Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Internet Romance ❯ Internet Search Engine ( Chapter 3 )

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Chapter 3: Internet Search Engine





What am I doing here? How did I even get here? The last thing I remember was...Hiei, and Kurama. Hiei, I was trying to get away from him. He was going to hurt me. Yusuke wrinkled his face. I was already hurting. He hates me, that's why. But, why isn't there any pain here? I...I can't feel...anything. Love, hate, happiness, sadness...it's all gone. Am I...dead? Did I finally die?

Yusuke looked around him. He was back in the park, near the pond. He remembered leaving it early that morning. Or...Is it still the same day? He looked around. Hiei was nowhere to be seen. The sun was shining, but Yusuke couldn't feel the warmth. The wind was blowing, but he couldn't feel it as it touched his skin. There was no sound at all. No birds, no animals, no...nothing. Everything was all wrong to Yusuke. All wrong.

What is this place? Did I really die? If so, I want to go somewhere else. This place is too...wrong. It's nothing like I wanted. Where's Keiko? If I'm really dead, why isn't Keiko here? Where is everyone? I want out, and I want out now.

"Let me out. I want to go home."

"You are home Yusuke."

Yusuke spun around and faced the person who had spoken to him. It was none other than Kurama.

"Kurama, what...what do you mean, 'I am home?' How can I be home?"

"Don't you see, this is your home now Yusuke."

"No...that can't be right. This isn't where I belong. Kurama, let me go back. I want to go back now."

"You can't go back Yusuke," a second voice said. Keiko walked up next to Kurama.

"K-Keiko...?"

"Yes, it's me Yusuke."

"It's so good to see you Keiko...it's been too long..." Yusuke ran to give Keiko a hug but went right through her. When he turned around to see where she had gone...he saw Keiko lying on the ground in a pool of blood. The scene had changed. They were in the Makai.

Yusuke ran over to Keiko. He pulled her into his arms and laid her head in his lap. Tears fell from his closed eyes as he rocked her body gently.

Kurama came up behind him. "Yusuke...what happened!!??"

"I don't know, I just found her like this," Yusuke replied, his voice cracking with his tears.

"I know what happened," another voice said, entering the silence. "He killed her Kurama. He did it with his own two hands."

"Hiei, what are you talking about...? Who killed Keiko?"

"Yusuke killed her."



Yusuke shot straight up in the bed. He looked around, breathing erratically for a few seconds. He closed his eyes, and began to cry. The nightmare had changed.

Just...make it stop. Yusuke was up and out of the bed in seconds. He opened the nearby window and crawled out of it. He didn't think he could deal with Kurama right now, and he knew he couldn't see Hiei. He still didn't know what the fire demon had read from his mind. He sighed, landing softly on the ground, and silently made his way away from the house.

He made it around the corner of the street before he was caught. Hiei appeared out of nowhere and stood calmly in front of the escaping teen.

"You shouldn't be up Yusuke."

"What do you care Hiei?" Yusuke brushed past and continued on his way. "You hate me, shouldn't you be glad I might be dying of some unknown illness?" he tossed over his shoulder. "Just leave me alone."

"Yusuke," Hiei said calmly.

Yusuke turned around. It was only his fast reflexes that stopped the black rose from touching the ground. When he looked up from the delicate flower, Hiei was nowhere to be seen. He looked down at the flower again, wondering what was up with Hiei.

He knows something. He heard it in my mind. Roses. He heard about Roses. What else does he know? If he's read any further into my thoughts, then he knows everything. He'd have definitely figured it out. Where's some place to disappear? The Makai is out of the question; Hiei can easily find me there. Besides, with my power being virtually gone, I don't think that's a good place to go. Somewhere here. The park? No, Hiei can find me there too. Keiko's grave? Kurama would look there. Where is somewhere they'd never think to look?

A light went off in Yusuke's head. Of course. Why didn't I think of it sooner? He took off running to a place not even Kurama would think of. The school.

Yusuke easily jumped the fence enclosing the school for the summer. He shook his head at the memories that flooded over him. Sighing, Yusuke climbed to the roof of the school. He sat down against the door to the staircase and looked up. The sun was setting, and the sky ahead of him was flushed yellow, orange, and neon pink, before fading off into purple and navy blue. He could just see the first star of the night shine. Smiling wistfully, he made a wish.

I wish love would find me. The thought was barely through his mind before he heard a voice calling his name.

"Yusuke!"

Shit, it's Kurama! How the hell did he find me so fast?! Yusuke's eyes narrowed. Damnit...Hiei...without strength, I can't keep him out of my head. But shit, what does it matter if I go off and disappear? He hates me, so why in the hell would he tell Kurama where to find me?

"Yusuke! I know you're here somewhere!"

The voice had gotten louder. Yusuke sighed and stood up, eyes focused once more on the sunset before him. The sun had almost disappeared beneath the horizon. The sky was blood red. A sign of things to come. He shook his head. Might as well get this over with.

He walked to the side of the roof and looked down. There was Kurama, in all his beauty. His face was marred only by a worried expression and tears in his eyes. Yusuke's heart dropped. I made Kurama cry. "Up here Kurama."

The redhead below looked directly up and spotted Yusuke's form against the sky. He sighed and quickly joined his friend. He wrapped his arms around Yusuke and hugged him fiercely.

"Don't ever do that again Yusuke," Kurama said, in a voice that shook with repressed tears.

Yusuke wrapped his arms around his friend. He rubbed his back and tried to calm him down. "I won't Kurama. I promise. I won't leave you."

Kurama pulled back and looked at Yusuke with a tear stained face. "If you ever worry me like that again..."

"I won't Kurama, I won't."

"You mean so much to me Yusuke. I just don't want anything to happen to you."

"Nothing will. I'm fine Kurama, really, I just need to be alone for awhile, that's all."

"You won't do anything stupid will you?"

Yusuke smiled and leaned in, kissing Kurama lightly. "Promise."

Kurama smiled and moved back. He nodded and moved to the edge of the roof. "I'll wait until you're ready to talk."

"I'll talk to you as soon as I feel I can. Don't worry, nothing will happen."

