Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Hiei is a Father? ❯ Chapter 5

La-la-la-la, I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho. It is the property of Yoshihiro Togashi. I do however own Kami, the infant kitsune, as well as Hitomi, Mai-Lin, and their respective pack/group members. If you want to know who owns the species Wolf-ki, well, it's Shapeshifter. The song that Hiei sings I got from animelyrics.com, from the Yu Yu Hakusho page.

Chapter Five

Hiei walked steadily through the underbrush of the Makai forest. Under his cloak, he held Kami in a sort of crude sling. Before leaving the Temple, Yukina had fashioned it for him, so that he could carry the child in comfort. At his hip was a pouch with her two stuffed toys. Careful not to wake the child, he cautiously picked his way through the branches and undergrowth. Suddenly, he felt Kami began to fuss and whimper. He immediately sat down and pulled her out of the sling and into his arms. She looked up at him, with complete trust in her eyes, and he felt himself tearing up again. Kami, as if sensing his distress, began to cry softly. Hiei held her in his arms and softly began to sing to her. The song had always been in his head, and singing it just came naturally.

I can hear a whistling farther than yesterday

I collect the scattered pieces

I hold them tightly in my right hand,

And softly close my eyes

Knife-like moonlight rains down

On a night that freezes even the horizon

Alone in that wilderness, hugging my knee

I strain to hear the song of the wind

Those who do not know a sleepless night

Cannot become strong; that is the rule

I can hear whistling farther than

The stars and the skies

It's the words of someone's prayer

I hold them tightly in my right hand,

And softly close my eyes

A thing that's even sadder than loneliness

Is not realizing that loneliness

No matter how freezing the night,

Under the earth

Warmth is hidden

Rather than being a bird that is

Trapped in a cage

I would become a nameless stone

I can hear a whistling farther than yesterday

I collect the scattered pieces

And holding them tight in my right hand,

I softly close my eyes

I can hear whistling from a distant yesterday

It's the words of someone's prayer

I hold them tightly in my right hand,

And softly close my eyes

Holding them tight in my right hand,

I softly close my eyes.

Hiei finished the song on a somewhat mournful note. Looking down, he saw that Kami was sleeping soundly, her little fox ears twitching. For a moment, Hiei allowed himself the luxury of a small smile. Suddenly, he felt a hand on his shoulder. Whirling around, he saw that it was Kurama. He smiled sadly down at the fire demon.

"So you brought her back." Kurama said softly, his voice barely a whispering mist in the still twilight of the forest. Hiei looked up at his friend, and nodded sadly.

"Hai. I have brought her. It's the right thing to do, but why does it hurt so much, Kurama? Why does it hurt right here?" he asked desperately, placing a hand over his heart. Kurama smiled sadly. Without a sound, he slid his arms around the trembling fire demon, placing his head on the fire demon's spiky hair.

"It hurts, " he mused aloud, "it hurts because you love her. You are afraid to let her go, and it hurts to think about losing her." He finished softly. Hiei began to rock the sleeping Kami gently in his arms, whispering the song again. Kurama gently brushed the tear gems from Hiei's eyes. Hiei looked up at Kurama silently for a moment.

"Kurama." He began; his voice melancholy, "would you go and wake the others, onegai? I believe that it is time." Kurama kissed Hiei on the forehead gently and nodded.

"I know it hurts, Hiei." Was all he said as he stood and disappeared into the darkness of the forest. Hiei just sat and rocked the child back and forth gently.

"Ai shiteru, Kami." He said, over and over. The kitsune continued sleeping. Hiei wondered over the perfection of her features, for one last time. Her adorable little ears, her beautiful little tail, her cherubic face, and her charm. But most of all, he jut loved her. He softly stroked her hair as he spoke to her. "This is all we have, Kami. Tonight. Will you remember me someday? Will I be nothing more than a shadow in your dreams, there to protect you from nightmares? Will I have a face? Will you even remember my name? Or will you forget everything about me? That would probably be the best thing for you. It's better if we had never met, but then you might not have lived through the night…." His word trailed off. He didn't mean it. He knew deep inside his heart that he would treasure every moment that he had spent with Kami. The child had needed him, just as much as he now needed her. Suddenly he heard a sound in the brush. The others were approaching. Hiei held Kami tight as he waited for them to arrive…

Well, what do you people think of this chapter? The song is called. I know that this was yet another cliffhanger, but if your reviews are positive, I'll post the next chapter soon *cringes* Please don't hurt me! I don't mean to write cliffy's! Do you readers still love me? Please tell me if you like this chapter.