Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Love and Hardships ❯ Gone, Goodbye, Goodnight ( Chapter 13 )

A/N- This be the final Chapter. Although keep your eyes peeled for another thing b/c I might add an Author's Note as a separate Chapter to update you on my next YYH fic. Just so you know. And I am serious about the not hurting me part. Oh, if you cried in the last chapter or are an easy tearjerker, grab some tissues please so your keyboard doesn't get wet.

Disclaimer- I no longer own Ghalib for I hate him and the only other character I do own is dead. Therefore I do not own anyone or anything in this fic or chapter.

Warning- Language and the usual. Plus violence to nature.

Chapter Thirteen

Gone, Goodbye, Goodnight

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There's another world inside of me that you may never see

There's secrets in this life that I can't hide

Somewhere in this darkness there's a light that I can't find

Maybe it's too far away... maybe I'm just blind... maybe I'm just blind

So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong

Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone

Everything I am and everything in me

Wants to be the one you wanted me to be

I'll never let you down, even if I could

I'd give up everything, if only for your good

So hold me when I'm here, love me when I'm wrong

You can hold me when I'm scared, but you won't always be there

So love me when I'm gone...

3 Doors Down (When I'm Gone)

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Hiei stood with everyone else at the funeral two days later. Everyone she knew had come. Even Ghalib had the decency to pay his respects, although as soon as he saw Hiei he ran away with his tail between his legs. Hiei was the only one who didn't shed a tear. He watched them lower the casket into the ground and cover it with dirt. It was well after dark and everyone had left, but not him. He walked to the stone, bent down to it and read the inscription...

Hala Yirka

Beloved Daughter

Devoted Friend

Missed by All

Hiei stood and walked from the graveyard to the park. Before him stood the tree. The very tree they had been under on their first date. The very tree he had found her beneath after Ghalib's assault. DAMN THIS TREE, he thought. He was more angry than sad right now. With one swift motion his fist collided with the towering oak. His anger was flaring immensely and crackling got his attention. The tree collapsed, incinerated from the inside out. Hiei withdrew his hand, which was now bleeding with shards of bark in it. "Why did it have to be this way Hala," he asked aloud. "Why couldn't we have been together like the way we should have been?" Slowly Hiei made his way back to the graveyard. Still mad at her for being gone.

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Love me when I'm gone...

When your education x-ray can not see under my skin

I won't tell you a damn thing, that I could not tell my friends

Now roaming through the darkness, I'm alive but I'm alone

Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone

So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong

Hold me when I'm scared, and love me when I'm gone

Everything I am, and everything in me

Wants to be the one, you wanted me to be

I'll never let you down, even if I could

I'd give up everything, if only for your good

So hold me when I'm here, love me when I'm wrong

You can hold me when I'm scared, but you won't always be there

So love me when I'm gone

Maybe I'm just blind...

3 Doors Down (When I'm Gone)

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Hiei stared at the fresh grave. He remembered going back to his place after Hala had died. When he reached into the pocket of his pants he had found a letter addressed to him in Hala's hand writing. He had it with him now but had not read it yet. He pulled it out now and gently opened the envelope. Hala's last words to him. It felt only right to read them now.

Dear Hiei,

Please know that I love you. I write this letter knowing my time is limited and that I would not be able to bear my last moments without telling you how I feel. I am not scared of death. I knew it would come for me someday but I never expected it to come so soon. Hiei, you are the one good thing in my life. The few happy moments I shared with you cancel out all the bad.

I remember when I first saw you that day. I was talking to my parents, backing away as I tried to walk to the baggage claim. I bumped into you and the look you gave me startled me at first. You looked ready to kill. After a few seconds your face changed into confusion. You no longer looked angry and looked surprised to see me. I know I was surprised. Especially when I saw you with Kurama later that day.

I was lost and you helped me. When we missed the bus, you walked with me. It was during these moments I realized that I liked you. It was Health class when I realized I loved you. That week with you was the best I had in a long time. Then that stupid Marcus jerk got in the way. When you turned from me that night, I felt like I was being ripped apart. It doesn't matter now. All those things seem rather trivial. The one thing that I regret now was meeting Ghalib.

