Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Innocent in the Dark ❯ Part 5 ( Chapter 5 )

Innocent in the Dark

Chapter 5

Kurama's POV

I woke up because something shifted and something was on top of me. (Kinshin: Free guesses who. ^_~) All I saw was red and instantly knew who it was. There was no one else that was in here. I smiled. I would never let anyone see me smile, except Shuuichi of course. I can think of something to do in this position.

He looks so beautiful asleep. He looks good any time period.

I wrapped my arms around his waist and I felt him stir. Hmm I wonder how he would react if he woke up right now.

Shuuichi's POV

I felt warm and comfortable. Where am I anyways? Did I actually kill myself?

I lazily opened my eyes. Okay if I'm awake then I must still be in a dream. I felt arms encircle my waist. Wait a minute, who's here? My vision was filled with someone's chest. Well built too, if I might add. I don't remember sleeping with someone. I tilted my head to see who it was.

I tried to sit up too quick but I felt his arms holding me down. I blushed. I quickly hid my face from his view so that he wouldn't see me.

"Sleep well?" Kurama asked.

"Um, yeah I did." I responded.

He sat up, taking me with him, and scooted back until he was resting his back on the headboard. I think I turned another shade of red. What did you suspect? We're sitting in a.um.a way.

"Feel better?"

I nodded not trusting my voice to speak at the moment.

"Good. Don't scare me like that again."

What? Oh, my failed suicide attempt. I kept silent. I didn't know what to say. I think we went into those uncomfortable silences again. He was scared? I really need to do them in a convenient time where no one will be around. Alex said that she was going to get cyanide. I think I'm starting to regret my decision on the promise we made. It seems no matter if I get close to the door of death I always manage to cling on to life. It gave me some hope. I still never accepted the hope.

"C'mon we're going somewhere today. Get changed and I'll meet you downstairs." Kurama said.

I don't remember making any plans but I guess I could just go with him. After all it was a Monday and I don't really feel like going to school today.

"Alright." I got off him and went to get changed. I had to choose clothing that did cover the rest of my other cuts in other places. I know he only saw the left arm it's better if he didn't find out.

I wonder where are we going. I don't really feel like going anywhere.

~ He's taking you to see a psychiatrist. ~

Who said that?

~ I'm your conscience. ~

My conscience?

~ Of course. ~

Great voices appear in my head.

~ I assure you Shuuichi I'm not lying. He's taking you to see a psychiatrist. I heard him talk to the detective after you fell asleep. ~

He wouldn't take me there. He doesn't like the doctors.

~ Don't say I didn't warn you. If you go on a subway station today then you're definitely going to see a psychiatrist. ~

I heard the doorbell ring. Hmm I wonder if what my conscience said is true and the person is the psychiatrist. I hid myself upstairs where I could hear the conversation.

"Are you sure this is going to work?" I heard Kurama say.

"Yeah, they've helped people before." The other said. I knew instantly that it was Yuusuke.

So Yuusuke did give Kurama the advice.

"So this psychiatrist helps people?"

"Yeah I told you already. Sheesh. Are you cautious about everyone?"

I decided not to hear the rest of the conversation. So 'it' was right. I sighed. I didn't want to get help. It'll just make me wish for death even more.

I'll take a shower it'll help me calm down.

After getting dressed and making sure that all my cuts are covered up I headed downstairs. I didn't see Yuusuke around so my guess is he left. I saw that Kurama was in clothes and that he had human ears and no tail. Okay what the hell happened? Better not press on it. I think it was Koenma's idea.

"Ready to go?" he asked. I simply nodded. That was all I could do. It was going to be a long day. I guess I could cut myself later.

* * *

My conscience was right. We just happened to end up in a subway station. I gaze towards the tracks. I wonder what would happen if someone accidentally pushed me. I stood at the edge of the platform. It was crowded and Kurama said that he'd be back.

The intercom came on. Someone please push me.

As if the dreamer answered my request someone bumped into me and I was laying on the tracks. I couldn't very well get up I was hurt. I think I bruised my side.