Kurama nodded and disappeared over the side of the roof. Yusuke sighed and turned away, going back to sit down. The sun was long gone now, leaving only a pale purple on the horizon. Yusuke sighed and looked up. The stars were now clearly visible. Yusuke looked, nothing more, just looked. He leaned back and lay down, lifting the black rose to his lips. He gently kissed the delicate petals and breathed in the heavenly smell of the flower.

Roses...will I ever really know? Will I ever figure out who you are? And Devil. What about you? Will I ever find out who you really are? There's something about you two that I'm missing. Something I should really know. It's right there for me to see. You seem so much like...

Yusuke sat up. He had it. That was what had bothered him so much. They were too much alike. Hiei...Kurama...you two are...Fire Devil and Kissed Roses. It makes so much sense now. How could I not see it before?!

Yusuke grinned, then froze as he realized something else...Kurama likes us both!!!! Hiei...likes Kurama...It was the only logical conclusion Yusuke could come up with. He felt his heart break again. Hiei loved Kurama, and Kurama loved Hiei. He sighed, knowing it was only right. If Hiei could be happy with Kurama, then that's what Yusuke wanted. He loved the fire demon so much, he would stand back and let his heart break to see him happy. "Ironic..." He looked at the black rose sitting in his hand. Black. Just like my life. How appropriate.

Yusuke was about to jump off the building when he remembered his strength, or lack there of, and decided climbing would definitely be better. Carefully, he slipped down the drain and landed easily on the ground with a soft thump. Sighing, Yusuke walked to his house, not Kurama's. He didn't know if he could talk to him yet. He flicked on his computer and got on the Internet. He saw a familiar name on his Buddy List and sent him a message.

Blacknight21: Hey

FireDevil: hey, wuts up??

Blacknight21: not too much, just trying to calm down

FireDevil: ??

Blacknight21: its nothing

FireDevil: u cant lie to me u kno

Blacknight21: yea well, i had to try

FireDevil: y?? i'm not here to judge u

Blacknight21: i kno, but i'm still getting used to this whole, "share-everything-i'm-thinking" thing

FireDevil: well, u dont have to tell me everything, just tell me wuts wrong and i'll try and help

Blacknight21: *sighs* its about him

FireDevil: which one

Blacknight21: the one i love

FireDevil: did u tell him

Blacknight21: no...i cant

FireDevil: y not

Blacknight21: he already loves someone else

FireDevil: ??!!

Blacknight21: my thoughts exactly mixed with thoughts of suicide and complete and total depression

FireDevil: u should have told him anyway

Blacknight21: and do wut...watch as he laughed in my face...i couldnt do it...and then...

FireDevil: then wut...what else could possibly have happened to make things worse than they already are??

Blacknight21: he's in love with my friend

FireDevil: the 1 u thought u might have liked

Blacknight21: 1 and the same...and to make matters worse...he likes him back

FireDevil: seems to me like neither of them deserve u

Blacknight21: dont say that...i'm the one who doesnt deserve either of them...but enough of that...tell me about the one u love

FireDevil: *frowns but sighs and gives in anyway* *thoughtful silence*

Blacknight21: yea??

FireDevil: he's...thoughtful...he usually cares about everyone but himself...he makes decisions with his heart more often than his head...he's impulsive and he can be stubborn when he wants to...

Blacknight21: sounds a little like me

FireDevil: maybe, but from what i've seen...Roses is a lot like him

Blacknight21: *grins* i told u, u 2 could be meant for each other

FireDevil: *glares* are u really going to get back to that

Blacknight21: no, but i just like to prove my point

FireDevil: point taken...wut are u going to do about it

Blacknight21: about wut??

FireDevil: him and him

Blacknight21: nothing...

FireDevil: ???

Blacknight21: there's nothing i can do...they like each other...y shouldnt i let them be happy...

FireDevil: because it'll hurt u to see it

Blacknight21: i can live with that…believe me, i'd do anything to make them both happy...even if it means losing both of them forever

FireDevil: u really do love them both

Blacknight21: yea, i do...more than i even thought possible

FireDevil: maybe if u tell them, they'll surprise you

Blacknight21: highly unlikely

FireDevil: maybe, but not impossible

Blacknight21: it isnt worth the pain...if i tell them, they might not care...or they'll hate me for it...i dont think i could handle that 2...

FireDevil: you'll never kno until u try

Blacknight21: yea, and i'll never try because of the pain


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Yusuke sighed and shook his head, trying to fight the tears in his eyes. He had already known, so why did it hurt? He shut down his computer and left his room. He hadn't eaten in two days, but he had yet to feel hungry. Wiping his eyes of the unshed tears, he went outside and climbed to the roof. He shivered slightly against the cold, realizing that coming outside now without a shirt on was stupid. He leaned back and stared at the sky, not seeing anything. He didn't feel anything anymore either, now that he thought about it. Yusuke's eyes drifted shut and before he knew it, he had fallen asleep.





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Yusuke jolted awake. The nightmare had already come back. Laying his head in his hands, he tried to keep back the tears that came with the memory of the continuing nightmare. His shoulders shook as he repressed his emotions and sat up. He was freezing. Looking around, he realized he was still on the roof of his house. He glanced at the sky and guessed he had been asleep maybe 2 hours. Wiping his arm across his eyes, he stood up, quickly falling back down. Yusuke gasped at the pain that riddled his body. He frowned. He shouldn't be this weak. He struggled to his feet, wrapping an arm around his stomach to keep himself from collapsing again.

He breathed shakily and closed his eyes, willing the dizziness to leave his body, enabling him to get back down from the roof. He shook his head, clearing his mind, and opened his eyes, glancing around. He walked jerkily to the edge of the roof and glanced at the tree sitting near him. Sighing and hoping for the best, he jumped to the nearest branch, landing gracefully on it. He groaned and crouched, closing his eyes immediately, hoping for the world to stop spinning. He slipped down to sit stiffly on the branch, until he thought he could move without collapsing again. He glanced up into the tree's canopy, jumping and nearly falling from his perch when his eyes met with blood red eyes. Regaining his balance, Yusuke looked around quickly, but the eyes had disappeared, making him think that he had imagined it.

Yusuke decided it would be best to get inside as quick as possible. He gripped the branch he was sitting on, and swung down to the next branch. He quickly made his way down the tree, and finally landed with a soft thump on the ground. Groaning softly in pain, he made his way into the house.

