tounge a welcome intruder dancing to a slow sensous
music that reminded me of zithars and flutes and hand
pounded drums.

I moaned, helpless, and that helplesness exited me so
much I felt my erection vainly trying to twitch
against his. Then he writhed, undulating his hips so
that our arousals met to join in the dance our tounges
were engaged in. It tore a groan from me and his moan
called me to dance with him. I moved my hips to
creations' ancient music, and though this union will
bear no offspring, it will bear us to heights we have
never known before.

I ran the flat of my hand against my lover's cheeks,
hooking my thumbs under his ward. Waiting for him to
acknowledge my act asking his permission. "Hiei," he
groaned as he pushed himself against me and I met him
hip to hip, need to need "Ahnn, may I?"

He nodded his eyes closed. And I took his ward off.
The Jagan opened itself slowly, red, purple and black;
then the white hot energy of Hiei's youki washed over
me blinding me leaving me breathless as I fell back on
the table. I was sweating profusely, my skin slid on
the polished wood, i'll dehydrate at this rate. I
almost laughed, here he comes to free me, I will be
rid of Yomi!

The heat left me all of a sudden, and a cold slap of
consiouseness told me Hiei was gone. I blinked and sat
up and there he was looking at me with that glare he
reserves for those he hates. I reached out to him but
he backed away from me and he growled deep in his
throat as he bared his teeth at me. His hands in fists
so tight the knuckles were white.

What have I done? I don't understand. I couldn't push
words pass the hate he gave me now, "Hiei?" I asked my
voice feeble and uncertain.

"Why Kurama?! Why'd you let him?!" The look he gave
me while we were io the plane, they way he reverted to
his steel mask, he can see Yomi's ownership of my body
now and he hates it!

He's really really angry at me, he hates me! I can't
stand that look he's giving me, he's disgusted at me!
He loathes me! Don't look at me!! I can't handle this!
I can't!!!

Shimata!!!

Just when it was getting really hot too! Right, fire
me up nice and ready THEN go frigid on me and get
angry. I looked at the loathing and shame on his
flushed face, I wanted to rail at him but I can't, 400
years of living will teach you things. Hiei is
jealous, he wouldn't be jealous if he didn't care
deeply for me. And that look on his face? It wasn't
for me, it's for himself. The shame in there is a dead
giveaway. I would have been flattered by his jealousy
if it wasn't for my aching cock and the fact that I'm
here instead of Shuichi to take care of it. Fuck!

I summoned patience, I doused my frustration, I
focused on the now... dammit I wish it was that easy.

But what have I been telling you Hiei?! You want to
know the extent of Yomi's ownership baby? I'll show
you, then we'll see if this is just a bump or the end
of our road together.

I wrapped my fragile humanity away and tucked him
into the lacqured box that had kept him safe from Yomi
machinations. I ground my teeth together and looked up
at Hiei through my lashes I accepted his shame, his
loathing as if they were ment for me, I gathered my
hair and turned around, he's going to find out anyway,
might as well get it over with. I heared him gasp so I
knelt higher I heared him back away.

I forced calm into my voice as I asked "Why do I need
this?" I put a hand over my shoulder at the souvenirs
Yomi gave me. He had, on more than one occasion,
gauged out my skin with his fingernails as he came in
violent shudders while he fucked me from behind. I
wasn't pleased with it, I'm not happy about any of
these scars.

"Why are we made with the capacity to know, need, and
give love? We have no need for such as demons. There
are times I think Shuichi is a curse, and I tried to
kill him only to fail miserably. This beloved is the
scars of my misery." I listened to him, wishing I had
my Youko form's keener senses so I can hear his heart
and smell his emotions. I didn't want to look behind,
I refused to seek the mirror facing this way that
would have reflected his face. I looked instead at the
polished black wooden table I am on and saw my
reflection blurred by the stain of my sweat. My dear
Shuichi...

"This human body should bear them, these are bitter
lessons I need to remember." I took a deep breath and
I looked over my shoulder at him his eyes were wide
but his face is back behind his steel mask.

"The height of love given is the depth of hate when
betrayed. I betrayed the love I felt for you." I
looked away. "I felt poinless in the Ningenkai and
decided to join you in the Makai, we met in that
forest. Do you remmeber Hiei? You we're so dedicated
to being Mokuro's heir. I realized you had moved on
and felt nothing for me, and my entire existence
became pointless. I had nothing to hold on to except
my demon nature and the place Yomi had given me in his
life." I sighed, long speech, now the choice.

"So why Hiei? I don't really know. And I'm sorry. I
understand if you can't forgive me, if you want me to
leave just say so I won't hold it against you." I
really had no excuse for what I did. I don't even have
the excuse of rape because it was consensual. I just
needed to fill that hole in me before it swallowed me
and turned me into a living zombie that felt nothing
and went through the motions of living to survive. I
wanted to look at a rose again and see it as that
singular focus of natures creativity, full of beauty
and colour and life, grace and elegance. Not just
another thorny plant I can use as a weapon.

