Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Her Demons ❯ The Pain i Feel ( Chapter 4 )

Black: I am leaving on Friday the 18th so you wont hear from me for another week ^_^;;; sorry

Hiei: Thank god you are going to be gone…

Black: Bit me three eyes, you know you are gonna miss me!!!

Hiei: You wish baka

Black: >_< grrrrrrrr

Millie: He knows he will he is just to shy to admit it

Black: I know

Hiei: BAKAS I will not miss her, she makes me miserable every day of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Black: That just shows how much I love you Hiei you know that

Hiei: grrrrrrr

Millie: Well she owns only herself……so enjoy! ^_^

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They had called in the prince of Spirit World to check out what was wrong with me, he took his precious time in hooking up tubes into my flesh, and Melissa slightly cringed.

“So can you tell what happened to her?”

She questioned him, and then the slow, average beating of my heart was heard throughout the room.

“Not yet Melissa, I will need some time to get into her mind in order to see what caused her to collapse”

“How much time will you need?”

“About…..10 minutes”

They sweat dropped, he made it seem like it would be a life time, Hiei stared at my solemn and seemingly peaceful face. He noticed I was beginning to whimper, sweat dripped down my face, and the whimpers got louder and louder then before.

“Something is wrong!!!”

My heart beat got faster and more frantic; everyone became wide eyed and scared of what was going on.

“We have to calm her down…what's making this happen?! Nothing is coming up on the scanners!!!”

Koenma alerted them, but they just didn't know what to do except watch as the scene unfolded before them. Meanwhile this is what was really happening, I was staring into a vast empty darkness, fear rushing through my very blood.

“No…I can't be here”

“Well why not? This is your mind…this is the very dark portal you come to for an escape….this it what you created as your sanctuary”

A cold voice in the black snapped at me.

“You didn't have to make it so cold Sarah, this could all change if you wanted it to, you have friends to turn to”

“They aren't my friends Kay…they don't understand what it's like to be through what I have been through, they just don't know!!!”

“Give them a chance and you will see”

“Why should she?! Her whole life she has had no one to trust, she didn't even have any parents….they dumped her like a sack of disgusting smelly garbage!!!!!”

The two voices bickered and growled at one another.

“NO STOP!!!! This is my head why can't you both just get out”

“You know we can't do that Sarah, what you be without us…you would be nothing that's what dear….you would have no power, no strength…no NOTHING!!!!”

Tears filled my eyes, but I fought to hold them back.

“Arien shut up!!!! You are destroying her from the inside out why can you not just leave her alone?!”

“Because...that isn't my style”

After hours of testing Koenma gave up and fell into the seat beside my bed, Hiei glared at him.

“What the hell are you doing just sitting there?!”

“I have been trying to figure out what was wrong for hours I can't find the problem…what ever is causing this to happen to her must be buried deep into her subconscious mind”

“All we can do now is wait for her to wake up”

Kurama assured them, that didn't take long then, the next moment my eyes snapped open and I jerked up.

“Sarah?”

“I have to go!!!”

I leapt out of my bed, tubes flying off of me as I pushed through them and rushed into my room, slamming the door behind me.

“What was that all about?”

“We should go check on her”

Yusuke said, so they all walked and knocked on my door, it was locked. From the outside they could hear my blaring loud Linkin Park music.

“Come on out Sparky so that we can talk!!! What happened?!”

Melissa yelled, but the music only got louder as I tried to drown their voices out so I could no longer hear them. I sat at my desk, my head lying in my folded arms; I winced when I felt a burning sensation in my hands. My head slowly came up as I looked at my palms, there lie two crescent moons imprinted on each one, steam rose from them.

“ARIEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

I screamed it hurt even more; I tried to bury my hands into my sweater, until it started to turn to ash just from my touch.

“Oh god!!!!!!”

So I threw my sweater off.

“Arien STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

Tears filled my eyes from the pain, fire burning through my body.

`You cannot fight what you are Sarah!!!! HAHAHAHAH!!!!!'

They rolled down my cheeks, the pain then seemed to cease, I glared at my hands and the tattoos then vanished…and the pain had gone along with it.

“Thank you god…”

The next thing I know my door tumbles to the floor and their stands Hiei looking extremely pissed.

“Onna what the hell is wrong with you?!?!?”

I tried frantically to get rid of the tears, but he saw them, I knew he did.

“Why are you crying?!”

“Just go away, get out of my room please!!!!!!'

Hiei zipped over and picked me up by the collar of my shirt, glaring deep into my eyes with his crimson ones.

“Not until you tell me what's wrong”

“You wouldn't understand Hiei!!!!! And on top of that you don't even care, your just doing this because the others want you to, why should I tell the one who couldn't care less whether I love or die?!?!?!?!?!”

He was slightly hurt by my words but he didn't show it, he threw me to the floor and stomped of, I sighed in relief.

“Sarah, you need to tell us what is going on”

“Not now, not right now…..”

There was a long silence, I rubbed my hands together.

“I'm not ready yet and neither are any of you…so can you just wait until I am ready?!”

I snarled, my eyes changing to crimson then back to blue/green.

“Ugggh…..Alright…what ever Sarah”

Yusuke said, he glanced at me before leaving with the others close behind him; I huddled up and cried on the floor.

`Hn. That's right, shove them off like everyone has to you, and show them'

“Arien shut up”

`Hey, don't be so bitter my girl…I am only doing this for your own good, let me loose and you will see what I really mean, I can make them fear you, I can show you what it would truly be like to be in control'

“I am never in control of what happens to me….I never have been and I never will be”

`Yes you will, like I said, just let me out'

“Just shut up ok?!?! And leave me alone!!!”

I growled at her, finally she shut up and I sat in silence, just crying like I used to, just crying. With no one to hear my cries for help, or at least I thought there was no one there…

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Black: DONE!!! Now Millie you so owe me

Millie: Yeah yeah whatever

Hiei: When are you leaving again?

Black: Friday the 18th, this Friday

Hiei: THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Black: >_< UGGH!!!!!! *hits him with Algebra book*

Hiei: @_@

Millie: *rolls eyes and reads*

Black: ^_^ Oh look Algebra is good for something, boy is that a shocker O_O

Millie: Oh well R&R and we hope you enjoyed it ^_^