Sighing with sadness, Yusuke flicked on his computer again. Shaking his head, he waited for the Internet to come up, then logged onto AIM. Seems fitting I'd have to talk to him so soon.


Blacknight21: morning

KissedRoses: can't sleep??

Blacknight21: u could say that

KissedRoses: whats wrong??

Blacknight21: my life's screwed

KissedRoses: what happened

Blacknight21: him and him

KissedRoses: the guys u like

Blacknight21: yea

KissedRoses: what about them

Blacknight21: i found out that they love each other

KissedRoses: !!

Blacknight21: tell me about it

KissedRoses: are u sure though

Blacknight21: almost positive

KissedRoses: u shouldnt give up

Blacknight21: y not, its 2 late for me and either of them

KissedRoses: but u said almost positive

Blacknight21: yea so??

KissedRoses: that's not a definite answer

Blacknight21: and??

KissedRoses: and u could be wrong

Blacknight21: from wut i've seen and heard lately, i'm sure that they like each other

KissedRoses: r u going to tell them??

Blacknight21: wut...that i like them?

KissedRoses: yea

Blacknight21: no

KissedRoses: y not? it cant hurt to try

Blacknight21: it can hurt...they'll hate me for getting in between them...i'm fine just watching them be happy...thats all i really need

KissedRoses: but wut about wut u want

Blacknight21: wut i want isnt important...what is important to me, is their happiness...thats all i need...for them to be happy

KissedRoses: no, u need them both...r u sure they don't like u 2...?

Blacknight21: 1 likes me 2, but the other hates me...how many times to i have to go over this???

KissedRoses: its still worth a try isnt it?

Blacknight21: i dont want to get my heart broken...i dont think i'd be able to stick around for long if they rejected me

KissedRoses: but...

Blacknight21: no buts...i'm going to watch them be happy...maybe i'll find some1 for me one day...

KissedRoses: u kno that isnt true...u kno youre only happy when youre with them

Blacknight21: yea, well, i have to put my feelings aside for those of my friends...its the only thing i can do

KissedRoses: but...i dont think thats right...

Blacknight21: i kno...believe me i do, but theres nothing else i can do

KissedRoses: yes there is...tell them...you have to try

Blacknight21: *sad smile* i cant risk my heart...

KissedRoses: everyday is a risk...youve lived this long...arent u willing to risk it all for love

Blacknight21: no, i'm not...not if it makes my friends sad

KissedRoses: but...

Blacknight21: no...i cant put them through the pain of losing me...if they rejected me, then i'd commit suicide...simple as that...theyd feel guilty and always would, plus they would miss me, at least one of them would...i just cant do that to them

KissedRoses: please try...watch them more...see if youre wrong

Blacknight21: i will, believe me, i'll be watching them forever, but i dont think it'll help…its just going to hurt the more i watch them

KissedRoses: youre going to put yourself though all that pain, just to see them happy??

Blacknight21: i'd do anything for them...anything

KissedRoses: thats tru love...u cant give it up

Blacknight21: i dont have a choice...cant you see that the longer i watch them, the harder life will get...the more i'll wish i was one of them...if i told them, that would make it even harder to bare...i cant do it...

KissedRoses: i care 2 much about u to see u in this type of pain...i dont like it...u have to do something

Blacknight21: something like wut...wut can i do that wont screw things up even more???

KissedRoses: ...tell...the...truth...

Blacknight21: *laughs coldly* the truth has only gotten me hurt so far...its only brought me pain...its only torn me up inside...wut good is truth when it only causes pain???

KissedRoses: truth is there for a reason...its always going to be there, whether u like it or not...i dont want u going through this...especially when u love them both so much...

Blacknight21: theres nothing i can do about it...

KissedRoses: youre not going to listen to me...youre not going to tell them...are u

Blacknight21: i cant...i just cant go through the pain

KissedRoses: *sighs* i guess theres nothing left then...nothing left to keep u happy

Blacknight21: happy??!! i cant even remember the last time i was happy...happiness has become a dream to me...a really far off, faded dream that i can only just recall...sometimes i wish i could be happy again...i wish i could have them both...i wish that we could all be with each other...i wish that u and Devil could find your happiness...but happiness doesnt exist to me anymore

KissedRoses: i'm happy when i'm talking to u and Devil...a lot happier than i've been in a long time...

Blacknight21: i'm glad i could make u happy...at least one of us is...

KissedRoses: how can i make u happy??

Blacknight21: u cant ...i'm srry, but i think i've lost my reasons to smile for the last time

KissedRoses: dont say that...please, just try and be happy...for me??

Blacknight21: that sounds like something my friend told me a few days ago...he asked me to try and be happy, for him...i'd do anything for him...

KissedRoses: does that mean you'll be happy...i mean, if he asked u to be happy...r u going to be???

Blacknight21: anything for him...and for u now too, and Devil

KissedRoses: thank u for trying...i know it hurts...but someday, you'll find happiness again

Blacknight21: i wait for that day...but i wont hold my breath...


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Yusuke sighed, glancing at the clock on his computer. 5:30 AM. Another night of sleep lost. Yusuke got up after putting his computer in sleep mode, sure he'd be using it again that day. Walking to his bathroom, he turned on the water, getting ready for a shower. Stripping, he climbed into the stall and closed the curtain, turning the showerhead on. The water washed over his face, erasing all traces of the tears he had let slip.

Yusuke leaned back against the wall and closed his eyes, breathing deeply, willing away the flood of emotions threatening to break though.

Why is my life so cursed? I truly should have expected as much, but I don't have to like it. Hiei and Kurama...they mean so much to me. I couldn't bare it if they left me. Do I tell them I know? What about Roses and Devil, do I tell them I know who they really are? Why is it so hard to go through life?

Yusuke slipped his fingers through his shampoo-covered hair. He leaned back into the water, allowing the water to rinse away the white soap, wishing his troubles could be washed away so easily. Finishing, he turned off the water and wrung what little water there was out of his hair. He stepped out of the stall and into the steam filled bathroom beyond, grabbing a towel on his way. He quickly dried off and wrapped the towel around his waist, opening the door and moving out to find some clothes.

"Morning Yusuke," a soft voice said, shocking the teen out of his thoughts.

"K-Kurama," he squeaked, almost letting the towel slip, but catching himself before anything fell. "What are you doing here?"