I wanted to be alive, or to feel alive at least and
Yomi gave me that. I knelt on 1 knee listening to his
silence, my knapsack has a change of clothing in it,
i'll need that, the bathroom, where ever it is, seems
like the safest place to go right now.

"Stay." I held still his voice sounded... torn? I
waited on my knee listening, I've said my piece it's
Hiei's choice now.

Stay so he can get dresssed and leave? Stay because
he wants me here? Stay because he can't live without
me? Stay because he can't stand to look me in the face
while he gets his things?

I heared a keening wail from somewhere within me. It
could only be Shuichi I listened impassively, if Hiei
decided to go or send me out that wail of despair will
become a death keen, and it will be accompanied by the
shattering sound of Shuichi falling apart. And if he
dosen't leave fast enough he'll witness my grief.

Hiei will accomlish within a few minuites what Yomi
never conquered.

I will miss Shuiichi, but even him I'll offer to my
dark little angel's wrath, if it will keep me from
losing him.

Sharp stabbing pain in my chest. How long will you
hold me in suspense beloved?

"Kurama, Gomenasai." his voice said softly.

Hm? I looked behind me and saw Hiei on his knees his
hand on the floor his forhead touching the spot
between them. What the f---

"Hiei." I went down to him and put a hand over his
back "There's nothing to forgive, you did nothing."
very gently asking his permission I took his cheeks
and when he didn't resist me, lifted them to look at
me.

His red eyes were shimmering and half mast "That's
why I ask forgiveness, I did nothing. If I could
have-"

I stopped him with a finger on his lips "Shhhh. It's
as much your fault as mine." I bent slowly to kiss his
forhead, his Jagan closed and I planted my lips over
it, I could feel pulses of power pushing against my
touch. "Will you forgive me Hiei? I'm such a coward
when it comes to you and what I feel."

He frowned "Can we start all over again? It seems all
we have been doing is..." he sighed heavily. "I
understand, we're getting to know each other.
Intimately, both physically and emotionally. I feel
raw and confused and there's so many emotions of
varying shades and... I don't know what to do, all I
know is you can't leave me and I don't want to leave
you and I need you and... kisama."

Now from Hiei that was a very long very un-Hiei
speech. My vision blurred. We have to mend this, we
need each other.

I put my arms around him "I forgive you Hiei, for
never letting me know you love me." I brushed my hand
over his head and his Jagan lowered it's lid till it
was almost close "Your turn my love." I said.

"I-I forgive you Kurama, for bedding Yomi." he said
his hands slowly went around my waist. I sat on the
floor at his side he leaned his head on my shoulder.

"I forgive you Hiei, for wearing your silence like a
cloak around your heart."I buried my nose in his spiky
hair drinking in his warm scent my cheeks tickled by
the long silken barbs. I wrapped my arms around his
shoulders tighter.

"I forgive you Kurama for not making me understand I
need you, until now." He twisted around seeking that
position of comfort he needed to assuage his
insecurities. I let him straddle my legs and he
wrapped his arms around my waist as he lay his head on
the crook of my neck his breath washing warm and
comforting over me.

I chuckled softly "I forgive you Hiei for doing what
you did to survive." I ran the flat of my hand over
his back. He took awhile to digest this, he nodded.

"I forgive you for making me jealous." his lips
brushed my neck with every syllable he spoke sending
gooseflesh down my back.

"I forgive you for not knowing what to do with what
you feel." He sighed and I felt like he moulded
against me, like I was a 3 dimensional puzzle piece
and Hiei fitted me like my other half.

"I forgive you for... destroying all my illusions."

"T-thank you." I whispered, I did that! In a flash of
insight I realized that all his defense mechanisms
we're there because he was hiding his sensitive heart
from a world that showed him no love, no mercy, Inari
I did! When I took him in Hong Kong and made him
realize he loves me, I barged right in and tossed all
his defenses aside because I wanted his heart.


"That's not how it works." he muttred and I could
feel that special little smile of his that no one's
seen except me. I didn't need to see it I can see it
in my mind. I held him tighter.

"Thank you for forgiving me." I said, he pressed his
smile against my neck.

"Thank you for caring." he answered.

"Thank you for sharing yourself with me." I replied
as I kissed the back of his neck.

"Thank you for loving me, despite of me." he replied
his hot breath washing over my ear. I craned my neck
offering it to him.

"Thank you for being you." I said, he sighed then and
opened his mouth on my neck. I could feel his hot
tounge lapping my skin within his lips. That was the
end of talks I think. Then he stopped.

"Baby?" I asked

"When your done with me fox will you poison me too
like you did Yomi?" he asked his cheek against mine.

I felt like he stabbed me. But the vulnerability in
his voice and the way he leaned on me told me that if
it was his fate to die by my hands he would accept it.
I pulled his face away from mine. There was no way I
can prove with mere words that I would never ever harm
him. Ahhh but that hurt. I kissed his lips gently then
stood up with him, I left him standing as I made my
way to our suitcase. I opened it and took out his
katana.

I slid the bright blade from it's dark sheath and
offered it to him hilt first. He took it from me with
a quetion in his eyes and held it away from me. "Will
you use that on me Hiei?"