I saw the lights of the express coming. I heard people shouting. I was in a trance and I couldn't very well do anything. I was pulled out of it when someone grabbed my arm and hauled me up on the platform. Apparently that grip didn't let go of my arm.

Oh no. He might think that I tried to kill myself again.

"Baka what were you thinking?" Kurama said.

"I was pushed by accident Kurama. I didn't jump in front of it, I swear." That's the truth anyway.

He looked at me for a moment to see if I was lying. "Alright I'll accept it. If it happens a second time I don't think that I'll believe it."

I sighed in relief. Well I was probably going to make myself trip towards the tracks.

There goes a well-deserved lie.

We got on the express and sat down. I just stared out the window looking at the scenery passing by. I didn't want to go to the psychiatrist. It was just going to be a pain.

~ See what did I tell you. ~

Go away.

~ Is Shuuichi feeling a little down? ~

I blocked him out.

~ Why don't you threaten him? ~

That certainly caught my attention. What do you mean threaten?

~ Not necessarily him, threaten him by saying that you'll kill yourself if he does send you there. You can use the razor that you kept in your pocket. ~

I felt around in my pocket for the razor. I had to take it with me. I grasped it but didn't pull it out in case Kurama takes it away.

~ Don't worry about him. I'll take care of it if you let me take over. ~

What do you mean take over?

~ I can take over and pretend to be you. You'll be asleep and I'll just act like you. So that way you have nothing to worry about. ~

Um..okay.

I instantly felt sleepy and closed my eyes.

~ Shuuichi's POV ~

Finally free of human captivity. Fool has no idea that I'm his demon side. I couldn't come out before when Youko Kurama happened to take residence in here. Now that I was able to gather enough energy I was able to force him out. Now how was I supposed to get out of this predicament? Oh yeah threaten the youko into saying that I'll be throwing 'my' life away.

The express stopped and Kurama started to get up but I stopped him.

"Let's wait till everyone gets out." I said in my best not-sounding-evil kind of voice. He agreed and sat back down waiting for all the passengers to get out.

After what seemed like hours the express was empty. I felt for the razor and grinned. I don't think that Kurama would like 'me' to die now would he.

"Let's go." He said. I didn't stand up. Instead I did my best acting as Shuuichi as I will be.

"I'm not going anywhere." I said plainly.

"What?"

"That's right. And if you take me to see the psychiatrist I'll kill myself." I pulled out the razor and sliced the bandage off and placed the unsafe side on the delicate lifeline just to prove that I wasn't kidding.

He stared in what seemed to be shock and his expression looked hurt. Oh dear did I go a little overboard? I mentally smirked. After all this was my body too. I have every right to do as I wished.

I pressed it on my skin so that way he could be really convinced. I'm waiting for an answer here.

"Alright just put it away," he said finally. Good I was getting bored.

I put it away like I promised and in my pocket. "And don't take me again otherwise I will really do it. Don't bother stealing it off my pocket. There are always meaningless accidents that happen in the streets." I'll let the human Shuuichi drive.

Kurama's POV

What the hell? I look at Shuuichi. It seemed like he had a 180-degree turn on his attitude. I didn't know if someone took control of him or something.

"Well what are you waiting for Kurama let's go. I want to check out this city." He said excitedly. Now he's back to normal. Could this be connected to the dark aura a few days ago? I'll dwell on that later. I exited to the platform where Shuuichi was waiting for me.

* * *

We spent the rest of the day touring around the city. I'd do anything to make Shuuichi happy. But I still can't get over the situation on the express. I knew something was up. I thought silently.

"What's wrong Kurama are you tired? Am I troubling you?" he asked.

"No you're not. I enjoy spending time with you." I said. I didn't want him thinking that he's a burden to me again. "We should be heading back it's getting late."

"I guess your right." Shuuichi sighed in disappointment. I would say that we could stay longer but I didn't think that we could go anymore. I still need to think about the incident on the train.

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