"I came by to check on you. When you didn't answer the door, I became worried and came in. When I found you in the shower, I decided to wait for you to come out."

Yusuke blushed furiously as Kurama slid his gaze over his still slightly damp skin. "I see...um, do you mind, I kinda want to get dressed?"

"Not at all Yusuke." Kurama smirked and leaned back in the chair he was currently occupying. "Don't let me stop you."

Yusuke's blush turned even darker. He couldn't believe Kurama was just sitting in his room, plainly staring at him, and apparently waiting for him to get dressed in front of him. "Umm."

"What's wrong Yusuke, you're not embarrassed in front of me, are you?"

"I-uh, no, of course not. Why should I be?" Yusuke moved to his dresser and quickly pulled out a black T-shirt. Bending over, he reached into a different drawer, looking for a pair of jeans. Kurama happily stared at Yusuke's ass while trying not to laugh at his friend's embarrassment. Yusuke stood up, taking a pair of tight, form fitting jeans with him. He opened the top drawer and pulled out some underwear, hiding it between his jeans and shirt. Turning, he quickly smiled at Kurama before moving towards the bathroom once more, this time to get dressed.

Kurama grinned and shook his head at his friend's modesty. "Yusuke, you are embarrassed. Why?"

"I'm not embarrassed!" Yusuke protested, spinning on his heel to stare evenly at the grinning Kurama.

"Then why are you blushing?"

"I...I'm not! I'm just hot, that's all."

"So I've noticed." Kurama's voice was covered in ulterior meanings, but Yusuke was too worked up to notice. He slipped into the bathroom under the piercing gaze of his fox-spirited friend. Once in the safety the room offered, Yusuke allowed the sigh to pass his lips as he leaned back against the door.

What the hell?! He's fuckin' playful! Yusuke shook his head, something was definitely up.

"Do you need some help in there Yusuke?"

"Umm, no, really I'm fine. J-just give me a minute!"

"Of course Yusuke."

He leaned back, banging his head against the door repeatedly, trying to clear his head of the confusing thoughts racing through it.

"Yusuke? What's that noise? Are you alright?"

"Really Kurama, I'm fine." Sighing, Yusuke moved away from the door, dropping the towel to the floor. Shifting slightly, he moved to stand before the vanity mirror above the sink. He sighed again, leaning heavily against the counter. He pulled on his underclothes and reached for his pants.

"Yusuke?"

"Hmm?"

"Where did you get this rose?"

"Rose?"

"Yeah, actually roses. There are several black roses out here, and I was just wondering..."

Yusuke was out the door in a second. He skidded to a halt when he saw Kurama picking up a black rose from his dresser and adding it to several already in his hand. "What are...where did you find them?"

"Around your room. The first was lying on your pillow and the rest, I just followed my nose to. There's one dozen of them, and I just wanted to know where you found such beautiful and rare black roses."

"I didn't find them. You did."

"What do you mean..." Kurama stopped suddenly, finally aware of Yusuke's current state of dress. He was in nothing more than a pair of blood red silk boxers. He openly stared at Yusuke, easily taking in every inch of bare skin he could see. It wasn't the first time he'd seen Yusuke like this, but Yusuke had grown up and matured since then, and his body was even better looking than before. He raked his eyes over the teen in front of him.

Yusuke stared at the roses in Kurama's hand. He hadn't even known they were there. Had someone brought them while he was asleep, and he just didn't see them before he got into his shower? Had Hiei brought them while he was in the shower? That thought alone was crazy. Hiei would never do something like that for anyone, let alone someone he hated. Unless...unless he's trying to get inside my head...or already has, and is trying to mess with my mind. He shook his head. Nothing made sense anymore. Yusuke looked up from the roses and saw Kurama staring heatedly at him. He blinked and stepped back unconsciously, slightly nervous under the piercing, appraising gaze of the kitsune.

Kurama set the roses on the bedside table and moved forward, still staring, completely entranced with Yusuke's muscled physique. Yusuke took another step backward, blinking again, trying to break the staring contest he was having with his friend. Kurama's steps grew bigger, and he easily gained on Yusuke, backing him against the wall near the bathroom door. Yusuke squeaked when he felt his back hit the solid object preventing his escape, and looked around quickly, trying to find an escape.

Kurama's arms quickly, yet silently, came to rest on either side of Yusuke's shoulders, preventing his escape. Yusuke squeaked again, a little lower pitched, and met the intense gaze of Kurama. He leaned back, hitting his head against the wall. He gulped, finally admitting he had no where to run, and no where to hide.

Kurama's voice was an octave lower when he finally spoke again. "Why, Yusuke, are you blushing? It couldn't be because of me, now, could it?"

Yusuke shook his head again, unable to talk because he was afraid his voice would shake if he did.

"Oh, but I think you are. And all because I'm close to you." Kurama leaned in further. "Is it because you like me Yusuke?"

There was an inaudible whimper from Yusuke, but Kurama's sharp hearing caught it. He smirked to himself, thinking it was all too easy making Yusuke into a puddle of goo. Again, Yusuke's head shook slightly, but the reason for the action was unclear to the both of them.

"Do you want me to move back Yusuke?" Kurama's voice dropped a little more and became alluring and erotic to Yusuke's ears.

There was a negative headshake from Yusuke, who was slightly relaxing, even caught against the wall as he was.

"Do you want me to leave Yusuke? Or should I stay and, have a little fun?"

A small moan drifted from Yusuke's throat, all the answer Kurama was getting.

"What was that Yusuke? I couldn't quite hear you." Kurama moved in closer, his lips feathering over Yusuke's as he spoke. "You'll have to speak up itooshi. Shall I stay, or shall I leave?"

Yusuke's eyes slipped shut, unable to remain connected to the emerald orbs searching his very soul. "Stay," he whispered, even knowing that he'd lose Kurama to Hiei soon. He threw away his doubts, and pressed his lips against Kurama's, aching for the knowledge that someone, anyone, loved and needed him.

Kurama easily and greedily accepted the kiss, moving closer to Yusuke's body until they were fully pressed against one another. His tongue slipped out, tracing lightly over Yusuke's lips before demanding an entrance that was immediately granted. He eased his tongue past Yusuke's teeth, tracing it over the little fangs there. A bead of blood welled on his tongue and was promptly licked away by Yusuke's tongue dancing lightly over his own.

