Hey pplz its Chapter 4

Things I have to make clear is that this is a Shuuichi Minamino/Youko Kurama fic. So that means there is yaoi or shounen-ai. The other parings will come in due time.

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Innocent in the Dark

Chapter 4

Shuuichi's POV

I woke up to find myself in an uncomfortable position in the couch? How did I end up in the couch? I recalled the events of last night.

Oh no.

I took a look at my wrist. There was a bandage and my sleeve was rolled up. He found out.

I looked desperately around the room. He wasn't around. He's probably disgusted with me. He must hate me now and thinks about why he merged his soul with me before and is now regretting it. I sighed.

Its okay, not like he cared before when we split.

I traced the cuts on my arm. I didn't know how much I made within the months since I met Alex. They were too many to count.

I walked into the kitchen and gasped. Alex was there sitting on a chair. She turned to face me and smiled. "Wow, didn't peg you to do it in front of your boyfriend but I guess you were caught in the moment." She said.

"Hello to you too. How did you get in here?" I asked.

"The door. It was unlocked. Seems like your lover is testing you. You should read the note he left. He says if you leave he'll track you down. He even made sure that the sharp objects were gone from this kitchen. Not even a drawer would budge open."

"What?" I tested all the drawers in the kitchen and saw that they were all shut. He must've used his plants. I just hope that he didn't touch my room.

"You know Shuuichi I know a way to die… that's even simpler, …better, …and quicker."

I turned to her direction. I wanted to know. Since he hates me now there's no use in staying here. No one would know me and I'd be forgotten after a few minutes. "What is it?"

"Poison. Cyanide. It can kill you instantly. It was in the news once. A guy mixed it in his drink and drank it all down. He died instantly."

"Really?" I asked in awe.

"Yeah. I heard that it's still in market. Don't worry about paying for any of it. I got it covered. I'm rich anyways. I'll see ya. I have to go before that lover of yours kills me with that glare of hate on his face." She exited out the window.

I stared toward the window she exited. I don't know if this is the right thing but I keep wondering what would happen. I heard stories that if you kill yourself you'll just stay here invisible and be miserable the rest of your life. I don't know. I just realized that I didn't protest about the fact that she kept saying that Kurama and I are lovers. I wish but I doubt that would happen now.

I guess I should I enjoy my time until she gets it. I need to change and leave before Kurama comes back. I don't want him questioning me or use the silent treatment. I don't like it when it's silent it reminds me of a dark tunnel with no way out.

I turned and came face to face with a partly opened chest. My breath hitched. He couldn't be here now. I looked up and saw that Kurama was glaring at me. Did he just seem taller?

I smiled weakly. "Hi. Thanks for bandaging it up for me. I was probably not going to be able to do it. I'll change. I wanted to go for a walk. I'll come by later." Good job Shuuichi, just make sure nothing happened and he didn't notice anything was there.

I tried to sidestep him and walk past him to go to my room. He blocked my path. I tried again. But he blocked it again.

I snapped. "What are you doing? I said I wanted to go outside. Do I have to pay something just to pass by?!" I yelled at him.

I instantly covered my hand over my mouth after I realized what I said to him. "Kurama I…I…I'm…"

He growled and gripped my arm really tight. He dragged me up the stairs and I had to run just to keep up with his speed walk. His grip was really starting to hurt. "Kurama, STOP! LET GO! YOU'RE HURTING ME!" I tried to pry his fingers off to loosen his grip but I couldn't. He ignored me and I just started to pound on his arm to make him let go. But it seems I've weakened in the last months that passed by.

He stopped in front of the bathroom. He turned to me and pointed. "Explain that." He said harshly.

Oh no.

I turned to see that they were the blood splatters that I tried to cover up. He found them.

It's none of his business!

I panicked.

"IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS OF WHAT I DO! I'M FREE TO DO WHAT I WANT WHEN I WANT!" I began to cry but I didn't care that I was showing weakness in front of him. "IT'S NOT LIKE YOU CARED ANYWAY! NO ONE DOES! WHY NOW?! HUH?! WHY NOW?! TELL ME! YOU NEVER CARED BEFORE! WHY NOW? NO ONE ELSE DID! WHY SHOULD YOU BE ANY DIFFERENT?! YOU NEVER CARED BEFORE! YOU NEVER DID! I ONLY MATTERED WHEN I WAS NEEDED! DIDN'T I MAKE YOU WEAK?! ISN'T THAT WHY YOU SEPERATED FROM ME WHEN YOU FOUND OUT YOU CAN?!" I broke into uncontrollable sobs and threw a fit.

I felt him let go. When he did I immediately dashed into my room to do what I should've done yesterday. I don't care about the promise! I locked the door to make sure that it'll take him time to get in. A few seconds is all I need. He won't be able to anything then.

Kurama's POV

He thought I didn't care? I felt a stab through my heart. Is that how he feels?

I saw him dash to his room and I realized what he was going to do. Well I won't let him.

I couldn't get to him before he shut the door and locked it. Damn it.

"DAMMIT SHUUICHI, OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR!"

"Go away!"

Damn it all. I got a leaf and turned it as sharp as a sword. I sliced through the door and kicked it, knocking it down. I ran over to him and grasped his right wrist tightly so he could let go of the razor. His grip loosened and fell to the floor. I kicked it all the way out of his reach. I still held on to him so that he wouldn't get to it.

"Let me go. I'm just taking up space. You'll be free of me forever. I won't be here to burden you anymore. I'll be gone just like everyone wants me to." He said staring blankly. He struggled to let go. I still held him firmly in place.

I brought him closer with my free hand and hugged him. If only I knew sooner none of this would ever happen. He started crying again. His whole form shook. I rubbed circles on his back to calm him down. After a few minutes he calmed down.

I leaned in and whispered in his ear, "I'm sorry."

He started sobbing. I walked over to the bed while still hugging him. I sat down and he sat on my lap. As much as I would enjoy something else in this position I can't. Shuuichi's mentality is first priority.

"It's okay Shuuichi. I do care and you're not taking up space or being a burden." I said to him softly so he would know that I'm telling the truth. He nodded and I sighed mentally in relief. I don't know what I'd do if he were to die.

We were in that position for a few minutes before the phone rang. Who the hell decided to call at this hour?! They're taking my time away from Shuuichi. I'll just let it ring. After four rings the caller hung up. Good.

After one minute I heard the phone ring again. I growled in annoyance.

"You should get that. It could be for you." Shuuichi said softly.

"Alright. Wait here. Can I trust you?" I asked. Shuuichi nodded.

After I placed him on the bed to lie down I walked downstairs to answer. I picked it up. "Hello."

"Oi, Kurama what took you so long? I've been calling," Yuusuke said on the other end.

"If I didn't answer I had other issues to deal with. What is it?" I said harshly in annoyance.

"Excuse me. Well anyways, Koenma wants us to meet him ASAP. He said that he found out important information."

"Tell the toddler that it can wait. I have something else to deal with here. If the baby protest I don't care I won't be going. Fill me in later." I hung up. I didn't want to deal with those people right now.

I went back upstairs to Shuuichi, my Shuuichi. I saw him fast asleep on the bed.

I lied down beside him and pulled him closer after putting the blanket over us so we won't freeze. He snuggled closer. Maybe I should do this often. Tonight there's no meeting or anything to do. I'll just be here with him. I drifted off to sleep.

TBC…

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