"No. I won't". he said vehemently, then he nodded as
he got my point.

But I wasn't done, he held the blade down his left
side. "Hold still." I said, I smiled down at him,
before he could guess my intention I knelt and placed
the side of my neck over the blade.

He tensed so still he was barely breathing. The cold
blade rested lightly on my skin I pressed closer and I
felt it cut me.

"Kurama!" but he held still, his knuckles around the
hilt turned bone white.

I stood up my neck bled, it was just a minor cut,
nothing fatal, but I could feel it trace fingers of
red down my neck to my collar bone and down to my
chest. I pulled him to me and pressed his lips to my
wound. He gasped trying to pull away, but that gasp
brought the scent of my blood to his senses and he
gave in, his hot lips covered my hurt. I heard his
sword clatter on the bare marble of the floor and I
felt him convulse and groan as the forbidden taste of
human blood began filling his mouth.

His arms went around me in a drowning man's death
grip. He sucked my wound voraciousely. I hissed the
pain sent an arc of pleasure coiling into my groin
waking my turgid member into renewed arousal.

I groaned and pressed him closer. So good....

I sighed with relief, Shuiichi lives, I still have my
baby, so it was a bump on the road after all. And all
these things we are going through will only serve to
make our relationship stronger. I think I will
institute this as a ritual if we ever run over another
pothole.

And I think we should stop threatening each other
with abandonment. It's a threat that strikes too close
for comfort.

Hmmmm, my hot little love. Your skin is so fragrant
to me, your pheromones makes me want to cuddle you
close like the kit I never had. I stroked the back of
his neck encouraging him as he lapped my wound with
his rough tounge. I knew you liked the taste of my
blood, have all you want my little one. "That's it
baby, have all you want"

Although fire demons don't need blood to survive,
they like it's taste, specially human blood, I can
provide as much as he wants. "Know me Hiei, know I
will never hurt you, know I would rather die than
bring harm upon you." He moaned making little sucking
noises. My head swam from the exquisite pain, my
heart's throbbing was suddently too loud and every
pulse traced itself all over my body. I can feel my
need twitching and I wasn't surprised to feel his
arousal against my leg grow.

"AH!" He bit me as he sucked on the mouthful of my
wounded skin his hands went down to pinch my neglected
nipple. I moaned I need him bad. I hooked my hand
under his knees and he wrapped his legs automatically
around my waist. He knew I intended to carry him to
the bedroom.

Where the hell is the bedroom?

"Door. " A set of carved oak double doors opened. He
stopped sucking on my neck and I loathed the cool air
that washed over it. He began lapping my wounds and
the blood that spilled on my chest. I crossed my arms
on his back and as I began walking I felt the tip of
my arousal nudge the cleft of his buttocks. I gasped
and he looked at me with wide eyes. His hold around my
neck loosened a little, he slipped down and the head
of my cock came between the cleft to nudge at his
opening.

"Gods Hiei!" I moaned, I was in what appeared to be a
victorian ante-chamber books along the walls, ornate
chairs I have no time for sightseeing!

The double doors across the room opened by itself and
the four poster king sized bed dressed in red and gold
beckoned. Hiei moaned leaning away from me listening
to his body's needs, trying to impale himself on me.

I climbed the steps to the tall bed and deposited him
gently on it. His legs around my waist wouldn't let me
go. I kissed him them as I dragged him to the center
then I pulled his legs off my waist "Wait love, wait,
we need something. I'll get it." I hopped off the bed
and ran for our luggage.

"Hurry up Kurama!" He shouted at me as I knelt in
front of my knapsack, I opened it and turned it upside
down in my haste rummaging through it's contents and
found the tube of body lotion. I jumped over couches
and divans and was back in bed with Hiei.

He tackled me and took the tube of lotion his lips
went into a thin line as he looked at it then he
nodded, he understood what it was for. He placed it
over the pillow within his reach then he mashed his
lips on mine, he's on his elbows and knees I want his
hot little body on me.

The heat fell on me like a giant hand then, I moaned
and offered my neck to his bruising kiss, I think it's
safe to let Suiichi in but I'll be damned if I let him
have all the fun. So it's Hiei's choice again, if he
wants to be bottom I'll oblige him if he wants to be
top... I laughed I still want him! But this is to
exorcise Yomi from Shuichi so I better let him in. Ah!
I hissed he's got that biting thing his kind likes.

"Hah baby!" he moved to my neck bruising my pale
skin. It feels so good! I want him to bite me again,
to give me pain and mix it with his brand of heat.

"You want pain Kurama?" he bent closer to me showing
me his little sharp canines.

"Yesssss." I hissed at him and his Jagan was
suddently in my head, a great red eye filling my world
"Oh yes!"

"Mine and mine alone do you hear!? Kurama you are
mine!" Hiei's voice echoed through every corner of my
being, every recess of my mind. "No one touches you
except me do you hear?"

"No one else's." I gasped "Yours, take me. I am
yours." He sank his teeth on my throat.