A small keening moan pierced the air, silence split by Yusuke's soft sound. Kurama pressed Yusuke harder against the wall, wanting, needing, to be closer to him. His lips ravaged Yusuke's, claiming him as his own. He never wanted to let go, but the need for air demanded he do so. Pulling back, he gazed at Yusuke's flushed face possessively before trailing his lips down Yusuke's neck. Another soft moan broke the silence, this time slightly lower than the first.

Yusuke fisted his hands at his side, clenching them tightly, before moving them up to encircle Kurama's neck, holding him closer to his neck. Kurama easily accepted the hold and happily continued kissing the younger teen. He sucked gently in one place, leaving a red mark when he finally moved to the other side of his neck. He did the same thing there, sucking gently until another red mark formed. The second time however, he nibbled lightly at the skin and then licked at the bruised area before biting down hard, truly marking Yusuke as his.

Yusuke's scream cut through the room, his grip on Kurama tightening immensely. He held onto the redhead, willing the pain to leave his body and for the pleasure to return. His tensely coiled muscles refused to relax, dreading more pain. Kurama's hands moved from the wall to glide easily over Yusuke's body, aching to touch every square inch he could reach. His hands drew light patterns over the skin, trying to ease some of the pain by distracting his marked friend. His tongue lightly lapped at the skin, sucking the blood away and easing the bruised area.

Slowly, Yusuke's body relaxed, realizing that Kurama wasn't going to hurt him again, and feeling the pain in his neck start to leave. His hands loosened their hold slightly, moving down and around to trace his name on Kurama's chest, claiming him as his own as well.

Kurama smirked against Yusuke's neck and slowly trailed his lips up, reaching his ear. He let his soft pants puff lightly into Yusuke's ear, exciting the boy further. A groan left Yusuke's parted lips, passing through the heavy breathing. His hand's fisted in Kurama's shirt, tightening as he felt Kurama's hands tracing light circles around his hips at the waistband of his boxers. His lips found their way to Kurama's neck and he gently kissed the pale ivory skin offered to him. He lapped at the juncture before nibbling lightly. When Kurama gasped softly, Yusuke bit down, marking Kurama as he had been marked.

Kurama's loud moan pierced through the room, mingling and mixing with Yusuke's loud groan of pleasure. He used his tongue to sooth the skin, sucking lightly at the mark. Kurama's hands tightened on Yusuke's hips, fingers holding hard enough to leave bruises behind.

Slowly Yusuke pulled back, sensing that the pain had faded, and cautiously moved his eyes up to meet Kurama's, afraid slightly of what he'd see in his friend's eyes. He was shocked to find that the light emerald orbs had darkened to a deep forest green with flecks of amber gold, burning with an intense fire that wouldn't be stopped.

Kurama's lips slowly tilted up in an inviting smile, showing Yusuke that he was far from mad at him. He slowly moved one of his hands up and placed it over Yusuke's heart, leaning in to whisper in his ear.

"Glad to know you've let your heart melt for me."

Yusuke's eyes closed as he sighed, nodding his head and allowing a small smile to grace his lips.

"Me too Kurama, me too." He leaned against his fox and wrapped his arms around his neck, pulling them closer together and snuggling his head against the other's shoulder. A soft moan flitted through his lips at the friction moving caused.

Kurama looked down at Yusuke's open face, seeing the pain he felt constantly, but also the passion and love buried beneath it all. He hugged him closer before picking him up into his arms, easily carrying Yusuke's decreasing weight. He was worried about his friend's health and was going to ask him about it when he felt a soft pair of lips gliding over his exposed neck. He groaned, halting his journey to the bed.

Yusuke trailed his tongue along Kurama's neck, lightly tracing the bite mark he had left on the pale skin. He moaned softly, pulling back and letting his warm breath ghost over the mark. Kurama groaned and carefully sat on the bed, holding Yusuke close to him, keeping him on his lap. Yusuke's hold on Kurama tightened and a silent tear made its way down his cheek, falling softly to land gently against Kurama's neck.

Feeling the tear, Kurama pulled back to look into Yusuke's emotion filled face. Yusuke shook his head, trying to hide his pain from Kurama, but the fox wouldn't let him slip behind his mask again. He lifted Yusuke's head up, tilting his face towards him and forcing dark brown eyes to meet with deep jade ones. Keeping the eye contact, Kurama slowly bent in, feathering his lips over Yusuke's.

Yusuke's eyes widened at the amount of feelings felt in the kiss, and was frightened by them, but leaned against Kurama nonetheless. His lips parted slowly, giving the other access to him once more. His eyes slowly slipped shut, unable to stay open with the intense flood of emotions racing through him. His hands tightened around Kurama's neck further, clinging to him for all he was worth, wanting to stay in his arms forever, always being loved like he was now. A soft moan slipped through his lips as he parted them to Kurama's tongue when it asked for entrance by lightly licking at his lips.

Kurama heard the moan and smiled, knowing Yusuke was feeling only the pleasure he was receiving. Turning slowly, he laid Yusuke on the bed against his pillows, never breaking the soft kiss he shared with the half demon. He leaned over the teen, his legs coming up to straddle the other's slim waist. When he felt Yusuke's body tense, he pulled back.

Yusuke looked up at Kurama with fear in his eyes.

Smiling softly, Kurama leaned down, bringing their faces close together.

"First time with a male Yusuke?"

Slowly Yusuke shook his head, his fear and nervousness growing.

"First time on bottom?"

Again Yusuke shook his head, trying to keep the eye contact with Kurama.

The fox was puzzled. If it wasn't Yusuke's first time with a male, nor his first time on bottom...then why else would he be nervous...? A light went off in his head as a thought hit him. "First time, with anyone?"

Blushing a pale pink, Yusuke adverted his eyes to the ceiling, trying not to seem too embarrassed. His blush intensified when Kurama placed a light kiss on his cheek.

Smiling, Kurama brushed Yusuke's bangs out of his face so their eyes could meet again, provided that Yusuke ever stop looking at the ceiling. "Yusuke, look at me." When Yusuke didn't respond right away, Kurama decided he needed a little encouragement. He leaned closer and captured Yusuke's lips in a soft, warm kiss, initiated to make him more open to Kurama.