The first date I went on with him you told me he wasn't good enough. I wanted to jump into your arms right then and there. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that I had experienced all that pain of losing you and I couldn't bear for it to happen again. All that time though I was thinking of you. I kept dreaming of you. That made me realize that I still had feelings for you, but it wasn't enough to end things with Ghalib. Then, one month later, I went out with Ghalib again, and he raped me. I kept thinking how much I wished I had gotten back together with you. I kept wishing that I hadn't forbid you from following us. I wished that you were there.

You found me after I escaped and took care of me. I knew that I could never bear to be apart from you. I knew that you were the only one I was meant to be with, and I was right. I don't know for sure why I didn't die when I was supposed to. All I know is that you had something to do with it. Maybe it was because we were meant to be together and since we hadn't been together like we were meant to, maybe I was meant to wait until we were together. I know all of this sounds stupid, but I have the feeling its true.

My point in all of this is that I lived because of our love. If I had never met you, if I had never bumped into you or never come to Japan, I may have died a long time ago. I am eternally grateful to you Hiei, for holding me here. I had so much of life thrown at me all at once, and you made it bearable. Just knowing that you were there for me made me wake up each morning. Whenever I leave, or if I am already gone as you read this, know that I will move on to a better place. And I will go there because of you. I hope that we meet again my love, and I hope that then we can be together forever.

Goodbye,

Hala

Hiei put down the letter and sighed. It had been the most beautiful thing he had ever read. He knew now why he loved Hala so. It was her lust for life and the way she cared for everyone and let her goodness shine through. Hiei folded the letter back up and put it once more in the envelope. He then slid the envelope into his pocket. Hiei's fingers brushed against a small velvet box.

Smiling slightly Hiei lifted the box from his pocket and opened it. There, sat the engagement ring he had planned to give Hala. Ningen males did this to pose the question to the female and request to become permanent mates. They then sealed this with a ritual and became, 'husband,' and, 'wife.' Hiei had decided Hala would like this ring. However he could not stand the tacky diamond inside it. Hiei had removed the diamond, tossed it into a river, and replaced it with one of his very own tear gems. The dark gem glittered in the dark even though there was no light. Hiei had never gotten the chance to give her the ring. He had gotten too caught up in the moment of her revelation.

Hiei looked at her tombstone again and walked around behind it. There he carved the names Hala and Hiei next to each other but about two inches apart. He then carved a circle deep enough for the ring between their names and placed it in the stone. He used his fire demon half to melt the band into the solid rock. He smiled at it. They may not have gotten a chance to really be 'engaged,' but for the rest of his life, they would be. He would never feel for another woman, the way he felt for Hala.

Hiei stood and began to walk away from the grave. Koenma wanted to see him in his office the next morning. Hiei did not care. He would no longer work for Koenma just because of his sentence. He would be working for Koenma to reach a point where he would be a fraction of good as Hala was. He knew he would never match her goodness, not after all the evil he had done. But he could try. He would do all future good deeds, not out of necessity, but for Hala. Hiei paused and turned back to face the tombstone. "Hala my love," he said. "Goodnight."

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So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong

Hold me when I'm scared, and love me when I'm gone

Everything I am, and everything in me

Wants to be the one, you wanted me to be

I'll never let you down, even if I could

I'd give up everything, if only for your good

So hold me when I'm here, love me when I'm wrong

You can hold me when I'm scared, but you won't always be there

So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone...

Love me when I'm gone

When I'm gone

When I'm gone

When I'm gone

3 Doors Down (When I'm Gone)

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Owari

A/N- I am officially done with this story. Probably many of you hated this but still let me know what you think. This is my second completed fic and I would really like the feedback. Thanks. And again sorry for the ending! Like I said I had this whole thing planned out and the only thing I needed to do was write it down. Goodnight!

Eirwen Lai