When the fox pulled back, he was delighted to hear a soft moan of protest from Yusuke, followed quickly by his eyes falling from the ceiling to meet and clash with him. The blush still lingered on Yusuke's cheeks, making him look vulnerable and childlike, and while the former was true, the latter was far from it. Yusuke was anything but a child.

"Yusuke, are you embarrassed because you've never been with anyone else before?"

Flushing pink again, Yusuke slowly nodded, not trusting himself to speak yet.

Kurama smiled down at him and cupped his face with one hand, running his thumb over Yusuke's lips. "If you'll let me," Kurama leaned down to capture Yusuke's lips in a soft, feathered butterfly kiss. "I want to be your first."

Startled brown eyes widened. Yusuke couldn't believe what Kurama had just said. He wanted his fox, yes, but before he let anything happen, he wanted him to know the truth. He sat up, softly pushing Kurama back to sit cross-legged on the bed.

When Yusuke finally managed to calm down enough to talk, he allowed his eyes to meet Kurama's curious green gaze. "Kurama...I want you to be my first too."

"Then Yusuke..." But Yusuke held up a hand, effectively stopping Kurama in mid sentence.

"Wait Kurama, I'm not finished yet." He took a deep breath to calm his nerves. "I want you to be my first, but there's something you have to know first." Getting a nod from Kurama, Yusuke continued before he could change his mind and back out. "I love Hiei, Kurama." Seeing Kurama's face fall and looking like his heart had just been broken, Yusuke was quick to finish what he had started. "But I love you too, Kurama." He leaned in, capturing the startled redhead in a soft innocent kiss. Pulling back slightly, he whispered against his fox's lips. "I love you too." He dipped in again, this time for a deeper, more intense touch. Moaning softly, his tongue slipped out to trace Kurama's lips, begging for entrance, but when it was given, Yusuke didn't accept the invitation at first, preferring to tease Kurama instead. Wrapping his arms around his kitsune's neck, he pulled him back with him. They landed softly against the pile of pillows, Kurama between Yusuke's spread legs, still locked in a blood boiling kiss.

Kurama pulled back, green eyes dancing with an all consuming fire. He dusted feathery kisses over Yusuke's face, all the while running his hands over the teen's body, memorizing every detail. Yusuke was as pliant as putty in his hands. He reveled in every touch given and gifted Kurama in return with a symphony of sounds.

Yusuke managed to collect his thoughts, even with Kurama nibbling on his neck, and roughly yet gently pulled the redhead's shirt up, whimpering softly to get Kurama to sit up so it could be removed entirely. His fox complied, sitting up and very slowly removing his shirt, using his movements to tease Yusuke further. Said half-demon was enraptured with Kurama's movements. He watched the kitsune closely, admiring the simple yet elegant grace that Kurama's actions contained.

Unable to take Kurama's innocent strip tease any longer, Yusuke sat up, pulling the shirt off and throwing it to the floor where it landed, forgotten, next to a single black rose. Running his hands over Kurama's bare chest, he placed delicate ghost kisses on his neck and shoulders, occasionally leaving marks behind when he couldn't resist the taste of his fox. Lightly, Yusuke's hands danced over Kurama's nipples, eliciting a sudden whimper from the startled, but very pleased, redhead.

Kurama's hands came up to rest on Yusuke's shoulders just as the teen had reached the waistband of his jeans. He felt an insistent, light tugging, and when the button finally came undone, the hand disappeared inside instantly. Kurama groaned suddenly, leaning his head on the half-demon's shoulder, sucking and nipping gently to quiet his moans. Regaining his unraveling control, he pushed Yusuke back down against the bed, pulling Yusuke's hands away from his body and pinning them above his head against the pillow.

Yusuke moaned softly, gazing up at the redhead with deep brown eyes, clouded with lust and passion. Smirking, he leaned down, licking his way up Yusuke's chest. Yusuke hissed at the friction and tried desperately to pull his hands from Kurama's grip, but couldn't seem to overpower the controlling redhead. He whimpered softly, eyes pleading, and laced his fingers with Kurama's. He was desperate. He wanted Kurama, and he wanted him now.

Kurama stopped in the center of Yusuke's chest, right between the two dusky rose nipples. He let his breath dance across one of the rose buds before slipping his tongue out to lightly flick over it, drawing a sharp yelp of surprise from his tormented lover. Yusuke arched his back, digging his head further into the pillow and baring his neck for Kurama to take, which he promptly did. Scraping his teeth over the offered skin, Kurama nibbled lightly, leaving pale pink marks behind as he traveled across the tan skin of Yusuke's neck and shoulders.

Moans softly fell from Yusuke's parted lips as Kurama bit and suckled gently against a spot on his neck that he had found to be extremely sensitive. Slowly and carefully, trying not to alert the other, Yusuke pulled his hands out of the grip and trailed his hands over Kurama's chest, drawing a soft groan and a irrepressible shudder from the fox when he danced his fingers lower over his stomach. The muscles of the kitsune's abdomen clenched as Yusuke's fingers dipped closer to his jeans, drawing a startled gasp from the controlling fox, resulting in a clearly visible love bite on Yusuke's neck.

Yusuke hissed softly, loving the pain and the pleasure that accompanied Kurama's bite. He leaned into the questing lips as his hands managed to pull the pants down a little, revealing pale skin that he had never seen before. His breath caught in his throat when he felt Kurama's soft pants in his ear, followed by his deeply seductive voice whispering to him.

"You're mine Yusuke...never forget that."

Yusuke's entire body flushed at the domineering tone in Kurama's voice. He wanted to be possessed, commanded...taken. He wanted to be under someone else's control. He wanted to let go of the self-restraint he constantly put on himself. Kurama was making him let go, making him release his passions and free his inhibitions. He was unattached to his pain for the time, and he would savor every second with his fox.

Kurama looked down at Yusuke, seeing him flushed and dazed, and smirked, knowing that Yusuke wanted to be controlled.

"Yours." Yusuke's voice was almost too soft to be heard as he finally managed to divest Kurama of his jeans and undergarments. Kurama was surprised by the submissive tone in Yusuke's voice, and looked deeply into his eyes, trying to figure him out. All he saw was complete love and devotion, mixed with trust and compliance. He slowly kissed him, drinking in the sounds that slipped from Yusuke's mouth as he continued mapping the territory as his own.

Yusuke mewled feverishly when Kurama's bare lower body came in contact with his overheated skin, making his hips buck against him, causing both teens to groan at the newly added friction. Kurama pulled back, hands moving down to grip Yusuke's hips, keeping them from rubbing against him. Ignoring Yusuke's feeble cry at the loss of motion, Kurama slowly slid down his body, still keeping a firm grip on Yusuke's hips.

The half-demon groaned at the feeling of Kurama sliding down his body, rubbing his bare skin against his excessively heated erection. His body jerked as Kurama's mouth ghosted over the tip, sending shockwaves of pleasure through his body. A keening wail passed through his lips as Kurama took the head into his mouth, sucking gently. His body trembled with the intense feelings rushing through his blood like molten lava, numbing his mind to anything but the sensations consuming him.

Kurama flicked his tongue over the tip, slipping his tongue into the tiny entrance and drawing a startled cry from Yusuke. He smirked, pressing his tongue firmly against the head of his cock while sucking harder. He wanted Yusuke to climax before anything else happened, and he wanted to be the one who made Yusuke climax. Leisurely, he took the rest of his erection into his mouth, keeping up with his suction as he opened his throat for Yusuke. He moaned softly, sending vibrations through Yusuke's cock, straight to his balls, causing a sensory overload.

Yusuke howled, body tensing as his release hit him, rushing through him as he emptied his seed into Kurama's mouth. He collapsed onto the bed, panting heavily, unable to keep his eyes open for the time being. Slowly, his breathing calmed and his racing heart quieted. He opened his still dazed eyes, gazing softly at Kurama, who was watching him reverently. He smiled lazily and yawned, eliciting a smile from the redhead, who bent to capture his parted lips, claiming him in an explosive kiss.

Yusuke groaned softly, his hard-on coming back. He kissed Kurama with a feverish intensity Kurama had never before seen from him. He claimed the kitsune's mouth for his own, his tongue plunging in to map out the hidden crevices of the newly rediscovered treasure.

Kurama allowed Yusuke to dominate him for the moment, reveling in the way he didn't have to be in control all the time with Yusuke and yet, still be in control. He could allow the half-demon to command the situation, knowing that he would receive pleasure ten-fold from him. As nice as giving in was however, Kurama was still a kitsune, a demanding kitsune at that, and he hadn't gotten a reputation as Yoko Kurama for allowing his partner to pleasure him.

Kurama took command of the kiss once more, making Yusuke moan in protest at his loss of dominance, and then gasp in happy submission as the redhead began to stroke over his chest with his overly talented fingers ghosting over his skin. The fox trailed his head down, leaving light butterfly kisses down his neck and to his chest, blazing a trail with his burning caresses that led to one rosy bud. Capturing it between his lips, he sucked and nibbled lightly, teasing the other with one hand while his other hand traveled down further, coming to rest on his hip.

Yusuke's head thrashed against the pillow, harsh cries slipping from his parted lips and creating a melody that Kurama conducted with his touches. Arching his back, Yusuke whimpered, trying to get closer to the playful kitsune.

Kurama easily complied, trailing his lips to the other bud, his free hand coming up to resume the torture where his mouth had left off. His other hand slipped between Yusuke's parted legs, caressing his aching erection, before moving slightly beneath the base to the small entrance hidden there.

Yusuke tensed suddenly, feeling Kurama's finger probe at completely untouched territory. His eyes snapped open, the haze of pleasure diminishing by the second as fear took its place instead.

Quickly, Kurama moved the hand away, stroking the erection again until Yusuke's body had relaxed. Sighing, his free hand moved to cup Yusuke's face, prompting him to open his eyes. Yusuke's hazy gaze met Kurama's probing eyes and quickly cleared, some of the fear returning. Kurama could feel his body start to tense once more, and hurried to ease his worried friend. He whispered softly, keeping his voice as calm as he could considering the emotions running through him at present.

"Yusuke..."

"Hmmm, Kurama?"

"Do...?" Kurama sighed again, trying to keep his voice from shaking. "Do you want to stop?"

Suddenly afraid, Yusuke sat up, pulling himself into Kurama's lap and holding onto the fox for dear life, worried that he would leave him. He shook his head, burying his face against the redhead's shoulder.

Letting out a breath he didn't even realize he had been holding, Kurama occupied himself with calming Yusuke down. "Just try and relax Yusuke. I'm not going to hurt you." Yusuke shivered against Kurama, holding tighter to him. "I'm going to make you feel, Yusuke." He gently laid Yusuke back against the bed, placing tender kisses over his face. Settling back between Yusuke's legs, he moved his hand back to the rigid erection.

Yusuke whimpered again, feeling the finger back at his entrance, but tried not to tighten his body. Kurama kissed him hard on the mouth, completely occupying the teen's mind with the kiss and not the finger entering him. When he pulled back, Yusuke was panting heavily, his eyes half-lidded and lust ridden. Gently, Kurama moved his finger deeper inside of the teen, drawing a startled gasp from him, followed instantaneously by a pleasure filled moan.

Yusuke pressed his hips closer to Kurama's finger, craving more pleasure. He whimpered softly, needing more contact with the redheaded fox. Silently begging him, Yusuke finally convinced Kurama to add another finger by biting down gently on his neck, startling a gasp out of him.

Easing in a second finger, Kurama watched Yusuke for any sign of pain. Finding none, he sped up the pace of his fingers, placing light kisses over the tan skin of Yusuke's torso, effectively multiplying Yusuke's pleasure. When he felt the teen could handle it, a third finger was added. Feeling the tensing of Yusuke's body, Kurama hurriedly leaned down, capturing him in a kiss. He trailed his lips down his throat to a spot on his neck that made his toes curl in pleasure.

Moving his fingers, he continued stretching Yusuke, preparing him for what was to come. He scissored his fingers into the teen below him, drawing a yelp as pure pleasure shot through him. Kurama smirked and repeated the motion, adding a little more force to the action, loving it when Yusuke's back arched up from the bed.

Knowing Yusuke was as relaxed as possible, Kurama reached to the bedside table, grabbing some lotion sitting on it. He coated his erection with one hand, using the other to stroke Yusuke, keeping his mind focused on the mind-blowing pleasure. He positioned himself at Yusuke's entrance, stroking the teen's face until the deep brown eyes slid half open. Kurama smiled, loving the dazed and completely passion-filled expression on his lover's face. Achingly slowly, Kurama slid forward, easing his erection into Yusuke's virgin body, pausing every time he saw a twinge of pain pass over his beautiful features.

Yusuke moaned softly, some from pain and some from desire. His body slowly responded, molding to Kurama's cock and finally accepting the stretch. Moving slightly, he wiggled his hips, receiving a strangled yelp from Kurama at his movements. He looked up and found the green eyes closed in concentration, determined not to hurt him. Smiling, his leaned up, kissing Kurama on the lips and pulling his body down on top of his. He wrapped his legs around the fox's waist, pulling him in deeper and silently telling him to move, and move now.

Kurama groaned and gently started a rocking motion, swiftly losing what self-control he had left. Yusuke's body was so tight, so hot, so...irresistible. He was fighting a losing battle with himself not to throw caution to the wind and pound the teen through the mattress. His patience was wearing thin as he sped up the pace slightly, dipping his thrusts deeper into Yusuke's tight hole.

The half-demon was fast becoming fed up with the maddeningly slow pace and sought to change things. Gripping Kurama's shoulders, he reversed their positions, earning a squeak of surprise from the shocked kitsune. Now he was in control of the pace. Eyes clouded with passion, Yusuke lifted his body up, slamming himself down onto Kurama, earning a much deeper penetration. He groaned at the feeling, whimpering when Kurama lifted him by his hips and then slowly lowered him down again, slowing their pace again. Growling, the redhead flipped them over once more, again taking control of the situation.

Yusuke whimpered, eyes pleading with Kurama to hurry, to bring him the release he desperately sought after. Kurama gave in finally, knowing that the both of them had finally reached their limits. Bringing himself up, he changed the angle and entered again, striking Yusuke's prostate dead on, bringing a loud cry from the teen below him.

Kurama moved faster and harder, building the pressure for the both of them, intensifying the pleasure. Leaning forward, he captured the half-demon in a burning kiss, wrapping his hands around the neglected erection and stroking fast. The added pleasure plus his prostate being pounded was too much for Yusuke, and finally his climax hit him, the force knocking the breath out of him. He came over Kurama's hand and their stomachs, crying out for the world to hear.

"Fuck...KURAMA!!!!"

With Yusuke's tight inner muscles, Kurama thrust one more time before reaching his release, sending wave upon wave of his seed deep into Yusuke's pliant and willing body. "Yusuke!!!"

Kurama slumped over Yusuke's prone body, resting his head on the pillow next to Yusuke's neck. He kissed the mark gently, panting softly as he clung to his lover. Yusuke moaned softly and hugged Kurama close to him, silently vowing to never let him go. Kurama groaned as Yusuke's lips feathered light kisses over his neck and slowly pulled back.

Yusuke's eyes were half open, dark brown irises nearly black. He smiled softly at Kurama and yawned, earning a smile in return. Kurama swept Yusuke's bangs from his eyes and just stared at the teen as he slowly drifted off, happy for the first time in what seemed like forever. Gently Kurama pulled out of the half-demon and settled next to him, pulling the teen's body over to lie on his chest.

Yusuke looked up from his position on Kurama's chest and smirked, slipping his tongue out to lap at the pale skin still covered in sweat. Hearing a groan from the redhead, Yusuke's smirk grew, and he propped himself up so he could watch Kurama's reactions better.

"I think need another shower," Yusuke murmured.

"Later. Right now, all I want to do is hold you," Kurama said, smiling and hugging Yusuke to his chest. "I don't want to let you go."

"So don't, but I'm getting a shower." Yusuke smirked, rolling out of Kurama's arms and off the bed. He grabbed Kurama's hand and pulled him up, tugging on it on the way to the bathroom. "I don't plan on letting go either." Despite being with Kurama like this, Yusuke's heart was aching inside. He easily held back the tears that wanted to fall from years of practice, never letting Kurama see how much pain he was really in.












Thanks and comments:

inuyashagirl5
I’m glad I make you happy with this fic. Enjoy reading it.

Zikiya
I guess I’ll just have to keep it interesting…and make it have a plot for as long as possible…ok, actually, I’m hoping to keep with the plot throughout the story, so I guess you just have to tell me if there is one or not, meaning you get to review

Zikiya
Here you go, have the newest chapter.

Kurai eclipse of evanescense
*innocent look* Lemon? Lemon? What is this ’LEMON’ you speak of? Give me a hint at what it is…maybe I’ll tell you if I add it. *tries not to laugh*

Tetsumi
I plan on continuing this for a while yet, so keep your eyes opened for new chapters

'Jita
*ducks* If you explode I’m not cleaning up after you. Have Yusuke…no, wait, you can’t have Yusuke. *throws Kuwabara* You can have him instead, Yusuke be mine!

jita
If your head explodes can I poke at the insides of it…

ma
Short and sweet is not always good, though appreciated.

Hiei's grl
I updated…and your welcome in advance

Mr. Wednesday
I guess you have to read the third chapter 4 times now too, don’t you. *grins*

Lucifer Kross
*pouts* I do love hearing from reviewers…believe it or not. But sometimes I can’t get to updating. Things are tight at my house, so I don’t really have free time, that’s one of the reasons I put the 20 review thing up, so I could have a little more time to write. I do appreciate the compliment…interesting is as interesting does…or something like that, but I have a question? What is wrong with my spelling and grammar? *pouting*









Author's, monotonous, ever boring, completely useless, note: Anyone know why Yusuke's sad and wants to cry. I gave subtle hints throughout, but you had to have been paying attention to catch them. Anyway, the reason comes up later and plays a big part in the last 2 chapters, which, by the way, I already have written up, I'm just missing everything in between here and there. *smiles* Anyway, if you know what's up with him, go ahead and guess in your review. I may or may not tell you if you're right or wrong, depending on if anyone gets it right, though I doubt anyone will. I hid this really well. Oh, and before I forget, how was my happy little love scene. For all you readers at fanfiction.net, too bad you don't get to read it. Sadly, I'm not willing to get kicked off here again. Go to mediaminer.org, or adultfanfiction.net to read whatever is missing. I'm there under the same name as here.